When I tell you terrible we got wood we got grown men with married families that have moved on with their life that came back and pledged us they whooped our Tails okay I there were many nights where I couldn’t sit down so men were beating women What Hey hey it’s your girl laa Jenkins back with another YouTube video so in this video I actually brought my girl radiant on to share her denouncing testimony but before I actually get into the video if you haven’t already hit the Subscribe but if you grow one time for the one
Time okay so like I said I am laa and I’m actually from Arlington Texas EG let’s go that’s my hood yo put so I am from Arlington Texas I cross into Delta Sigma Theta and in Spring of 2008 and I denounced in Fall of 2021 and
So I was a Delta about 12 or 13 years I was really heavily involved in my organization I was heavily involved in my chapter I was chapter president I was stepmaster I was everything dealta and the Lord called me out and so ever since
I’ve been out the Lord told me I got to go back and get the rest and so that’s what this denouncing testimony series is me going back and getting the rest okay and so like I said I brought my radiant on to share her powerful amazing denounce and testimony so radiant thank
You so much thank you thank you thank you for saying yes to God and being bold and being willing to share your testimony I know when we was just speaking you said this is not something that you would usually do and so we thank you that the Lord is calling you
To new he is calling you in this to be used however he wants you to be used and so just thank you and I’m super excited to hear your testimony yes thank you so much for having me you’re welcome you’re so welcome so my first question is how were you introduced to Greek
Life I was introduced to Greek life really I would say watching um school days watching um a different world that was our first you know introduction on TV with Greek life although we know those organizations um in those movies these were not actual the real or real organizations but through that but it
Wasn’t until and I had some aunts and um cousins that were in Greek life but they didn’t live in my city so we weren’t that we weren’t that close but I got introduced into Greek life when I was on on campus in undergrad I went to uh Florida Memorial University in Miami and
It’s a small HB private HBCU so it was Greek life life was everywhere everybody wore their paraphernalia so coming from high school into undergrad being a Freshman you see people with their shirts and you’re like it’s like a whole new world especially if you lived on campus so I got introduced to just
Seeing it and introduced into it um joining the sorority through um I dated an alpha I was in undergr I was a sophomore and at that time I dated an alpha he was an upper class man he was a Junior at the time and he would always tell me you could
Pledge but if you pledge pledge of sorority so I didn’t really understand like what he was talking about until we started to see the sweetheart organizations so my roommate a couple of my roommates and their friends they were joining like the Kappa sweets and the Omega pearls and the the Alpha maybe
Alpha angels I can’t remember the name but they were joining those little organiz ations while we were freshmen and he will always warn me about that oh no no girl of mine is going to ever join a sweetheart organization and I understand what he meant by that so
While my roommates was doing all that they was coming back into the room you know late night after doing what they were doing with their with their sweethearts I just knew that being with him he wasn’t gonna allow me he he he wasn’t with that so he said join a
Sorority so that was my introduction to it if that make you know if that makes sense no that makes sense okay so your first your first or that you were interested in was it gamma Stig or was it Zeta so um my first or that I pledged
Was Zeta beta and when I did that at the time or well around that time the Zetas on our yard they were they were just coming back off of suspension for whatever they had going on the previous semesters or whatever so I was very myself and a few of my other friends we
Were really really cool with the sigmas that were on the yard and I felt some sort of connection to them because a lot of them were Bahamian and my father’s side is Bahamian so I hung around them a lot to be around the culture of other uh
Islanders and stuff like that and they used to always say man when the Zetas come back on the yard y’all need to be our sisters because y’all so cool y’all so cool you know with their uh came and acted y’all so cool so we were like okay
Well whenever they come back we’ll see what’s up so once they came off of suspension they were always they were all kind of like pushing it into us early like y’all hang with us y’all cool so when they come back go show interest so they were always talking about
Constitutionally bound and I didn’t know nothing about that because we hadn’t seen any Zetas on the yard and any sigas together so it was like okay cool and it appealed to me because I’m a girl who I had I grew up with nothing but guys Brothers I have brothers my brother’s
Friends were my brothers so I’m a sister to the brothers I was one of the boys so having on campus the brothers you know they was our brothers before they was our brothers but having our brothers as brothers that connected to me so that’s what appealed to me with the
Constitutionally bound brothers and yeah I was feeling that so once Zetas came back on the yard and they had their first um informational I went and my room one of my roommates went um now let me go back I told you I had people in my family that are in that were in
Sororities but they were AKA okay so once I got into college and they heard that I was into going to a HBCU and my mom would talk to to some of her it was it was my um my mom’s first cousin so my second cousins they would be like oh
Make sure she does AKA cuz we got only AKA in our family so when I dated the Ala I remember one of the AKA said to me this this is before I show interest in anything she said it was so how she said it was so mean she was
Like don’t think cuz you dating an alpha that’s GNA get you easy access to be a a a a AKA and I was really taking back by that because I had shown interest in anything so for you to come out the back and say I’m dating him so I could get
Into the organization I was like it already from jump I was like I’m never joining their organization at all I’m good I ain’t even gonna show no interest so I already knew that that wasn’t the road I was going Delta wasn’t the road I was going I was saying that because I
Had a roommate it was so many of them it was like the line was almost like 50 70 deep so I was like dang I want Sisterhood but dang like that’s too much like that’s too much so that was too over whole Army yeah it was too overwhelming for me with all those
Sisters I was like yeah that’s too much so when de uh when Zeta had their informational a couple of me and my um friends we went we went just to get the information and then shortly after the informational they had the interest meeting that’s when you actually show
Interest and put in your bid like yeah this is something I want to do so so you applied of course we know you made line you made it so how was the process of being online so the process of being online once we got our calls that we were
Accepted it was seven of us um in that line I was number five of seven we got our orders basically of what we needed to do so I remember them telling us we had to get black sweatshirt and matching sweatpants bottom from Walmart so that’s
What we had to wear when we were were meeting up online we were not to wear any blue at all so white blue out of your uh uh clothes and your closet and we were to wear the black when we met up with them we were also not to tell
Anyone that we were online a lot of them didn’t live on campus what you call them the proac they didn’t live on campus so we had a lot of leeway of what we could do because they weren’t living in the dorm rooms like we were but they were
Always out there during lunchtime and you know when they got off work or whatever so we were being watched and they had other people watch us so when you um when you were online did y’all have an underground process or or was this just above ground it was I would
Say both it was both because when we pledged um of course they always reiterate this is we a non haazen organization D you know but when we actually met up we were getting hazed we had our Pro fights in our face we had them yelling commands at us left and
Right we had them having us line up like this or like that locked together they were pushing us trying to break us apart they were trying to go through up through our line um before they taught us that you don’t never let anybody break your line so it was a lot of
Physical like you know physical abuse with pushing us around doing this to our heads it was a lot of stuff to see what we can take and if we would succumb to it and break and be like I’m done I’m I ain’t got time for this to see if we
Will raise up on one of them because they you know what I’m saying it was a lot of that so it was some of us that was you know with it like if somebody touch me I’mma you know but we would always be like Noah sis chill like don’t
Do that don’t Buck back like n because it’s G they always told us that if one of us get in trouble all of us got in trouble so it was like if you did something it’s gon to affect us so that’s how they manipulated Us in order
To to control Us control the line now because they were uh suspended previously it wasn’t pledging hard it wasn’t super hard it was more mental manipulation and a lot of uh do this for me next time we come to set bring this buy this you know we spending our money
On them all type of little stuff didn’t I tell you to bring this to say all y’all do this all y’all get in trouble so it was a lot of that but it wasn’t any like where we got wood because um and I and I’ll tell you why
Because they were all for it but my number one that was on my line she was Zeta Legacy her mom was in the grad chapter actively in the grad chapter and from what we understand she was the she was the one who who uh pulled the trigger on them getting suspended for
Whatever they did so with my number one being Legacy and they knew that was her mom when we would meet up she was never there so they told two through seven but number one was never on set so she never got pled basically she was put through easy so she doesn’t have any
Recollection of anything we went through she didn’t see it she didn’t hear about it unless we told her after we crossed so our number one was automatically just what what what people would call paper because she went through no process nothing because they didn’t want her to
Go back and tell her mom if her mom asked what did you guys do what did you so they only allow her to come to the safe stuff that she could report back but any of that coming to the apartment complex and going out into the field or
In the woods or wherever we went she didn’t go wow so she was so she was considered jail that’s what we would we would call like she jail yep wow so do you remember the above ground process um the above ground ceremonies like the the rituals that y’all were doing above
Ground kind of like um like it would kind mostly above ground is gonna be on campus the above ground process was like if I could remember correctly because again I PL in fall1 so it’s it’s been a long time and a lot of that stuff yeah
You you kind of once you get out you repress it and PTSD and all type of stuff but um yeah so when we would be in the cafeteria eating and they came in there and scoped out who was who was online that was in the cafeteria they
Would say something that we would have to get up out of our seat with sitting with our roommates our friends and greet them so it was like greetings big sister you know doing all of that in front of everybody and if they wanted to do something that was that would
Humiliate us in front of the cafeteria we would do it and everybody would bust out laughing and then we’ll have to sit down and finish eating our food so it was spontaneous of that but you said that y’all were doing this like in the cafeteria wasn’t I thought like pledging
Was like illegal at that time that was that was closer to the end closer to the end of when we getting ready to kind of come out so it was a little bit of that they still was doing little stuff okay okay okay that makes sense I was like
What because I thought listen I thought they abolished that in like the 80s but y some some of them was still upholding some of the old ways and was doing some of that online wow okay okay so you pretty much crossed into the org so how was it when you became Zeta 5
Beta so when I became a a Zeta it automatically gave you the sense of I made it I’m somebody like you had that air about yourself so if you wasn’t a nobody then now you’re somebody not only are you somebody you are oh that Zeta it almost took your individuality away cuz
It’s no longer oh radiant it’s oh The Zeta The Zeta The Zeta so that was your new identity on campus and at that time it was good like you know I’m a I’m a sophomore you know what I’m saying and college like I got my my jacket my
Colors you felt like you was somebody so it was a little bit of arrogance a little bit of ego boosting it was like a gang like you joined a gang in a sense so it really put a strain on those friendships that your old friends weren’t in anything they were just
Regular college students and then now you a Zeta it made them feel way like oh you GNA go hang with your sisters like you can’t it was a lot of that and it was a lot of Defending like no we still good we still good but at the same rate
I’ve got uh I had situations to where if I’m sitting with one of my roommates was a sigma gamma the other one was a a Delta but the sigma Garo and I we were we were like this and and God bless her so she passed away a few years ago but
We were close and I would always hang with her and I remember one of the pro fights seeing us and was like oh you can’t be hanging with her no more because you a Zeta now so you got to hang with one of your line sisters and I’m like Dam y’all dictating my
Friendships like I can’t hang around it was and it wasn’t everybody but it was certain people that were online I mean on the campus that would feel that way yeah so what was your what was your spiritual relationship I should have asked this from the beginning like while
You were onine how was you and God so I grew up I grew up in church I grew up my mom waking us up Sunday morning let’s go it ain’t your birthday you ain’t staying home we going to church so when you are not home you have more Liberty to to
Figure it out on your own so we had a church across the street well they call it the chapel across the street from um our campus where people that were Christians if you wanted to still go to church you would just get dressed and go to church across the street at the
Chapel um so I wasn’t and I lived in the same city that my college I grew up in the same city that where my college was so it wasn’t nothing for me to call mom to come pick me up and outside the campus and I go to my church that I was
Already going to but I stopped going to church with my mom cuz I really isolated from my family it was more college life so I would go to Chapel but honestly my relationship with God wasn’t I wasn’t Walking with God like how mama taught me
To and read my word because I had so many distractions on campus and at the time yes I grew up in church I know what right from wrong what I’m supposed to do what I’m not supposed to do but it’s almost like when you’re unequally Yol and you’re outnumbered you got more
Uh friends in the world and connections of people that’s in the world and not people that’s going to church you start to conform and you start to become just like the The Company You Keep so soon the me going to the chapel every Sunday that started to
Dwindle that started to dwindle I wasn’t going I was partying um one thing on my college campus like the sigmas were really big where they had this this party that they would throw randomly it’s called wild Wednesdays and wild Wednesdays were the big thing on campus like their parties
Were that so when I started going and uh when I became a Zeta and started um being able to be around frat like that I was back there where they were um mixing drinks you know the blue blue juice and all that stuff where I I I became a literal functioning
Alcoholic in my undergrad years because of the access that I had to alcohol I may not have been buying it myself but it was so easily accessible and always partying and drinking to where I was drinking before I was going to class I’m I’m I’m small I’m 5’2 I
Probably weigh 140 if that and I I was able to drink some of the big boys under the table that’s how high my tolerance was at the time and I’m not even bragging on that I thank God even to this day I don’t drink anymore I have totally been delivered of that praise
God but I can remember that I would even save like say I had a bottle I would save the bottles as trophies this gray goo bottle was from when I this went on this this party and that I had a story behind every liquor bottle that I had and it was like a
Shrine in my room and it was like now looking back I was like Dam I I didn’t know who I was so being attached to um a group of people who do a certain thing no they didn’t put a gun to your head and make you do it but because the
Access is there and you give in to the access it starts to to the seed is planted and it starts to take root in you so I was definitely alcoholic w wow so besides being an alcoholic what other areas like changed when you became a
I was real secretive I was full of Pride I was drinking I was smoking I was smoking a lot marijuana we wow smoking heavy yeah I was smoking a lot and that’s actually how when I told you at the beginning when I was saying how the
Sigmas that were already on the yard we were like real tight we were tight a group of us girls was tight with them because we were smoking with them we were smoking with them all the time and they always had the weed and it was nothing if you ain’t have
Money for it or able to get it they had it so it was easy just to sit up under them and and jump in the line and smoke with them my Lord child so then you got into gamma Sig right was that at your college too so
How did you get into go from Zeta to gamma Sig so okay so Gamma Sigma Sigma was not on our campus obsolete they were on the campus long long long time ago so it was a a a a sister at the time who wanted to reactivate the chapter it was
Inactive so here we go again another opportunity to bring something that was once Dead Alive back on campus and I was like yeah we did that with uh well that happened with Zeta you know they were gone and we brought back the new line so
It was a sense of Pride and like yeah we’re the resurrection line um and that’s actually my line was called for Zeta blue Resurrection H go figure right and um then gamma Sig later on down some years um I did Zeta fall1 I did gamma Sig fall3 so when they were thinking about
Reactivating the chapter online I was friends with some sigmas who are also aiqs that’s Alpha F Omega so they’re the brothers to the gamma sigs so it was like oh another situation for you know Brotherhood Sisterhood but this is a this isn’t a um black Greek letter organization this is a community service
Organization so it’s strictly community service it’s not just black there are Caucasian gamma sigs all Races of gamma sigs all over the the country as there is um Alpha F omegas they black white just a big Melting Pot my line sister for Zeta um and I won’t say her name but
My L one of my l s for Zeta we both got on the line for gamma together so we Zeta line sisters and now we have become gamma Sig Lon sisters trying to reactivate the chapter we was on G we was on that gamma Sig line for two long
Years through the reactivation process we were P yeah two years what you mean now when you talk what the underground line baby that me pledging gamma said that is what caused me a lot of PTSD because it was a lot of stuff Nationals knew nothing about we literally
Had Alpha F Omega brothers from who didn’t even go to who wasn’t even on our campus anymore they had some of them graduated but they were coming out of the Woodworks when they found out uh gamma Sig was being reactivated on our campus and they came out and they were pledging us
And it it was terrible it was terrible okay when I tell you terrible we got wood we got grown men with married families that have moved on with their life that came back and pledged us they whooped our Tails okay I there were many nights where I couldn’t sit
Down so men were beating women what oh no we don’t went to a whole whole different conversation baby baby they was coming out they was in our face we had to do whatever they said they wanted us to do it was that was that was the worst my pledging experience with gamma
Sig was Far worser worser that’s not a word far worse than Zeta it was terrible what were some of the things that they were asking like making y’all do if you want to share you don’t have to I mean that’s a lot for one they was in our
Face like this spitting in our face talking spitting and we were locked in and we could not wipe our face that was wood we were getting uh hit with paddles uh some of us was getting punched we were getting where we were lined up outside CU most of this was outside
In the woods wherever we were lined up and all black and you would have them full speed run at us men full speed run at us and try to break through our line and we St trying to stay together so we got we left the the set with
Bruises we left the set with ankle fractures and because we wanted it wanted those letters wanted to be a part of s so bad we endured it and we and they threatened us about telling and all that we didn’t even know who to tell because we were just reactivating so it
Was just was gruesome was there any SE sex sexual I can’t even I’m my my I’m I’m blown away I can’t I’m trying to get my speech to get the Lord help me was there any like sexual abuse from no I I personally I can’t speak to that because
Nobody ever tried me like that and I thank God but there was a lot of some of my other line on that line how many of us was on that line when I tell you a lot repressed a lot of that stuff to way I don’t even remember maybe it was seven
Or eight I can’t remember exactly the number that’s how much the how much it was traumatic for me to where I a lot of it I don’t even remember but um I do remember recall some of my L sisters dating some of the older aiqs and some
Of them dating them while they were married manipulation like in control and yep my Lord so y’all were online I got to go back to this two years two years we was online two years was it every night every other night once a week it was every other night
Whenever we got a call to where we need to all meet up and if we have cars car pool but we had to show up and if one person couldn’t show up if it wasn’t a reason that was suitable for them enough for them we all got in trouble for that
One person or two people not coming and sometimes they wasn’t coming because they was tired they was aching they needed to chill out and we just had to cover for them or live for them so that they could get some rest or so that you know different stuff like that so it was
A lot of that going on but and this is a community service organization right community service organization we was pledged hard for community service or community service what I didn’t think I didn’t think community service or was getting down like that but I think that’s probably why they get away with so much
Because you wouldn’t think that that would be going on right y it was a lot on me I I graduated from my university in 2006 I went in in 2000 I graduated class 2000 so look how long it took me to graduate I wasted a lot of time with
Pledging it really affected my my my grades to where I had lost some of my financial aid and I end up having to pay for college um out of pocket because of those that that time I wasted I had a situation and without of course I’m not
Going to say names but um you know with being a Zeta you get to go you go to blue and white weekend um when they have blue and white weekend so excited I went probably went two to two different blue and white weekends in Gainesville when
Um I was a a Zeta and I can recall a situation where one of my uh Prof fights she was engaged at the time and her husband was already in Gainesville with us at the hotel that they had you know booked so everybody was in the room just
Lounging and chilling and doing or whatever and it was a situation where one of the one of one of our Zeta sisters went into the bathroom with him and they closed the door and I was like saying to myself a he about to get married this XYZ but they in the
Bathroom apparently doing stuff so they was I was told to hush whatever don’t say nothing but I felt some kind of way like that’s your sister’s fiance why y’all you in the bathroom with him it was it was something that wasn’t right it was wasn’t right so I ended up um telling
And you know how when you got a girlfriend or friend and her man is cheating on her and you tell her you would think that she would appreciate you you giving her heads up baby the tables was flipped she was upset everybody was mad at me and she was mad
Mad at me and I was like the people you need to be mad at is the people who was hushing up about it and him but it flipped on me and I was really I was like I’m done like y’all this something not right about this this is Twisted to
Where y’all don’t even like truth y’ don’t even like nobody telling the truth y’all gonna let this man and this and her they’re getting married y’all are her sisters y’all supposed to support her be at her wedding and so it was just God showing me different things during
That time time so that I can make a sound decision on what’s right and what’s wrong what’s of him and was not of him that’s why those situations happened so that I can I can weigh it against God’s word so it was I can honestly say that when I was in
Undergrad it was like I was it was Warfare it I really feel like during that time it was the making of me like who I am and who I am in Christ and my identity and it was it was something else it was definitely a training season
And I ain’t even realize I was being trained and pruned and all that yeah so you so you you you did Zeta you did gamma Sig at school and you graduated so how was your life after you finally praise God graduated six years later yes yes yes yes so after graduation it was
Good um so when I graduated from um from the University I was at I the the next day after graduation I relocated to Atlanta Georgia so I relocated and I had already became inactive with Zeta because I had long stopped paying my dues I had verbally
Told them that I was denouncing a few of them I verbally told them I was denouncing I told my gamma 6 sisters that I was denouncing gamma and I became kind of inactive I stopped wearing the paraphernalia while I was still was I I was still at I was
Still at in college when I became an Eastern Star so uh my actual yeah yeah so it’s like I’m moving from this this to to another level so I was my in my senior year at my University and my gamma Sig sister who was also my best friend and
We were friends from high school we went to high school together um she was she became an Eastern Star not connected through the college but just outside yeah separate and she had started putting an emblem on her car and stuff like that so she was like we’re having a
Um a intake for um Easter star if you were interested so she was explaining to me she was like sis it ain’t nothing like we went through with gamma SE like there’s no hazing there’s no none of that so you really just pay your money learn the stuff you take your test and
You’re pretty much into it but you have to be brought in with by somebody else that is a uh a Eastern Star or Legacy like you’re in grandfather then because um you have a mason or Eastern Star in your family so she brought me in and I
Can remember I was the only one that was brought in with her so it just me now ain’t got no l sensors ain’t got none of that and it’s crazy how the enemy would appeal to me now in that way because it’s like the trauma and craziness I
Went through with the lon sisters and being connected with that now I’m in an organization I’m coming in and it’s just me it’s nobody else so I remember the day she called me and said okay this is the day that we’re going to bring you in
I she came and picked me up in her car I roll with her to this um old church in our city I had never been to this church I don’t even think the church was was being used as a church I think they probably used used it as like a school
Like a little daycare school or something but it wasn’t actually used as a church so we pull up at this church and it’s just us there um if I could remember correctly it was about before the it was before um Sunset and that was that was important
That it happened at a certain time when I came through as the sun was coming down so I remember sitting in the car and she said I’ll I’ll I’ll text you and let you know when um to come out and I’m like okay I’m in the car she’s in there
It took all about maybe an hour it was an hour I’m sitting in there like okay so she finally came they were waiting for the time to go down so she finally came out and got me and she said I have to blindfold you and I’m like this my
Girl from high school so I’m expecting her to give me some some tea give me a little bit more about what I’m doing she gave me nothing okay she blindfolded me and she held my hand and we I remember stopping at a point and she turned me around and she said you have
To walk backwards and I was like okay so I was just like really literally the blind leading the blind I’m following her so I’m walking backwards slowly trying not to trip backwards and I stopped she stopped me and I guess I was at a door so I felt behind me and there
Was a door I feel her next to me so she was like I’ll be right back just stand here I’m blindfolded with my back to the door and then um the door open so all I have is my sense of hearing so I hear the door open and somebody touch my
Shoulder and tell me to proceed backwards so I’m walking in backwards I get in the room you know like when you have on a blindfold you can tell if the light is on because through the blindfold you still can see some essence of light pitch black even like looking
Down Pitch Black in the room so I’m L back words and in the room I’m standing it sound like the room was huge and it was sort of sounded empty because I can when I spoke I can hear like a little bit of my echo yeah so it felt like the
Room was massive and I remember hearing different voices at different points in the room and now I understand that different people were sitting at different points of the star I think I was in the middle of the circle o of the circle but in the middle of that star so
When I would hear people speaking I can hear somebody from the far right and then it sound like the far left and then it sound like behind me so they were both they were all speaking doing the the ritual having me say stuff and um I couldn’t take the blindfold off I never
Took the blindfold off until after I did all the I and yes of um answering the different um what is it the different things that they were asking me do you do you uphold the this and that of the organization of the order please respond by saying I do so I
When I did all that I had my right hand on the Bible Well what I thought was a Bible I didn’t know it was a Bible because I was blindfold but my hand was on a a Bible don’t know what page it was turned to but I was saying this and
Pledging on the Bible and thinking about it now and knowing god and having a relationship with God and knowing that how God feels about Oaths and vows what I was doing was a big no no it was a big no no making vows and oos and
Before I mean La it was it was it was terrible um so once they un blindfolded me and I was in then I had to sign my name on something I guess in the on the not an application but the certificate or their log book I don’t know what that
Was but it was on top of the Bible it was so weird to me afterwards it was like really no fellowship with them until the next uh large meeting that they had so I didn’t even get properly introduced to any of these people that were in that room that day all I knew
That I was a part of the order of the easn star this sect I think it was the the free international uh the international version of it and I was supposed to come to the next meeting they gave me with my dues they gave me the handbook certain little pens to wear
In my little bag I got an emblem to put on my car um I was taught the handshake I was taught the password I was taught what the acronyms meant around the the star I was taught how to greet another Mason that I would meet the handshake with
Them was Universal with ours I was taught different things that if you were in distress pulled over on the side of the road what to do um so that other passor by that were in the the the organization either Easter star Mason they would know that you’re you’re their
Sister and they would be obligated to pull over to help you so it was certain things we would have to tie on our car for them to know it was a lot it was a lot so here is where the Lord began to deal with me with that I was in my dorm
Room and I lived in the uh The Zeta room when I was on campus so I was in the sity room after I left the undergrad uh dorm and I moved to the gr the gr the the upper classman dorm I was in The Zeta room the when you when when you
Live in a sorority room it’s traffic you have no privacy cuz that even though this your room that you have you paid for with your financial aid this is where you supposed to go this is where your your bed your closet your stuff baby that’s traffic every Zeta on
The planet Earth if they came on my campus they had legal right to come in room while you sleep it was no uhuh you can’t come in here it’s like a free for all so I remember being in that room right and the Lord woke me
Up and told me to go to the computer um the computer lab so I’m getting up I got on my PJs you know we walk around campus in our PJs when you live on campus and I go to the computer lab and this is uh
Mind you early 2000s so so this when the internet just start popping off like we all www don’t even know what else to type because internet was new to us then so by the by the Holy Spirit he led me down this Rabbid hole of research with e
Star in masonry and I ended up on some site with this former Mason who re who who denounced and was explaining how idolatrous the organization was and at the and he had a a prayer of renunciation and I I I prayed that prayer in that computer room so I had
Denounced Easter star after reading all the stuff about it of how it was contrary to God’s word it had roots and really um luciferianism and stuff like that the deeper you get into it the deeper you get into growing into the organization it was not of God and when
I look back and I would read the the book a handbook it always reference a Supreme Being it use that terminology Supreme Being architect of the universe like little vague stuff but you say to me in joining even Zeta even GMA even e star you say to us initiates you say
This is a Christian organization Christian Christ never heard never read the word Jesus Christ in any of that it was always God and nowadays you have to question when somebody say God you be like what God which God small G God or Big G God
God God of a Abraham Isaac and Jacob but it was never referenced in any handbook Jesus Christ the savior of us all never that it was always vague so it could be any type of God it could be any type of deity and that and with and with the
Eastern Star a part of being a part of that organization you have to confess a belief in some some God they didn’t care which God it could have been a Hindu god as long as you believed in something or had a faith in something else that you
Can join it when I started to read all that stuff and I denounced I told my um my friend I can’t do this no more I can’t do this because God dealing with me about this and I got to get up out of this and of course that caused the rift
In us because when you tell people that God told you to get out and they go to church whether they are devout Christians or followers of Jesus Christ as they claim they always feel like well how come God tell you that and he tell
Me that so that was always be like oh so you think you better than me or you hearing from God because he happened to tell you like I’m like look I don’t know why he a tell you that but I can feel him speaking I can hear him speaking to
Me I’m having all these dreams and stuff so I know he it’s him and I got to stop what I’m doing I got to be obedient to him him so going back I remember I had the Easter star emblem on the back of my car I had this mitubishi Eclipse that my
Grandma ball I love the little red little car two door and I would remember coming from South Beach I was I went to a club I was coming back from South Beach and lo I was feeding I was doing a I had to be doing at least 80 in a 45 I
Was hitting it I was speeding and Not only was I speeding I was under the influence of I had smoke that night and smok weed that night to clarify and I was and I had been drinking so I if I would have took a breathalizer I know I
Would have faed so I’m speeding on the hot um on the on the street coming down 27th Avenue in Miami speeding going this direction the police was going a separate other direction he jump the median to get me so I pull over he behind me blue lights going I’m
Trying to put my seat belt on cuz your girl ain’t even have her seat belt on either so I could have killed me somebody else and all that but he jumped the meum to get me let me tell you what this man this police officer said to me
He I roll my window down put I just had put my seat belt on he he asked the question which they always ask do you know why I pulled you over and of course we we like to act dumb like um um yeah so I was stuttering and he said you were
Going really fast he said I clocked you at 80 in a 45 and he said where are you coming from I was like South Beach and all that he was like I’mma let you go because I see your light in the back and it didn’t dawn on me I’m like
Light cuz I I was still wasn’t it was a terminology and I was under the influence and when he said light in the back once he let me go it dawned on me he’s talking about the Eastern star emblem on the back of my car so he must have been
Amazing so after he let me go with no tickets cuz that night I was supposed to go to jail my car was supposed to be impounded and I was supposed to get a breathalizer I supposed to have a a ticket for DUI driving under influence D
I was under the influence okay and I’m sure he smelled when he was talking to me smell you know what I was doing what I had been doing and um he let me go immediately friend immediately Holy Spirit sobered me up I was no longer
High and I was no longer Tipsy or still feeling like after I had finished drinking sober me up and I heard the voice of the Lord say the spirit of the Lord say this to me he said is this the kind of favor that you
Want is this the kind of favor that you want and it it it really his voice in that way I can’t even describe it with my human language it struck it like pierced my heart is this the kind of favor that you want to where you do wrong and you know
You in the wrong and you get off scotf free this is not my favor says the Lord I roll home sober and I was just continuously thinking about that while some people would be like oh yeah I want that type of favor yeah that’s the type
Of favor I want I want to do dirt I want to do wrong and because I’m connected to this organization I get off scott free no no I had to think about cuz in essence I I I would like to say that I’m an honest person and that was not honest
And that was not right and nobody should get off scottf free unless God has given you that type of favor but that’s God’s favor that’s not this light on the back of my car this emblem this Masonic thing where I know I was doing wrong and I
Should have gotten trouble for it really it was God’s grace that I ain’t go to jail that night thank you Jesus that I ain’t get my car impounded and but I knew what time it was after that and I had to by the leading of the Holy Spirit
Had to get rid of all my Eastern Star stuff I had to get rid of it all and the enemy was like well why don’t you give it away to your other Eastern Star girls that are actor just same with my Zeta stuff because I um I told you earlier
That we like I’m creative I used to make my paraphernalia and glitter it out and bling it out and everybody used to be like make my shirt cut my shirt up so I had all this stuff and I had brought people into the organization through other lines who were also a number five
So the enemy would always be like why don’t you give that stuff to them Holy Spirit was like no you get rid of all of it you get you burn it you trash it but you’re not to pass it down so I that’s
What I had to do I got rid of all of it now when I denounced Zeta and I gave away all my stuff I still have some pictures of me um I still have pictures put away but um in the pictures he allowed me to keep as a point of
Reference for when I have to minister and I have three daughters so I’m going to I want to show you I want tangible cuz back then it wasn’t um smartphones we have camera phones and all that I have actual pictures that I had to go
Get processed so I want to be able to minister to my daughters and show them stuff so he allowed me to keep that and another thing he allowed me to keep was my handbook and I was like dang I gotta keep this this got all the stuff in it
But he wanted me to keep that because he knew that I was going to have to be like like how we are this series is like us like you being like a Harriet tutman if that makes sense you going back to free other people and leading them down the
Path um that Holy Spirit has set before us down the road so they can be free too so he wanted me to keep that so that I can show um and compare God’s word to the to the Oaths and to what was spoken in this book so when you because I want
To go back because when you denounced Zeta and you denounced gamma Sig how did that come about like did the the Lord speak to you regarding Zeta and Gamma Sig or was it just like it was actually he wanted me to come out once he showed
Me the idolatry and once he showed me that bad company corrupts good character good morals and that’s funny because with that scripture it starts off it says do not be misled Bad Company corrupts good character why did he have to put do not be misled because often
Times we we are misled into thinking that being connected to these people that don’t that are unbelievers and that do bad and they do all this stuff that it won’t affect us yes it will the more you hang around something and you do something I don’t care how you started
Off you could have been started off starting off strong in the Lord in the power of His might but because you’re unequally Yol with unbelievers and you’re around them constantly more than you around true men and women of God you’re going to become like them that’s
Why we tell our kids now don’t hang around those fast girls girls that’s having sex because eventually maybe you started off as strong where I’m not gonna do that but you gonna start looking at their lifestyle and lusting after the stuff that they’re involved in
So um with what you just asked me um it was just God showing me showing me right from wrong showing me the parallels of what I was involved in how I started to change and really calling me out of it come out from amongst them and be ye
Separate be ye holy for I am Holy he was pulling me out and it’s a challenge for us when we’re young and we have rejection and abandonment issues we want to feel loved just like when people join different gangs on the west coast they had issues in their homes or mommy
Issues daddy issues uh may not have got along with some of their siblings but now they’re somewhere where somebody is appealing to them and drawing them in and luring them me say making them feel like family and you want that I wanted sisters but it was far from that from
Just the fruit of it all it was just it wasn’t sisterly at all so I denounced um through prayer I denounced and I got uh delivered I went through several Deliverance sessions to denounce um whatever Holy Spirit was bringing up in connection to being involved to the organization’s Pride
Secrecy vanity oh my God um a lot of different things jealousy compet Spirit of competition bad competition it’s okay to be have a healthy competitiveness but really really competing in a a deceitful and Vicious Kind Of Way against other people I had to get deliverance from that just
Recent and deliverance again is like it’s layers sometimes you got to keep going back to break you have to fast so that you can break up that follow ground so that Deliverance can take place cuz sometimes it’s it’s hard for stuff you know it’s it’s just hard for for God to
Penetrate because your heart may be hard so you got to break that heart break that follow ground up so that you can accept the truth and and and be free from it so even though I denounced verbally and I denounced in prayer and went through Deliverance I had not sent letters to
Nationals so it wasn’t until I joined um the group that we in the ex um bgo where I was seeing some people testify of how they wrote to Nationals and wrote for them to take my name off the thing and I was like dang I I denounced with my mouth
But I ain’t asked them I didn’t write a letter so not too long ago I I wrote a letter I had a certified mail to the headquarters asking them to remove my membership move my name from off of their rosters and all of that and I was
Asking my friend that did that I’m like did you get anything back what or what is the do they send you something back I have not to this day I checked the certified receipt they they received it but I haven’t got anything back so I feel like I have to write another letter
Like I want to get something back I want to know that you did what you said you was gonna do don’t put your name on so let me tell you how um God gave me the like know how sometime we got to spank our kids hands when they when they
Trying to go back and touch stuff that you told them not to touch I’m going to I’m going to tell the truth I’m G to shame the devil so when Zeta turned 100 a few years ago the Centennial it was a big deal because I still have friends on
My social media that are my L SS that are other s ex SS or whatever and they was posting big 100 pictures old pictures remin missing and I have it to where you can’t post on my wall unless I review the whatever you about to post and allow it
To be post um allow it so of course people that I was pictured with that the pictures they have they were tagging me so I would see the tag and I the enemy was on popped up right here right and he was making me feel like look at you you you being left
Out so I started allowing the tag so I would prove the tags so that the pictures will pop up on my wall and then I even shared a old picture of me with some of my whatever some Zeta stuff when I tell you conviction knock at my door
On my heart b b b delete it holy spirit was like delete it holy spirit said what you doing ma’am what delete it and I was like so I went back and deleted it and deleted my post and he told me you when you leave a place leave something you
Cannot be like a dog that goes back to his vom you cannot go back I’ve sent I I’m moving you to a Promised Land but then you want to go back to Egypt you want to go back to Egypt you wanna you you you want to pull back up idols and
Stuff like absolutely not and I was majorly convicted and I had to delete the stuff and he told me now that you did that don’t do again my Lord listen oh the Holy Ghost has gave me the revelation of when you when you are married imagine your husband with his exgirlfriend posting
Pictures and y’all married how would you feel hot 38 mad I know you lying I know you not poting uhuh we would be mad so the same thing absolutely so with what you just said here we are I have I gave my life to Christ when I was
15 you know I gave my life to Christ I was filled with the Holy Spirit at that age of course you got to live life and grow up so you do a little backsliding as you you navigate through life some of us do I know I did I was married to God
To Jesus I accepted him as my Lord but here I am in college committing spiritual to adultery you chea on me you you you said you was going to have no other gods before me but here I am in full out idolatry with the god of Zeta beta gamma
SE and e Stone no that’s true I had to get it right so when you denounce and you like I thank God for even this like even this what what Holy Spirit has allowed you to do I I really get give him praise and glory for this series and
All these different uh conglomeration of of of testimonies because he is truly using us in our experiences and what we went through some traumatic some more traumatic than others using it to set the captives free using it to using our testimonies to to for other people to be
Brought out even if they’re on the fence about it they’re they’re gonna be thinking about well let me think about what she said because I never really gave it that much research I never really looked at the the cat of arms and the crest to see what why why is it
Composed that way what what does this mean I never understood like you know what I’m saying it’s gonna cause people to think and especially the ones that are filled with the Holy Spirit and God has been talking to them like listening to these testimonies is going to really
Make the way smooth for some people and they’re going to have the strength and the boldness to to come out out from amongst them and be ye separate and not be afraid of men in their faces that’s one thing I thank God for the spirit of one thing I remember getting delivered
From and I stay before the Lord in this area especially to be a mouthpiece of God you have to be delivered from the spirit of fear cuz fear will keep you bound it’ll keep you stagnant it’ll keep you stuck it’ll keep you not launching forward and you will be afraid of people
In their faces what they could say about you I’m at the point I’m so bold for the Lord to where I don’t even care the only person I’m worrying about you know we say who going to check me the only person that can check me is Jesus and
Holy spirit always checks me but outside of that I’m not worrying about what past Exline sisters and frat brothers are going to say about what God has done for me and how he has Set Me Free or try to cancel me or silence me in a way to
Where I can’t share my testimony this is what I went through this is what I experienced and this is how God has spoke to me and has brought me out so I thank God because before I wasn’t in that place to shed at I still was SAR
Worried and oh I’m scared to say that because I don’t want them to think bad of me and all that I don’t even care at this point okay only what we do for Christ is what matters and what remains so that’s so good and the lord gave me
Just the comparison of how when people like go through like traumatic experiences or maybe even like sexual abuse and they speak out about their you know their experiences and how people are like you know um congrats thank you so much for your bravery for sharing your story but when it comes to this
Aspect it’s like why you talking why you just W to be quiet and it’s like or you should have never did it in the first place first of all a lot of us joined the sororities when we were all of what 17 18 19 think about us some of us now
That may have kids at age we ain’t got sense we ain’t got good sense we don’t know if we comeing to go and have to time when we that age so there’s times where we join these organizations ignorantly we babies in Christ some of us don’t even know God so we we enter
Into these Oaths and these covenants lightly and not realizing the the spiritual ramification that uh these things are going to have on us and even how they’re going to change us and all of that like when I think about when uh people join the organization sometimes they join them because they were young
And their Ms put them in like the junior organizations like you know the junior like Omega lamp lighter type things or you know like the Zetas the I forgot what they call but you know those little organizations so you get indoctrinated as a youth and then when you get to the
Collegate level it’s in hopes that you’ll remember the the bond that you had in those Junior organizations and then you would join the actual sorority or um you may have a family member who may have been I may have had a family member that may have been a Zeta and now
They’re pushing you since you in college you got to go Zeta you got to do this you you know what I’m saying that may not have been what what is written in God’s book for my life but a lot of it comes by pure pressure from our family
To join these organizations and you better not join nothing else cuz we only want Sigma men or we only want Omega men you know what I’m saying and a lot of us join because we want acceptance we want a bond we want Sisterhood we see the
Image of what we see we see Zetas or Deltas clicked up together and we want that we want a squad you know Squad gos like we want that so we join stuff not doing research We join we li to our pro pro uh profites giving them this what they want
To hear or why we want to join just so you know you know what it is so we do a lot of that we join for clout CZ you know what I’m saying if I become a this a dater um it’s going to help me in the
Working World when I get my degree I there may be a supervisor owner of the business that may be this can I tell you something I work for myself now glory to God I’ve been called into entrepreneur entrepreneurship I’ve been an entrepreneur for shoot the uh
Fulltime uh the last what eight to 10 years um I left Corporate America around that time and when I was working for corporate America there was nobody in on Zeta there was nobody in the the the uh divine nine that had a hand in helping me get anywhere so that’s just something
That they say that’s not always the truth and it’s the truth for some people some people did did apply for a job and they had a Delta that that that was pulling the strings and allowed them to get the job that’s true for some people but for
Me none of that none of that o dealt with PTSD I spoke about it real vaguely um a little earlier because with being in those sororities and what I went through with groups of women I dealt with PTSD to the point to where even on my jobs when my supervisor will put work
Teams together and it would be a group of women that we had to a group of women to work on a team I would have anxiety and panic attacks because oh my God it’s another group it’s a group like I didn’t want to be a part of no group group no
Group of women it it just if it was two three or more I was freaking out because I had PTSD from being Affiliated in like groups so I ran from groups I rebelled I always wanted to do stuff by myself I just thank God even now because I’m
Coming up on um praise God I’m coming up on my ordination um on the fourth February 4th I’ll be ordained in the kingdom of God as a licensed minister so when I think back of with my uh cohorts my my my sisters in Christ that are going went through the MIT process with
Me when I tell you God redeemed it to where I’m in good company I’m in good company with women who truly love the Lord and he has really healed me and redeemed the trauma that I’ve been through in those groups being equally yolked with a group of women who I’m
Equally and Men because we have some guys in our cohort as well but being equally Yol so this is the great if I can say that the greatest organization that you could ever be in is the body of Christ it’s the body of Christ I mean so
It’s it’s been a it’s been a journey I thank God for delivering me from PTSD because at first I did have a little like oh it’s a group of but he really has shown himself Mighty through these women who truly love God and we like sisters like these my sisters so you my
Sister you feel me me so God is so good this is true Sisterhood I tell you and don’t get twisted you got people that’s still learning and getting their mind right and still have to grow in Grace and still have ways about them that they need God to heal and deliver them from
But it’s really a a a true Sisterhood for people that really have the heart of God and are are are of LED of Holy Spirit absolutely yeah yeah amen so did you have anything else that you wanted to say to the people that are watching um just for those that are watching that
Are in the collegate you know going into college and may have people in their family that’s Greek don’t do like many of us and don’t consult with God really consult with with God really take time to fast like take it seriously and I promise you through Consulting with God and fasting
He will lead you to the way of everlasting he will not lead you down paths or allow you to connect with anything that has the the the possibility of pulling you away from him through activities through being equally yoked like please pray please ask God first make sure you hear from God line
Line stuff up to his word um go deep we on the look we have the look we got the internet now baby honestly if you really wanted to know what’s in them them rituals and them handbooks if you did your homework it’s you can see it you ain’t got to pay your
Dudes wait to get the book you can type you can find everything online and measure it to God’s word back then see we have all that you had to you had to know one and ask one to get the information and pay to get you you ain’t
Have access to the handbook that’s all this look it’s online all our organization Secrets is on is on the computer so do your due diligence and research this stuff and see what it is and make sure you’re not joining just don’t just don’t I ain’t gonna even just
Don’t I got daughters I live in a college town so I know that when this interview not interview but this conversation when this conversation get spread around and people be like oh R online talking I know it’s g i know it’s gonna up some demons I know it is it’s going to upset
Some people who may not even known that I denounced and now to hear it it’s going to open new wounds so I’m already ready for that and I understand that so I’m open if you know me and have access to me if you want to ask questions we
Could do that I’m gonna be I got my discernment on that so I know if you comeing to uh play but I’m I’m here to to be a open book to share with with people um so that you didn’t so so that you don’t get caught up in bondage you
Don’t get caught up in idolatry and so that you you can be free who the sun says free is free indeed so he’s going to call many of you all who are watching or who have watched live series of denouncing the Greek on different frat uh exf frat and ex SOS maybe somebody
Maybe organization you joined or maybe not after hearing all these testimonies you can’t hear nothing but God through all of it we didn’t just denounced because we denounce just the denounce like holy spirit really spoke to us really pricked our hearts really revealed some things to us and really
Showed gave us mercy and Grace so he’s extending that same mercy and grace to you all too so I just want you to you know come out from amongst them don’t be afraid you’re gonna lose people even in the even outside of being in an organization when you make a stand for
Christ you’re going to lose people you’re going to lose people in this walk okay it’s it’s just what it is but to us who make a stand for the Lord we are great in his kingdom we are great in his kingdom so to be martyred to be persecuted to be cancelled or whatever
Have you by the world is to be exalted by the King of Kings and the Lord of lords for his sake so I mean that is what it is amen that’s true praise TR praise say tra God praise God God is so good God he is amazing he is amazing so
For those of you I’m gonna send this book to you la but for those of you who are like to read I’m a bibl file I love books I love to read um the Lord while um Renee um Renee McCoy was writing her book she’s actually a Zeta who denounced
As well so while she was writing a book it’s so crazy I don’t know how found her I know it’s all holy spirit but I end up coming into contact with her on so Facebook or something like that and she was like I’m in the middle of writing my book and she
Was like could you write your testimony out and send it to me I want to include you in my book and I was like okay so my testimony was first put in in her book so secondly on your platform but the book is entitled um soul ties breaking
Up with the past that’s killing your future it’s by author Renee Allan McCoy I believe she’s also in the xbg um group and um G Renee knows her as well but she has in her book different testimonies of lots of Greeks Sleeping with the Enemy
Soul TI because you can have a soul tie with your organization and with your L sister so I’ve been in the process throughout my life I’m married I’ve been married 13 years but prior to getting married God took me through breaking soul ties I had to break some soul ties
Especially if you was out there uh connecting with people you should been connecting with so I have been breaking soul ties off my life and it is not just been for me but it’s been for my daughters it’s been breaking generational curses because he has
Called me as he has called you and many others um a generation generational Curse Breakers bloodline Curse Breakers for our families so it’s some stuff that we’re going to renounce denounce get delivered from so that these demons these Spirits these enemies cannot continue to float through our bloodline
And I give God glory for that praise God praise God so I will leave a link to the book right she has she she has where you can order it online right yeah it’s on Amazon absolutely so I’ll leave the link in the description box and if people
Want to reach out to you did you want to provide your Instagram and or Facebook like yeah you can comment down on the video but if you wanted to reach out to me um on social media you can reach out to me on my Instagram it’s always
Radiant every day you can send me a DM um please be polite please be nice um and respectful because I’m nice I’m polite and I’m respectful so um yeah hit me up praise God well thank you thank you thank you radian for sharing your powerful listen this thing I can’t I’m
About to I’m about to end and watch this cause this me thank you for sharing testimony and I pray that the Lord just continues to elevate you in this season Hallelujah especially when you get ordained come on it’s up he’s gonna send you all around to be his mouthpiece and so I am
So excited to see your journey I’m excit yes thank you so much thank you for having me I’m so grateful you are very very welcome and thank y’all again for watching the testimony don’t forget to like subscribe and comment bye oh that was good
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