So they’re telling you like okay walk up kneel so I I kneel and something in me just says Lord I don’t worship anybody but you like I I stopped literally as I’m KNE I said Lord on the inside of me I said Lord I don’t worship anybody but
You and it’s like I knew something was Wrong hey hey it’s your girl Jenkins back with another YouTube video so in this video I actually brought my sister Taylor on to share her denouncing testimony but before I actually get into the testimony if you have not already hit the Subscribe for you girl one time for the one
Time so like I said I am laa and I actually from Arlington Texas and I crossed into Delta Sigma Theta in Spring of 2008 and I denounced in Fall of 2021 and so ever since I denounced the Lord has told me I got to go back and get the
Rest and so that’s what this denouncing testimony series is it’s me going back back and getting the rest and so the Holy Spirit brought Taylor on to share her amazing amazing amazing denouncing testimony so Taylor thank you thank you thank you so much for saying yes to God
And being Brave and Bold and sharing your powerful amazing testimony I’ve actually even though we’re friends I’ve actually never heard your full testimony so I’m super excited to hear how God moved through your story and so my first question is how are you introduced to Greek life yes laa you haven’t heard my
Story but before I share it I just want to say I am so excited to be here and I’m just thankful you know that God is going to be able to use me today through what he’s done through me and to be able to share and just help anyone out there
Um who needs help or who needs guidance so um this is going to be really good first question how I um got into Greek life from a young age um I had an aunt on my dad’s side who was in Greek life she was a Delta and um around maybe like
Middle School she started introducing something to me called Delta gems so I had no idea about anything Greek life related I’m really um active like on my mom’s side of the family so with my dad’s side of the family I’m not really that involved but um we don’t have Greek
Anybody in our family that’s Greek Affiliated on my um mom’s side actually we do but I’m I’m a wait till we get in the mixer to give y’all that little kick of how that how I found that out but um yeah to my knowledge at this point um I
Didn’t know of anyone in my life that was Greek Affiliated I didn’t know what Greek life was but being introduced to Delta Jims through her it just seemed like it was kind of like an urgency being produced for me to be introduced to this um she would take me and her
Granddaughter at the time so that’s technically my cousin so this is my great aunt so my my father’s aunts you know so that makes her my great aunt so she started introducing me to Delta gems and um it’s kind of like a mentorship program for young kids from maybe like
Middle School to high school and then you do this thing called um what is it the uh coronation or the catian they have a whole catian like a whole thing at the end you get a scholarship just this whole thing right and um so that’s how I got introduced
But through that I was never interested in Greek life I I just wasn’t you know around that time it just didn’t interest me you know they would ask me if it’s something that I wanted to do but I just be like no you know I don’t think that
I’m gonna do it I don’t think I’m gonna move on to do it but lo and behold you know we know how this story ended and we know how it ended ended right but um yeah that’s how I was introduced to Greek life it was through
Her okay and so what school did you go to so I went to beum cookman University in Daytona Beach um Mary McLoud bethon is the founder so yeah it’s a private HBCU okay and so when you got you got to bathon so how did you end up transitioning into being interested into
AKA so first arriving to the campus um kind of like a lot of people that have said that have joined your um your videos where it’s like it’s a whole new world right you’re introduced to something completely new um my high school was fairly mixed so um it wasn’t
Really you know super populated as far as like African-Americans and black people it wasn’t that populated in that area it it was kind of mixed so I kind of got the best of both worlds but coming to a HBCU where it’s just like listen everybody looking like me you
Know what I’m saying you you got this Greek over here this Greek over here you could join this club you could join that club you could do this you could do it’s just so much right it’s so many opportunities so many different things to get into you you could just get into
Things and so it’s like me coming there it’s like H what do I want to be a part of right so my freshman year I kind of was just getting the hang of being in college right and just feeling everything out but it’s like Greek life is like pushed and it’s this thing
That’s kind of like put on a pedestal especially at like smaller HBCU where it’s like this is where you want to be right this is the elite this is what you want to join this at the end of everything you want to know this you done did something you done got into
Something right like it’s like your badge that you leave college with right um it’s everybody’s goal it’s everybody’s plan and everyone’s talking about oh I’mma Be This I’mma Be this when it’s time I’mma Be this right so you’re just hearing all this talk and I’m clueless the only uh little bit of
Information I have is is Delta gems right from what what I experienced in Delta gems and so instantly I feel like I have this loyalty to my aunt to pursue Delta right to be a Delta and so my brother went to the school previously before me we’re
About five years apart and so he had friends that were deltas and you know he started introducing me to people and I started getting acquainted and girl I’m back you know they say be quiet about what you want to do I’m G be a Delta I’m
G be a Delta and so they’re like okay but you got to be quiet about it or whatever but really it wasn’t my desire you get what I’m saying I’m just trying to do it because it’s like I want to be a part of something or you feel like you
Should be a part of something but I felt like my loyalty was towards my aunt and so with going along with experiencing my college Journey maybe like my sophomore year at this point I’m starting to shift and change and recognize like you know just by seeing what I see on campus this
Is not necessarily the organization that I want to be a part of you know it’s kind of like you can see yourself in you know wherever you know you think you’re supposed to be and I just couldn’t see myself myself there and I just had to be
Real with myself I want to be AKA you get what I’m saying it’s kind of one of those things where to me the aka’s just seemed Elite you get what I’m saying Elite like they they dress well they put their themselves together well but on
Top of that they get their job done they get their work done you know they their High esteem in education and um corporate just just the they they just come off as just like a boss person right like like boss women and so that is luring to people who aspire to have
Those same um qualities right so as I am growing um as a woman in college these things are appealing to me as I see these women who are of high esteem right as as they portray or they really are because you know to either way it go um
As they portray to be or as some really are um it’s something that you aspire to do so my heart started to desire AKA and so from there I started looking up stuff I’m talking youtubing everything girl I’m trying to just see everything about
AKA SC I it’s like I went down a rabbit hole of just AKA this AKA that strolling this strolling that probate this probate that and it’s like informationist watching videos of people talking about joining and becoming an AKA it took me on this spiral but you know it it had me it
Lured me in and so yeah that’s how I got introduced um to Creek life on the college campus okay that makes sense so you you you decide you want to do AKA so how was like the interest process or maybe like the pre-linguistic up and a lot of being
Extra nice and a lot of just trying to you know get them to know you you have to go to the events you have to attend everything and it’s like once you step foot at an event you have made it clear that this is where you want to be don’t
Go to the event if it’s not something that you’re thinking about right even though it’s like an ice cream social or it’s like a um a panel discussion if you go people are looking at you because they know that this is what you are interested in and this is what you want
To do but not only that but it does put a Target on your back because it’s almost as if the women are kind of like coming after each other gunning for each other to try to get in and so when they see competition or see somebody that’s
Like oh she might make it over me or so whatever it is it creates this crawling right that causes people to just be jealous or envious of one another or be combative to one another one another or super competitive right um so those were some of the things and it caused is a
Lot of Gossip oh my and backbiting oh my goodness because it’s just like you just trying to throw people on the under the bus any way you can or you know what I’m saying just trying to make yourself appeal like the chosen one or the one
That should be chosen this is a good thing to note too the line that was coming out was a resurrection line so the organization had been off of the campus I want to say maybe for like a year or so or three I don’t really remember
But I think it was three years because my freshman year they weren’t there I’ll give it like two two and a half however long um they were off campus so I feel like they were trying to tread lightly with what they did I do believe some
Things were done I don’t know all the ins and outs I heard he say she say but so you applied and you made line so how was it like being online yes so first off let’s discuss even getting in right I filled out girl I was I was
Super heavy on you know getting my GPA together all of these things because it’s kind of like for me college was just an experience right I I didn’t really care too much about academics or care too much and it’s like when something has come that is has has
Sparked my interest now I wanted to get get it together so now I’m taking summer classes now I’m doing extra work now you know just whatever I can to pack up my GPA to be able to you know be in in the uh qualifications to even be able you
Know be qualified to even apply um so I was able to get my GPA up and whatnot now it’s like a whole another world you you know nothing that you’re about to get ready to do nothing that you’re about to experience it’s like you’re all exper you’re experiencing it all
Firsthand right so even walking into the informational where you have to put on this business suit put on this business outfit it’s hundreds of women you’re sitting there just like a number right everyone just seems like a no you have no identity and this is the first step to your identity being
Taken right everyone has to look the same hair pull back the same everybody dressed the same right and it’s just kind of like they’re looking through numbers H you it’s like you look they looking at you on the paper oh what what what can this person bring what can they
Provide and it’s all about what have you done right what have you done that can add to our organization they don’t care about you they don’t care about your your you know what I’m saying some do because they they care because of how it’s going to look right um based off of
How you’re going to uphold the organization the best or put them in the best light or put them in the highest standing for highest GPA or whatever it’s like it’s all a um ulterior ulterior motive behind it as well where it’s like we not just picking some they
Pick because they like but a lot of times they pick you because you got something about you right that that that’s going to add to to what they’re producing or what they’re doing and so um I feel as though that that was seen in me right and
So this is something I I didn’t share my spiritual part uh what what did that look like spiritually um but I do want to share that um so around my sophomore year of college my junior year of college I had just started getting close in my relationship with Christ and um I
Went through some crazy trials and tribulations through my college Years I experienced a terrible toxic abuse Ive relationship and I got pregnant and I ended up getting an abortion I don’t promote abortion it was totally wrong um but it was that dark moment that drove
Me to Christ because here I am in a moment where it’s like no one knows this um I’m I’m away from school because it happened in the summertime but it’s just like one of those things where I just gave up like God I need you right my
First two years of college I was out here just just living my life just doing whatever I felt like doing doing and um I got baptized in like my sophomore year of high school right so I I had a I knew of God right but at this point I’m a
Backslider baby kind a backl baby because I got to college and it’s kind of like you took a bath because though you were baptized there was no uh uh true sign or fruit right or or heart shift that you have really chosen the Lord but it’s almost as if it’s like
There was something in me that that pulled me to Christ but it wasn’t enough to make me stay you get what I’m saying to make me stay grounded in him and that was the issue there there had to be a hard shift and so from there to my
College Journey I’m I’m battling feeling guilt for for for doing things out of alignment with Christ but but you know Finding enjoyment in it still but still saying like you know after I do it I’m guilty like Lord forgive me Lord I won’t do it again right you know you’re
Feeling the conviction but it’s not enough to cause you to shift and so when that happened to me um that that summer of my junior year or my sophomore year um and I hit the lowest of my low I turned to him and I said God I give you
Every God I Val you value my life and I meant that with everything in me and from that day forward nothing has shifted nothing has changed and it’s just been a beautiful Journey growing with him and it’s crazy to think that was like seven years ago how old am
I yes and so it’s like i v my life so now me embarking on this journey of of building a relationship with Christ I I don’t know much right I have a Praying family but my intermediate family as far as the people in my household my mom my dad my brother
We didn’t go to church like that okay so um we go to church on Easter Sunday May maybe sporadically but I didn’t grow up knowing Jesus like you know people know the Bible front and back went to Bible school all of that Sunday school I have
Went to Sunday school but but it wasn’t a frequent thing to me right so I knew of Jesus I knew of God but I did not know him you get what I’m saying I didn’t have a personal relationship with him but when that moment hit that relationship started to be developed
Where it’s like oh God you actually do care about me like even though I left you right and and ran the farthest from you when this hit I I ran to you and you had your arms out wide open to receive me right you had your arms out wide open
To welcome me in it’s almost as if he had been waiting for me you get what I’m saying and so it’s like I had to vow my life because God you you spared me you you saved me right like I’m I’m here like whatever you want like I see what
Life look like without you I want no parts because for some people they keep going but that was enough God I am done please yes and so um starting this journey with Christ I don’t know much right and and this is where it’s important for people to understand you
Don’t have to know every in your journey with Christ because if your heart is in the right place and you keep your eyes focused on Jesus he’s going to show you the way he has never taken his hands off of me and I have matured over the time
So it’s like if your heart is truly Desiring him he’s going to send help to get you to where you need to be but the help wasn’t set yet child cuz this was on my mind right but me not knowing that it’s demonic me not knowing the bad
Things about it I’m thinking like oh like God I’m going to go back to campus is a great opportunity you know to start bettering my life and doing good things and you know just growing and actually achieving the things that I know you showed me behind closed doors right like
I know I have a purpose I know I have a call and you think that this is the space that you’re supposed to produce it and use it in and God saying no behind the scenes but I didn’t know my desire for it was too strong it was too loud it
Was much Lou louder than um me hearing his voice but if I’m honest I didn’t really know much about hearing his voice I didn’t know how to do that and so um truly a babe in Christ right truly a baby just just I’m here for Jesus
Like he loved me but it was a matter of me thinking that you know he loves me even when I mess up even when I go you know do wrong but he had to develop that true understanding it wasn’t there yet and so I’m praying I’m praying Lord let
Me make this organization Lord let me make this line Lord please provide for my GPA to go up and all of these things are happening so I’m thinking God is with me you get what I’m saying I’m thinking that you know Lord you’re allowing this you’re you’re you’re with
Me right and I want to note this because there was a moment in time where I when I went down this whole spiral of searching up stuff about AKA I did see something that was I think I came across the ritual book I don’t necessarily know
What God just brought this to my memory but I came across something and I looked at it but when you see things like that you think oh it’s a conspir Theory like this ain’t real like cuz and also too I didn’t even know what I was reading for
Real I’m like what is this cuz at time I I a understand the Bible like that I wasn’t heavily into the word like that I’m just trying to at least stick to a scripture a day like you know what I’m saying literally humble beginnings you
Hear me um but he used that he’s so good but yeah so I’m praying and and and and seeking him about this organization and everything is falling into place my GPA went up um you know I’m getting favor here and there where um I even went and
Did a pageant I won the entire pageant so that was something to check off and add to the fact that like you know I’m qualified like what y’all want to do like hire me you know what I’m saying put me on the Aline yes so we go through
The informational process we go through the I don’t it’s like two sets and then you got to do the interviews and all of that all of that has been done at this point and um we’re waiting for a call back we’re waiting to hear back a month
Go by two months go by we a hear nothing child finally we get a call oh yes this is important to know I did not have the money I didn’t have I think we had to have maybe like 1,500 I think it was, 1500 I’m not really sure but to a college student
That sound like a lot of money where that’s coming from like okay refund check but what I’mma eat I use that to eat like what what we gonna do but somehow or another people was sending money like um cuz it’s what they recommend is that you um start to save
Ahead of time right start to save your money ahead of time and all of those things when you know this is something that you want to do you should already be setting up your savings that’s what they say and so that’s what I was doing
But I still was having to take money out to eat live whatever whatever but somehow or another you know I called family in support and they helped right they sent the money so I’m thinking okay God this is a God thing because I got the money
Like what like that’s crazy like I don’t know so I get the call and they’re like hey you know um come to the office or or whatever it was we had to go and receive a letter and if your letter said something about like you can move on
With your background check you was good but if it said hey sorry you know we like to thank you for even trying out okay period I opened a letter it said I get a background I said Lord thank you Lord that went past I got the call um to
Send my money I sent the background check did all that and so I go send my money I get in this room it’s 80 girls 80 girls I’m like okay we in here like at least I’m in the number like I don’t know like I don’t
Care it is what it is we all up there here cool whatever right and so um that’s when everything starts so there was this is specific to note because there was a specific period in this in the time frame where we had to have everything done by a certain period we
Were kind of pushing it because they were kind of I think we we’re giving like back back push over the fact that we were a resurrection line you know how they just be trying to be difficult I don’t really know what was going on oh I didn’t mention this when people found
Out that they did not make the line it caused this whole frenzy right and it even caused a sense of um manipulation and and just a whole bunch of lying people trying to uh send letters or write letters to try to get people kicked off and I was one of them trying
To say I was you know doing things underground or being hazed beforehand and they sent pictures of me just hanging with girl it was a whole thing you know and I don’t fought those people because honestly I truly believe that the devil was using them using them and
And it’s almost as if it just Rises something in you to where it’s like I don’t know it it just causes people to act away you know so it’s all love to the people for sure all love and there’s no love lost because it’s it’s crazy regardless and especially if you was out
Here doing stuff and you ain’t make it we all would be mad like okay you told me I was guaranteed right but anyway so that was another thing that made me think okay this is a God thing because my enemy is praying on my downfall right like I got opposition like what’s up
Like Lord so now I’m praying harded Lord don’t let nothing come up against me Lord let you know what I’m saying so just for anyone who feels like you have prayed to get in it’s like God is a God that will also Grant your desires he
Will grant your wishes you get what I’m saying and it’s like you can choose to be in alignment with his will but if you don’t he will give you over to your will you get what I’m saying so you have to understand this like oh I prayed and God
Let me do it that’s because your desires were louder they were louder than his will I I didn’t want to hear like don’t join or whatever the case may be I’m looking I see something and I’m thinking it’s literally thinking it’s a conspiracy conspiracy theory I’m thinking people always have something
You know to say like oh because Illuminati is a comp conspiracy the theory like oh it’s not that NE right but it actually it is that deep yeah we had to have everything done in a certain period of time so we only had two weeks what is telling you we is paper
Baby wait I’m airing it out I’m sorry if listen and I thank God y’all were online for two weeks yes but it wasn’t just like an uh uh now I’m going to say this it wasn’t just a push P pass process it was very stressful it was very chaotic and
It was very trying on the mind and on the body because I’m having to learn all of this information implant all of this stuff into my head everything about the chapter everything about these 80 something girls you get what I’m saying it’s a lot on you and so we were staying
Up every night so part from the uh the the the rituals and Oaths and stuff we were staying up every night to like 5:00 a.m. practicing stuff for the probate trying to retain this information trying to retain all of these things and like it created a lot of um what’s the word
When when sleep uh people were sleep deprived anxiety for me was a heavy thing an anxiety I experienced crazy anxiety like I couldn’t even sleep at night my chest would just beat beat beat beat pit patter out of my chest just just some people were depressed like some people weren’t eating they were
None of us ate if I’m honest none of us was eating we were skinny because of the stress right to try to produce and to try to get it right and you don’t want to be the one that come out there don’t know your stuff and you don’t want to be the one
You know what I’m saying you’re having to spit this stuff like a robot you want to know your information you want to know what you’re talking about right and so it was hectic and that’s not to say that they didn’t try to Haze let’s make that clear because what they were trying
To do was to because it was 80 people and it was 40 people that came out before they were trying to split the line so have a certain 40 behaves and a certain 40 not so they were trying to split it right and so some got calls me
Being one of them but like I said I do nothing about Greek life so when you’re calling me and saying where you that I’m saying who is this I don’t know nothing about this I didn’t know I’m going to get a call what is this I don’t know
Nothing about none of this not nothing um but it didn’t go through because they had to be super strict because of the fact that it was a resurrection line and they got suspended the first time because of hazing I honestly believe that was God’s grace upon me because I
Could not imagine going through that after what I had already experience I could not imagine that being added on to it it probably would have tore me up and it probably would have made me uh have like a deeper Covenant or be in a deeper agreement with this thing because when
People Haze um especially when they’re hitting you with them them uh the paddle if you getting bruises and you bleeding that’s that’s that’s a blun covenant it goes much deeper right and so it’s like now you feel like this really belongs to you because you don’t fought for it now
I put it in the word but I’m out once the Lord say go it’s go but it’s just like when people are Haz it it it drives like a deep deeper connection to the thing and I honestly believe it was God’s grace on me I’m telling you I
Thank him that that did not happen to me I’m so grateful because it’s almost as if even in the midst of my ignorance even in the midst of my wrong he still had his hand over me but there will come a point where I have to make a choice I
Have to make a decision once he reveals right and so yes now you want to talk about o rituals yes do you remember girl I’m not going to play with you the first day that we started these rituals right of course it sounds weird it’s like you
You you know something is off like when you’re hearing rituals and stuff like that but you’re just thinking like oh like I don’t know your desire to want to be a part is so strong you get what I’m saying that’s important to understand that that everything just starts going
Over your head or you start to just let it slide because it’s just kind of like one of those things where it’s like ah you know I don’t know we all here we all together and so the first time that that experience happened we were in all black
We had to wear all black and they took us into this room um I think we’re in like a hotel um but we were in like one of those convention rooms right um so they took us into the room and it’s almost as if like they make you walk in
Like this maze type thing right you’re walking and like and I almost think this is like to represent confusion or something I don’t really know but they have you walking in this like maze type thing because it’s 80 people so it’s literally like and um I I was the second
One and so after that they just start they they set you up in lines like going back and they just start um reading from this book and reciting stuff and so we looking around it’s like it sounds like they’re acting out of play like it sounds like they’re acting out something
Cuz it’s like do you take this and do you D du and it’s like we’re just like what is happening cuz the lights are off it’s dark um I didn’t note that the lights are off it’s dark um it’s just like what is this you just feel
Weird about it but it’s not enough to make you be like hey this is wrong we shouldn’t it’s you’re not thinking that if we’re honest you’re not you’re thinking it’s weird but because you’re in here with 80 other girls you’re like oh like you know we just going to get
Through this we’re just going to to do this and so um even though I didn’t fully understand everything they were saying like about the O and stuff you’re hearing it and you’re just responding um but there does come a point where they say if you want to leave or oh open up
The space so that you know if you don’t agree leave or or something where they open it up to where you can leave and everybody just looking at each other like Ain nobody leaving like well I don’t know like it’s it’s like you just hear blah blah blah blah blah blah
Blah and then it’s like you can leave and we’re just like wait what like why would they ask tell us you know that we can leave like we done paid our money at this point I’m in here what you talking about like I don’t know so it was just a
Lot of weirdness happening and then there comes a point um in the midst of the rituals where you have to bow right there is this altar that is in front of you and kind of like some of the people that have described it here before um there’s like AKA letters and different
Things that represent AKA up on the table and there was a picture of the the the the leading founder right up on the on the um altar thing for us and um they have pillows on the floor and they tell you to walk up and kneel right to kneel on the pillows um
So I walk in there I I walk up and I KNE everything is happening so fast let’s note that it’s quick like okay walk up meal you you have no time to really think about what’s happening right all of this is happening so fast so so they’re telling you like okay walk up
Meel so I I kneel and something in me just says Lord I don’t worship anybody but you like I I stopped literally as I’m KN I said Lord on the inside of me I said Lord I don’t worship anybody but you and it’s like I knew something was
Wrong but it wasn’t enough to make me go because it’s one of those things where even in regular life you know you’re doing wrong but but you know you just say Lord forgive me or like I said it’s back to that old habit that old mindset of thinking like you know God will
Forgive me like I I am sitting here vowing my life but God will forgive me and it’s like you don’t understand the depth of this I don’t think you understand what actually is happening right here I don’t think you understand what actually is taking place what is
Going on and and what is about to transpire you have no idea and I didn’t I had no idea but I’m sitting here and I’m saying Lord I don’t worship anybody but you then they make you write your name and this in this book and they did
It for every row of girls right so I’m too I have no time to consider I have no time to think and and my like I said my desire to be a part was stronger than my desire to leave it was um so yeah that
Went on for the two weeks we did probate and at this point we’re just ready to get it over with um one thing to note too the last day you bow again the last day we were in white yes so the the probate day we are in all
White and we do another ritual and this time it’s all of the people that are you know AKA if they want to come or whatever the case may be they’re sitting in behind you and now you’re bowing again but you are Bowing in all white at
This point I’m not saying Lord I don’t worship anybody but you I’m I’m I’m wait waiting on the probate I’m trying to remember my information right I’m not thinking about that but that just shows the the um the stripping or the you know the change in my mind to now I’m I’m
Comfortable right now it’s just like oh this is just how it goes oh this is just what it is when it’s not right in the beginning something something was irritated but now here I am like oh we did this before here like you know then
You have then you have to sign your name again yeah they they have you write in the book again and you say more vows and you say more Oaths to where you’re just vowing your life to this thing you’re vowing your heart your soul your your strength to this organization and
They’re taking scripture and twisting it to fit their organization that is demonic if this is a Christian organization why would I tamper with anything that the word of the Lord speaks we are not to touch anything we are not to take away nor to add to any
Part of his word so it now we start to hit well then what really is this if this is a Christian organization you would uphold Christian principles accordingly if we have Christian principles that will be upheld according to God’s standards not according to what AKA thinks and and and and twisting it
To to to please their agenda that is demonic you hear what I’m saying so you crossed and how was it being an AKA at Bon okay so we just thinking We Them Girls right we just thinking oh yes like because one thing about it the same
Way that I was before was the same way that I was afterwards I was already somebody who dressed nice who did did her here who did her makeup who liked those things I I you know people knew me I was very socialable on campus so it’s
It I don’t think it was much of a a surprise to see that I joined you get what I’m saying people already had an inkling that that was something that I was going to do but it just kind of added an extra boost you get what I’m
Saying it gave me more of a reason to be cocky or to be prideful or to be super vain or to be um even seductive or charming and all of these things right yes it gave me more of a reason because it’s like oh now I really am that girl now
I’m really upholding the standard now I’m really doing all that you get what I’m saying um so it it drove a lot of that for me but I wasn’t affected much because at this point I wasn’t drinking God has stripped that from me which I am grateful for because like I said I’m
Still on my journey with Christ so while this is happening I am still growing in Christ um but it’s like baby steps literally like though I have no no idea this was wrong it’s like I’m still pursuing my relationship with him and so in that he stripped you know uh uh
Drinking from me at this point and it’s like as it started to go on it’s kind of like two relationships were building at once my relationship with Christ and then here I am building this this relationship in this organization right and so these two are growing at once but at some point in
Time they’re going to hit each other it it it can’t mix you get what I’m saying though appear oh I didn’t even say this the last day for the rituals and the probate there’s a church service yes wait what what do you mean yes we had a
Church service um after we did the rituals we I think it was in the same room we sat and had a church service where um one of the girls got up to sing I don’t remember if somebody spoke a word I think they did but we had a
Church service this is a part of the manipulation to where you and This Is Me growing in my relationship with Christ saying oh yeah like God’s here like it’s it’s women of God here you know we’re we’re at a church service like you know what I’m saying you really it’s it’s
Manipulation at its finest it really is this is why everyone who proclaims him it doesn’t mean that you were necessarily of him right this is why we’ll see many prophesying his name cast out demons right heal the sick whatever you do you believe in Jesus but that
Does not mean that you are a product of him truly it’s about your heart and how you live your life you know so just because you hear God this God that God we think that does not mean that he is there and I didn’t understand that you
Know at that time yeah it it just promoted this this lifestyle of just adding to what was already there um and and just being even more extra just just just it just gave me a reason you get what I’m saying which is not good at all um because it produced something that
Had to be I had to be delivered from It produced something that I had to be set free from and um yeah so for a lot of women it did the same thing whereas if they weren’t known before it caused them to have something to flaunt or have
Something to show off or I can show you this and now you accept me now you respect me right it’s one of those things where it’s like this badge of honor is what makes me um worthy in your eyes and I feel like this is a lot of
The reasons why many people don’t leave or have an issue with leaving because they have attached their identity to this thing and when you cross you have now become this thing they don’t know you as Taylor Just Taylor you are Taylor the AKA you are Sarah the whatever you
Are this the that they don’t know you as yourself anymore you have no identity and that’s why I said it starts stripping when when you first even come into the informational all y’all looking the same all y’all are the same you do everything the same everything you have no identity you
Don’t another thing I want to note a lot of the stuff that this also produced was a lot of quarreling among amongst each other a lot of competition amongst each other and a lot of jealousy Envy hate um it’s like as soon as we crossed there was rat tatat issues between the line
Sisters it’s almost as if a whole bunch of offense was created um people had issues with other people because they think like I said you was about to get them kicked off the line because they heard you was on the Underground line you wasn’t on the line and you it’s just
It it creates this whole thing and it’s like wait isn’t this Sisterhood shouldn’t we love one another but I’m kiking with you one second and I’m talking about you behind your back um but it does create that that sense of and and it’s something that you have to
Be um work through once you come out because it’s a lot of rejection abandonment because you feel like you weren’t liked the most or you weren’t liked by your sisters or even just me being who I am everyone ain’t going to like you a everyone ain’t going to
Accept you or like the personality that you come with where as here in the True Body of Christ you have to mend whether y’all y’all y’all get along or not there’s going to be conflict but there is a such thing as good conflict right we are called to become one right and so
Um those are some of the differences but some those are some of the things that we did experience after joining and I used to wonder that back then like you know why why is this stuff called alphas and omegas and all of that when God is Alpha and
Omega they take from the true standard right they take from the true Elite one they take from the true Sovereign one right and they try to create their own sovereignty and and and it’s false oh that’s good so how did you get from being you know in AKA to denouncing like
What was their Journey about like coming out yes h i so excited to tell it so like I said both relationships are growing at the same time and so I’m starting to seek God about what does he want me to do after leaving college and so around this time I had just started
YouTube videos concerning Christ um he he randomly I was doing a makeup video and randomly he was just like talk about me and so that’s what I did I talked about him that day and that’s what B in my college dorm and that’s what birthed me starting to even do YouTube videos
Concerning Christ um though I wasn’t perfect you know he produced a work in that I knew YouTube was something that he definitely wanted me to pursue um so I was just like you know I didn’t feel led to go to grad school so I just felt
Like he was telling me to go back home and so that’s what I did I went back home and I got a job I started working at the job um year round that I would work for the summertime and as I’m there I’m just
Like H like I just was ready to go like oh my goodness I can’t stand working here like Lord like how much longer like cuz it’s like when you know that there’s something that you should be doing right and pursuing and achieving and it’s like
Here you are in a space that you don’t want to be and so I’m battling that but at the same time I’m still uploading videos and still being consistent and doing things it’s kind of like it was a mix at that time like makeup and Jesus
It was a huge mix but lo and behold he was going to pull me out and make it all about Jesus um so yeah that’s what was happening and going on so that was 2019 now let’s get into the good stuff so at this point I had been home for maybe like some
Months and out of nowhere I just start seeing these denouncing videos it’s like denouncing has started becoming popular like after I denounce I mean after I graduated that year I graduated denouncing was becoming popular I I don’t I think we would see on like Greek Shenanigans or see it down the time what
Year was that huh what year was that 2019 yeah um we’d see it down the timeline or or um I started seeing YouTube videos okay I ain’t search nothing about denouncing I ain’t so why this popping up make this make sense I I don’t really understand what’s going on
Like I what you trying to tell me like so I’m on my computer like I said I’m still growing in my relationship with Christ at the same time and I see this video pop up and it says denouncing AKA and I’m just like you know at this point
Some something was just like watch it watch it what’s the harm what is it going to do right so I turn it on it’s like 30 minutes and I watch it and this girl is literally just talking about the fact that she denounced and she’s mainly talking about
Rituals and she’s comparing it to scripture that’s all she did the entire video she didn’t give much of her opinion she didn’t put much of her her herur what she felt what she thought it wasn’t in the video right so she maybe gave like a couple rituals and put them
Next to to scripture and then she was like yeah so now you know and she was like you held accountable for what you know and she turned the video off and so here I am I’m sitting there like dang what she saying is true like what she saying is
True but then it’s like this fear locks in I start getting clammy I start getting nervous I’m I’m just like but Lord I you’re not telling me to denounce like I I don’t feel you know are you tell you now like I just like you’re not
Telling me to denounce like Lord if you and this is me Lord if you want to tell me to denounce you can just just say it God and girl I ain’t need to wait long enough to hear answer I I didn’t want to hear I didn’t want to hear the answer I
Didn’t want to hear him say nothing no no no cuz he already gave the answer so I’m not hearing anything cuz he you you already gave me what I needed to know so I’m just like oh he didn’t say nothing like you know he you know it’s a
Conviction thing you know we we I don’t have to denounce it it is what it is whatever but that was the seed that was the seed because when I watch the video it’s not like I’m going off and saying oh she don’t know what she talking about she don’t now I don’t
Recall but I could have did at the beginning where it’s like I don’t know what but watching it I’m silent I’m this is a seed that is literally being implanted like it’s there and it stayed there you get me and and I would love to
Tell that girl what she done did for me she has no idea you know she she really played a huge part um and it’s so crazy because yesterday I just came across the video again that was like four years ago three years ago I just it was the
Craziest thing I had been looking for the video and I just was thinking about it and it popped like she popped up and I’m like God what so I’m watching it back emotional cuz I’m like wow like this was literally the seed so not yet though so okay I watched it I’m like
Okay it’s a conviction thing like you know I don’t feel convicted whatever whatever but I started doing a lot of things less when it would be founders day I’m not out here thank you Ethel and thank who no I’m I’m not doing the most anymore right now it’s a matter of just
Oh you know Happ Val’s day like it’s like as the years went on things started to dwindle I’m not wearing nail you like that but around this time because I’m home I started trying to get plugged in into a church home and a lot of those women that were there were
Aka the um the the preacher’s wife was an AKA um it it’s just like it it’s and she was I think she was the head of the chapter or something like that there so me being around this and me trying to get um involved in in in in the church
Because of the fact that like I’m home like you know I desire to grow in the Lord get involved in church and me Desiring to get I I got you know kind of pretty cool with her and another lady that I was cool with I’m not sure if she
Was in AKA or not but then I met this girl I ain’t G to say her name but we got really close really quick and she was an AKA she maybe had been like a couple years older than me um and we got really close and so she’s like yes girl
Like you I can get you in the chapter like we can get somebody to sponsor you cuz I was like I ain’t got no money to pay for that we can get somebody to sponsor you so I’m like oh like this is awesome like you know like obviously
It’s not bad because we have Christian people that are in it you know what I’m saying I’m at a church like it’s it’s good deception once again um and so I think okay Martin Luther King Day rolls around another Founders Day rolls around and then after that cuz that’s what
January give a couple months Co hits so now this detaches me from everything that I knew from there right so I’m detached from the church I’m talking to the girl L just simply because I don’t know I just didn’t feel that daughter anymore ain’t nobody talking to nobody
Because everybody just trying to make sure they good like they safe like you know what I’m saying she was reaching out but I didn’t feel an urge to like you know it just was what it was and So Co it was a strict time for my relationship with Christ to grow like
Literally every day I’m I’m growing deeper and deeper in him because at this time I’m pursuing Jesus for um things I have made this vision board I have put these things on on you know what I’m saying I’m pursuing Jesus for this Vision or this thing that I have made
Right it doesn’t necessarily mean that what you put on that board is his will and I don’t even know about boards but I don’t do them boards no more doing the board or whatever I’m chasing my desire but it’s like even in the midst of when
We are ignorant it’s like he just worked something how I don’t know God only know how he do what he do so um even in the midst of that um it’s like I would get frustrated every single time because it’s like God why isn’t it happening
Like I’m praying you I’m seeking you I’m fasting on the behalf of this thing like and I’m getting frustrated but I’m still pursuing my relationship with him and growing deeper in him and so as that is happening um a true relationship is being built to where I just gave up like
I’m stop I’m going to stop trying to have my own way and fight you on this thing I’m going to allow you to Just Produce your will in me and so me letting my desires go and it slowly but surely started to be produced where I’m understanding relationship and now I’m
Talking on YouTube about him a lot more like I’m flooding YouTube with videos about him like how to pray how to fast um being strong and courage just what not being afraid like just whatever he gave me I’m just FL like flushing stuff out and honestly it’s just the Holy
Spirit building me up like he was building me Co was boop boop boop boop he was building me up okay then he urges me to move okay this has to be 2022 um he urges me to up and move um to Atlanta yeah that’s why I’m at he urges
Me to move to another city right I don’t say the city but he urges me to move to another city and I got confirmation cuz me and a friend were praying on it and I didn’t tell her um where I felt like the Lord was telling me to go I didn’t even
Tell her I was even thinking about moving I didn’t tell her none of that and as we’re praying she just says I feel like the Lord is saying that you need to go here and I’m like that’s crazy cuz he was already speaking to me like what you talking about like I don’t
Know so I packed my bags um after a while I leave and I move right um I’m moving into a space I have family here so I’m not by myself you know but in that time um of that year there was a lot of stripping and a lot of pruning
And God was developing me maturely like developing my maturity in him around this time so around this time I’m learning a lot more about him deeper um how to pray truly um what does true relationship with him really look like um what are the things that he requires
As out of us as children of God right all of these things that were unbeknownst to me have now become known to me right I’m understanding the spiritual realm I’m understanding what demons are I’m understanding what witchcraft is I’m understanding what what um altars are all of these things
I’m understanding what Deliverance is all of these things are happening around this time um I was learning a lot from people um virtually like watching different people or whatever he lead me to people and so one day comes around and I watch this specific lady and um she says
You guys need to denounce like y’all need to get out of them sororities and fraternities y’all need to denounce and I just like cuz she was was doing like a prayer and fasting type thing and just I of know what she just said it and I just was like
Huh and so I’m thinking in my head like okay I it like ca here’s the thing you all take advice from somebody and listen to everything else that they have to say but the moment they say something about that oh you don’t know what you’re talking about you know you
Ain’t never been nowhere you don’t know nothing you don’t know you know what I’m saying it’s like you switch up but let go of our fence and listen right take heed to what is being said and so I got off because me and my friend were
Watching at the same time I called I said girl what you thought of that and she was like girl what you thought of that I like girl I think of what you thought of that like we just going back and forth because it’s just like one of
Those things it’s like okay she kind of right but like what we GNA do but it was one of those things again where it’s just like okay I don’t know so that was another seed or well no that time it was being watered the seed was being watered
Period so maybe like a month or so goes by I’ll give it like two months right and um I’m up at night watching this Deliverance video where um it was like a church and they were doing deliverances like on somebody I feel like it was a conference or something and this lady
Has never talked about anything denouncing fraternity sority she’s never talked about anything like that at least I haven’t heard her say anything like that and she’s delivering this lady and then she randomly says like you know you guys have to come out of Freemasonry Eastern Star fraternity sorties you guys
Have to come out of that but because it’s almost as if she was delivering this this young lady from that specifically and so when she said that it was just something in me that just broke because it’s like fine God what are you trying to like what are you
Trying to tell me right and in that moment me bowing at that altar Flash before my eyes yes and I said I bowed at an altar girl it told me up because I didn’t know it was an altar bet I know what an altar was I didn’t know what
Witchcraft was I didn’t know the significance about about I didn’t know any of that right and so now that he has brought me into a understanding right now I understand what is transpiring I understand what has happened I understand what I have done because I was doing Bible study lives on Instagram
Around this time and telling people y’all have to come out of Witchcraft and come out of new Ag and lo and behold you apart and you have no idea you get what I’m saying it’s a deception it’s very listen it can trip you up very easily it
Can and it will have its way if you don’t come into agreeance with what Jesus is trying to show you it will have its way on you it sure will and so I said I bowed at an altar like the lady has moved on at this point
She she ain’t even talk about that nowhere it it was that small saying that she said that tore me up that caused the seed to grow that that called it to grow right because God says in the Bible one will one will sew the seed one will
Water it but it’s only God that could make it grow right he made it grow in me and girl I said I bowed at an altar and then I looked down girl I got the shirt on so girl I start cutting up stuff I’m just I’m tearing whatever I took with me
Cuz like I said I I moved somewhere so whatever I took with me I’m just ripping and tearing it up and it’s like how could I be deceived like wait what like that was an altar it’s like two and two made four like this is an eyeb like wait
What what happened and so I tear and rip everything up I throw it in the trash and um the next day um God Speak speaks through me heavily through scripture and around that time he was speaking to me heavily through scripture um in my morning time with him I was reading the
Bible app around this time the Bible app wouldn’t give like heavy stuff around this time where it’s like talking about idols and stuff around this time I because I was reading it every day I didn’t see stuff like that I only saw like you know Grace and love and you
Know that’s the type of stuff I saw not about the order of God truly and so what I would do is read a chapter a day I’d read you know the the scripture of the day but read above it I read below it every single day from that day he’d send
Me scripture concerning what is transpired concerning what I did and um I’m just reading it and it’s just becoming more confirmation more confirmation more confirmation I’m just like this is not like of him so what do I do I call up my friends that are in it
Cuz all of my friends were in it with me um we all made it yeah so I didn’t really have like outside side friends and and part of the reason I didn’t mention this that I even joined um in the first place was because of Sisterhood that was what was most
Appealing to me because I was someone who didn’t have the best type of friendships um I I I didn’t ever feel uh like I really fit in it’s like I would always jump from click to click but I never really had my own thing so it’s kind of like these things appeal to
Something that is missing in you right so whether it be identity whether it be you feel like you need opportunity through networking or whether it even be Sisterhood which is the main thing people say they won’t but these people don’t know how to act like sisters you
Get what I’m saying now some people do have good experiences it’s not to say that they have all been bad but there is a lot of faulty things mixed in to this so-called Sisterhood right and so The Sisterhood is what was the most appealing to me because I wanted more
Friends I wanted people I could call sisters right like come on everybody want want want somebody so yes I call up some of the girls that that were um I was close to that were in it with me and the first one I called um she was like a
Really good friend of mine um at the time and um I’m nervous to tell her because she’s not like super heavily in Christ like that like she she she grew up in a church she knows a God but I’m just thinking this could go either way
Like I’m not really sure how she’s going to take this I say hey like you know I’m denouncing you know I think I’m going to denounce like I I you know I just recognize there’s a lot of things in this that isn’t right like you know
Um we bowed at an altar and all of these things I’m saying and she says girl I be do that girl I’ve been trying to tell you that the first day we did it something was wrong with it I already knew I told y’all something was off
Something was off something was off okay yeah we on the same pain right so now what you gonna do about it you know what I’m saying this was common because I had talks about this before even before I moved I did like a birthday trip and and
A bunch of us went together um this was during covid we had like a girls weekend or whatever and we talked about it and it was kind of those things one of those things where it’s like yeah that was weird like why did we have to do that d
D so people know that something is off people know that something is weird people know that something is not right but they don’t got that drive to find out why or to even get up out of there once you find out it’s not enough to
Just know you got to act on what you now know you have to you have to and so um yes so I’m telling her and she’s supportive right she she’s not telling me no like telling me and don’t do it she’s like you know I support you
Whatever whatever she’s good with it go okay cool I called my next friend my next friend she crossed under me and so she’s cool with it too not well she she’s supporting the fact that I was leaving and she was just like you know this was the friend that I called once
The first time I saw I was like what you think what you think I called her and I was like I’m denouncing like God showed me it was an altar that we bowed to whatever whatever and then she starts to tell me Revelation she’s been getting
About the Book of Life about what we sound signed how it resembles how our names are written in the true Lamb’s Book of Life um it was different things that God had been showing her where she was able to correlate how they are mimicking things
Of God things of the Lord right and so I’m like dang that’s good whatever what so what you going to do about it it’s another person like what you going to do like what’s what’s T like you ain’t trying to you know this information but
What we GNA do get off phun with her I called my last friend she say to me this the one I actually be praying with and stuff she say to me it’s funny now CUA you gonna hear okay I need to hurry up she says to me um I support your conviction yes
And that hurt cuz I’m like how she don’t know how she don’t hear me how she don’t she was like I don’t see that I don’t know no it’s not like that whatever but I support your conviction it was one of those things and it’s just like Lord
Like this is the person you know I pray with I’m the closest to when it comes to growing in faith and she’s not you know comprehending or you know catching on so any lo and behold this just goes to show people that some will support and some
Won’t but regardless of who is with you or against you God is for you and you better make a decision and you better make the right one okay so I made up in my mind an announce whoopy do so I go about my time I’m like okay this is
Where the enemy starts to implant things into my head right where it’s kind of like uh just stay inactive or don’t you want to do this at your wedding or don’t you wantan you know what I’m saying you don’t want to like lose connection or it’s like little things that sound
Harmless but but they are uh they are they are uh disastrous right they they they they come to steal kill and destroy this is not a game like it’s literally a battle in your mind where you have to make a choice literally and so I sat on
It um I sat on sending a letter I sat on those things and you want to know what God did maybe like a week or so later now I don’t think okay I was doing like Bible study lives around this time there was someone from my high school that I
Knew that had crossed before me and she was the only person that I knew that was an AKA and I was going to reach out to her to um you know get her to show you know um support me whereas you know they can write a letter and you know say that
They know you whatever the case may be and I never did it and I haven’t talked to this girl since we graduated so it’s been like what five years however long she I go to my DMs and checks them and she randomly DMS me and says Hey Taylor
What do you think about being an AKA and being a Christian I thought that was the wildest thing because I have not talked to this girl since I became we don’t talk I don’t I don’t talk to her I don’t talk so I felt like God was sending someone to hold me accountable
So here I have it I said God you actually want me to leave for real for real so then I said hey like I’m I’m literally thinking about this right now like you know what are your thoughts whatever let’s get on the phone we get
On the phone she starts to tell me how she has a roommate um who didn’t know anything about her process who you know I think they became friends after she crossed or whatever and she said that she had a dream about her and the dream
She said the dream was um the fact that we were in all black and we walked into a room and we signed our name on the paper and we bowed and all she literally told her everything that happened and she said she looked at her and was like
There is no way that you could know this because I didn’t tell you ain’t no way you could know this and so it’s like we both were getting these understandings at the same time and God was using us to hold each other accountable and so we
Just got to praying girl and just just just asking God for forgiveness child that’s when she introduced me to come out from among them out from among them that thing and um she sent me the template she sent me everything I had to do and when I read that repentance
Prayer and I it just started reminded me of everything that I ever did what I said what I vow to it tore me up like I am broken before the Lord where it’s just kind of like one of those things where it’s like God I did this like I am
So sorry like my heart aches at the fact that I went against you like this is tearing me up like it’s like you recognize that you have been lied to it it creates all of these emotions where it’s like frustration and then it’s like a sadness and then it’s like guilt or
Shame or condemnation you attempt to but God picks you up right you you you recognize there’s Grace you know like God is such a good God and I’m just saying the repentance prayer and I say okay I’mma send the letter girl here I go dragging my feet
Again I’m just like I’m G send a letter like I’m send it I’mma send it so randomly one day she texts me and says sent my letter and um it’s like God was just right on it and what she did was she sent me everything I needed to do
She was like Hey I already filled out the template if you want I can send you exactly what I have and all have to do is put your name in it it’s like God was giving me every like if you don’t send this letter and so it was like July 29
Or July 30th and he said it was like a because my birthday is in August he said you need to go send that letter before August like July 31st you better have sent that letter today so I typed that letter up I wrote it off and it’s and it lowkey is like a
Death cuz it’s like dang like am I really doing this dang like everything attached to this like am I really about to do this it’s a very scary thing but it’s the best thing that you could do I’m telling you right now I’m telling you it’s the best thing that
You could do and so I um go and I I I’m riding to send the letter tell me why while I’m riding on the road I’m seeing Freemason license plate or Freemason like um things on somebody’s window and it’s like just following us on the side like as I’m
Taking this I’m like this is crazy like it’s it’s it’s the enemy like it it just started showing all of the reasons as to why everything that God is telling me is true right and so I send the letter and I just was like finally I sent the
Letter and so now homecoming time is coming up soon so people is active in them chats right they don’t be active in them chats but now because they trying to figure out how they going to match and what they’re going to do they’re active in them and now I got to leave
Them and now they G to see that I left them and now that’s about to create a whole other thing and so it’s like I woke up the next day and I’m just like I gotta leave them chats and I I just was like going back
And forth and the lord it’s just like one of those things where it’s like you know the truth you better stand for what you know it’s like sometimes my mind just get to talking like I I got to talk to myself like that right like you you
Know the truth you know what you know and so I just say man what whatever I just leave leave leave leave leave as soon as I leave someone texts me hey you okay I don’t respond CUA I’m good am are we good like I don’t know
It’s a lot going on over here you don’t even know you don’t even know so then um like I said I was doing Bible study lives around this time where I’m starting to talk about you need to be before the Lord and all of this like God
A you know you can’t be luk War all this stuff I’m saying and he say to me my stomach is boiling he says to me now make now get on live and tell everybody that that you done that you leaving and I’m like to he said today that entire day my
Stomach was a knot I felt so sick because it’s like I never thought I would be one of those people people that denounce I never thought I would be one of those people that like this is me I I’m here I I’m I’m her it’s me you know
What I’m saying thank God it’s me hey but it’s me you know what I’m saying like I have to do this I built up my courage turned on that live this is the same day that the girl texted me I just said I’m just not gonna respond or or the night before I
Said I’m not going to respond so the next day I get on the live and um I just title it it’s either your with him or against him mind you I had already been doing lives tell me why the whole school done jumped on this live yes my lives was averaging I say
Girl I had a good seven people on for Bible study we in here we a little Squad like we in here 40 to 50 people on this live the entire time just just listening to what I got to say and I’m like but before I got on I
Was sitting with God and he said everyone is gonna get on your live which was weird to me because I’m used to seven people I’m like no you know I ain’t hearing God like you know I mean but I heard right cuz they all was on
There it’s like they was sending it or something like putting it in the chats like something like everybody was on there and here I am having to flesh out everything he gave me which was essentially scripture I started fleshing out all of the this scripture and I’m just reading scripture scripture and
Telling them what I found out and what I what was revealed and I’m just out here but I’m like speaking with the crazy deal because of the fact that this is fresh and I’m upset right and so um yeah I say everything or whatever and they stayed
For the entire thing but in the comments people were supporting me um no one said anything bad um the people that knew me were supporting me but everyone else girl they were talking and chat people shared their emotions on Twitter on but I didn’t have Twitter so say what you
Want you know they was in this chats talking and different things like that but it’s just like one of those things where it’s like what’s in them is hating what’s in you or what God is doing in you and so they can’t make sense of it
Um yeah and it caused an issue I mean I lost friends I lost all of them honestly it came at different times but they all turned they all talked you know what I’m saying and and it’s just like sad because wow this is literally a death it’s a stripping from everything that I
Knew to stand for everything that I now am oh and I’m a stand baby cuz he already said we going to be persecuted so it is what it is he prepared me for this right and so it was one of those things and I want to share some of the
Scriptures that I um shared on there so the first scripture was that God really spoke to me was Exodus 20 verse5 you must not bow down to them or work worship them for I the Lord your God am a jealous God who will not tolerate your affection for any other God lord
HG I lay this this is the part that got me I lay the sins of the parents upon their children the entire family is affected even children in the third and fourth generations of those who reject me so now someone who is actively trying to break generational curses who is
Actively trying to undo everything that has been done to her right that has been done in her family’s bloodline now I have actively put something else upon it because when I sign my name on this dotted line I am giving these demons or this specific God that this organization
Over access to my life they can run upon my children they can run upon my family they can run upon my bloodline they can have their way they can do whatever they want and it can hit at any time any given moment that they desire for it too
You have to understand this so after you cross you’re dealing with this depression or you’re dealing with this anxiety part of it is because you you gave them access they have a right to send it maybe you have high blood pressure later on that could be a cause
Maybe you know uh your family is struggling with getting married or or no one’s married in your family that could be a cause if everyone is in your family is Greek maybe divorce is heavy that could be a cause you get what I’m saying it’s different for everyone a a dart
Hits differently for everybody right it’s going to be different but because also too sometimes when you have praying grandmothers or whatever it kind of lessens the blow a little for certain people but sometimes it don’t it’s God can do like you know what I’m saying it’s gonna hit it’s Russian Roulette
Right and so when I read that that tore me up because not only do I not want this to affect my family but I don’t want this to affect my kids I am actively out here trying to do better and you’re telling me this is going to affect my grandchildren and my great
Grands absolutely not so that was the first thing that just like hit me and it was one of those things where it just was like Lord so then I have you adulterers don’t you realize that friendship with the world makes you an enemy of God I
Say it again if you want to be a friend of the world you make yourself an enemy of God do you think the scriptures have no meaning they say that God is passionate that that the spirit he has placed within us should be faithful to him and he gives Grace generously God
Opposes the proud but gives grace to the humble this also uh you know looking back at this this is something that um would sound like Common Sense this is something that somebody should know but for someone who didn’t have a relationship with God like that this was
All new to me so even reading this back it felt nostalgic like dang this was the moment that I really started to understand that there is order with Christ like you know has boundaries there’s things that he will tolerate and that he won’t tolerate and and you
Cheating on him is one of them because we have to put ourselves in his choose though you know we are made in the image of God we are made in the likeness of God so if there are things that God doesn’t tolerate where do you think we
Get that from right if we set boundaries right we’re ready to cut somebody off the moment they do something that we don’t like we are ready to cut them off right but when you do something that that God doesn’t like you just expect him to receive and accept and just oh
Forget it you’re walking over him like he’s he’s just a doormat would you like to be treated that way he has feelings he has emotions he gets angry he has a WRA but he also loves hard he has patience my goodness he is patient with his children because he knows that
Listen we we we don’t know better but at some point in time you got to know better you got to understand what is transpiring and you have to come out and and and and follow the ways of the Lord you can’t hold on to this Grace piece
For the rest of your life and just say oh oh God’s going to accept me with Grace you have to come out of that ignorance and stop being on the milk and get on the meat and understand there is more to be required of this relationship with Christ it shouldn’t just look like
Me me me all the time what do I have to give him right where’s my devotion to him where is my acknowledge of him where is my honor to the father right where is my time that I’m spending like it’s relationship literally it’s a relationship PE people it’s like I try
To make it into simpler terms because we make it seems so vast or so unachievable it is achievable because all God wants to do is do life with you but you keep running from him and this was a sense where I was running whether I knew I was
Or I didn’t I was out of alignment and I had to face that fact and get where I was supposed to be and a lot of us don’t want to face it we don’t want to admit that hey God okay I got off track I was
Wrong you know um I I did join the oo I did join witchcraft you know but Lord I Forgive Me Right repentance is here Grace is here Mercy is here but you have to you have to open your mouth it says God opposes the proud and gives grace to
The unhumble so he resists those who are too prideful who feel like they know better who feel like oh you know ain’t nothing wrong with greet life oh I don’t I don’t have to you know um um denounce I can be a Greek and be Christian and in
What world did you ask asked the Lord did you ask him a lot of times these people have not asked him they have not sought him on this and and the reason that they haven’t is because they don’t know what that type of relationship truly looks like a lot of people grow up
With the relationship of God being skewed to where it’s like you you only understand what you were taught but might what you might have been taught might have been been false in some type of way there may have been some truth but some deception right so you don’t
Know everything and you have to understand you don’t know everything so allow God to show you but you’re too proud proud and too prideful for him even to come in and reveal he can’t show you what he’s trying to show you my goodness right so then it creates this
Thing where it’s like it’s all about you right you you’re seeking God on your desires your wishes but he can’t even speak to you what he wants to say so this is why you’re not hearing because you’re not silencing your flesh to be able to hear from the Lord and half of
The time you really don’t want to know the truth you don’t want to know the true answer you don’t want to know so yeah so humble yourselves before God resist the devil and he will flee from you come close to God and God will come close to you that is what blessed me
Wash your hands you Sinners purify your hearts for your loyalty is divided between God and the world let there be tears for what you have done let there be sorrow and deep grief Let There Be sadness instead of laughter and Gloom instead of Joy when I around that time I
Didn’t understand it but now I understand that was repentance and that was true repentance true repentance requires a true Brokenness over what transpired how I said when I read that repentance prayer like it was coming to my mind that dang I really did this stuff and I was truly
Broken over it that’s what it’s what we’re called to have with God a Godly sorrow that is truly broken over the things that have been done it’s not enough to just say oh Lord forgive me for doing it like you know whatever no God this affected you and hurt hurt you
Right it’s not just sorry for for joining something that wasn’t of God but I’m sorry for entering witchcraft I’m sorry for for for for worshiping a false god right I’m sorry for operating in idolatry call it what it is and truly mean it from the bottom of your heart
Truly mean it that’s what that is true repentance the truth will set you free the devil Can’t Hold You bound when you open your mouth and profess what has been done but if you don’t you stand condemned if you choose him you stand condemned there is no condemnation in
Christ Jesus but if you choose the opposite way you already stand condemned God is waiting to receive you with open arms choose him ye this day this day make up your mind the other scripture do not this is the one that wiped me clean of thinking that God is all grace and
Mercy and love which he is but he also is a God that has a raft when need be and it’s not a raft that just blows he is patient do not suppose that I have come to bring peace to the earth I did not come to bring peace but
A sword for I have come to turn a man against his father a daughter against her mother a daughter-in-law against her mother-in-law a Man’s enemies will be the members of his own household anyone who loves their father or mother more than me is not worthy of me anyone who loves their son or
Daughter more than me is not worthy of me whoever does not take up their cross and follow me is not worthy of me whoever finds their life will lose it and whoever loses their life for my sake will find it I never understood the beginning of that like what did that
Mean like why is he telling me he G to talk me against my mom and my daddy God is saying he has come to draw a line in the sand there is a great division that is taking place and you must pick a side this means that people
In your own H household will not have the same beliefs will not agree with every single thing that God is telling you they they they won’t believe every the same things right the pathway to Heaven is very narrow even when people watch this video there will only be a
Few that take heed there will unfortunately there will the goal is that everyone comes out but everyone will not come come they just simply because their hearts have already decided right and so it’s like if God has spoken to you you are the chosen one
He has spared you he put his grace on you to set you free from captivity captivity that was about to lead you to your death bed do you hear what I’m saying it’s so much deeper than what people portray this is your soul this is your soul you have to see
This on a deeper level your soul where your soul goes is at hand you should not fear the one who can kill the body but the one who kills the body and the Soul listen who you going to serve when truth is revealed what side are you picking
And honestly too this should not be a thing where when when someone comes to you and and exposes truth or God comes to you and exposes truth you instantly get offensive if you’re already getting offensive this is already showing me that that God is sitting on the throne
Of your heart that lowercase G God it’s sitting there and it’s trying to fight for his position but you have to make up your mind to allow God to have his seat back you hear what I’m saying your mind has to be made up period period so it’s
Like if you instantly get offensive that’s something to check well wait hold on now is this something that you know is wrong or bad or whatever like is this really check your heart and Sil your flesh has to die silence your flesh so that the Lord can speak silence your
Flesh so that he can speak because he won’t speak if you are in the way get out of the way so that you can hear and hear clearly because he desires for you to know the truth but you have to come into agreeance and desire to know it he
Says ask and you shall receive seek and you will find knock and the door will be open if this is a desire he will grant it on the inside I desired it cuz I desired him and if something goes against you I’m against it I’m loyal to
You because of what you’ve done for me I owe you my life because how you saved me how you died for me you you see what I’m saying how you continue to protect me how you continue to cover me these are all the reasons I can go on and on and
On why I serve him why I honor him why I praise him because of what he’s done and you should see it as the same thing if if if I say that I’m a Child of God let me be a child of God then you get what
I’m saying okay and the last one concerning this I just wanted to share 2 Corinthians 4 it says right here um therefore since God in his Mercy has given us this new way we never give up we reject all shameful deeds and underhanded methods we don’t try to
Trick anyone or distort the word of God which is what was happening they were twisting his word to fit their agenda right we tell the truth before God and all who are honest know this if the good news we preach is hidden behind a veil it is hidden only from people who are
Perishing Satan who is the lower case G God of this world has blinded the minds of those who don’t believe they are unable to see the Glorious light of the good news they don’t understand this message about the glory of Christ who is the exact likeness of God so it’s like
One of those things too when you’re questioning why the veil hasn’t been lifted off of certain people’s eyes they don’t desire it to be lifted there is no desire there God knows who will choose them choose him right and it almost reminds me of um Sodom and
Gomorah where they were uh a uh randomly uh in corrupted By Angels and they had to flee from the town lot has come from the standard he has come from the the the love of Christ right he has come from the love of God
But here he is in a city that is Tainted right and he is conformed to what is surrounding him to where it doesn’t even affect him anymore it’s to the point where he was even allowing his children to marry and to marry they’re about to
Get married um um to to to to the husbands of of that City right but but God interjected he interceded so even when they didn’t understand what was happening they had to get out and get out in that moment but if your heart is not Desiring
Him he will leave you this is why when the wife turned around stuck there stuck there because here God is in his grace and his Mercy delivering you out and it’s still something that’s attempting to call you back you don’t want to let go and he will let you stay
You hear what I’m saying he will leave you there so you have to make up in your mind people think that oh I need time you don’t they had no time pick a side and pick it quickly when God reveals something agree quickly don’t sit in your thoughts and questioning and wonder
He is God he is Sovereign he don’t even got to tell you but he gonna tell you because he love you agree quickly and come out go lot had to flee and the reason that lot was spared was because of Abraham’s prayers to to God God honored
That so some people have a lot of chances too because somebody is praying and interceding on your behalf everyone doesn’t get that everyone doesn’t experience that once I denounced I found out because I didn’t mention this but I was still doing YouTube videos and there would be people that would comment under
My videos and say like hey you’re a Christian and you’re in this you know organization sority and I’m like you know I I I never said nothing back to some people I said you know ask God or you know let the Lord lead you and so um as soon as i’ denounced
They they they’re flooding me letting me know they were praying for me people I don’t even know like it’s crazy how God moves but you have to make a choice make a decision thank you thank you thank you is there any last words any thoughts anything that you would
Like to say to those that are watching yes there are some things that I want to share um lastly um these are just some points that I want to hit um with understanding uh I mean with coming out of denouncing there’s just a couple things that I believe that the Lord
Wanted me to share concerning this and the first thing is when you denounced denounce there must be a complete understanding as to why God has called you to leave right um there is a way in which God can show you that it is not of
Him and he can tell you to leave but after that you must seek him and get a understanding it is required because if you do not you will not stand you will not stick through um and and you’ll become um very not laxidasical but still kind of mixing in the mix with the
People or or you’ll um say oh it’s not a bad organization it’s not that deep or oh God just told me to leave it’s a personal conviction I’m going to make this very clear sin is not a personal conviction let’s make this very very clear sin is not a personal conviction a
Personal conviction can be the music you listen to the food that you eat right um the church that you want to attend but sin being an idolatry that is not up for discussion okay I just want to make that clear and one thing I failed to mention
Too when I denounced it kind of opened a doorway for many other women right um two of those friends that I um called on the phone they also denounced maybe a couple weeks after me um the one who was saying I support your conviction she denounced the Lord spoke to her in an
Amazing way because I was interceding maybe like a month after I denounced she denounced the lord gave her an understanding and um there are other people on the line too I think about five of us in total left um but there were some that still had an interest to
Come back to go back you get what I’m saying and that is very uh uh telling to you not really understanding why did you leave because if you did you would have no desire when you understand what is transpired there will be no desire to go
Back and I’ve seen this a lot um to where people leave and and you just you’re just saying like you know the Lord told me to go or I left because it’s not of God which is true it’s not of God but there is a way in which when
You denounce God downloads a personal revelation to you to where you stand on that truth right for me the personal revelation was the fact that I bowed at an altar one thing I recognize in a lot of the women that I that denounce after me everybody had their own understanding
Right the one who said oh I support your own conviction the Lord showed her more of the spiritual things and I didn’t understand all of the Greek gods and stuff like that he took her on a on a whole Rampage of like the different Greek gods on our our our line name on
Everything and and that is what caused her to anounce that’s what helped her to see on my other friend based off of all the Revelation she was already getting about God comparing the two things um that was her Revelation so it’s like everyone gets their own personal
Revelation and it’s what’s going to help you stand the test of time I can always tell when someone doesn’t have a revelation because you’re saying like you know my ly sisters and that baby those are not your L sisters those are your ex it it’s not a complete understanding you don’t understand what
Has truly transpired but once I really understand the fact that this is witchcraft this was an ult I was saying oath and vows to something that wasn’t Jesus there is a deeper understanding to where I stand firm in what I believe and nothing can shake me right and even that
This should drive you to more Holiness okay there is a way in which God sets you up with denouncing that you will continue to live your life in the same way right he reveals something to you he brings something to the Forefront something that you’ve done in your life you must
Repent and come into agreement agreement with the fact that that thing has transpired and you now turn from the thing and go on to live right and this is a continuous pattern that has transformed and transpired in my life where God has after that continued to bring things to the Forefront reveal it
To me and I have to make the choice right to turn and continue to soar in him right this is what it looks like to go deeper in the Lord right and and and one thing with this denouncing elevated my relationship in Christ it’s almost as if I couldn’t go
Deeper until I did that and it’s like a lot of people you’re going to hit like a a wall right there’s only going to be so much you’ll know so much you’ll experience with Christ so so so much that you’ll encounter because you are in at fault you are worshiping another God
You’re cheating you’re cheating you are he doesn’t want anything else in his presence he deserves the top spot and God will not be second to no man or second to nothing he will not and so there should be a form of Holiness that is created to where I’m understanding
That wait if I could be deceive like this ain’t no telling what else could try to come and and and deceive me I I I need to catch a grip and I need to understand God how was I able to be tripped up like up like this and God I
Desire to be close to you so that I have an understanding of what is of you and what isn’t of you if I am growing in Christ of course we are all in different walks but there should be no reason why your life looks exactly like what you
Left you still hanging around the same crowd still hang you know still engaging in the same things God set you apart for a reason seek Him for understanding because he’s going to show you this doesn’t mean that you’re going to be perfect overnight but there it’s a
Process there should be a renewing there should be some reworking that is happening on the inside of you to where you are now shifting to be more like him God did not deliver you out of this thing for you to get caught up in another thing yes you were delivered out
Of this but now you’re you’re you’re in New Age now you a Hebrew Israelite you’re still fornicating you’re still a compulsive liar right you’re still you’re still out here stealing and committing sin that you call is not a big deal that’s another reason to be out of alignment with
Christ the whole purpose of denouncing is so that I understand what it means to be in relationship with Christ This should set you up for what life with Christ actually looks like I should be continuing to walk this path of Holiness of righteousness right power in the Lord
Because that’s what it set me up for because now people are understanding when you Proclaim this thing that you denounce because of God but your life don’t look nothing like him you have to make it make sense right there has to be an understanding and what what many
Don’t understand is when you are on this walk with Christ he’s going to continue to prune you and sanctify because this walk continues on until the day of completion right until the day of Christ Jesus until the day he returns so there are there is always going to be
Something that he’s working on you that he’s growing in you that he’s producing in you right to make you look like the version that he knew when he placed you in your mother’s womb right there is a specific version that he created in you the perfect version of you right when he
Placed you in your mother’s womb now you have gone through this world you have experienced different trials and tribulations or hurt or pain or trauma that has caused you to react the way that you do you have abandonment issues you you you experien rejection um you’re super controlling because you feel like
Nobody showed up for you or whatever it could be that is now affected you and now it’s it’s hindering you in your walk and now you’re fighting God in certain ways we all have something God wants to strip those things out of you to bring you back to the version that he
Knew when we are on this walk with Christ he is constantly renewing us into the true version of what he knew and so denouncing was the first step for me and it’s like my life has completely changed in less than a year um I denounced last
Year so it’s been a year already but in less than a year of that span of time my goodness has my life done a complete 360 God has flipped me upside down right and he has done exceedingly and abundantly more than I could have ever fathomed or imagined spiritually
Spiritually so much has changed and I thank him for that right so you have to get an understanding you have to understand why you left and and the last thing is understanding what it uh means to live a life of submission before the Lord
Okay you g to have to die if you really want a relationship with Christ you have to die the same way that he died you will have to pick up your cross to follow him many people believe that this walk with Christ is just going to be
Easy it’s a skipping the park it’s a skipping the road I don’t got to give nothing up I can live my life and you’re listen everything about you dies when I denounced I made up my mind God I will not put anything else before you kill it
All take everything god listen I have been crucified for it is no longer I who live but Christ who lives on the inside of me he has crucified me this new life that I live is not me it is him how I talk how I it’s all him it is and it
It’s not something that you have to fake it’s not something that you have to pretend to be God produces a good work in you produces a good fruit in you you have to understand this babes you have to submit you have to submit you’re going to live a life of sacrifice
Because that’s what God did for you you are you just are yeah lastly this is not a partial death this is a complete death lay everything on the line so that he can show you how to live let go of everything you ever knew and let let him
Retach you you have to become a child again the pride has to Die the ego has to die of course it’s going to be something that’s continued to be worked on but work at it you have to surrender so that he can show you and reveal yeah
I’m going to read Matthew 16 verse 24- 26 then Jesus said to his disciples if any of you wants to be my follower you must give up your own way take up your cross and follow me if you try to hang on to your life you will lose it but if
You give up your life for my sake you will save it and what do you benefit if you gain the whole world but lose your own soul is anything worth more than your soul nothing is worth more than your soul God is calling you for to take
Up your own way Let It Go when you denounce this is a new life this starts A New Path this starts a new thing and you will not regret your decision denouncing has changed my life it has made me more holy it has made me more righteous it’s helped me grow closer to
God it’s helped me understand him on a deeper level it’s it’s allowed me to be used by him to the highest capacity like it has changed me and though God stripped a lot of me I lost friendships I lo lost relationships but God restored it all the people that are now in my
Life are people I couldn’t have even prayed for or thought to pray for God sent people and he sent a lot of them through denouncing la la being one of them right God is connected a lot of us through denouncing he will do the same man God is faithful to keep you from
Falling I promise you that and he’s not going to leave you if you make this decision for him what you should do without a shadow of a doubt he’s with you he’s with you do not fear for he is with you and it will be the best
Decision that you make of your life I don’t regret it it was the best thing that God could have he saved my life I owe him him everything I owe him everything so I thank him even this this past uh Founders Day for for the organization two years ago I would have
Been around a tree singing hymns and and and and doing things to a false god right but this year at 12 at midnight I’m praising Jesus I’m praising him for what he’s delivered me from I’m honoring him I’m worship worshiping him and just reflecting I never thought I’d be here
But here I am and it’s as if I I I’m here without without a scratch here without a wound you hear me like he will carry you through and will not let you hurt your foot on a stone I’m telling you listen God loves you so
Much he wants you to be set free really analyze the things that go against him you have to come into agreeance with truth because it’s only truth that sets you free you have to come into agreeance with what your father says what what is
True is it you have to test the fruit as a child of God you were called to do that so test the fruit and truly humble yourself before him and let him speak I promise you that he will he desires to show you truth but if you sat here and
Watch this video understand that it is sin to know what you ought to do and not do it you are now held accountable for what you know so that’s it Praise Jesus praise the Lord for you being a willing vessel for the Holy Ghost to flow through you God is amazing life into
Somebody like they’re going to choose life because the words You released through the Holy Ghost and so we praise God we praise God Lord Lord we praise God so do you want to provide like your social media for people to Yes um I am
On a Hiatus right now me on a Hiatus oh my goodness a great one um but you guys can definitely DM me on Instagram at Taylor Tranice like you guys see across the stream across the screen and I’m not on YouTube right now but there are some
Old videos on there if you guys would like to watch those at Taylor chise as well so yeah thank you again Taylor this was phenomenal I’m so happy I was able to come and I just pray that someone takes heed like God loves you so much that he
Will send warnings he will send signs he will send it send it send it but at some certain point he’s going to stop so take heed seriously he loves you so much that he will run after you but he will not continue to chase forever you got to make a choice so
Yeah amen yes thank you thank you thank you Taylor and thank y’all so much for watching don’t forget to like subscribe and comment bye Bye Girl
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