Hey good morning it’s a rough morning Uh today it just feels worse because I think today yesterday was the shock but today um reality is setting in and I can I can feel it I just want to tell uh everyone thank you for your thoughts thank you for your prayers uh thank you for
Your your text messages and your calls really um are really appreciated just trying to just trying to just trying to understand all this I feel bad for my other kids my kids met my kids confused they don’t they don’t know what to do everybody’s sleep I took a a sleeping pill
I only slept for four hours yeah I don’t have an appetite but I um I feel bad for must have been miss Nichols up in Memphis I feel bad for all the parents that have ever been through this I just never thought I would be a member of organization
Where you have to bury your your kid so it’s a terrible it’s a terrible nightmare my mom is here I never seen my mother but excuse me Foreign just the look of just my mom just looks so like sadness in her eyes my mama talked to my son yesterday morning they were supposed to go to church she was gonna go pick him up and take him to church she texted back for the address and he didn’t respond
Hour and a half after that uh well maybe two hours he was going I wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy um we serve an awesome God though I thank God for I think giving him to us I feel bad for my son’s mother more than anything I feel bad for her
That’s all the parents they got to bury the kids or had to bury their kids I know what it feels like so um it would be a blessing to see my granddaughter we haven’t seen her since Halloween why I don’t know but thank y’all for for your prayers and your and your
Concerns and your uh and your calls and everything I really appreciated from the bottom of my heart the outpouring of uh love and support for us I’m gonna be okay but reality is is setting in this morning this morning is different from yesterday yeah this this there’s some other kind
Of stuff right here the way I feel like somebody’s stomping on my chest and there’s just none stop stomping on your chest and your butterflies and running back and forth to the bathroom every five minutes and you ain’t even crying in tears coming down your eyes but you ain’t crying
And then you’re crying and ain’t no tears coming down your eyes I didn’t even cry at all yesterday I was just in shock but today the sadness is settling is setting in um every parent they got to go through this this weekend and last weekend and the weekend before all parents all
Every Mother every single mother that had to bury her son as me and we we suffer too but I really want to put all the focus on all the mothers whether it was from violent crime whether they had cancer and was sick whether it was a car accident all the
Mothers that had to bury a kid because I’m watching my mother and that’s a grandson yeah I can imagine the hardest hard losing the Sun but I can’t imagine a grandson foreign my mom is here she’s downstairs uh both of my parents are here they she okay she a g but oh man
Foreign I tried to be the best father I could be wasn’t perfect I didn’t play no games I I didn’t I didn’t I didn’t just tried to be the best dad I could be so it is what it is right so thank you all for thank y’all for your prayers and your calls everything um
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