So this video popped up in my youtube news feed and i thought it was really interesting so god confronted me about my sorority lifestyle i thought this was such an interesting testimony i got to check it out a little bit earlier so i’m going to do a reaction to some of the
Parts from it and just to let you all check it out and i encourage you all to go to it as well hit the thumbs up on that and while you’re here hit that thumbs up on this video if you haven’t already if you’re not subscribed to the
Channel go ahead and subscribe and hit that notification bell so we’re gonna get into it my mom and dad took us to church um again i’m nigerian so religion is a big thing in our culture but none of us were actually saved so there wasn’t really the guiding light of
Christ in our household and how to behave and things i wasn’t super rebellious i wasn’t um like a big troublemaker but yeah i just kind of lived like a lukewarm life so then things got crazy when i got to college college i started making different kinds of friends they started introducing me
To smoking partying and liquor and all that stuff and like fornication and things like that even with all that going on i still would try to live righteous and go to church and just be good but i still didn’t care truly about jesus junior year at this university everyone’s already in their friend
Groups they have their clicks their clubs and everything and i was just a loner i picked up a job so i would go to class go to work and then come home and then i think one day i was sitting in my apartment like i’m about to finish
College in a year i need to do something impactful i need to become i need to be a part of something impact i can’t keep doing this the rest of my college life so honestly it may have just been like the pride in me that was looking to do
Something that i knew would bring the attention i knew would put my name out there i knew it would get my face out there and there’s a lot of people so i have a lot of experiences personally with campus ministry so there’s a lot of people who i feel like this testimony
Video it reminds me of seeing a lot of guys and girls in college who are just looking for some type of way of finding purpose and they’re doing it through you know different organizations that the college may have to offer in various different spaces so this is a very familiar i
Think at least a very familiar you’ve done all the partying probably your early years you’ve already been there done that in a lot of ways and you’re kind of just like okay what do i need to get into next what’s next for me um it has to be more to
This experience than just partying the first thought that crossed my mind was um sga which is the student government association and at the school i went to if you’re on sga that was it’s not like a big deal like you were part of homecoming planning committee you were
Part of the groups that planned the campus parties and stuff like that so i joined sga but i felt like it still wasn’t enough i had a friend who i went to middle school with and she told me about this sorority that um was having i think she called it like an interest
Meeting she was like yeah they’re having an interest meeting and i’m gonna do it and i think you should like join too and i was like sure like i guess this is what i was looking for so i went with her and um we went to the meetings we went through
Some of like the pre-preliminary processing with like getting people’s numbers and staying in contact with certain like big sisters and that’s kind of how the process started with joining and entering into the sorority but even outside of that i was still living just doing what i wanted to do i had
More freedom so and my mom gave me a car so i would drive to virginia i’d drive to dc i would just drive to all these places yeah really interesting typical type of um scenario that you see nothing that i haven’t had stories that i haven’t heard some of what i can
Relate to in my college experience let me see if i skip ahead a little bit i want to get to it here no one in my family has been a member of a greek letter organization before so i knew like this was something i wanted to wear
On my back with pride little did i know the fruits of this lifestyle started to manifest quickly my drinking increased a lot my smoking increased a lot fornication increased a lot and i guess being on a college campus too that environment is just it’s heavy in that
Lifestyle so every time we would be like oh where’s the next function where’s the next party we’re going to this bar we’re going we’re going to hang with these guys and it’s like for this to be christian based we’re doing a lot of non-christian things and when i say
Christian based i mean the organization that i joined is considered a d9 organization b9 stands for divine meaning that in in another historical piece so the nation’s history with stories and fraternities it dates back a long way but a lot of them were exclusive of um african americans so
Then along the 1900s there were nine different sororities that stories and fraternities that kind of came together for the purpose of including african-americans and they became the divine nine so the organization i joined was considered a denial organization so the lifestyle that came with this organization it it just wasn’t of god
And i thought it was ironic because a lot of the d9 organizations they would they would call themselves christian based a lot of them would say oh all of our organizations are founded on christian principles and that’s what i used to soothe myself with when saying
Yes this is a god because the practice books and the rituals and things they would always talk about god and they would mention something about an eternal spirit but me that’s so interesting right so i’ve heard this too as well and i don’t mean this and this isn’t a
A attack of like frats or sororities especially like the divine nine or anything like that it’s totally not my it’s not my vibe or energy but like i just do think that that is a huge interesting piece where culturally they are christian and that’s the biggest thing that i think that’s the
Biggest disconnect in america that still plagues many believers or so to speak people that think they’re believers is this whole idea of cultural christianity because i was raised in the black church and there are so many traditions that they come from the black church you could think about the songs the
Hymns just the life this gospel aspect that many people carry along throughout their life but it’s not the actual gospel in a lot of cases sometimes it is they have people have that but you just see that constantly over and over so when she’s saying like this is a christian
Organization they have christian values in them because traditionally many african americans and historically do have conservative christian values to them and that such is the case as well with a lot of the black frats and sororities so here let’s continue this is where i
Think it gets in and pull it back just a little bit and things they would always talk about god and they would mention something about an eternal spirit but me being ignorant i’m like okay yeah sure so jesus has to be in this so but to kind of fast forward the fruits
Of the organization and the lifestyle that came from it there’s no way that eternal spirit was the holy spirit so that’s kind of the life that i lived after joining it’s kind of a backtrack i graduated college in spring of 2017 and then the first time i felt a conviction
Was around december of that same year um i remember it was a saturday night and i was at one of my old pro fights house and there was a sleepover open sorry a profile is like one of the big sisters that bring you into the organization i
Was at her house with some of my line sisters at the time and we were having a sleepover and it was very ratchet like we were drinking again smoking eating just being ridiculous so then that sunday i come to church and it’s the same childhood church i’ve grown up in
Same pastor i’ve had never was convicted with anything before but this time he says in the midst of his preaching he was talking about how there’s people who don’t know god he was like and you know some of you guys in here you think you
Know god and i don’t know why but that made my heart i was like oh my god i think one of those people don’t know god and if i didn’t know god instantly i started thinking about what i did last night at the sleepover so i made the
Decision in my mind like okay god i’m gonna be intentional to know you that’s dope so that conviction that’s what is needed and it’s funny or i shouldn’t say funny but interesting how you know we can grow up in church and certain things we can hear certain things and be like oh um
It never really never really felt conviction i never really experienced god or any of these things and we could be in church every sunday of our lives or several sundays out throughout the year and yet still not have any type of connection or experience with god we’re just culturally christian but
Going back to that same church at this place having been so far gone from god or really because she was culturally christian not really having any foundation but yet still having some idea of god just this double-minded view of god like it talks about in james it’s interesting hearing like how it
Kind of comes around and you go back after college and you’re like immediately the conviction that just shows me how how good god is to us that like even when we have just gone so far out into the world and done so much how merciful
The spirit of god is the holy spirit how he convicted her heart and his reach that’s literally the holy spirit pulling at her heart to rescue her from her sin to rescue and i just love that okay i think getting to know god is like going to
Church on time so i started going to church on time i was like okay it made me feel better but i’m like i don’t know if that’s it so between the month of december 20 2017 to about april 2018 i was doing a lot of earthly works of
Trying to be good and trying to make sure i knew god um i started watching more youtube sermons i started trying to read my bible a bit yeah i started listening to more gospel music um i just tried to do good i tried to be righteous on my own strength so
That kind of what now let up i guess god saw me being serious and then he was ready for what i call the big bang encounter and this big bang encounter was in may and in may i remember um it was the lord so i have a friend she’s a
Friend now um at my the first school i went to she was my ra at the time which is a i think a resident assistant because i lived in the college of dorm and she was basically the one who made sure you know we kept the bathrooms
Clean we took out the trash and things so when i left my former university i hadn’t talked to her since so then i see her on instagram this one random day in may and she’s posting a flyer about how she’s gonna do instagram live on how god
Took her out of a sorority and how god set her free from bondage and all of this stuff now i remember her probate as well i remember when she crossed into the organization and i was like happy for her i was excited i knew it and i
Just loved it so then when i saw this flyer i was so confused i’m like god that i heard you you were in bondage i’m like but i’m in sorority tell me i’m a bondage but i knew something i knew god was moving because the flyer made me
Very uncomfortable it made me i didn’t know what i was feeling at the time was called it was a conviction but my heart just kept like i felt nervous i was like whoa and i would scroll past the flyer and like you know everything will go back to normal oh thank jesus for
Conviction just thank you lord for convicting us because man where would we be without conviction but she shared this post on instagram for over a week and the fly was very um it was very interesting to me because on the flyer it had a picture of a man’s arms like
This as if it was chained and there was ropes around his arms and in the flyer like the ropes were releasing his arm and that image too was it kept jumping out to me and i’m like there’s no way i’m bondage though like this flyer is
Really bothering me so every day i mean it was literally monday to saturday i kept seeing the flyer it started making me angry because i’m like leave me alone what am i supposed to do i knew in my head i had to leave but it was just a
Lot going on this is my first real encounter with god and god and it wasn’t those like sweet headstones or people like you know jesus like swept in and took me off my feet it was like jesus confronted me about this membership thing that i’m in and i thought i knew
This all along but i didn’t so um the whole day i was like my hand was like this my whole body was trembling because i’m like i just never felt god this close this real before so um immediately i texted two of my close um former
Alliance sisters at the time and i said to them i said hey guys what do you think what would you say if i told you that i was renouncing the organization and educational piece to renounce the org means to declare that you’re no longer a member and to not have anything
To do with them anymore so i remember when i texted them in the group chat i said to the lord i said all right god this is when i started to think like i think this is probably god now so um i said god depending on their response if
They’re if they’re fine with it i’ll take it as a sign from you that this is you and that i will leave but if they’re like what no way this is not god what are you doing i said i’m just gonna brush this off as best as i can i’m gonna stay
That’s funny because we we do that a lot of times we’ll put god to the test and say okay god if this isn’t for me to do we’re already kind of no we’ll feel that conviction in our hearts but we’ll be like okay god i need a sign though i need a sign
That this is the right thing even though her a former resident advisor who also had cross had renounced her sorority and did it live and you watched it and you had that and you tried to avoid watching it all that time and yet still you ended up uh watching it and
You felt that conviction there so it’s like when god a lot of times is dealing with us it is interesting how we or kind of look for a sign we’re trying to find a sign somewhere when god has already given us all the signs and he’s already expressed through his word
And the signs have already been there a lot of times we all make that mistake so like that and surprisingly the first one who responded she was like valerie i know you’ve been on this journey with god i know you’ve been trying to walk with the lord i completely understand if
You want to leave um like i just hope that we can stay good friends i was like wow okay cool the other one she responded she didn’t want me to leave like we were good friends too but um she too was understanding so i took that as
A sign from god like all right lord i guess this is what we should do the rest of that monday mind you this is also happening on monday this is now monday morning but then i started thinking in my mind i’m like what will i lose if i
Leave like okay god i spent all this money this man i’m basically trying to like outweigh the the pros and the cons you know okay i’ll lose friends i’ll lose this i lose that okay but what do i have to gain and i’m just going back and
Forth with myself in the kitchen trying to think and then the holy spirit interrupts my thought and says what do you have to lose and i stopped and i started thinking i’m like what do i have to lose it was like in that moment when god asked me that question everything i
Thought that was valuable in the organization and that came with that lifestyle became nothing to me i was like wow i have nothing to lose so all of a sudden this joy came on me because i thought what i was about to do was such a heavy and hard and difficult
Thing when god asked me what do i have to lose everything that seemed important or that seemed to hold weight just it was just vapor you know just being nothing so it made it so much more easier for me to renounce so i went back
To instagram and i went back to the live that the girl did and i went to go watch the prayer of renunciation she said at the end and i remember i went to the my mom’s basement to say i don’t know why i went there actually but i just felt led
To go to my mom’s basement and i said the prayer and odd enough when i finished the prayer i broke down crying i was like why am i crying so much but then it started to cry as if like someone had died like you ever breathed
Over a level or something it’s like i’m crying and i’m crying and then what kept coming to my mind was like lord i’m so sorry i remember i kept apologizing i kept saying god i’m sorry i’m sorry and i didn’t really know um what i was
Apologizing for at the time i just knew like something in me knew what i was a part of was not pleasing to god yeah it is idolatry whenever we kill the idols in our lives i think sometimes there can be like there’s a sorrow that can come along
With it so godly sorrow brings repentance is what it says i believe it’s second corinthians 7 and 11 i think but godly’s sorrow brings repentance and so there was a sorrow attached to all the time spent in idolatry to all these other things making these other things making her sorority her god
That’s what i think a lot of people cultural christians uh and just people in general non-believers they make things they we’re made to worship right we’re made and created to worship but in a lot of those cases i believe that we worship the very things that are in our lives our jobs
Organizations all these different things when god is calling for us to worship him and to show him you know have reverence for him over our lives and how we live our lives and i believe there was even a part in here let me see i skipped it before but i
Want to go back to it so 28.02 let me see if i can find the part where she talks about some of the rituals this is dark and i knew god wasn’t in it because a lot of it was very ritualistic a lot of what i
Found myself doing and what they had us do was symbolic of occultic practices and idol worship and just to shed light on just one example there was this one night where um my sister my former sisters and i we were in this room and
We were kind of in a circle and in this circle we had candles and there was like golden bowls like doggy bowls by the way like in front of all of our faces and we were saying we’re repeating a lot of like chants and um it was just a lot of
Chanting and repeating this and saying that again and one of my old line sisters at the time she jokingly said oh my god this feels like a seance and in my head i was like yeah this feels like crazy or something like summoning some spirits or whatever but being again
Veiled ignorant not saved none of us really cared because we just wanted to complete the process to be in the organization so badly so yeah so all the different things that came out of it and how blinded to it she was because of her desire to find identity i mean young
People go through this identity christ especially on college campuses where you’re trying to find out who you are and then you have these organizations they literally tell you who you are or who you can be through them and find that your identity is so dangerous
And it’s not to you know cast any type of insult to greek organizations that’s not what this is about but i just think this testimony is interesting for those that may be curious about it that grew up in the church and this may be the testimony
That you need to hear that really helps you out let me continue ahead i felt so light i felt so i felt free honestly i just i don’t know what took place in the moment of that prayer and that crying and just apologizing but i got up and i
Felt free and then after that the rest of may it might you again this all was in one day this all happened on a monday after um i finished crying i got it from my mom’s basement and i just started planning how i was gonna tell the rest
Of my former line sisters and just whoever else was involved at yeah i’m not in this anymore the lord is calling me out this is not where he wants me to be yeah so i thought that was beautiful when i was watching that sorry if it was
A little bit rough getting through it i thought this was an interesting testimony i thought it was relevant uh because i could relate having been in campus ministry and serving students who have different desires to be a part of frats and sororities to do different organizations and things
Like that and i guess all i want to say is if you were raised in the church or if you feel as though you would consider yourself a follower or believer of jesus christ if you believe in jesus i think this is for you i think this can be something
For you to consider do you have your identity in jesus christ have you claimed have you received your identity do you know who you are in him because if you don’t then this will take you all type of different paths and whatnot and take you to places to do
Things that you may not have came in and attending or maybe you do have a desire to do some of the things to do some of the things that they do however i believe god has so much more for you and college is fun but we got to be careful not to allow
Ourselves and i know from my own experience that after a while all this partying drinking smoking these things these things don’t give you life these things don’t give you purpose probably what she realized over time was that this doesn’t do anything for me i had identity in this because i felt
Like this would fulfill me and when it didn’t fulfill me but it only dragged me down and dragged me into drugs and alcohol and all these other substances i wasn’t even doing any the identity that i attain from this is not an identity that i’m happy with especially when i
Look at it in the light of what god wants for me and knowing god having a relationship with jesus so i thought this was really interesting hope you all enjoyed it do me a favor hit the thumbs up if you enjoyed that make sure you like this
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