Thank you so much for tuning in by the looks of this title it is another great video okay so without further ado sorry oh we’re gonna give her head into the video I was asked by a lot of people because apparently you guys noticed that I don’t really talk about um my line
Sisters or you know just my chapter in general um that’s no shade I just don’t talk about it I don’t talk about it I don’t you know it’s just I don’t feel the need to um but I was asked a question when I asked you guys on what
You wanted to see from me next as far as pertaining to videos on my Instagram so if you’re not probably my Instagram make sure you follow me Instagram I’ll leave it right here um so as far as um the question that was asked by three people
Just three people um was what was the hardest thing about being online now let’s see um I wish I could see my dog I really wish I could see uh anyways okay so let’s see the hardest thing about being online if you’re if you’re not mentally strong I think the hardest
Thing was about being online is like okay so the question that was asked was what is the hardest thing about being online hi guys welcome back to the channel it’s deja thank you so much for tuning in so buddy looks at the title we are going to be doing another greedy
Video and this Greek video is going to be a kind of like opinionated video and a kind of story time video so yeah so let’s just jump right into the video so when I asked you guys what you wanted to see on my channel next a lot of you
Wanted to know about story times while I was online what was the hardest thing about being online do I regret my decision about joining the Greek organization do I still love a K as much as I did when I was first joining stuff like that so out of all of that I think
I wanted to do a story time mixture of like what’s the hardest time I mean what’s the hardest thing about being online and then do I regret my decision so that’s essentially what we’re going to talk about today okay as far as do I regret my decision to I don’t
I love Alpha Kappa Alpha Sorority Incorporated that is my home that is Who I am and that’s always what I wanted to be and I’m just so happy that I accomplished that goal um so yeah so that question is answered so the next thing is what is the hardest thing about
Being online um this is a really loaded question because it just depends on who you are as a person um if you are unfortunately a weak-minded person like your immense who is not as strong as most people when people are or when the people that you’re online with or your
Prophytes in a sense of people that’s overseeing you and your process Essentially what Greek organizations what we have to do while you’re online is like tear you down to build you back up to the person that we want you to be in this organization okay now if you’re not as strong minded as a lot of people are then
The the comments the the way people talk the the tone that people use will get to you I think the hardest thing for me was not taking everything so personally because I am a very defensive person so if somebody talked to me a real a weird
Way or with a tone or anything like that I’m gonna be on go always like I’m always on go till this day and I still need to change that because sometimes people would just people are not like thinking that deep into it but I am a
Very um I won’t say emotional but I am a very just take everything to heart type of person so if something was ever said to me while I was online and they were just like sorry you’re the light is going in and out but if something was
Ever said to me while I was online that I didn’t personally like I didn’t really get to folks I was just like who you talking to or I would have an attitude and that’s just like the Chicago person and me like that’s like not saying that I’m always with the shit’s or nothing
Like that but I am an always on gold type person a very defensive person and I always feel like I need to defend myself also the hardest thing online was coming to realizing that a sisterhood was not gonna unfortunately happen with the chapter that I was a part of because
The person the people that I was around was just not the people that I really wanted to associate myself with but I wasn’t gonna let them basically take the opportunity of being a part of this organization away from me no matter how me no matter how you know rude and just
Evil they were to me um I didn’t let that break me you know like obviously it was a couple nights where I went home and I cry like a baby you know I’m saying but I took that [ __ ] inside and I kept pushing um I think another hard
Part for me was when so I can’t go into detail about it but it was a it was one night where I basically pride in front of a group of people because I was just so angry okay and to me being the person that I am crying in front of people that
Already see you or want to break you or want to see you do bad or see you fail that was so I was so [ __ ] pissed like and I’m sorry for cursing y’all but when I say I was so mad because in my head to this day crime in front of people that
Don’t like you that wanna see you fail that talk talk [ __ ] about you all the time that’s to me them winning now I am still 22 years old so for those of you who gonna come for me and my comments talking about girl you need to be mature
That it or not that’s just how I think and I can admit to that I can you know and I feel like that’s a big step because a lot of people won’t admit to you know having the mindset on certain things like I do so unfortunately I do
Have a mindset that if you cry in front of people that’s weak not not crying in front of everybody but crying in front of people that clearly don’t like you wanna see you fail and talk [ __ ] about you that to me is them winning and that
Night I was just so mad because it was just so much [ __ ] going on and I was just so like I don’t know I don’t know where my head was at but obviously I can talk about it now because I mean this [ __ ] is over and done with I’m in the
Chapter I mean I’m in the organization now but like I was just like I kept being called out because I kept stumbling on words and stuff like that because I have a bad stutter and because to be honest I didn’t know the information that was being taught
Because I had five jobs when I was in college and not just not to make excuses for myself because what are excuses honey if you don’t know then you should figure it out um but I wasn’t in the beginning of joining I don’t talk about office were an incorporated taking it
Seriously as I thought I would have just because I had bills to pay and I was in my head and I was just like whoa y’all don’t have a [ __ ] car no y’all don’t have car insurance y’all don’t have to pay this this and that didn’t you know I’m saying and I was
Just like I need to go to work I need to do this so it kind of like I started off very rocky so the hardest thing was like trying to be on the same page with my line sisters be on the same page for my
Profiles and try to give I was so in this mindset of like y’all need to get y’all need to understand where I’m coming from and III that was the hardest thing for me um taking a step back and understanding that it’s not an I it’s we
It’s us um and that’s what I was just that was my hardest thing because you know like I don’t know I don’t know why I was like that but that was the hardest thing for me and then also not taking things so personally and just not
Thinking of myself as being weak for not knowing something or for crying or you know what I’m saying so that night really just put everything your perspective for me I was pissed throughout I was pissed from that night on all the way up into my probate I was
Pissed as [ __ ] I was just like I’m ready to get this [ __ ] over when I’m done with this because it wasn’t fun to me it wasn’t like the the people that were overseeing our line it wasn’t fun to me they weren’t real people to me I feel
Like they were very fake to this day I still feel that way and that’s why I don’t associate myself with them um but at the end of the day I knew the end goal was to be a part of this organization because I know what I
Brought to the table I know the person that I was and I knew I was strong enough to handle anything that was thrown my way um and I wasn’t I was I wasn’t no quit I’m not no quitter I’m not no we bitched like and that’s just that on that like
I’m not trying to curse and nothing like that but it was just like you clearly had people that was trying to break you and I brace you to build you back up but break you and just break you that’s what I thought and that’s what what’s happening and that’s to me not a
Sisterhood but I am very happy because I knew at the end of the day that the organization was not just the chapter that I was a part of it was so much more it was so many other opportunities there was so many people that I have met so many
Sisters that I have gained so many events that I have you know been able to you know speak at or talk about or you know I’m saying so many opportunities as open doors to me to meet fellow servers a part of my organization and at the
Time I didn’t know that because I was just like damn like I’m just gonna be here forever you know I’m saying I’m gonna be in a situation forever but I had to realize that no I’m not I’m only in the situation right now and then once I graduated a whole nother door opened
Up as far as aka for me and that’s essentially what I’m really happy about I met so many you know alpha so many Q so many like so many people that I am happy to know now that I didn’t know when I was going through joining the
Organization and when I was finally a part of the organization um so I would probably say the hardest thing for me was just being mentally strong and understanding that it’s okay to be on the outside you know what I’m saying like it was threats of so like people be
Like oh my goodness like I don’t want to be paper and stuff like that this is not me giving away weather on paper and made you you can decide what you want to decide but um it was threats from my profile to us as a line I’m talking
About like Oh y’all gonna be paper y’all gonna be this y’all gonna be that and you know I’m saying and like I understand breaking them down to build him up but in my head when I was thinking then I was just like this is not how you develop a good group of
People because now when that was said you got people on line like okay well I know I’m paper but are you paper or I know I made our you made you know I’m saying like it was kind of like on the same line paper versus made or on the same line you know
I’m saying is just like we all have to be a cohesive one we all have to do this probate so it’s like why can’t we just all be one together and it was like little things that was kind of like tearing people apart it was like like if
You was with this certain person this person was cool with you but once we got into a group then it’s like oh I’m one person and I’m with them and you over here and you know what I’m saying so it was kind of like that but for me I would
Probably say the hardest part was just coming to times they’re like it’s not an eye for me one I shouldn’t think I shouldn’t take things so personally um 3 I need to learn how to I guess you can say cuz I’m trying to miss you I mean I
Need to just learn how to take things for the grain of salt and keep it pushing and not be so defensive I was so defensive I still kind of am defensive I’m not gonna lie um but it’s just like now looking back I was held defensive it was like people a person
Could drop the paper the wrong way and I’d be like why the [ __ ] is on side paper in front of me the wrong way like is it just me is it me is it you know I’m saying like it was just like girl calm down like people are probably not
Even thinking about you that much you know I’m saying and that’s what I had to come to terms with that’s what I had to think about because I was so in my head about oh I can’t look weak or oh I have to know this or you know so that was
Just that but um just make sure that you’re mentally strong you’re financially capable to with handle and be in the organization um and yeah don’t don’t don’t fall for no dumb [ __ ] don’t don’t be no weak person don’t and I mean that in every way now you can cry if you
Want to but my suggestion because I’m selling this my don’t cry in front of people that don’t [ __ ] with you because then the [ __ ] is gonna be like oh I got to her oh you know I’m saying like but then the end of day I thought about it I was just like
It was a lot of [ __ ] going on that goddamn night and you know it is what it is but I feel like all the stuff that has happened while I was joining the organization I can look back on and be proud of myself because I could have
Quit at any moment a lot of people do quit unfortunately a lot of people don’t cross whether you cross paper made it however you feel like you need to cross but it was very it was very rewarding for me because ideas start off there you
Like like I just started off in a rough way you know what I’m saying um but I’m proud of myself and I’m proud of sticking through it and at the end of the day the [ __ ] thought I was gonna quit and honey look at me now no I don’t
Hope you guys enjoyed this video it was kind of like everywhere in a sense but that was to me probably the hardest thing those was the hardest thing for me now for you it might be different it might be money it might be your mental it might be physical you know I’m saying
Like a lot of people can’t handle a lot of things um but if you want it bad enough you’ll make through it you know you will get through it however way you get through it but you’ll get through it um don’t advise that I would probably
Give is don’t let your grades or your money slip because at the end of the day grades come first and your prophytes and the people that are helping you join this organization should know that and yeah so just just you know don’t settle don’t give up if it’s not for you it’s
Not for you make sure you notice all the signs don’t just be so naive and just you know have fun have fun because at the end of day you want to make sure that you will be you you can look back on it and be like damn I did that you
Know what I’m saying like you want that you can you can be proud of yourself for everything that has happened you know you just wanna make sure that you always always keep smelling up face and be the bigger person because those are the people that
Make it in life also da I’m so done okay so yes so I hope you guys enjoyed this video it was very random and just you know out there hopefully I didn’t talk too much but yes and I hope I didn’t spill too much tea but I mean at the end
Of day who gives a [ __ ] who gonna check me I wait anyways I hope you guys enjoyed this video don’t forget to Like comment subscribe and if you have any questions don’t hesitate to DM me because I’m always here to talk bye guys thank you so much for watching
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