So i hate him at home girl look the other day i was like what was your thoughts when we first joined south side and she was like oh yeah i already knew i wanted to join it or whatever i’m like yeah what you thought about the process like what you
Was thinking what was going on you thought there was some gay [ __ ] she was like yeah everybody was definitely gay Hey hey temps it’s me the tempers welcome back to my channel y’all i’m really not in a good mood today i just paid my rent and i just paid my insurance i don’t want to talk about it so i had kind of my cousin yesterday right and i
Was just like girl i’m broke [ __ ] i’m broke and she was like girl you know my money you make the mo money you spend [ __ ] where is that i mean i’m living in it i just told you i didn’t want to talk about it right i don’t want to talk
About it so yeah my friend she called me a couple of months ago and she was just like hey i want to get you something but i don’t know if you’re going to like it and i’m like first of all i’m grateful for anything that anybody get me you
Know what i’m saying like she was just like but i don’t know what to get you so i was just like girl anything for this channel anything that i don’t have to buy i just told you i don’t talk about it okay so a couple of weeks ago i had in
Again like this package in the mail y’all long story short blah blah blah i’m going to open it up on the camera here you go yeah okay i can’t pick it up for you so y’all can see it as i see because looking excited as i open my thing
My tripod yeah i broke my last tripod you look don’t look at that mess over there mind your business yeah what girl [Applause] [ __ ] stop stop lying this is like a lavalier microphone yes i can b stop playing with me i gotta play with them we’ll figure it out later i’m gonna
Figure that out later y’all see you all see you all see what i’m happy she sent me a microphone like for real hold on [ __ ] and my life’s better work because i know how y’all work and yeah you know y’all gonna get some upgraded quality content stop playing with her stop
I got me some soft boxes and whatnot i don’t know how to add hold on this one’s coming out okay so they made sense these little stands that the lights come up on the track yeah yeah yeah i have sunny look like a house no more like a studio huh
I can’t open it tight man i need lights for real i’m so happy this is a good investment what are instructions friends and instructions oh you know what day in the first bag i saw all right y’all so back to why y’all originally clicked on this video with
Child messy asses i told y’all don’t start that gay on my channel because i ain’t got that many stories for y’all so i was thinking should i name this video i joined a gay organization by mistake look let me tell y’all i don’t need y’all trolling me in these
Comments telling some girl you knew what you was doing why you ain’t quit first of all i’m not a quitting i’m not a quitter unless it’s a job that i don’t like i don’t want to hear on whatever you know how y’all be forcing people to come out to class like [ __ ]
Now i know what i like i know what my sexual orientation is and i know what i be doing now what y’all can do is stick to the end of this video and we probably can talk more about it so i don’t normally give y’all no back stories for real for real because
Y’all we be here i like y’all i’ll [ __ ] with y’all this is exactly why i wanted to grow my channel organically because we be here i know some of y’all be coming in the new people y’all a little confused but that’s exactly why i got other videos on my channel that you can
Go watch so you can catch up y’all let’s do a little housekeeping if you are new here you might want to go ahead and subscribe because people who are not new here you already know what’s up like this video comment below share my video y’all okay i don’t really remember much
From high school i really don’t i’m gonna try my best to try to get y’all some of these stores from high school but i don’t remember nothing for real um and i think that has something to do with like when you go through something very traumatizing in your life
And through the healing process you be really trying to block out a lot of stuff and although you’re trying to block out a negative stuff some of the positive stuff get blocked out too it’s like when i come around people who i have encountered these moments with or whatever that’s when i’d
Be like oh yeah maybe i’ll remember it maybe i don’t when i was getting ready to apply for college or whatever i never really thought about i wanted to go to college like i was just my mom was sick y’all so i was just like i’m gonna end up having
To stay at home and take care of my mama like probably have to go to like a community college and stuff build our end you know that’s just what my mind was like science was my major already math was my [ __ ] i remember um coming upon like my junior
Year in high school or whatever i used to stay with my cousin when i used to live with her like i no longer rode the school bus my mom would have to come take me to school my mama didn’t live with us someday she’ll stay with on us
At house but a situation had happened within my family and yeah that’s another story for another day long story short i used to live with my cousin and my mom used to take me to school some days but anyway i end up becoming like a principal pet
Y’all know how like y’all got teachers pets like they sit up on the teacher all day they do everything for the teacher like the teacher always calling on them and stuff like that yes i was a principal’s pet like i used to do this
[ __ ] in class just so i can get sent to the principal office my principal used to call my classroom just to get me come just to get me to come to the office and stuff like that but anyway long story short enough to be coming to a point
Where i actually used to ride to school with my principal anyway my god brother j rayne jamie yeah i met him or whatever he was a principal pet as well so he was the principal’s pet and i was the assistant principal’s pet but we would actually switch because sometimes
He would be in the assistant principal’s office and i would be inside of the principal’s office we were just principal’s picks like we still keep in contact with our principals to this day yeah why i just knocked my drink over see that’s what i’m saying like when you
Were already in a bad mood mo bad [ __ ] be happening but this is exactly why i’m on this camera talking to y’all so y’all can make me feel better all right so where i left off it um it was a girl that we used to stay next door to in the
Elevator we all used to hang together and stuff like that but in that anyway we was walking to the store and i remember this conversation very vividly but we were all talking about like what were our plans like after college like you know what were our next moves in
Life and i was just like i don’t know like i didn’t know what i wanted to do for real like i said i thought i was going to stay at a community college and so i could help my mom out so eventually i was just like you know maybe i just
Venture off and go to state like you know try university or something like that and so she was just like girl you don’t want to go to state that’s a part of school like they gonna turn you out the girls down there they gay like they gonna get you
I’m very strong maddie y’all so i’m just like heard everybody get me like i know what i want yeah this was before you couldn’t say certain [ __ ] about the gay community yeah when people used to actually put labels on gay people it’s not my job the girl that i’m talking to
She gave but anyway that ain’t got nothing to do with nothing i just always had a lot of gay friends so listen to the story and you know this is fast forward into my sophomore year in college now we live high school now we’re in college or
Whatever adam made my decision my way i’m a whole Damn i can’t say that so i’m trying to keep my university and i’m trying to keep this organization very private because you got to watch my channel to know who i am but yeah i ripped it coming up on my sophomore year in school before i even
Came back to college this summer yeah my mom ended up dying no it was literally two weeks before i was getting ready to come back to school i mean it gave us a week to grieve and another week to get our funeral funeral arrangements and stuff together and i
Had to go to school that wednesday i had literally had two weeks when my mama had passed away so i don’t want to talk about that i know i was playing earlier but i’m still trying to figure out like how i’m going to put those type of words on video for y’all
So i can tell y’all actually how i went through the grieving process and you know it’s still a process to this day but i can talk about it now but i’m not ready to talk about it on camera we will cross that line we’ll get though okay yeah but anyway
I had a cousin that was just like oh well you know you finna stay at home and you might as well get pregnant and you know get a job at the walmart and i was just like like now you know what i’m saying because i hate to be selfish or whatever but
That was literally me thinking at that moment like no like i don’t have my parents right now i don’t have no brothers and sisters around me right now so what i need to do is focus on getting my education like that’s really all i have left so yeah i ended up going back
To school i wanted to be in a new environment i want to be around new people some people that would not know who i am that’s going to always remind me of what i got going on now i’m going too fast i need to go back to my freshman year because this is
Because like my brothers and sisters or whatever that i joined this organization with i literally just been hitting them up these past couple of weeks like what were y’all thoughts before we joined the organization like did y’all think anything fishy or you know then the moment did you want to quit you know
Stuff like that y’all don’t know how to have orientation and that’s when all the grease and stuff come on the yard and they literally be happening around and they do a little stroll everybody is outside it’s a whole block party for a whole week and a half or have alone
Y’all do y’all orientation or whatever it was a block party every day we woke up so i was just you know and then when y’all knew on campus coming from a high school going to college you just be all over the place you’d be excited so i
Knew what i wanted to do my freshman year i was just like i’m joining them down my i might join them too they lit days lit so let’s go back to my sophomore year so it’s time for me to go back to school or whatever my auntie she dropped
Me off at school y’all and i’m not trying to be funny but she taught me how to grow up and being adult because she never came pick my ass back up i literally had to find friends that i can live with over these damn winter breaks and summer breaks and
Spring breaks and stuff like that like you know i appreciate her but damn i said damn [ __ ] she dropped my ass off she didn’t never come pick my ass back up for real and then literally like a couple of months after that she cut my phone off
It was it’s a long story y’all so i gotta come back and talk to y’all about what had happened my sophomore year i get to school i’m going to classes and stuff like that um i see a flyer randomly on one of the buildings and they were saying that it
Was an interest meeting coming up for one of the organizations that i was interested in so i’m like damn i didn’t get a chance to join my freshman year this might be my time like i missed what they call line i missed lying last semester i’mma get it this semester or
Whatever now it’s not nothing big or whatever y’all but we took this [ __ ] seriously so i’m gonna keep the organization kind of private because they still have you know the organization on campus and then it seems very successful and i don’t know if they still go through this
Process but i just want to tell y’all what the [ __ ] i went through i can’t stop laughing so y’all know i talk about brenda out of time or whatever y’all i literally met bundy in college now me and bundy is from the same hometown like we grew up
Literally about 15 minutes away from each other and i never even knew him i knew of him i called bundy and i tell bunny like you know what we gonna call this organization we’re just gonna give it some greek letters um we’re gonna say okay we’re just gonna say
I call abundantly abundance outside having an interest me yeah yeah before any of this even happened because i’m going to tell you how i actually knew i got my stamp into getting into this organization me and brandon we was kind of like known on the yard
But of course they knew bunny more than they knew me or whatever the only thing they knew about me is the fact that i used to like dancing like they used to call me the turn-up girl and that [ __ ] was so weird like because you got to be known
If you want any organization to pick you i mean you either going to be a lame ass and they still pick your ass but they need to know you a lame ass like they need to know you a popular lame ass like that’s just what you got to be or you
Want to be lit you know what i’m saying like now mind you everybody trying to be lit on the yard so you got a little competition this was when obama got reelected type stuff and we was watching the reno the re-election and stuff like that like you know him winning that’s we
Was all inside the student union doing that and when he warned y’all we had a dj in there like we really was a turn at school no lie but we had a dj in there and you know he was just playing all type of music we used in the lit until
Now we was drinking they didn’t handle looking there but me and bundy had or some liquor like i told y’all abundant was already 21 around this time yeah i don’t even know they had played with rico and y’all i’m in the middle of the floor
I told you i was like when they started dancing what we do we hurt their feelings i’m going crazy like boom boom boom boom and so whoever was on the mic he was just like the littlest person on the yard he was literally the um head person over the organization that i
Wanted to join so he was on the mic and stuff like that he was like oh [ __ ] look at her get her get that [ __ ] what would he go like he going crazy he cast me a y’all and i’m like ah ah this is embarrassing so my thing is
This is how i think they knew of me fast forward back to the interest me we looking around we see people that we kind of see on the yard but we don’t really know these people like you know what i’m saying so um we doing everything trying to like now
Though the interest being really wasn’t like street and it was fun like this the process is really like tricky y’all this how i know i’m slow like i’m smart but well slow the interest me was so cool like we was enough playing games you know trying to get to know us i mean
I said trying to get noah’s trying to get to know each other and stuff like that it was literally lit as [ __ ] you would have got no energy there nobody in this organization was gay that’s why i’m saying like y’all this is not no clickbait like do not strike my channel okay
You wouldn’t have got no energy i’ve none of these people we was literally ended up having a good time like playing games or whatever but the way these games were set up like you had to show your personality so anyway long story short um a couple days go by we end up
Getting our callbacks to come to an interview wait for our next call back and then we all meet up so they they sent us a location to me it and stuff like that um yeah i’m not trying to tell y’all too much of what i would do so this is why
I’m really needs your imagination to start running a little while so they sent us the location y’all so let me tell you how slow i am this building could have been on campus or it couldn’t have been on campus i don’t know so yeah i’m literally in a room with all these
People imagine it was 33 of us 33. i’m in a room with all these people yeah and i’m like damn one of all these people lit like me oh you know i’m in my head like yeah i don’t know if i’m busy it’s damn you know a couple of nights of
Shock before we go any further y’all i just want to put in now that you know i mean a couple people have died from hazing or whatever but that’s because some people don’t know how to control power like they get a little power and
They just be like oh i want to make them do this i want to make them do that or you know eat this or go give me that and blah blah blah and it’s like you know they can literally get to the point where they can burn your ass or they can
Peddle you you know what i’m saying like you have to know what you actually are signing up for when you want to join these type of organizations because even the gospel choir they told me they had to go through a little process so what i’m saying to you is and don’t think
It’s just organizations [ __ ] the army you know i’m saying like the police academy and stuff like that this is what all this is hazing is really not all bad but it really just depends on who’s in charge the positive side of hazing is the fact
That you get to bond with people who you never met before and you get to learn history in a way that you’ve never even thought would be possible well at least i thought so yeah a couple of nights go back to later they start to give us you know the history i’m not
Thinking much of it because they’re not telling us to do anything y’all i never even knew anything about hazing or a process anything like that i’m literally thinking like [ __ ] they giving us the history i just got learning stuff like at this point i’m already a part of this organization but um
At any point baby they can put you out this organization too oh sometimes you can drop line yourself though like if you become very uncomfortable with things that are asking you to do or you feel like you’ve been humiliated i mean it’s a part of it but if you don’t want to do
It you can always drop at your own time or whatever so i’m thinking like i just got to find time to study this stuff or whatever blah blah blah not knowing that eventually they was going to want us to meet up every night this is where the fun coming in it so y’all
Like a week goes by and they asking us to like you know what’s our history and we don’t know [ __ ] we standing there looking like around they like what the [ __ ] get your [ __ ] asses up get your [ __ ] ass y’all know what this [ __ ] is so yeah we running we scuffling around
Trying to get in line and blah blah blah of course y’all know how this stuff go shorter to the tallest you got your 18 you got the tail we in line we trying to figure out like who now they tell me something that spit out history so i’m like
We still don’t know it so they you know helping us they read it out to us and stuff like that so now we trying to recite it back to them long story short we kept doing it until we all got it and yeah i’m not gonna lie like after a week
Of doing this i’m like [ __ ] this is fun like i they wouldn’t busting and cussing at us like that for real for real because i’m thinking this [ __ ] is fun they acted the food first night but i’m thinking like that’s embarrassing like if i want you if i gave you an
Assignment and you didn’t complete it i’d be mad too i’m so young and naive y’all let’s talk about like y’all know how y’all got your dp adp and y’all cheer whatever y’all kind of post we just gonna go by how it was told to us so we had like a mama
And a daddy then we had a grandmama and a granddaddy and we had a whole bunch of uncles and aunties we had to respect our mommy and daddy and our mom and our grandpa [Applause] our mama she definitely was gay you know she still is she’s a lesbian or whatever now our daddy
No yeah she was so mean ugh but y’all me and her we always put heads me and the dad we always put his our granddaddy he was cool at full and our grand mama she would cool it [ __ ] but she was really late about her business so she was like
Basically how a mama and her dad had run that [ __ ] like had a daddy be the fun parent and then the mama be like the disciplinary and stuff like that so if we got in trouble with our mama and daddy then they would report us to the grandparents and then the uncles of
Aunties get to whoop our ass we learning our history it’s fun and stuff like that y’all coming up on our first half night i did not know what was going on all right so they give us a location like y’all pull up you better let nobody know what the [ __ ]
You’re doing either y’all until my weeks of stuff going by we are literally only able to talk to each other in public so when i’m not at shop i’m like with these people still doing my homework so um they was really just fussing at us going crazy like how
We’ve been embarrassing them and we’ve been doing all this other [ __ ] i hear emma yod they’ve been watching us and you know people been telling on us so now they’re calling people out like individually like [ __ ] i know what the [ __ ] you’ve been doing they had called one of our sources out or
Whatever she had the mindset like i don’t give a [ __ ] about these people like she was just literally doing it to do it and we was like [ __ ] you is holding us back like they gonna be on your ass because they know you not handling your [ __ ] they know you’re not
Studying with us they know you not meeting up with us and blah blah so coming up on a couple of weeks about we still doing our thing y’all but now they start to do like many hair nights and stuff like that and [ __ ] started getting like i ain’t gonna say too freaking like
It was really against i will but it was very much questionable so this is what i’m saying like it was literally a line full of gay people like everybody on our line was gay like uh mama i daddy uh some of our uncles and aunties they was very questionable not all of them
But it was a handful of people who were straight but it’s kind of natural that you would click up with people who are more and similar to you and things that y’all kind of have like in common and stuff like that so that’s kind of like
How it was y’all used to hang with like about five people and it’s so weird because all the ass was gay like they really was we were all friends we all used to do everything together or whatever so yeah i don’t know how this end up but anyway
One of our friends she had a girlfriend or whatever and which is funny because i know she watched my channel but she married now and she’s married to a man this is how i know this [ __ ] is a [ __ ] phase for some people it’s a phase for some people for real but
Anyway so a girl that i had a crush on her girlfriend is actually married to a man now but anyway they you know breaking up because i feel like me and her were hanging out too much together and it was just like yeah y’all got some [ __ ] going on but we
Didn’t have nothing going on my little girl crash or whatever she was just a part of the clique we was just i’ll be part of a click type stuff or whatever but we used to always be at her house because her and her roommate they had like the game house now her
Roommate she wasn’t online with us or nothing like that but she kind of knew what the [ __ ] was going through because she wanted to be a part of it too but i don’t think they picked her i don’t know i don’t really know how they went down
By the way they had like the game house like they had the [ __ ] wii the xbox the ps karaoke machine they had jenga monopoly like all type of games as you can think about like for real they had this whole chalkboard wall that you just go in there and draw on like they
Literally had a lit ass apartment back to my little girl chris or whatever y’all she was a stud she had locks and stuff like that but she was just cool as [ __ ] like you know i feel like this is exactly why i felt like i was becoming attracted to her because we always
Together we always spending time together and this kind of takes me back to why people be having those phases like when you feel like you’re not being heard by your significant other or whoever you dated the time or whatever women i’m just speaking for women or whatever
Women we listen and we like to talk so it’s kind of like natural for us to develop feelings for people who are there listening to us when we got a problem or issue and i had a boyfriend at the time and man this [ __ ] was up and down
And i know he really didn’t mean it because he was a good person but i just didn’t like i didn’t like the way he made me feel i didn’t so i used to always share everything with her yeah it’s crazy because me and her are still cool to this day now y’all might
See her on my channel or something because we still hang out and [ __ ] like that and then she’s married i’m not jealous because i like i’m bringing this part up to explain to y’all like how she was my girl chris at the moment because we was doing
Everything together we would go out and eat together we would literally like try to find time in between our classes to cheer together and stuff like that this was my girlfriend i don’t care what y’all say like this is my [ __ ] and she know it look so so long story short i’m
Mama and daddy well hold on pause our other um girl that was a part of the circle out of the home girl she was actually in a relationship with our mama now they developed a relationship somewhere in between when we was online but i know one day we woke up and them
[ __ ] was kissing So that means you’re not gonna be hard on us no more you know what i’m saying but no [ __ ] that made her want to be harder on us why allah mama was dana’s sister look this [ __ ] sound like it says for real oh god this is exactly why we
Didn’t want to talk about it hey y’all listen another fact i look crazy right now but anyway look the story almost over but i wanted to come in here and explain that people wasn’t really actually having sex i mean if they was there was their business or whatever but
What i’m putting in y’all mine is that it was some very close relations like activities that could have possibly been outside of what everybody would have known because what i heard was one of my sister she was messing around with our daddy and y’all this was not all girls
Line it was some boys on the line too but i’m trying to get this story out of the way y’all so i can come back with probably like a part two i might start over and rename my next story because i want to tell y’all what we actually did
In the organization because it really wasn’t a gay organization y’all get it y’all get it i just wanted to come over here and explain because i know i lost a lot of clues while i was trimming his fat on this video we thinking like [ __ ] you are golden token like she
Ain’t gonna be hard on us and stuff like that like no this made this [ __ ] wanna hang around us and stuff she was starting to pick up on me and my little girl crushed energy so why the [ __ ] one night we get the shot we was at our granddaddy house y’all
And our mama she called me out in front of everybody like it was all of us who was in line and she told me to come from and it was so funny how she did it because she didn’t even call my name she caught me by my number now imagine we
Just smoked a blunt with this [ __ ] less than an hour ago she tell my son what you been doing lately i’m like nothing yeah i’ll tell him what you’ve been doing lately i don’t like nothing i don’t really know what had happened but long story short she called
My girl crush out oh [ __ ] so she called her out or whatever and i know everybody online was stuck whispering they were just like looking down looking down look at them so i’m thinking in my head like [ __ ] [ __ ] why was chicago me and this girl was not
Next to each other in line and nothing like that she was literally about five or six people down the ladder from me she looking at both of us and she like what y’all been up to lately and somebody like nothing you know what the [ __ ] is you talking about [ __ ] and so
She like uh huh yeah so she called another girl out y’all so now i’m in the middle and she got both of these girls on the side of me i’m just gonna let y’all imagination go from here or whatever but you know while i’m sitting there like I was really shaking y’all cause i couldn’t believe what the [ __ ] we was doing it was so weird it was so strange oh my god yeah it was funny though looking back on it so i hit him at home girl looked the other day i was like
What was your thoughts when we first joined south outside and she was like oh yeah i already knew i wanted to join it or whatever i’m like yeah what you thought about the process like what you was thinking what was going on you thought there was some gay
[ __ ] she was like yeah everybody was definitely gay they was dead another one of our nights i can’t tell y’all exactly what had happened but i just want to put the images in your head that it was 33 of us and one egg the egg had to make it
From the front of the line to the back of the line that was nasty as [ __ ] we just gonna say that i just knew it was some freaky [ __ ] going on after all that stuff like after those two situations or whatever i’m just like i was too far in the process
At that point to quit so i’ll just lie down i know too much i don’t want to leave my [ __ ] behind because now i’m bonding especially my front and my back those was my [ __ ] we had this part of the house y’all so some nights we used to meet up at the
House sometimes we didn’t and when i tell y’all it was a party house like it was the [ __ ] and i used to do some nasty [ __ ] up in there too so one night we had to go up into and they had my supposed to delay on the floor
It was so funny because she didn’t give a [ __ ] we were on that floor so we was trying to like you know we was uncomfortable at first but they was like saying you don’t give a [ __ ] she was like this to this day i still get a case i feel
Like girl you read or not you was like fish so taking us back to our last hair night y’all they tell us like um y’all get ready we finna take you out of um we got a conference in the morning we thought we was going to actually meet with
Who the people who were really responsible of us we would call them like our great grandparents y’all hey when i got my [ __ ] fresh i was like i got my hair i ain’t had locks then i had winnie got those rope twists then when rope twisters out where they braid the little
Top part and they rope it all the way down i had a long rope twist y’all the night before they was like before we go to the conference or whatever we’re gonna have us a barbecue like you know so we’re gonna stay at this big ass this was before airbnb installation but they
Told us they had like this big ass hotel or a house they rented or whatever and basically we was gonna stay in now um we was gonna barbecue the night before we was gonna have breakfast and stuff in the morning so blah blah but it
Was like we had to get out of [ __ ] ingredients but yeah let me tell you how we had to modify this [ __ ] then because we had spent so much damn money leading up to these moments but um we stole we had ribs chicken hot dogs on
Some of our hamburgers and [ __ ] we had eggs bacon pancakes so they was like yeah y’all meet us at the location without y’all stuff and you know don’t forget y’all love food and stuff and blah blah blah so we was like okay cool so y’all we get to the location we get
On our [ __ ] we got on our [ __ ] y’all my hair is freshly done yeah so they sent us a location they was like yeah i’ll meet up here you know we finna get on the bus the bus gonna take us to the house and blah blah yeah we meet we
Get to the location and it was a bus out right and it took us to the uh location all right and we gave them folks out of food and [ __ ] like that and we thinking like yeah we finally made it to the end they told us to get in line and y’all
When i tell y’all i like teasing uncles the [ __ ] was just swarming in we had blindfolds on this point yeah they threw all that [ __ ] at us we was [ __ ] target practice i felt that egg y’all this thing you know that [ __ ] got a whole bunch of pancake mix of flour i
Don’t know what it was just do that milk duh like did this just start going crazy on me y’all yeah i just got my mother hair done they let us out at seven o’clock so we can go home and change clothes and be ready to go to class the next day but
Bishop wasn’t no [ __ ] class because i smelled like [ __ ] i smell like [ __ ] i smell like [ __ ] they was trying to kill us that’s why i said i don’t know if this really was clickbait or not whatever because it was a whole bunch of gay [ __ ]
That they had me doing like if y’all like this video then go watch another one like comment and share my videos subscribe if you loved it put your goddamn see y’all in my next video love y’all bye mwah Let’s go drop it down drop it down low low low
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