So we just finished Kaneka and now we’re in these months of darkness this is the only time during the year that we have a few months now where there’s really nothing going on happens to be this is also a dark time and Kaneka is is meant to light up the
Darkness we’re meant to take the light of Hanukkah and to bring it into our lives in a very real way unless we think we barely have any light in our life comes the Hanukah Miracle to tell us it’s enough light for your whole life that little bit of
Light rman on his way to uman nearing his uh deathbed he told his students about rabish shimai and the Zohar and this became the introduction of and obviously everybody wants to know what’s the connection between this and rabman usually when you look at the introduction of a safer especially a
Jewish book it’s all about the book right if you look at M the introduction is all going to be about the ramal and these teachings and what’s the basis and what are we trying to get here and uh in Rab’s very enigmatic way the introduction seems to have nothing to do with
Him so there are some different answers on this one of them is that uh benim is the same gatri as shimai so he was alluding to the fact that he is rabish shiman now why is that matter for us one is you know we’re very
Lucky to have a rebi like that on the level so uh two is it’s not in there but it’s something that I was thinking about today as I was thinking about the class and what to speak about rabish shiman told his students before he passed away that our thing our
Z is hanging on love this is z our things dependent on love and I think RAB was also telling his that now that I’m going you should know that our thing is hanging on love the love that we have between each other the Brotherhood the friendship and I
Think I told you guys this last time I told my friend about what it’s like in uman and I was saying like you don’t understand cuz my friend secular he like in the religious world I’m telling you there’s nothing like this the Brotherhood and the friendship and the
Love and the non-judgment is and he said David it’s not just in the religious world there’s nothing like that in the secular World either whatever you’re describing where people are just like all there for each other and connected and yeah so there’s nothing like that right exactly um well it depends who you’re
Hanging out with over there but um so this thing’s dependent on love now in this week’s para we see right this is the Ender and is gathering around his children and says the of the and his children are like all of the Jewish people all of the stones of
Israel that they’re coming to come under the head of theic like y was falling asleep on all these stones and they become one stone under him so too he’s Gathering the Jewish people and he’s telling them he wants to tell them about the end of days Rashi
Says he wants to tell them about the coming of MSI but then hasem took away his R KES and he took away his understanding and he wasn’t able to tell them about Messiah he wasn’t able to tell them about G ratan says an amazing thing ratan who
We just celebrated as hula the day he was niftar in tet on the fast day of 10th ofan left us but he left us with a lot one of the things he left us was this unbelievable Masterpiece there is no safer like this where he took the entire and he explained every teaching
In there every law Jewish law which we usually when people come to it especially if you don’t grow up religious maybe even if you do but when you think of Jewish law you’re not like uh you know itching at the fingertips to get into it you know what I mean oh man do
You know what happens when you have a when you have a t eat you have a when you have a fast day oh man you got to figure out what you got to do what you can’t do what you’re not allowed to do right you’re not usually saying that to
Your friend you’re like yo bro you got to see this lesson it’s crazy something different right took all of the and he explained all of those laws according to the teachings of RAB one section he’s speaking about tan and he says over there that even though
Yobu seemingly was not able to tell his children how the G was going to take place he actually did tell them how it was going to take place by telling them to gather around you ever hear that Beetle song Come Together right now so Yakov was
Actually the first one to say that it wasn’t Paul McCartney okay also without [Laughter] drugs he can come together M that’s the PUK it’s not even Rashi it’s not even a mid he says come together right this is the whole G that the totic is telling us we have
To come together you want to have the light of Kaneka that’s great you might even know exactly where it is but if you want to be a Kay a vessel to hold the light and have it change your life then you can’t do it alone you got to come
Together so bem we’re together and we’re able to connect again to theik vism his friends his brothers hope hopefully everyone tonight is going to hear exactly what they need to hear to draw closer to Hashem that’s what I pray for before I came I hope that’s the case for
Each of you if not don’t tell me I don’t want to know go home disappointed turkey Prince Right you already got what you needed let me just take a quick Swig of this water vodka whatever this thing is okay feeling better now and first of all I was just thinking
Myself as you’re singing Ashu uh the gatri of Ashu you guys like grias right okay so it’s 567 if I did the math right if you take the gatria M Ys you add the it’s the same gatria I was reading in the pre thank God I had the because of the great AES
Of the rebi even though I’m obviously not a place to be able to do such a thing he says you should learn these things not to practice these things but you should learn them so as ra V is explaining the’s teachings on the amid he’s speaking about
B and there’s if you look in Safar you can actually see it maybe it’s also I’m not sure but I pray from a Safar don’t ask me why um and it says there that you should to M that he shouldn’t die yeah yeah you love Saar don’t you’re like why
AR they all like this that armalis shouldn’t kill him so this is actually comes from the ARA it comes from the PRI it comes from this teaching now this I didn’t see because I had heard that before but uh his the is there’s a says is going to die and the mhav is
Going to come and pray for his Revival okay now now the ARA though says not anymore he doesn’t have to die anymore okay so that was all I knew meaning like L did something he snapped his fingers right did some type of kavana now Mas doesn’t have to die okay
And he says that his the AR told his students that they should during Bon that the M shouldn’t die and that he the Aral shouldn’t die and it was very uh not such a implic illusion to the fact that he held that he was the mhia Y
Right so make sure that I don’t die however in the writings that I was reading today which was amazing I never saw this before heard of it he didn’t mean that he doesn’t physically die does physically die like the gamar says and this is maybe the way
That you reconcile the whole thing but that mhsf reincarnates in every generation and in that sense he doesn’t have to die because he’s always living continues to come back and to do what he needs to do or like rabman says I have finished and I will
Finish so if we track the whole line down from the AR to reab Shimon to reab ASO maybe we’re talking all about one person and how lucky and unfortunate we are that we have uh connected to this figure who makes us say ASO how fortunate we
Are a lot of you guys know some of my story I’m going to spare you of it today um but I was just thinking recently my Boda dude like how my whole life from like the moment I get up in the morning till I go to sleep at night it’s all
RAB and it’s an amazing thing you know whether that’s getting up for or whether that’s praying NES or whether that’s talking to hasem and his bodus whether that’s learning his Torah whether that’s searching for n to and myself and others whether that’s Ming my friends in or
They’re Ming me you know like from even till I went to sleep tonight that I had my kids and my daughter my six-year-old daughter was asking me ABA can you tell tell me the Lost Princess I’ve been telling her this story since she was born I actually once asked like uh some
Of my students uh tell me the one thing in the world that a grandfather a father and a CH and a child can all get equally excited about that actually equally excited not like we’re pretending but like we’re all actually equally pumped up about this thing I don’t think there’s anything
Like that except for seor masio this story is just as interesting as it is to an 80-year-old as it is to a 50-year-old as it is to my six-year-old or 4-year-old so I have my four-year-old daughter my six-year-old daughter and my seven-year-old son all sitting right
Next to each other and I’m telling the story for the millionth time thank God to them I’m telling them about this Mish the second to the king it’s towards the end of the story now I I try to make the story break up to the night yeah I used
To tell the whole story at night and like be there for like an hour and a half telling them this whole story and then I I started to break it down and really try to egg it out you know so I’m at towards the end now and I’m telling
About the mishna Mel who’s going through the deserts he’s looking for the Lost Princess in the Golden Mountain and the Pearl Castle he finds these Giants and the Giants say ah Tesh you fool and my kids love that oh you idiot yes there’s no Golden Mountain in Pearl
Castle and he’s going from the giant who’s in control of all the animals the animals have no idea where he is or where the princess is goes to the next giant because he’s so akan he’s so stubborn finds the giant who’s in control of all the birds the birds also
Don’t don’t know where he is and then all of a sudden he goes to the last Giant and the last Giant’s in control of all the rot all of the Winds they also don’t know where he is until one Ru comes at the end and that ruach says I know where she
Is how cuz I just took her there I had a k as I was telling them the story for the thousandth time there’s a Torah a khaka Torah from 1802 it was the first Kaneka of ratan by Reno it’s the eighth lesson in Lan and there was a big Mak taking place
In N it doesn’t take much of a relationship with RAB before so people start giving you a hard time so just after a few months of being by him since R maybe half a year they’re giving them a lot of problems one person specifically and they were telling
Rabman about how this person is giving them all this L about being close to Ru being close to the rebi RAB akman told them this whole lesson which I’m not going to go through the whole thing but I’m going to talk about a piece of it
And he told them if they ask you what you found in breast tell them Ru Ru I had a rabbi in Queens and he took over the Yeshiva that I was at and he saw very quickly that two of like let’s say the four or six people who came consistently were me and my friend who loved and were actively involved in breast
Cus and so you know like when you’re by lit box depending on who the crowd is you know like I either hide that thing doesn’t exist or if I’m at the right group of people I bring out the gar and I start talking about lukut
Moran so thank God this is one of those situations where he sees these to bre and he starts to tell me a little bit about his breast of Fascination when he was in Yeshiva growing up he said that when perm came he so wanted to be by
ROV and just see what it’s like to be Pern by a breast lever so he like ditched his yiva and he went and then this is a person who if you see him it doesn’t doesn’t sound like the story it’s like it’s like a real Riva you know whatever but it’s
Aari but he went over and he said that I’ll never forget this I still remember it to this day I’m in this room with all of these and he said is sitting at the front and he says he’s drunk out of his mind plastered and he’s sitting there on his
Chair and he’s saying to the what is the strongest thing in the world what is the only thing in the world that cannot be stopped nothing can stop this thing it is the strongest thing in the whole world and he’s shaking his chair and he’s going back and forth and his eyes
Are bulging out of his head and everyone’s waiting to hear and he goes r r what’s the strongest thing in the world R what was he speaking about RAB akman said if they ask you what you found in breast tell them the only thing that can’t be stopped Ru and
I was thinking I was telling my kids this story who took the princess to the Golden Mountain and the Pearl Castle ruach he thinking about our life and usually when we think of this story we think about like one lifetime but it seems like from the years of this story
Could have been many lifetimes and I know like for me I’m thinking about my life Journey oh my gosh it was like so hard to find the rebi so hard to even find the Torah right and just how long am I going to be holding on like this you know when are things
Going to change when’s my life going to change when are things going to get better you know it’s such a long journey and I’m thinking to myself you know what if we’re at the end of this story you know what if we’ve already been here many times before and we
Already went through the armone the castle with the evil King and we came back again and we found that first Giant and he said there’s no such thing we come back again and we’re hit with the same bad news there’s no such thing but we don’t give up and Hashem brings us
Back again and finally we’re at the end and this ruak comes and says I know where she is and takes us there RAB natan’s main message to us is to go and hold on to the RBI no matter what you do no matter what happens to you in your life no matter
What you’ve been through no matter what you’re going through just do one thing hold on to the revi or as he told of his as he was on his deathbed he told in the basuk from last week’s paraa go to ysep and whatever he tells you do like
Par said whatever he tells you do this was the main advice of ratan now why is this so lifechanging why could this be so lifechanging so says like this we’re all filled with not we all have lackings some of us lack self-esteem some of us lack parasa some of us lack a girlfriend
Or a wife some of us lack Health right every one of us has lackings it’s what makes us human says that all of these are filled primarily through one mechanism r think about it every single time that you’re stressed out what do you do if you’re Jewish s my son started doing it
Recently my my wife was worried about him I was like no this is the holiest thing ever the C says you have no idea how precious the C is ah why because you draw a new breath RAB explains there that the world world is going to be recreated not so
Soon and it’s going to be recreated the same way the world was originally created how was it originally created ruem breathed the world into existence Hashem breathed Adam’s life into existence we know the gamar that says that every Jew every person is an Katan he’s a small world so why are we
Learning about Bari why are we learning about the beginning of creation who cares the answer is you are that beginning of creation you could be and just like Adar was first created but he was lifeless until hasem blew ruach into him so too you could be alive and not be
Living you know like when I was in Queens I remember I had like an amazing session of iotu and I felt so good after like just alive and before that I mamish felt dead and terrible and I texted my who I got on the hole he to do
Bandwagon and I said to him because he’s been religious his whole life and he grew up K and like and I said to how do people live without heed I’m not asking because I’m trying to be like a breast lover and be controversial and trying to
Make a point I’m actually asking I don’t know how you live with bills to pay and kids and a wife and stress and struggles and all these things how do you not have this time every day where you just let it all go and you let hem into your life
In such a deep profound way how do you live and he’s spartic and he’s Moroccan so he’s very straight and he says very small words but he gets straight to the point and he said to me it’s very simple they’re not living they’re not living there’s a
Reality where you could be alive and have no life there’s a reality where Adam can be created and yet he has no Ru has no life force is saying what am I to you what could I be to you just like when you breathe in and you get physical life
From that and if you were to stop you would cease living so too he says I could be your spiritual life and guess what gives birth to your physical life it’s your spiritual life imagine someone coming to you and saying I want you to stop breathing I would really like I would
Enjoy if you stopped breathing how easy would you give up how easy would you go down how easy would you say you know what you’re right I’m kind of annoying I think the world would be better off without me I’ll give up on breathing you would Mish fight till your
Very last breath it’s the last thing you would never give it up ever rabman says if you treated me the same way if I was spiritual oxygen for you I mean I am but if you knew that the same way that you know that you need physical
Air I could give you that same life and this is what RAB was telling his breathe me in let me be your breath know that I can be this for you because rabman like he often does he explains very poignantly you don’t have a choice about whether or not you’re drawing in
Your life force from somewhere you have to be getting it from somewhere either you’re getting it from the the block that you smoked before you came to this thing why are you laughing how come you never laughed at any my jokes before that one it’s getting me nervous about
You or you’re getting your ruach from the food that we’re eating you’re getting your life force from the food that we’re eating or you’re getting your ruach from some hip-hop artist that like you think is really cool and has great jewelry right you are getting your ruach from somewhere
Says you choose Torah says choose life question is obvious why does the Torah have to tell you to choose life who would ever choose the opposite and need the T to tell you things that you already know it has to be a right you learn a mishna you know learn a gar it’s
Never going to tell you the same thing if you see something that seemingly is unnecessary it’s because you haven’t really understood it properly so what is the Torah coming to teach you choose life the answer is because you can choose to actually draw in something
Which kills you it doesn’t have to be a physical death says sadness is a of death anybody who’s ever been sad knows it feels Mish like death right you could choose to be alive so where are you getting your ruach from so says you have
To be getting it from a RV right it says make yourself a RV okay that’s the person thinks I don’t have a rough not true you have a rough who’s your rough so you have two you have two choices you could either choose the r of the generation you can choose
The in which case you get the that’s that’s hovering over the water which explained means the r it’s pretty good r or you can be getting it from ASA why cuz when ASA saw y akov after their lives separate and you know it’s like those two brothers or those two
Friends they go two different ways one of them goes after this life the other one goes after this life and they can’t wait till they finally meet and I could show them this is what I do with my life this is what happened to me guys if you
Weren’t such a schaz you could have came along with me and done the same thing instead you went with your friends and you did your thing same thing with yov and asov they’re coming yakob spend his whole life trying to connect to Hashem trying to help others do the same
Choosing spirituality over physicality and you have asov he loves hunting he loves women he loves money he loves physicality and he’s a mass tremendous wealth in every way and they’re coming to meet each other and ASA says to yov guess what you think you’re so holy
Yes simple meaning is I have a lot there’s a lot to me says No he was saying something more than that he’s saying yes I’m a rabbi yes does that mean I’m a rabbi who’s RAB who who who has rabbi asov did you you know anybody who’s got Rabbi
Asov RAB says anybody who’s not attached to the anybody who’s not attached to the Tad of the generation automatically he’s getting his R from as what’s the problem with this he’s the one who creates all your all that feeling of lacking instead of filling you with something that makes you feel whole he
Fills you up with things that make you feel Mish empty right like I remember when I was in college I went to Penn State woohoo to the N Lions if anybody went there okay my allegiance is with you obviously this was before I even knew about the Torah I knew about filling I
Knew about Shabbat I didn’t know about any of these things then not that I would have chosen in college but I’m just saying I didn’t know about it and I remember uh you know I joined I joined the school and I’m thinking to myself what would be the best use of my time
While I’m here and you know I’m going from apartment to apartment I’m like yeah this is pretty lame I heard College supposed to be fun and then all of a sudden they tell me about fraternity life and all of a sudden I go to a fraternity
Party and I see a bunch of very very very unusually fit men chest bumping and Brewing out with each other and uh seemingly having a great time really excited like can’t wait for the night and there’s bottles of alcohol out and there’s women there it’s like wow this is galic this is
Amazing so I spent the whole entire semester Mish getting beaten and killed to join this fraternity almost after the first week everybody wanted to quit except for me and this one person thank God I’ve used that akan for something ho after that but um I remember once I finally got in
I’m like wow this is going to be amazing this is going to be so great and I’m going from party to party every night and I never said this any to anybody but I couldn’t help but thinking to myself how empty I felt after every night and
No matter how much alcohol I poured down my throat no matter how many uh activities that were not healthy for me that I was engaging in at these places I was really secretly feeling to myself my gosh this is a very small room to have so many people
In and everyone is sweating profusely right on top of me I’m like I hate this and yet you know what I’m thinking to myself while I’m there maybe there’s an even better party than this maybe there’s an even better party than this they call this fomo right fear of
Missing out really my rabbi’s ASA so what’s happening I’m drawing my life’s for from as and so what happens is I have a bigger hole I have to go fill this hole with more with more that’s what mean I have a lot what does
Jakob say back to him ah ne if you would have connected yourself to me you’d have coal you’d have everything that’s amazing thing yov said he had everything what do you mean you have everything how could you even say you have everything let’s say you had a
Million things but you can you can’t say of everything and I’m not even sure yov had more than of so what do you mean I have Co I have everything first of all in cabala they explain that Co is a code word for the isod the ass is
Thead meaning I am the tadic so guess what I have everything say theic lives with his amuna what was yov telling as because I believe in Hashem because I know that everything that happens in this world is nothing other than the rone of hasem that a leaf doesn’t turn like the B said
Unless Hashem wants it to so you know what happens when things don’t go my way I’m still good you know why cuz hashem’s running the world and I’m not and then what I have Co I have everything it’s all good right I wanted to marry this girl I ended up marrying somebody
Else but you know what Hashem runs my life it’s okay he has better plans guess who end up coming from that Union Yehuda guess who came from Yehuda parrots guess who comes from parrots David guess who comes from David Messiah imagine if yob would have gotten what he
Wanted we wouldn’t have biaah I’m sure he would be the one who would be most disappointed Jakob said guess what no matter how much you amass it doesn’t make a difference it’s always going to be only a lot but you know what happens when you have a lot you’re always
Missing something even if you have a lot but let’s say you have coal let’s say you have everything then no matter what you have you have everything you need this is what was telling his and this is what is offering each and every one of us if you choose remember you have to
Choose because you don’t there’s no parve here there’s no parve you could say you have a rub you don’t have a r you have a r you could say you have a Mel you don’t have a Mel you have a Mel your Mel is either here or your me meel is in
Between your legs everyone is being ruled by something you get to choose the Torah is saying choose life choose well rabman says what’s the best choice you can make so he says it much sharper than me says that anybody who’s not attached to the truth sadic is like a
Monkey why is it like a monkey cuz a monkey can do everything a person can do except he’s not a person so listen if you don’t choose to live a life of kadus and you don’t choose to live a life of dahara you don’t choose to live a life where you’re connected to
Sikim things may or may not be going well but at the end of your life you don’t know was this real or not or was I mimicking a person I know for me sometimes I really really rough days sometimes my days are really painful sometimes my days are really
Good sometimes things are going great they’re going swimmingly sometimes they’re not but I know one thing for sure is I’m not copying anyone and I’m not mimicking anything and at the end of my life however it goes and however it turns out and whether it will be
Successful or seemingly not I will be able to know that I lived an actual life I had real life life because I was connected to the what is it that makes thead connected to real life why can’t I just do it on my own what do I need him
For so again we have to learn from the beginning of creation where do we see R when’s the first R in the Torah it’s hovering over the water and we know that kazal explained there’s no water besides Torah okay explains that thead has Deus with the Torah all the time 247 everything that
He’s doing it’s just Torah even RAB if you look at his his conversations that he had with everybody it was just Torah no matter what he was talking about it seemed like it was something else it was Torah everything in his life was Torah okay if you can’t look in the mirror and
Say to yourself I David 100% all the time and totally imer in this ocean called Torah can anyone say it no it’s fine it’s okay okay that’s fine however where’s the ru of life it’s hovering over the water so if you want to feel alive not
Just be alive you need to be drawing life from the ruach which is hovering over the water and that s is holding on to this Ru because his mom is attached to the Torah and like the zor says that the Torah and hasem are one it’s all one I give all of us
A that we should take these next few months where we don’t have to go do another H you don’t have to prepare for anything now there’s nothing to do except for look at yourself in the mirror and say I want to start over
Again I want to renew I want a mom be a new person I want to start a new life I want to start over again how do I start over again says how did hasem start the world over again with Ru with Ru choose to draw in the ru of the how
Do we do that very very very simple take a time every day you will learn his teachings okay number one number two try your very best to follow his most vital advice by rabman ran says this I don’t know anything I’m just telling you what RAB said remember ran said Natan said he
Had three most vital pieces of advice one of them is hi every day okay so let’s say for instance I know today’s shot I have this meeting and my family’s asking me for this thing I Mom I’m not going to have time to do anything I have
This much time what should I do with it says want okay good so in that time that I do that even if I only did that I was attached to the today and I’m drawing in his r two let’s say you got a little bit more time than that not
Saidu told us that we need to have a time every day that we learn there’s many Tas in the that explain why obviously on the most simple level so you know what you’re doing but there’s many more levels to this and and this comes with Ming oneself to someone
Who knows much more than me that this who created these Torah lessons that M blow my mind that take you from the one end of existence to the other that literally help you explore the deepest recesses of your own soul he says you only have a few minutes learn the just
Assume that that person knows what he’s talking about okay lastly ran said to go to um these are the three okay so thank God we this one at the end you know you have to gather up the courage and the resources once a year so
We really only have to deal with two how do I make sure that every day and it would be really really good to have a time that you learn R’s teachings at least a little bit every day and I give you the blessing through my love for you it’s
The only person who loves can bless our love that we have together the Brotherhood that we have together I tell this to people all the time I have all these different AES and I have all these different things I could be doing right like someone was mom is mching me to
Death about how mikah comes first I said okay but I see a lot of people who they’re blazing every day and they go to the mkah and they don’t do anything else okay I see a lot of things all the time right person says Tor I’ve seen a
Lot of people M has put the heart and soul into learning and they burned out completely and they’re barely wearing a keeper I know one thing for sure if you have hisu every day RAB promises you it is the foundation on which you can build your whole AVM it’s the foundation on
Which you can build your whole life and I can tell you just for me personally the difference between me being in a psych word and me having a good life and being happy on a daily basis is that hour of heod every day and I’m not being
Extreme I’m being very very honest with you it’s that drastic of a difference okay if you start with heu you will see like someone said what should I learn should I learn M or should I learn gamar right you know this famous story they tell you in Yesa all the time should I
Learn gar should I learn M so they asked like the greatest Tom of the generation what should I do and obviously he thought he was going to say you should learn gamar obviously this is like the master of gamar in the world told him you should learn
M he said why he said because if you take a little bit of time every day to learn M you’ll realize you have more time to learn gamar as well okay same to here every Jew is you know we have a lot of uh things that are distracting us and
We have a lot of things that seem important that are maybe not so important we have a lot of things that are actually important that maybe don’t seem so important rabman says if you spend the time alone every day with hm and you talk from your heart you will M
Realize what’s important to you and you want to invest time in that thing and if you don’t you’ll have no barrier you’ll have no Safeguard you’ll have no measure for keeping you on the path that you want to go on but through isbad you can build everything off this
Thing we should take these months of darkness and fill them up with his andm through that he po you should see that you also have time to learn the tourah of the rebi and when you hear the tourah of the rebi is with theem I hope that it
It illuminates you and enlivens you to also want to keep the other AES and just remember every a every Torah every sarian that you do your mom is drawing in New Life that can totally renew and recreate your whole world R thanks guys
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