And I remember when she said that or I remember at that night as we’re doing sit-ups the girl who was who got that scripture said oh y’all guess what so-and-so um sent me today guess what she sent me today when I was talking to her she sent
Me a scripture I don’t know why she sent me the scripture Jesus ain’t here God ain’t here back with another YouTube video so in this video This is actually part five of my denounce and testimony series okay but before I actually get into the series if you have not already hit that
Subscribe and feed girl one time for the one time so this is actually like I said part five of my dunk I want to say don’t be deceived but hey it’s the same thing the Nelson testimony series and I actually brought my friend Tori on to share her
Story she is an X AKA oh hold on hold up hold up hold up hold up bring it back because the holy spirit said there are people who do not know me so my name is Lala okay and I actually crossed into Delta Sigma Theta sorority Incorporated
In Spring 2008 yep and I denounced in Fall of 2021 okay and so ever since I’ve denounced the Lord has had me speaking out against the Greek organizations and so I have my friend Tori on and she’s actually going to share her denouncing story and so everybody give it up for
Tori thank you so much Tori for joining and sharing your testimony and being bold and going forth with what God has has told you to go forth with yeah I’m excited I’m excited a little nervous but I’m not you know the Lord he got me so I’m excited he got
You yes he does so this is actually going to be I always say this this is going to be like conversation so it’s not like an interview type recording it’s gonna actually conversation we just gonna be chopping it up is that that’s okay yeah that’s perfect okay that’s
Perfect so the first question I actually want to know is how did you get introduced to Greek life okay so how did I get introduced to Greek life um so in high school I went to so I’m from Houston Texas so um in high school around 2005 through 2009 so I graduated 2009.
But in high school I was a part of something called wild PA which is a step team so young ladies for positive action that’s what the acronym stands for and being a part of this step team I was introduced to my mentor um and someone that I look up to I still
Talk to her today her daughter was in my wedding like she’s an AKA and so I was introduced to her she was our advisor for ylpa and in the organization it was that was kind of my introduction to like understanding Greek life because you know for many of you who have or not
Seen there are high schools who have step teams and they do strolls and they do like all of it so I like to say that was like the indoctrine nation of the children into like the whole like Greek experience while we weren’t doing the parties and all the extra other stuff it
Was definitely kind of my first introduction into my mentor who was an AKA I looked up to her and I was like oh I want to be just like her so I want to do this organization and then the little stuff that we did like the steps that we did
Um there’s a Delta set that I believe the doctor still do that was the art stuff that we have to um we had to try out too like so it’s a whole thing is there’s Greek members who graduate from college they become teachers and then you know they are
Advisors to different organizations and they have influence over over the youth and so that’s kind of how I was introduced into the organization I had friends also who were in Delta gym I was like also a program and so she had always been like oh I want to be a Delta
So she was also another introduction into like oh this is a thing you can go to college and be a part of this organization so for me I just saw that part I just saw I love my mentor she’s so cool I want to be just like her
Um and so with that there was the whole like stepping and that experience that kind of introduced me to what is being in what it means to not really what it means to be but being in a Greek organization and being connected to one wow you know what’s so crazy about the
Story that is my exact story like I was on the step team in high school and we were called the devastating Divas and I think I think that’s what I think that’s what that’s what yeah but our advisor was an AKA and so we did all AKA struts
Like our poses like when we would post on the step team like we would do yes literally like yeah and babies and all of that like as our checkup and yeah girl yeah okay and it was just that we were definitely like being groomed into before we even knew what Greek life
I know it is her husband is so my advisor at the time um and it was started before her I believe it was probably started by a Delta because of the tryouts and like the stuff that we have to do but um her husband he’s a copy and he said one day
He was like watching one of our shows and watching our mannerisms like the things that we were doing he’s like oh all those girls gonna be akas when they go to uh college and I didn’t I didn’t know what it meant but I was like oh yeah like that’s that’s cool for
You he probably yeah real life yeah and and it’s funny because even the pledging like we were making each other do exercises and stuff like that but it was all like kind of the introduction into what it would be like once you go to the actual
Real like chapter and try to be a part of that experience oh you so you you did you did the step team in high school and so how did high school college so like what happened like when you go like what college did you go to and like what
Happened when you got to so I’m from Houston and I went to school in San Antonio so I went to the University of Texas at San Antonio um and I started off there in Fall 2009 and I definitely so I and I didn’t start with this and I want to start with this
Um all of the ladies a lot of mentors that I have are people I looked up to at my church currently when I started going there they will always say everything is spiritual and I was like what like everything is not spiritual some stuff is just like there’s a distinction but
Everything really is spiritual um and I I think for a lot of Believers we don’t realize that everything has a connection to the spiritual realm it does and so when I started off in college I went to UTSA um and I started attending events I started attending AKA events because I’d
Already knew coming in like oh I want to be in this organization and little different people had told me oh well you got to be the screen and you can’t say certain things um and that’s a big word in the the Greek culture or at least in phc being
Discreet not really telling people being on the low key about it so um I started going to events I worked with someone who was in the organization um and one day while working with her there was another girl who’s interested in Delta who was I was friends with and we’re fresh and I’m
A freshman and so we get on the elevator and the young lady says the young lady who wants to be in Delta um she says to the AKA who’s wearing an AKA hat like oh so and so Tori Tori likes your hat and I was like uh I don’t like your hair like
No I don’t like it because I knew you can’t say that like you can’t you need to be discreet you can’t say that so I was like no I don’t like your hat she’s lying she’s a liar like I don’t like your hat but this it was already the
Spirit of deception that was like starting the the lies of even though it’s it’s people would say oh no that’s not even that big of a deal but it is because I already started like okay no I can’t do certain things I can’t say certain things so in this elevator I’m
Really lying like I love your hat because I want to be a part but that for that young lady who was an AKA that is why she started inviting into things that is why she started like oh okay so I see she told me I think one day like
You know because you didn’t because you didn’t say anything like I knew that you would be it would be good I knew that you would probably be a good person to kind of go through the process and be a part or whatever that and some other stuff but that was one of the
Reasons why she started kind of inviting me into events and so that’s kind of how I started my introduction into the chapter um the not it wasn’t necessarily the pre-pledging process but it was kind of the girl starting to see who’s interested and who’s going to come and
Who’s consistent so that’s kind of how I got connected my Lord so you um so I want to point out the holy spirit so the the the AKA thought that you were a good Prospect because you were good at lying that’s what I spiritually yeah because
We always tell people that like this it I that’s what came to me before I even got on here like the deception that was starting to be because there’s a section three options higher pledge and process the underground process and that’s what came to my spirit of like you started
Lying from the beginning like you started lying and being somebody that you weren’t called to be from the beginning so that you could get into the organization you knew there that you couldn’t say that to her so you lied on the elevator and let’s say if I didn’t
Lie then there’s probably if I did say like well yeah I really love your hat knowing the mindset that I was in in college and the The Other Women in the organization that would have been like boom I don’t know I’m not gonna pick her because she talked to us right so that’s
The connection like that I made spiritually like wow I started learning from the beginning no for real yeah you I guess the pre-pledge process life so the pre-pledge process and I’m looking down on my notes because I like I’m a note taker and I’m like okay let
Me remember all this bring it back to memory Lord so the pre-pleasure process um I got to school fall 2009 and then that fall 2010 around August is when um I was I got a call to basically come to this house at night time and don’t
Tell nobody and come here so I knew I think I might have called I don’t know if I called my mentor from from um high school but I kind of already knew there was things that people had told me like what would happen so I knew okay I can’t
Call nobody like I need to go so I went that night um and so that kind of started the whole pre-pledging process they asked me some questions they try to fill me out to see if I would be good at the whole pledging and keep it a secret
Um and it was they meaning like the chapter the the ladies who were in the chapter at that time it was dark outside it was night time spiritually connection to it’s always night when you’re going to stay it’s always dark it’s always darkness and so that is what happened
Like I started I started going and meeting with them and we started um doing kind of our pre-pledging process it was me and like five other ladies um and before the first night which is so crazy before the before I went that first night I asked God I was like God now if
There’s anything crazy or sad or anything that happens against you then just just show it to me and I’ll be out of the door like I’ll be out and I remember um I got a journal when I was graduating from high school um and in two so in 2009 I was Heavy in
Writing sermons and scriptures and I was journaling to God in that 2010 Mark until like 2012 it was like nothing in there it was I didn’t that the connection to God for me I feel like was there was a disconnection so when I went to that first night I
Prayed I prayed or said that out loud to God and we were doing sit-ups on the floor top and um one of my sororities or lying sisters at the time she had been driving around one of the members and I guess one of the members told her that she was having
A hard day or a hard time something was happening in her life in my sorority sister or my life sister I said a scripture to her she either texts her the scripture or she said it to her in the car like a for encouragement and I remember when she said that or I
Remember at that night as we’re doing sit-ups the girl who was who got that scripture said oh y’all guess what so-and-so um sent me today guess what she sent me today when I was talking to her she sent me a scripture I don’t know why she sent
Me a description Jesus ain’t here God ain’t here and now I remember that because I stopped doing sit-ups and I was like this is the moment and then the girl was like oh no and they started laughing she’s like I’m just kidding I’m just kidding but it’s still like the Lord hey
That was that was the first that was your first flag and it doesn’t matter if you was just kidding because I think this I think she’s a Believer now this person who said this but it’s still like you shouldn’t even be playing like that and she said that she’s like I didn’t
Hear I don’t know why she said that scripture Jesus ain’t here and I was just like what and then I started I ignored it and I kept going because they laughed it off and they said just kidding and I was just like okay okay so you do the the pre-haze and
Pre-pledging it’s actually time for you to make lines so what happens after you you know get the call that you made it and you start you know I guess pledging yeah so um that first night I don’t think everybody was there so that was like really like the pre-pledging and still we didn’t
Hear some stuff for a little while and then there was the pledging process that started where we started receiving people’s phone numbers they were texting us they were asking us to run errands we were taking people places we were buying people food and one of the things that um
One of the things I remember is my one of my blind sisters at the time saying like oh yeah I told them I didn’t have any money because they had asked during the pre-pledging process like oh who’s gonna pay for this because it’s gonna cost so who’s gonna pay for this and I
Was like my mom like a little freshman or a little sophomore just like I don’t know about Mom and I remember my sister saying like oh no I told them I don’t have no money I don’t know lying because she’s like I don’t want them to know I
Have money so that they can use all my money doing the pleasuring process basically so there’s some stuff that I really did not know my parents aren’t um in Greek organizations they have friends who are but there’s things that you still don’t really know if you’re
Not apart so that’s kind of the pledging process was the Aaron running errands and beating up having sex every night um there was so going back to the whole everything is spiritual it was all about chaos it was confusion there was no peace we weren’t sleeping we were scared
We were angry we were frustrated it was literally the complete opposite of the fruit of the spirit so for the Believers who are on the fence and they’re like really trying to in their mind say that this is okay it was literally everything that it was truly against the spirit of
God like it was confusing um and we know the fruit of the spirit love Joyce peace patience uh goodness faithfulness all that stuff was not a part of that process the underground process it was not a part of that at all um I even got into a car accident
Um and it wasn’t a it wasn’t um a major car accident but I was so tired that I don’t know I think I was going to pick up somebody and I kind of skidded off the road in my tires messed up so I had to replace two tires and my
Parents had to drive from Houston to San Antonio they came and saw me and even then unfortunately they knew what was going on but they kind of it was just like oh I told them me being a really good I was a really good child I always got good grades so they trusted
Me so it wasn’t if I Tori wasn’t worried that Tori wasn’t saying this was wrong that they wasn’t really they were like okay it’s cool she’ll be she’ll be all right and I lost my gun I lost my job while online I was an R.A
I locked it in and I gained it back thank you Lord but I was an R.A and I was sleeping at the front desk every week we had our our shift and I had blankets and I would be sleeping I was tired I would be sleeping at the front
Desk and some of my friends knew I was online so they would help they would probably like they would be on call for me and little stuff like that but one of my um somebody from one of my managers saw me sleeping and he’s in a Greek organization and he was like
So he took me in a room talked to me and then I ended up not having a job by the end of the semester he was like uh-uh I don’t know what’s going on but you can’t be sleeping at the desk yeah and I mean he was like no he should
Though yeah yeah and I I think at the time I don’t know if it I think people hadn’t like started maybe had inklings about what was going on but I don’t I don’t I didn’t tell him or anything like that so okay he probably didn’t yeah yeah people could comment on
Like the having a car wreck so that is something that happened during my process as well and it was deemed as normal like it has accidents every line somebody always falls asleep while they’re drunk every line something dramatic always happens and normalize when you pledge in that you could you
Could lose your life literally yes exactly that’s why I feel bad that my parents didn’t know the the magnitude of what was really like going on yeah my mom my mom didn’t know she knew I was online she didn’t the details of being online but you know she
Was just she would call me every morning and be like I’m just calling to make sure you all right that’s it yeah no but it wasn’t it wasn’t a call to be like to be doing this yeah are you staying up at night time why you ain’t got no money
All of this yeah exactly not too but my manager like I had to I told I had to tell her I told I was like I have to tell you I’m online like a job like I’m like I got bills so I told her and like after I crossed she
Was like don’t you ever do that again because I was like instant in the back sleep socially on the floor yeah so yeah and I think I was on a probationary period or something where they put me on so I had to work over the summer to like
Try to keep my job as an R8 in the next fall which I was able to so it’s like they gave me a chance but they all no they really just like so I actually didn’t get the job for the fall but because I did a good job in the summer
I was good okay I even fell asleep in a Whataburger drive drive through girl um it was so bad and I think back like oh my God this is horrible we were getting food and it was me and another um my other line sister at the time and
We felt we ordered the food and then we fell asleep in the line and the people I don’t know how long we would sleep but they have to come and knock on the window because we were that sweet they knocked on the window and we like woke up and he
Was like can y’all drive ahead it had to be at least 10 minutes minimally and we were like oh my God we just fell asleep in this Whataburger I fell asleep at a stoplight I thought with my foot on the brake oh my God at the stoplight it was a whole
Bunch of cars behind me and somebody got out that car and bammed on my window and I woke up the light is green I’m looking at all these cars that are like Turned outward to go around me and I’m now I’m thinking like what if while I was sleeping yes to break
And went into oncoming traffic like it’s crazy okay crazy so did you want to so that’s that’s a little bit of like the underground process that’s pretty much that’s pretty much what the underground process is but did you were there any like above ground like points remember like when you were you were
Pledging um so we did a lot of like meetings with the grad chapter um above ground the deception the lies trying to make sure we look like we need to look don’t tell them y’all need to make sure your hair is done your face you don’t look crazy even though we was
Over here not able to touch certain stuff or eat certain things it was like losing weight clearly um but then going to these meetings and learning about the organization the actual I guess the bylaws the Constitution the actual stuff but then also at night time learning about this underground these underground things and
Um so that was kind of the experience of just trying to make sure that people we didn’t get caught um and there’s a part that I actually forgot like we were initiated in one semester but because of some things because people didn’t trust that there was a letter or something that came out
Um about our our line and so the girls were like well we’re not gonna We’re Not Gonna pleasure all anymore we’re just gonna Y’all Gonna cross and y’all gonna be paper so you know for us now it’s fear and we’re we’re sad and nobody’s gonna like us and all this stuff
Um and so we cross we joined AKA officially in November 2010 but we were still fighting to be online to go back to that chaos and that confusion so that we can be made and be a part of this Sisterhood but it was literally more chaos to get to this Sisterhood
Um so it was just like we were we crossed but it didn’t matter because we didn’t finish the underground process so that’s kind of like what happened even during the what happened even after joining the organization actually yeah so for those that may you know may not
Be familiar with the you know above ground versus have an above ground process um you are not you’re considered paper you perspected as a member of the sorority you um dude you’re not deemed us as earned your letters you didn’t work to earn your letters so that that’s the ship
Like if you don’t have an underground process if you don’t get beat if you don’t get talked to crazy if you don’t do nothing crazy yeah you are not worthy to where the organization’s letters okay and so that whole dynamic in itself is not of God yeah you don’t you
Shouldn’t have to get beat get talked to spend all your money and and all of this for some letters when you already we already got everything that we need in Christ Jesus right and I think that for me that was the guy revealed like that was where the idolatry for me started
Um in the self-righteousness is during that pledging process the ego and the pride those Spirits started and Men started manifesting in me because as I’m going through this underground process and above ground process I’m looking at other girls I’m walking to class like oh I’m better than her
Like I’m I’m this I’m bad because I’m about to be in this organization and I’ve always been God’s child I grew up in the church but now I have this this confidence about myself because of this specific thing versus having the confidence about myself because of the
Love of Christ that he has for me so I that that started manifesting in me um and I think it manifesting a lot of people who are in denial like there’s a draw that people have to these organizations because of for connected to self-worth and people try to say like
Oh no it’s because I want brothers and sisters no there’s also this level of like I want to join because it’s gonna make me big on campus Better Than People and all this stuff and those are all spirits that you know God speaks against in his word yeah that’s so true so you
You go through the the above ground and then the next one the underground so how is life in the sorority like after you cry how was how was how was life on campus yeah for Life After Crossing was um I say once we finally work also done with the underground process like the
Full life was going to chapter meetings doing community service it started to seem like a normal student organization that you have meetings you go to events you you host things um and so there were things that I learned and some skill sets that I built because of that aspect of the organization
Um it became very just routine and I was set on like being the best so I ran for mphc president I became the chapter president I also ran for a national position in the sorority so um one of the Summers I had to go to a national conference and speak in front
Of all of the members to become undergraduate member at large there’s three positions in AKA that undergraduates can hold nationally there’s the um second vice president which is um one under an undergrad person which is right behind the first vice president which is the next president and then there’s also undergraduate members at
Large two of those roles so I was in that position I was traveling going to conferences so all of my free time was focused on the organization it was class and it was starting to get hard to balance class because I was overly involved on campus and then I also started
Um the whole National role and for me like that was again also building into this idolatry because I was doing all that it was not going to church I was doing all of that and what was what I knew I needed to do was for AKA
Like I mean to make sure I did these events and went to these chapter means we had chapter meetings on Sunday so our our graphic advisors went to church and maybe I don’t know if any of the other ladies went to church and then went to the chapter meeting but no it
Was like you do whatever you did on Saturday night you wake up try to get ready for chapter meeting and then that’s it paying dude I’m not paying tithes and offering I’m paying dudes to the organization like people don’t understand like that is like what I they
Just don’t get it like that is all what’s connected to this like if you are so much I was more dedicated and focused to AKA uplifting it and like making sure that I followed the rules and and do everything that I could and I wasn’t even doing that for God Um that’s true but I heard the Holy Spirit saying um do what do you remember about the conferences yeah yeah that’s good that’s a good guy um so I remember so it’s so many it’s so many people so many women and so many different women who are very serious also about the
Organization and one of the things that’s kind of connected to the things that God also started showing me in regards to my journey to the denouncing because this has been a long journey this is starting from the first day in 2010 to now we in 2023 like it’s it’s been a lot
And one of the things that those we have rededication ceremonies so you have your rituals where you go through the process and honestly as I was praying about this I can’t even really remember my thoughts during the ritual I think I was so excited to be a part of the organization so
But because as a chapter president I have to do those initiations that’s when I started realizing the stuff that we were doing and the words that we were saying and so happening at conferences is we were doing those rededication ceremonies which is rituals again to to connect us to to establish the Covenant
Again both Covenant relationships with the organization so that’s that’s the one thing that really stuck out at conferences um is and also the fact that there were so many women who were so dedicated and I’m and I’m a Ministry leader in my church and it’s so funny because I feel like at
Every church for those who are Ministry leaders you try to get people to serve and it’s probably more like 10 of the people in your church you might have 500 folks but only 10 are serving but you I think about like in our Greek organizations the dedication that people have
So many people probably can be serving in the church but they’re trying to spit in these organizations and that’s what I saw in conferences women who like were devoted and I don’t know their personal life as far as Christians or what they were doing at their churches some of
Them were serving their churches as well but that was one thing that God also revealed to me like y’all so you’re so focused on this you ain’t even you can’t even give me do an Outreach at the church you can’t even go talk or evangelize to somebody about God
You’re too busy trying to talk to people about AKA so yeah it was a lot like it’s too much Lord okay I got it wow okay so I’m trying to connect the dots because you’re remembering large NCAA State president were you chapter person right yeah inside the president
So like where where is the story to you letting it all go yeah Journey so um so multiple things like God showed me and I ignored it and I think that’s important for people to like I feel like in my journey right now people have said
Uh you know I I I think that’s really big what you did um if God told me to do that I would do the same thing but I just ain’t heard from God but what I what the spirit told me is like I think there’s things that we
Ignore and we have self over our eyes and you know we just don’t want to see what we can like see right in front of us um my one of my friends who’s still in the organization even said yeah when I see those videos like some of them I
Don’t even watch because I don’t want to be responsible for what I hear because I know that when I hear it I’m gonna have to do something with it because so it’s partially Disobedience basically because if you’re not gonna be obedient or if you’re gonna do halfway you kind of know
But then you’re not gonna watch the video to take that next step of conviction it’s just disobedience in general for me um it was that first night which I told which I said about the whole doing sit-ups and hearing the girls say what she said about Jesus
And then there’s the rituals part which I can’t really remember in that moment but I remembered the words as I started to do them more I started remembering or I started realizing like oh I don’t know if we should be like doing this or taking them and kneeling
It before the altar with candles and with the shrine and with the founder it feels a lot we found this picture up and I started to realize like this is not okay like my spirit started to say that um and then also with the conferences in the rededication ceremonies at one point
While I was still in undergrad one of my line sisters at the time we stopped saying the Pledge into him and so for for like the viewers The Pledge into him there’s something that you always say at the end of meetings there’s this this statement that they make you remember
You can’t even write it down so we stopped saying that because we knew there was something was wrong we were literally be in a circle singing and then when it when people like bow their head to say it we were just looking at each other live that’s how you know
But instead of like coming out of the organization and feeling all this conviction I was just like oh I’m good I’m just not gonna say that part I’m not gonna say the Pledge I’ma just kind of murmur to him a little bit I’ll be fine so that was that
Um and then the one of the big things that is a part of this my journey is I’ve worked in fraternity and sorority life in Greek life so I um when I graduated from undergrad I went to get my Master’s in student affairs to work on a college campus and so starting in
2015 I worked on a college campus my goal was to be a director of Greek life I was like these organizations are the best like when they’re done right you know your kid can benefit they’ll be a leader in this service and all this stuff and so
Um but the Holy Spirit started like working on me I worked in Greek life from 2015 to 2019 and the Holy Spirit started working on me because one of the things that I have to experience or have to deal with as a staff member was behaving so now you have
Somebody who was in undergrad who knows what’s going on now a staff member and I was very like um honest and transparent during my interview process of like I experienced this but I don’t believe in it because I because I didn’t anymore um and so I saw people being hazed kids
Getting in trouble like I didn’t see people being hazed with people were getting reported for hazing alcohol parties it was so much like negative stuff and I’m like these organizations at the time I was like these organizations have this stuff but all it is is Shadow with all this bad stuff
And I remember the moment where God kind of convicted me was during the summer time we always have little um interest me not interest meetings but um we talked to students who are interested in joining organizations or Greek organizations and I and I in my spirit I was like
I gotta get off this job because I can’t keep ushering these kids inside Dollar Tree like I’m ushering these kids into potentially their spirit being completely disconnected from God and then like stepping into this organization and dedicating their life to that and I didn’t want to have to go to God and him
To be able to like run down the line of all the students that I’ve literally helped get into these organizations and so that’s what he kind of started it was behaving it was the the all of the the issues but then it was that it was like this is spiritual like you aren’t
Helping these kids get into this stuff um and then the other thing that happened in my job that really kind of like started to make me have a disinterest or discuss was again the spirit of deception I think the movie what’s the movie called that came out about pledging with Trevor Jackson it’s
On Netflix I said oh Lord I’m out all right I knew this was a code I knew it but I’m sorry go ahead go ahead because I was like I’m not gonna remember this movie like I need to ask her because I really keep forgetting
That I didn’t even look at the title I was like Trevor Jackson I remember Trevor Jackson in it um so Burning Sands came out I was working at the I was working in the um Greek organized or Greek life fraternity and sorority life and we had a viewing
Because I was over National hazing prevention week yeah so I had to do all this stuff and so we had a viewing of burning’s fans and between the nphc people on the internet and the students online and how upset they were about this move in this is not this is not
What we doing how are they like putting this out there this is not what we’re about I’m like come on with your lies like why y’all lying right now like why are we why are we why are we sitting here lying like come on so like that really like pissed me off
Because I’m like dang this is not going to ever stop because it’s not supposed to it ain’t no God this chaos is confusion Satan is just he’s just in the thing he’s in it so it’s not going to stop because it ain’t supposed to stop so I was just like yeah
These people don’t get it I can’t be around this no more like the the bad without weighing the good completely um so that happened and then um I go to I was going to a church Agape Christian Fellowship um in Fort Myers Florida and my pastor
Dr Phil Phillips at the time like my spiritual father father he married me and my husband he had a um I was very active in the grad chapter and while after after college and um he had a bible study on uh deeper in the word series he called it
In this taboo topics in the church so he was talking about tattoos he was talking about piercings everything child so he started talking about fraternities and sororities and it was so funny because I remember God brought that memory back to me and some of the ladies who I I’m
Close to and are still my friends they were wearing their line jacket while they were listening to me lie they were listening to this um they were wearing that line jackets while they were listening to the presentation and we sitting there and Dr Phil is talking about Freemasonry he’s
Like going in he’s starting from the top of like Masons and Eastern stars and how to still connect the Greek organizations and the idolatry all of it he’s just given to us and we was like Dr Phil and I love him and we literally said this to
Him so I could feel like no that’s that’s those other organizations that’s not us like we don’t do that we’re about service you know the little statement that everybody says we’re non-hazing sorority of maternity and we’re about this like that’s what we said to him we
Said that to the The Shepherd of the house it was like that Dr Phil none of that no that’s not that’s not what we do we’re that’s not what we’re connected to our organization is connected to doing good and I remember that and I was like oh my
God not in the church house like out here so that happened and then we get to this is the big story so this is why this is all of that stuff happened to me and then this is when God like finally got my attention Ron I go to Transformation Church Miami
Here in Miami Florida and we have this thing called Camp transformation that we started last year um in the summertime it’s a full-blown like we are at the campsite we’re doing like prayer there was Deliverance happening Taurus Solomon he’s in Dallas he did a delivery um yeah he did a delivery session or
Whatever and I got delivered from some things and one of the things happened in connection to AKA so we’re at this camp and this lady comes up to me who I’ve never talked to about AKA ever and she says God told me to tell you to denounce AKA and I said huh
It’s because I was not she was like yeah God told me to tell you to denounce AKA and I said well why’d he tell you to do this is high this is my body language and my tone I was like and this is a spirit and we had a Christian spiritual
Retreat and I looked at the other lady and I said well why he tell you that I don’t I don’t understand why he would tell you that like there’s all these other people who are in here also in Greek organizations why are you not going up to them telling them that
And she just looked she was kind and she she just looked at me and she said I don’t know I’m not telling anybody that because God told me to come and tell you he was she was like he didn’t tell me that he didn’t tell me to go to nobody
Else he told me to come and tell you so I looked at her and I in my head I did not say this out loud I just looked at her and in my head I said well whatever like I’ve already inactive like I don’t even do anything so it’s fine
I’m inactive that’s what I said she said to me and I didn’t say this out loud she said and you can be inactive he says that you can’t be an active you need to remove your name from The Scroll you need to denounce and I was like oh God oh the Lord
He’s older I literally I did not say that to that lady I was like because at first I was like oh my god did I say that out loud no she looked at me and she said and he said you can’t be an actor you need to remove your name
From The Scroll I was like oh God the Lord is chasing after you he is leaving the 99. and I that was May 2022 um so before that December 2021 I got married we added the little the Sarah the strolling the song that’s the reception girl my husband is a capital
So he they did that little Sweetheart song it was a lot I was just like I done did all this stuff I done been with AKA for all these years what what why why me like what what do you mean guy like why me um so that was May 2022 August it took
Me three months to even return to that conversation because I was like uh I knew she literally heard from God but I feel that Spirit In Me was like and I ain’t letting you go like you saying it’s it’s all right you you’ll be fine
And I was just like no I’m not I don’t think I was questioning if she even hears from God lady don’t hear from God how do you start questioning that when clear and leave in the moment I was like she hears from God but then afterwards I was like nah
It’s good she ain’t she ain’t talking to God that’s that wasn’t for me so I’m going back to my journey I’m in my journal and I’m going back to the uh the letter that I wrote to God as I was having this this issue and it was August and I was sitting and
Doing my devotional time and God and I started writing and I was like okay God like confirm to confirm please confirm I to me concerning AKA what was said to me about denouncing my letters um I was like what would you have me to do Lord this is what I’m writing in my
Journal I’m no longer paying dues I’m not active I don’t even think about the organization the same um I wouldn’t say the women are demonic or the values are the orgasm but people just take things and they make it worse so I’m already trying to basically like
Ration with the Lord like it’s all right God like it’s okay um and so then I put um people take things and make it worse I don’t know God lead me so that I do your will so now I’m asking him and so he so then he says
Um I was like show me why I said if I denounce I have to explain it to all these people and why and I don’t even know why I just I don’t even know why you want me to do that so show me why
Why would I do this I don’t want to be disobedient so please let me know um and so he said oh and then I’m sorry the last part is important because of the spirit that I’m dealing with with people pleasing I was like also I know I
Am not supposed to worry about what other people think but what about all these other people who are under these orgs I don’t want to like not be in the orgs there’s people in church who are in or it’s like I don’t want to be seen
Different I don’t want people to look at me in a certain type of way like rationalizing God like why you have me to do this which I know believers do all the time that he accesses we try to like we try to try to say no and we get scared on them so
Um so I wrote that out and he said oh and then at the end the Holy Spirit started working on me I was like I also but I also don’t want people pledging themselves to the ideals of an organization so I said all of these things and I said
However I don’t want people pledging themselves to the organization I don’t want them pledging their heart their mind their strength to the organization instead of Jesus and so they immediately like the Holy Spirit had me go to the pledge and say the Pledge in my like say the Pledge out
Loud he started showing me and like with the pledge it’s basically I think I saw another video from another AKA she’s right like they took a scripture they took mark I gotta find the scripture they took a scripture whoever created the ritual and they replaced the way okay
And if so we’re pledging our heart our mind our strength to the organization instead of in the Bible of God and the word of God it says to Jesus you pleasure heart your mind your strength your soul to Jesus um and then he took me to him and then
Him it’s public like people can Google to him that they sing but one of the things in the hymn that talked about having a heart that’s loyal and a heart that’s true it talks about like debt like dedicating like yourself to the the ideals of the organization
One of the parts it talks about um I wrote it out he literally had me writing out the song um will pledge our faith and United will Forge away greater Laurels to win greater tasks to begin for thy honor and Glory today so again we’re seeing hymns for the
Organization are sung to the organization and I’m like how do y’all how do we not see this like just like we go to church singing songs to the Lord we singing hymns to the god of the organization like which is this idolatry that is continuously happening and so he
Had me Circle pledge our faith and said that’s a covenant yeah I’m in circle honor and Glory honoring glorifying the organization this is all like you’re in Covenant with this organization literally going to happen I was on the floor like oh God I’m sorry
I was so sick I was so sick you know how you go on a roller coaster or if you’ve ever been on a roller coaster when you go down and your stomach drops that’s what was happening to me like it was like God please stop don’t show me
Anymore like stop I got it I got it he was like you asked me to show you and I’m showing you it it was a lie that is to the moment that God revealed who Minerva was to me he’s like you you know whenever I don’t
Know some girl on top of the shield and God was like she’s a female guy and I was like what she’s like wait wait wait hold up she’s the what she’s oh God and she is all in this organization yeah Circle we got a struts like Minerva yeah
The shield Minerva is on our jackets yeah I’m out um to another God if I would have just studied who she was I don’t know right even the atlas is on the uh AKA Shield like AKA Shield yeah that is a God yeah and I think for some of the members who
Some people really don’t I feel like me I’m in a different place because I had to do those rituals before I remember those things I think for some people like they’re not going back and really like the originals is online Google it and look like it’s there it’s
Not and because there are so many people who did it when they were young I wasn’t even in the place that I am now spiritually so I wasn’t thinking about none of that I was just in the organization but I do think like folks are like not going back to the rituals
Um and for me it was still like a lot of like Warfare and not being comfortable doing what I did because or doing the denouncing part because even after I prayed and I joined all of that um I wrote the letter that was so God told me to denounce in May I
Finally wrote the letter in August and I sent it off but then I didn’t even tell people I told one friend my husband and then my line sisters who were my license at the time so now I just call them my friends um but and I told them I need to tell my
Parents because I was just like I don’t want to have to start explaining to all these people some people I was like seriously they’re not even gonna understand God and I don’t feel like having these conversations so I’m just not saying nothing to call but I’m just not connected I’m good
Then January roll around and I’m getting happy Founders Day text messages and people ask me stuff and I’m just like I’m not in this but these people don’t know that because I didn’t follow the I didn’t be obedient all the way it was still like partial disobedience I
Listened to like a video that another girl had I started doing that also that’s how I got um confidence because I started watching other people online who was talking about denouncing and one of the other girls said that God had led her to like denounce publicly he was like you
Publicized being in this organization you was all on social media you was just everywhere about it but now you can’t publicize coming out of it for me I was like so yeah it’s it’s a lot so did you did you eventually go public what you’re denouncing
So I um yeah so I uh January came and I was like agitated that people were like connecting me to AKA even though I ain’t saying nothing even my like my even I think my stepdad like he even called me and say a happy Founders Day and I was like
I did not work I was like some silly I said that I should not have said because sometimes God don’t want you to have conversations in a certain way like yeah and it was just me just being irritated and frustrated and so it caught him off guard and so now he’s
Like what are you talking about and like what do you mean and for a little while he had to stick with that because he was like well why would you do that like why are you not in the organization anymore I have friends who are in Greek
Organizations like what do you mean it’s idolatrying he was trying to like understand it and I didn’t even give him the respect or opportunity too because I was so irritated that I just blurted it out and so I had to go back to that and
Say I shouldn’t have said that to you in that way and his biggest thing was like I’m disappointed that you didn’t feel comfortable enough to tell me at the beginning and I was like it was that spirit of fear like I just thought everybody would judge me and stuff or I
Think it wasn’t even that I just was scared um and so January was when I started like I was praying and God told me to go back and tell them so he so I don’t know what I was praying about I think I was praying about God if there’s anything
That I haven’t been obedient about please show me I think it was doing a fast at my church and so I was fasting and praying and he said go back and tell them and I knew exactly what he was talking about that’s all he said was go back and tell them
And I was like dang I missed the mark now I need to do this so I started in January February I started like sending people my my letter because I I’m a writer I like or I write my emotions my feelings out so instead of having these
Long drawn out text messages and and uh phone calls I just started sending people the letter and was telling them hey you need to know that I did this last year I was scared I didn’t want to tell anybody um so because I just didn’t want to deal
With people and I got a lot of support I sent it to some Greek members um that I’m close to and then I sent it to some people who um are just my family and friends and everybody like supported me um but it was still the conversation of
Like that’s good that you’re as you know you are listening to God if God was to tell me that then I would but until then like he ain’t called me to do that so I’m like hey okay and I was rationalizing a lot of dang God why me like all these
Other people you need to tell them too but I realized for him it’s there is a bigger story in this and there’s a bigger purpose in this and it’s not about it’s not about everybody else and I had to get out of that is God has me on a specific walk and
It’s about what walk he has me on um but the one thing I would say that I did leave out a part of the denouncing is another thing that God showed me that I ignored at one of the conferences it was our one of our big conferences when
Um our boulay or something like that not only happens a couple of years or every other year the president at the time the international president her daughter she was supposed to introduce her mom at a uh big dinner or big luncheon she got on that microphone and she said
Something of the source of you all need to denounce this organization this organization is demonic she was on the microphone it was thousands of women in that luncheon she was supposed to be introducing her mom and she said that and they like kind of like held her hand and kind of
Got her off of the the stage and then like they chalked it up to mental health and like oh she was going to she’s been going I think somebody mentioned she was going to a new church and then I think somebody else mentioned a mental health issue but even that I saw that
And I was like and I thought about it and instead of my spirit and then I didn’t act on it but I knew I was like oh my God so that’s even another time like God will show us but we just gotta listen and if we don’t
And I think that’s also what’s hard about this is there’s a lot of people who don’t understand because unfortunately some of us as Believers don’t read the Bible don’t read the word some of us are a little lukewarm where we just kind of like did we do our
Sundays maybe we do a little bible studies and then that’s it but when you open up that book and you start to allow the words to transform your mind and you start to allow God to transform your heart you start to realize who you are in God like he’s going to show you
And you’re gonna start feeling conviction yeah wow mm-hmm thank you so much for sharing yeah Testimony and do you want to provide do you want to provide your Instagram for you know if anybody just want to keep up with you know Tori’s life thing you want to provide yeah so my Instagram handle is at tour so at t-o-r underscore b-e-e underscore j-a-y so at toward BJ
So tour underscore B underscore J but yes that’s for anybody who has any questions don’t be getting my DMs also arguing with me because I’ma tell you to take it to the Lord take it to God God told me this you’re gonna have to take it up with the Lord
So yes but I do want to talk to other people who need encouragement and um want to disconnect yeah well listen thank you thank you thank you for uh being obedient to the Lord and opening up your mouth because you are breaking so many chains by just sharing your testimony it’s just that
Simple just sharing what you would God is going to do the rest he’s going to do the work and the hards okay so thank you thank you for having me yeah and thank you for what you do because again like I I came up on your video and many others
But your videos were awesome very important it’s just the encouragement part this is encouraging to hear other people’s testimonies because I was in this place where I’m like nobody else is doing this like no one else feels this way and the videos that you’ve posted with other people and then your story is
Just showed me like oh my gosh I have similarities like I’m not the only one who’s struggling or who have thought these thoughts or who feel this way and so I definitely really really thank you for utilizing your platform and being obedient to God and and doing what
Um you’re you were called to do which is to bring light to this and so thank you thank you so much for that amen you’re very welcome oh my God and thank y’all so much for tuning in and watching don’t forget to like subscribe and comment bye
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