My Testimony| Denouncing Zeta Phi Beta Sorority After 20 Years

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Listen it’s been a long road it’s been a long road to this um denouncement video and I can’t tell you it’s been easy um I can’t tell you it’s been hard I can tell you that I’ve been allowing God to lead me in this journey um and it’s just a

Walk of obedience honestly it’s a walk of obedience I been putting together like okay I could do the video this date I could do the video this date you know how you plan my content planning around you know my coaching program and trying to figure

Out and then so I I had in my mind to actually do my denouncement video before 2023 so I was like you know what I did a public announcement let me go ahead and do my video it’s going to be easy but then I was like just doesn’t feel right

Like I didn’t feel like God pushed me the Holy Spirit didn’t say go yet and so I’m like all right well maybe in the new year so I’m like okay well maybe it’ll be great if I did it during you know the zeta’s founder day the founders day ah

Didn’t Prett Prett really um pull me then and so started my coaching program and I was like you know what it’s a lot of work to do the coaching program how about I’ll wait till after God was like you’re not waiting till after you going to do it now and I’m

Like but how am I going to prepare for this and that he’s like you already done the work you already know the holy spirit is going to work with you through the video do it now and so the now was do it on the day I’m telling you and so

This weekend was the weekend and when he when it was revealed to me when I had to do the video it was a sense of urgency when I did my denouncement public denouncement on social media it was a sense of urgency given to me to go

Ahead and do it because someone needs to hear your story and for this one it was like someone really needs to hear your story who’s on the verge and if they hear you they will leave they will finally make the decision make the move

And um but I need you to do it I need you to do it and so that was one of the things that kind of pushed me to actually do this now so um hopefully it’ll be out this week I’m hoping I don’t have to do a lot of edits but um yeah

So for a little bit about me in regards to my story um and Zeta I’m going to go of course do a deeper dive but for those who want to know when I crossed and where I crossed um I crossed fall 2003 yeah that was a

Little ways back now come on now fall 2003 um at Clark Atlanta University um and Sai chapter so that’s where I went to school and that’s where I crossed and one of the reasons the really the reasons why I wanted to do this video is one um I don’t see a lot of

People doing videos from HBC used now there are I mean I’ve seen people but I haven’t seen a lot okay and so um I feel like that’s one target area for those women and men that are attending HBCU second reason I want to do this is because I haven’t seen folks do their

Denouncements from the Atlanta University Center if y’all know the black Mecca the Atlanta University Center um where it houses universities of course and colleges um morous College Spellman College Clark Atlanta University and mor house school of medicine and Morris Brown College so that is consist of the Atlanta University Center and I don’t

Hear a lot of people talking about it from there so I want to make sure that I make myself known and just like I watched videos from others um I found those that I related to po that pulled me so those who went to HBCU that pulled

Me those of course that went that cross Zeta pulled me in and those who went to HBCU I feel like I said that already but those so anyway so that’s one reason why I really really wanted to make sure that I do this and I feel like it’s it’s

Called for me um to do this so about the denouncement though so I renounced Zeta F beta sorority Incorporated in October of last year of 2023 and I publicly denounced on my social media pages in November of 2023 so it’s a little bit fresh and my story

Is a little different from most where um I didn’t get a lot of Revelation until last year um I was inactive like I I was totally inactive okay like I didn’t even join a chapter after I graduated in 2006 I still was a part of some organization uh you know some

Volunteered a part of some of the chapters um even when I moved I was trying to be a part of chapters that’s a whole another story I’ll get into later but um I never fully reactivated my membership and so um I was totally inactive and um my heart for

Zeta left left plenty of years ago I was just sitting on this burden you know of having it on me and of being like feeling like I needed to stay in the organization and so um so yeah I my story is a little different as far as

Like a lot of people talk about the different aspects of the fraternities and their sororities that they’ve been in and they’re able to say hey um I learned this honestly all my learning didn’t come until last year here but the re the what Revelation I did receive of

How I felt what God was doing Within Me happened years years years ago even to the point to where it happened after I crossed so so yeah I’m hopefully I get to it listen I’m not trying to be long but I’m trying to tell you my

Story so um so yeah and I normally don’t do videos like this okay so this is new for me but um yeah so let me get into it so so who who is this video for like you’re look looking at this and I’m hoping that you’re listening to this and

You hear me you hear me you open your eyes you open your ears and you actually hear what I have to say and so these are this is for people who are interested in Zeta like you are totally you are it’s Pro Rush season you maybe are a legacy

You are someone who may have been pulled or called maybe it’s undergraduate or maybe is graduate and you’re like I’ve always wanted to be a part of something they maybe called you whatever you’ve crossed my video searched you scrolling and my video happen to pop up this is

For you this is for you this is for like I said though if you attending the HBCU more more importantly if you attending the HBCU in Atlanta I want you to relate to this um for those who been inactive like myself for a while and you haven’t

Been active in a while you haven’t had on nailia you kind of put it to the side stuff’s in the basement in the attic and you don’t know what to do with it you feel like okay am I still in this am I not like what am I doing this is for you

This is for the Christian that’s in a sorority and fraternity and you’ve seen this and you not sure people are denouncing and renounce renouncing and denouncing and you’re like what is happening like every time I pull up my page I see somebody different from another fraternity and sorority that’s posting and saying

They’re denouncing and let me tell you that it’s a mass Exodus a mass Exodus of those leaving their organizations and there will be more so get prepared and I’m hoping it’s you I’m hoping the more is you as well this is for the unbeliever maybe you’re like hey I

Stumbled across your video I don’t even believe in God I only believe in Jesus but I want to stay here this is for you this is for those who say you know what the stuff I did was back in my college days like I didn’t do I don’t

Participate anything like that no more the Oaths all those things that was back then I was my college days I was young I was crazy I was dumb you know I I was naive but you know I don’t see nothing wrong with it because I’m in church I serve I’m in

Ministry um and I repented for those things back then I only do a little bit now I only go to certain functions I’m still a part of some of the chapters like this is for you all right so I hope you hear me with this um so why do I

Need to do this I kind of said a little bit before but God placed a call on me um to speak one of my gifts is exhortation and I would be remissed if I didn’t use that gift that God gave me to share my story

In denouncing like it’s I got to like I got to and so um that was one of the questions and some of the things that I see on social media in the comment sections like why you got to say something not everybody is called to say

Something um and only if the Holy Spirit leads you to say something Holy Spirit led me to say something and so it’s more that I it’s time for me to do it and so that was one of the reasons and the of course the second reason or the reason

Is obedience God told me to do it I have to do it right I can’t just sit down and just let it Fester because it would be eating eating me up all day like I don’t want blood on my hands period Point Blank I want to be

Able to share whatever I have to share get it all out in the open and then just say I did it I obeyed you God I obey you Lord I glorify your name I only give glory to God for this this is not about boosting up numbers for my channel this

Is not about gaining subscribers this is not about trying to get ladies into my coaching program it’s not about that this is so different all right this is about me and my relationship with Jesus and what the relationship what Jesus did for me in my process of denouncing so

Let’s get into it like we get into it what and so why did I or or excuse me how was I introduced uced to Greek life how was I introduced to Greek life so I grew up in California I was born and raised in the Bay area of California and I’mma tell

You I didn’t see anything Greek there I was not familiar with any sorority fraternity nothing like that nobody in my family pledged um my and I didn’t I didn’t know how to see him that way but my aunt married a Kappa but still I didn’t even I didn’t have a

Really connection to the fraternity per se um when it came to that but that’s all I knew and all I knew was Kappa I didn’t even know the full the full letters of everything and and so uh so yeah so that’s kind of how one one thing about me I didn’t know

Nothing next is I do remember um my choir director my youth choir director as a teenager now at the time I had no idea the emblems and the symbols and everything but not until I got to college and started seeing Zetas on campus was when

I matched her bag to what I saw and I was like wait a minute she was a part of a sority and I was like oh my God she was she was a Zeta is a Zeta still currently and um and so I matched that and so I’m like

Okay but that I didn’t even know then what that what that was all about and then of course um in high school so in high school I was on a step team I stepped in high school I stepped my sophomore year and then there was these group of college students that would

Come in and they would they I don’t know how they they found us but we were called The Deep troop steppers and it was a lot it was a lot of us that gathered and it was actually a Delta and a I want to say he was an alpha that

Came and taught us routines and so again at that time I had no idea what routines I was learning I do know when I got to college I started looking at videotape from back then quarter there you go um and and we would pop it in I’m like and

So I’m like oh my gosh that was a straight Alpha routine that was a straight Delta routine um yes so basically as I was looking at the video I realized that there were Delta and Alpha routines we had the whole pyramid we did we did the Sphinx or the Egyptian

Walk yeah we did it we might we might have had a AKA routine in there I don’t know but we were actually I think it was an AKA routine because of way our hands were and so yeah so that’s kind of how I can relate what I remember but

I still didn’t fully understand in those days and so um so yeah so some of you are like okay what was your relationship with God like did you know Christ like about it so I told you a little bit about I grew up in the church my dad was

Or is an ordained minister and my mom was deeply active uh active in the church um on boards evangelism Team all of the things like my parents are Duo um she was ordained a minister later on and so I was Heavy in the youth ministry and

I remember just I was one of those kids who would invite people to church carry my Bible at school um I was one of those kids I was still quiet but when I had built a relationship with somebody I would always invite them to my church

Yeah so I was actually baptized at the age of seven so age of seven I was uh baptized I was saved and at the age of 16 I rededicated my life to Christ um I was a teenager my parents had switched churches I went to a church that where

The um Holy Ghost was on fire okay Holy Spirit on fire and Not only was it on fire with the adults the youth ministry was on fire as well and that was the first time I was able to see um youth stand up in church praise God lift

Their hands uh lead the services and uh on the microphones be the musicians you know sing all the things that I would see my mom and dad do they were doing and I’m like wait we could do that too you know so um I remember actually um going to youth camp

And rededicating my life to Christ because I I realized that I wasn’t on the journey to being a Christlike kid um and God just let me led me there so I I surrendered my life to Christ again and so I wasn’t the type to hang around

The wrong crowd even as a teenager I was I kept to myself um I wasn’t that kid that went on dates like that would have boyfriends and that would go venture out with friends go joy ride I wasn’t that kid you know and um I think my parents

Wanted me to be that kid they were like are you enjoying your high school life you here I’m like I’m good good I’m fine I’m up here TGI effing it you know at home write my poetry in my journal like listening to Brandy that

Was me that was me and so um but I knew I still had a mission on my life and a purpose on my life and God was deeply a part of my life so I never let him go I carried my Bible my teen Bible to

College and I use that Bible to help me get through situations that I I highlighted that book to no end that book was highlighted Pages torn ripped all the things but that Bible got me through college I can tell you that and whatever whatever questions that came up

Whatever challenged me or whenever I was challenged by people like I didn’t understand I went to that Bible because I knew exactly where everything was so I was that type of kid and um so yeah even in college um I was I never really joined a church home or had a church

Home rather I went to a chapel service on campus and I joined the uh Co Gospel Choir but I never really got a church home which is one of the reasons I think maybe had led me to kind of go down a spiral a little bit because I didn’t

Have anybody to stay on me like I did and in uh my teenage days and so so yeah so I’ll into that too um as well but let’s talk about HBCU life okay let’s talk about um Clark University and just the culture itself the culture of the

University like first off this was my dream School Clark Atlanta University was my dream School initially in my younger year sixth grade I always said I was going to Spellman I wanted to go to Spellman that was my thing I stayed with that for years and then um I realized

That Spellman didn’t have my major the major that I wanted at the time and um I remember my uncle approached me and was like well you know the uncle that is a Kappa he went to actually he went to Mor house and he was like well you know

There’s business you know so I realized that I wanted to do business marketing and I real and Clark Atlanta had a um one of the best B schools and so I was like you know what let me go ahead and switch and that’s when I fell in love

With Clark Atlanta University I looked up researched everything so I got accepted to Clark Atlanta and then I went on a tour like I had researched I was talking to students who are going to campus I was on the the boards like back then they had these um you go online and

You post your question and somebody would answer you know and so those people would answer and they’ll tell you about campus life like I was always researching I printed out a whole bunch of stuff about the college like I was on it I got accepted to to Clark

Atlanta and then from California in California there was a HBCU tour and so I actually went on the tour with other black kids from California to go Venture off and see colleges on in the South and that was the best experience ever one of the best experiences I’ve ever

Had just the tour alone so I already knew what college was going to be like and I remember us going to campus um to Clark Atlanta’s campus cuz we we went there we didn’t get to do a tour there but we went on the prominade if anybody

Knows about that good old prominade at Clark and land University that is where the magic happens like so and so it was it’s amazing um to see you have to be there it’s hard to explain but just picture just life and happiness and just Joy black Joy on campus um and so that’s

Where I saw Greeks there and so I saw some of the fraternities and sororities that were stepping and strolling um they did like a little a show for us high school students because you know and I was amazed I was so I was sold I knew I was going there it was a

No-brainer and so you know I’m on I’m finally there you know so HBCU culture is interesting in that everything you do you got to be initiated in like everything why is everything a club A organization a dorm a SGA maybe I don’t even know band Sports whatever it is it it’s an

Initiation process and so I believe that is how sororities and fraternities that see this planet upon freshman entering because you have to go through something in order to get something and then you see the aftermath you see the people that were in these organizations or whatever and you’re like well I still

Want to be that so I’m have to go through that and so one of the things I had I remembered and the Holy Spirit revealed to me over time as I’m watching these denouncing videos and I’m you know I’m remembering my experience is that I got ini into my

Dorm like what are we doing and so how it worked is it was tradition and each residence hall now you’re supposed to say residence hall but you know what I mean um the dorms were you know freshman dorms so you got on campus and so the Big Sisters

Big brothers will come back and initiate you and they’ll teach you the chance and the stroll I don’t know if it was an actual stroll but it might have been a stroll the sign um the actual you know like Fifer Hall is where I stayed and so

It was fi High Sai right again trying to plant a seed of the Greek fraternity and sorority culture inside of a freshman because we can’t freshman couldn’t pledge so I already knew that you know so they’re they’re getting you to already get into the culture and so I

Remember that um all the Sor all the sories all the dorms you know you would hear at night you would hear the the chants and the calls and all that stuff freshman I’m like I remember hearing some I’m like okay who is that what’s going on I thought a fight broke out

Thought something happened but actually it was the dorm across the ladies dorm who were getting initiated you know so all it was a trickle down effect like everybody was it was going on with everybody else and we’re on our door like when we going to get initiated we

Felt left out like we knew and it was like that anxiousness like I want to be a part of something this is the part of Clark Atlanta this is the part of who we are this is if you do this this is you saying you in like this is it you know

And so I remember we were one of the last dorms to do it and I remember that they um came in in the middle of the night now I don’t even think it was middle middle of night it might have been like 10 o00 at night but you know

It was night time they came banging on your door coming through the Halls wake up get out and so um I believe we had to wear something maybe white but I’m not certain can’t remember and I remember we gathered around something was it a fountain I don’t know what we gathered around but

That’s when the Big Sisters will come back those who lived in the dorm will come back and share with us the chant and um the S the sorority call I keep see that’s what I’m saying like it was basically that Sher us the chant the

Call and um the sign so we had hand signs all the things that you would have in a sorority all those things right and so um you felt like Sisterhood it felt like this is what I’m supposed to do and I believe that’s the same feeling that people want when they sororities and

Fraternities on their campus and I remember seeing ladies who were in sororities that were looking back at us because we I remember we had dorm step shows too so the whole the dorm would get a team a step team to perform during a dorm step show during homecoming I was actually I

Did the step show on my the spring semester of freshman year but is the same each dorm had their personalities just like sororities and fraternities do like that you know how fraternity and sori you’re known for this like the stereotypical stuff well that’s kind of

How the dorm rooms were set too and so anyway you you’ll see some of the the ladies who lived in the same dorm and they were in sororities and you like man this is cool like I can’t believe she went she lived in my dorm like it was just a great

Experience and it got you to feel like this was it like this was sisterly love that you needed and we felt we did feel love you know so I think that was where and that’s how the seed was planted when um when we think about that and you

Think it’s it’s harmless you think it’s harmless you think it’s a part of the culture it’s a part of what we do so you’re not thinking anything wrong about it but man right man so freshman year um is when now you you’re looking at all the sororities and

This is when you get you gather around with your crew and y’all be like okay what sorority you g to pledge like you know y’all want to do something they out on campus it probably would have been I’m sure you we seen them and then I’m

Sure it was a probate that we probably recently watched and we saw all the ladies cross and so the prominent ones on our campus were the um deltas and the AKA and so we we would get together be like okay so you gonna be a Delta you

Gonna be a AKA You Gonna Be I don’t know you gonna be girl I don’t know but you gonna be so we would kind of work with I’m gonna be this and then but for me I was like I’m gonna be nothing I ain’t in

All that I’m good I’m okay me I’m in it I don’t need to be a part of a sorority like I was okay right and so and so but I do remember seeing some of the older students so again there was the culture of our University um ingrained is our orientations

So um I don’t know off all HBCU go as hard as we do but I was an orientation guide for a couple years so I kind of know um you know the process but I remember my orientation guides and those who are also orientation guides um they

Would stroll they would be hyped they would dance they would make us feel Lov like other the things but they wore the polos and the colors of the University so you didn’t know you didn’t see that they were part of Sor and fraternities until school actually started and you see him strolling you

Like I didn’t know they part of Sor know they part of fraternity like and so that’s another eye you know eye on what you didn’t know and so you see them you see people um probates you see people crossing with jackets and you know they strolling like it’s the new line the new

Members out there you’re like okay wait a minute and so that’s kind of the culture like to me to me being Greek on an HBCU campus in Atlanta Georgia was the thing like it’s sought after it’s it’s like you have to be a part of it and to me if you

Weren’t a part of it it you will see as less than you you’re just seen as less than like a lot of the men and women that pledge sorores and fraternities they are always the one chosen for SGA they’re always the one that you would see the

Highlighted one they were just out there that’s what You’ seen so if you wanted to come up you want to be on the come up you had aspirations you wanted to be somebody body you wanted to be the big man or woman on campus it was like you

Had to go for it and that’s what I feel like was happening on campus all right so why did I choose Zeta why did I choose Zeta so I didn’t see many Zetas on campus honestly I don’t remember my freshman and sophomore year really laying eyes on the actual Zeta on campus

Now like I said there was mass lines of deltas and akas that would cross and that’s what I would see and so um I didn’t know and I think there may be like one or two that were on campus that I may have seen and so I remember sophomore year it was Rush

Season for both AKA and deltas and it seemed like all of my friends or those who I knew close to me at school were trying to be at AKA AR Delta and they would tell me all the ins and outs of what they were going through and I’m like why y’all putting yourself

Through that that’s not cool and so they were talking about how they would have to find out where the meeting is so they would have to hear for such and such or such and such we have to call them and be like they’re not posting the location

Of where the interest meeting is or where the next meeting is so we don’t know you had to find out through uh a bird in the window you had to find out for a message in a bottle like it was that type of thing going on and I

Remember they had to only wear certain clothes to the interest meetings they had to couldn’t bring the color ink of that sorority to the meetings like there’s a way you had to present yourself I was like y’all do you I’m not doing that but I was like this is

Interesting to me that this would would happen and so I remember those friends that were close to me none of them were chosen to be on the lines now mind you it was a large number of women that were trying to be on these lines but none of

My friends were chosen so I felt some sort of way I was like well hold on I know my friends are bomb so why y’all not choosing my friends so so yeah so spring 03 the new Zeta members crossed and um I don’t think I didn’t I don’t think I saw

The probate show I’m not going I’m not going I don’t remember however I did see the new line walking on campus it was blue and white and I’m looking at them I’m like these ladies are different like I ain’t never seen them around and I kind of like how they operate like and

Now I don’t mean no harm when I say this and of course it’s the stereotypes but they don’t seem stuck up they they speak to you they smile they don’t have to have their hair everybody some are natural some wear their hair like this some wear they like it wasn’t

Cookie cutter you know um and my favorite color I I did not like pink okay I was not a girly girl so I was like this is this is it my favorite color is blue mind you and so all the things all the Box were check was was

Being checked right and so I’m like huh so that’s when I started doing a little bit of research and I was like you know what if I had to be a part of Sor a sorority this one would be it this one would be the one I would gravitate to and that

Lets you know about what membership those who newly cross over and what probates do not only are they to present the new line a probate show but also it’s there to show you like hey look at us we out here want to be a part of our

Organization so um it was a way to build interest and that’s what they did they built interest right and so um from then I remember my she became my line sister um but before we were close friends like my sister before that and we were

Talking and we were like I think we want to be Zetas like that’s who we W to we want to do and so um her and I end up going to an interest meeting and we saw some others there of people that we saw we like I didn’t know that was Z like

These people came out the Woodworks right and so um yeah so we decide to go ahead and go with the process so I’mma be real with you I don’t remember everything my this was 20 years ago so my memory is gone right when it comes to that but I do

Remember that um we had to get a letter written so we had to find one of the Zetas on campus to help do a recommendation letter I believe there might have been an interview process but I don’t remember too much of that I do remember of course there’s the interest meeting and there

Was other meetings but one of the things I remember was when we had a meeting or I don’t even know if it was an interest meeting or if it was like another meeting but we I thought based off of how my friends were at the AKA meetings

And the Delta meetings they were saying how they had to stay and help and clean up like that was their thing like if you didn’t stay and help it clean up that means you didn’t want to be a member which was crazy to me you know that that

Was even done period because it’s like why we gotta do all that to be a part of your organization neither here nor there we try to do that with the Zetas and they was like uh no y’all okay y’all go about your business we got it we cool and I was

Like see that’s why I like y’all like like we didn’t have to do all of that right and so um so yeah they were nice they were welcoming you know and so that was what pulled further pulled me in it was like they demonstrate some of the character

That I have like that’s why I want to be with them and so the common question that a lot of folks ask is did you pray did you ask God that you wanted to be a part of this organization I can tell you that I told God

That I wanted to be a part of this organization so I prayed for him to let me be in it I didn’t ask God if I should be in it and that was where my fault was was where I already had in my mind what I want to do listen I’m a first

Generation college student I’m at a HBCU campus my dream school I’m the only one from my family to go this far away and I want to make a name for myself I want to build a legacy I want to start something new and fresh and this was like the

Icing on the cake for me like I had to do it so God give it to me you I’m owed this I’m owed this this is this is it for me so when you asked the question did I pray no I did not was it part of God’s will for me it

Shouldn’t have been right it was my will it wasn’t God’s will for me at all and um and a lot of people tend to say well you weren’t those who are leaving the organizations must not have been true Christians must not have been Deep In Christ must not have been uh had a

Relationship with Christ and I I I want to say that’s false because many of us do have relationships with Christ many of us know God we seek him but let me tell you you’re 18 19 20 years old you’re away from home you’re away from your family you’re away from your

Covering you’re away from you know being in a community environment you’re away from accountability and all of that isolates you and now you’re on your own and you’re making choices on your own and most time were not choosing right outside of fraternity sorority life we’re not choosing right this is our

Chance to finally live like a college student right I’ve been I’ve been always in my Bible I’ve been going to church all the time I’ve been in the choir I talk Jesus all the time and finally this is something I can do I knew what fraternities and sororities were doing

Out there I went to a few parties right I saw what they were doing I know that eventually I probably would be a part of that craft however I wanted what I wanted and I tell you this if I would have prayed and just like the Bible says

Ask seek and knock I bet you that God would have told me no now would I have listened I don’t know I probably would have still went through with it but but I did not pray and I want to I’m 10 nine times out of 10 we’re not we’re not

Seeking God the way we should um yeah we might know our Bible some of us might but we not de we’re not diving deep into it like we know we should have in our College days um we’re not being discipled like discipleship doesn’t end when you reach a certain season of

Your life I was just a teenager and then I met went into college life I should have been getting discipled finding accountability in the start of my freshman year been a part of some groups or some uncus groups or whatever never did I see a sor or fraternity on campus holding Bible

Studies I didn’t I didn’t see them discipling people but yet it’s a Christian organization with Christian principles but yeah I ain’t see that there were Christians in it yes but were they doing Christian things nah right now again this is before I learned about the false gods and the idols and the

Oaths this is all this is just me right thinking I knew already it probably wasn’t something I should have been into right and so yeah so I went along with it I went I went along with it and nobody could tell me nothing I paid the payment I think I

Use my refund check and I remember telling my mom about it I remember telling my mom my parents didn’t know anything about Greek life I told my mom hey I’m about to be a part and that’s the only person I did tell because again you’re not supposed to supposed to tell anybody

Anything right you’re supposed to keep it secret so she was the only person I told and my parents and um she okay fine be a part of this a they didn’t know any different right but I remember the first thing I said I was like but Mama they’re

Gonna Help Me Network and when I get out of college you never know I’ll have lots of Zetas that I can connect with and they could probably get me a job right so that was my excuse to her on why joined right to me it was an identity

Thing it was like I finally can make something of myself and most people tend to say oh it was an identity thing for me nine times out of 10 it was for some Maybe not maybe you were okay identity wise but you’re doing it because you’re a legacy you’re doing it because

Actually I don’t know why you’re doing it if you’re not a legacy like other than identity y’all answered that question but it is an identity thing because when you come out of it when you’re when you’re in it and you cross it’s a sense of Pride it’s a sense of accomplishment

It’s a sense of I made it it’s a sense of this is the new me um this a sense of respect of admiration of just the newness of the the feeling you get right so so how was this process now okay we moved on I did the application process

They said hey you know what you you going to make the line you you in it right and so um so what was this process like and so yeah I could tell you right now that I believe God was tapping me on my shoulder then with some the things that happened and I

Could say it was sort of interesting how things panned out for our line like we were getting closer before anything even happened so we were all meeting together I think we were calling each other we exchanged phone numbers all the things it was eight of us and um but it was a

Long process like we thought they submitted the paperwork now mind you I don’t remember the details details but I do remember the process was extremely long and we like okay hold up probate season is coming up we’re a fall line and we have not crossed yet we paid our

Money but yet we ain’t did nothing yet so we sitting here like what’s happening so I kind of felt like in know the Holy Spirit revealed to me that that was your out that was your out the process I was giving you Grace that was the way out

And I didn’t listen to it I’m just thinking like hey you know but you already built this Bond you already built this sister connection you know which listen let pause the ladies on my line I love tremendously like I love those ladies okay I love the people in

My chapter none of this is to bash the the people in the chapter people in the organization the sisters on my line this is all strictly for my just distaste and how I just wasn’t obedient to listen to God’s word for the sorority for the organization itself

So um it lasted too long the semester was almost over and I’m like what is happening so we end up getting the word that um we’re not going to be able to probate this this we’re not going to probate but we can go ahead and cross

Y’all over to you know you gonna do the whole above ground process so um so of course we go through with it we go through with it we like okay I believe they might have mentioned something about us probating in the spring when we get back for the fall but other than that

Um it was more it was more of the initiation process the above ground process so I all I remember is us going dressing dressing up in white I remember us going to the um the regional office I believe I want to say Zeta office in Georgia in ATL and I remember us reciting

Information and I that’s it did I feel some sort of way did I feel like a Eerie feeling on there yes I did but I didn’t remember why until last year when I was researching what we actually did and then I was like oh that’s why I felt that way but it felt

Weird there was candles we were all dressed in white we learned these chants like we repeating after one another like I remember that and so but that’s all I remember and so but I’mma come back to this as far as the O and everything thing is the Zeta chant and the hymn and

All that because I do want to at least stay on that because later on I did learn more but yeah we we finished I remember having pictures we cut cake all the fun stuff so we were Zetas but however we weren’t officially we couldn’t officially tell nobody like

Yeah we were Zetas but we still had to be quiet why because we ain’t did no process everybody gonna know we paper everybody the other Greeks going to know the other Zeta is going to know the other chapters is is going to know like there’s no way we can go on campus the

Next day and wear Zeta stuff that’s just not right so so we didn’t get to do it but um I do remember a word from one of my former liers saying I think they’re going to ask us if we want to be do a part uh um do a

Process so so stop right here we intentionally wanted to do a process why because we feel like we weren’t weren’t going to be made we actually wanted to go through an underground process we willingly were going to put ourselves up for an underground process because we would

Have been viewed as paper on campus that should tell you right there what where my mind was not even what the other ladies were thinking what my mind was where I felt like I was Unworthy of like I had to do this so it was Christmas break I went back home with my

Parents and I think I remember getting a call or email whatever and they called us and they say Hey Okay um yes you crossed Zeta um however if you don’t want to be paper and you want to go through a process you you know they they had this

Thing called cake and punch you know we can we can we can have have C cake and punch on the prominade you know kind of deal so we all agreed all my whole line agreed to go ahead and go along with the process of the underground process and we had no

Idea what we were getting ourselves into but we knew that we wanted to do it it was something that we said we’re going to do so this is the point I want to make on here is um I had to lie I had to lie to my mom something I

Did not want to do lie to my parents and tell them why I had to come back early for Christmas because my parents PID my ticket I didn’t pay for my ticket home and they were like why you got to go back so early and I was like well I

Don’t remember what I told them I I don’t remember to be honest with you I don’t remember what I told them but I do know I had to lie because I had to go back to actually go through a process um and I remember that was the launch of me

Getting the dark cloudy feeling over my head that stayed with me for years stayed with me for years there was my stomach was in knots there was anxiety um just not even I didn’t even started but I could hardly eat I remember just how dark it felt for me

And that was that part of me where I’m like what am I doing all for the name of Zeta all for some letters all for Pride all for sisterhood I’m putting myself and saying I need to be a part of the process mind you um and I’mma find it hold on let me

I’m I’mma go ahead and find it real quick now I don’t know how much this has changed um since then this was given as a copy to me I remember I want to say we even on I think as an orientation guide if I’m not mistaken we were told that we

Had to say that we are a a hazing school like we don’t accept hazing since 1990 or whatever um however I’m holding right here because I went through my book my old Zeta book of all the stuff I kept online from Zeta chapter meetings all the things and I happened to go through

Right before here and I found some interesting things but in this was a policy against hazing right and it talked about how we shouldn’t Haze it talks about how hazing is defined as anything as such bring about physical mental emotional psychological harm to the potential of members or is

Humiliating in its intent is vulgar abusive physically exhausting and dangerous disrupts an individual’s academic and professional personal Endeavors it abridges a personal moral this is crazy that it says this I don’t even know what a Bridges mean but it a Bridges a person’s moral religious or dietary

Beliefs Lord have mercy it compels an individual to break the rules of a College University Zeta 5 beta Incorporated other enti entities sorority officers responsible for overseeing and monitoring member selection intake activities are required a report to the basilis the president Regional or state directors blah blah

Blah blah blah blah blah blah blah y’all we did all this was done this all of this on this piece of paper right here it says it’s done and let me tell you y’all who are about to go through rush or interested in these organizations undergrad and grad they’re

Going to say we don’t Haze we don’t believe in that that’s not what we do yet they’re gonna give you some options nine times out of 10 I keep saying nine times out of 10 okay maybe seven times out of 10 they gonna give you some options and they gon they gonna

Say okay you could either be paper which you don’t want to be or they’re going to make you feel less than for being or you need to go through a process and although it we had I believe we had to sign it I’m not sure because it says

Aspirant which we call aspirants um will be given a copy so I want to say we had to sign it or acknowledge it in some way yet we still went through it and it said religious beliefs wow I just now saw seen that that’s crazy right so anyway moving

Forward I arrived back on campus um and you know we were all told what to wear and so I found the piece of paper that shows in um talks about what we are supposed to wear so and who we are and all the things so we were aronian is

What they called us and so basically um uh yeah anybody online was named that so we couldn’t wear any of the colors of course um what we were told to know everything on our Shield The Zeta Shield rather because we weren’t Zetas yet but um knew who all the fraternities were

Knew the all the bases Basel is uh we were we were told I’mma go past that because I’m messing up stuff um we were told not to walk on the grass no fast food no color no colors from the National panolin Council so basically just neutral colors we couldn’t wear anybody

Else’s sororities attorney colors no artificial stuff stuff no makeup no jewelry and no talking unless spoken to um and that was that also we were told to um to have notebooks we were to write in lowercase letters we were write in Black pen something in the left pocket don’t know what that means

Um even down to the underwear we had to have on underwear we need to wear white underwear black bras white socks blue jeans same wash white Skippers so I think it was the white shoes that were like the kind like the old lady white shoes if you know what I’m talking about

Um and we had to write our number on the tongue of it we had to get black memo books we had to get black uh get bricks paint them black with our numbers on them which I held that for years we had to get blindfolds

Why we got Rob robot tesin on here I wrote water and robot tesin why we need robot tesin was we getting drunk off medicine I don’t remember y’all had to get extra socks and extra pens y’all so I remember that that was told to us and so I remember us all

Going to Walmart and getting all of our items to start our online underground process and mind you it was not pretty for me I just remember going in and some people some of my sisters my L sisters my former L sister we couldn’t pay for everything um so I remember buying

Things for them and us just coming together like that was the first thing that I remember as a bond where we came together and of course the big sisters asked us to get them things while we’re there and all the things so it was a form of excitement and nervousness and this is

Late at night like we out there it was late at night because this the Walmart wart was this was all the college students would go to so we had to be careful that nobody would see us because if they saw all of us together getting the items that we were getting then they

Would know that that we were online right and so that’s why we we had to go at a certain time of night I don’t remember what time that night but all right so let me pause here all right so we’re starting the process we’re starting the process as a

Line as a line so every night um this is actually before we before school starts before spring semester starts this is before we’re meeting up so we’re all together and let me tell you Um like I said it was dark time for me and there was a lot of fear placed in the moments there was a lot of anxiety there was a lot of like I don’t know what’s going to happen next moments where you don’t know when you’re going

To get the call from a big sister to tell you where you need to be you don’t know and you’re you’re waiting with your line to hear when you got to go somewhere what you got to go get uh where the next location’s going to be um

You don’t know what they’re going to do to you you don’t know what surprises are going to happen and so there’s this anxiety that’s that comes upon you and and and when I think about that is we were putting ourselves in predicaments where we were causing oursel to fear we didn’t

Have to go through this I didn’t have to go through this and yet the Bible says in 2 Timothy 1:7 that for this uh for God has not given us a spirit of fear a spirit of fear of timidity but of power love and self-discipline all of that

What I can say was there was fear there was timidity there was like a a cowardice type of character about us we felt powerless there was no power we gave them the power right we didn’t have love it wasn’t loving at all we were called names we were called out of our

Name we were pushed you know all those things there was no self-discipline heck there was no selfworth we put ourselves through the process where we felt that if we weren’t going through this process proc that we wouldn’t be worthy right so all of this doesn’t portray something that Christians should do something that

I should have done right and the crazy part is we did pray we did pray on our line um but we didn’t pray for what you think we’re prayed for we didn’t pray to like oh we’re all coming together to learn more about Jesus to get answers from Christ

To um to study the Bible together no no no no no no no no we prayed because everything was chaotic it was stressful we were tired we were exhausted right and we wanted we needed God to help us through the process that’s why we prayed right we didn’t pray for what

You think we should pray for we prayed for the process um and I remember actually um being blindfolded you know with our you know we had to put our blindfolds on so you couldn’t see any of the sisters that were in your face and I

Remember we being told to look up to the light I’mma bring a little I’mma bring something about that but remember that put a pen in that but where we had to look up to the light The Zeta light right um when we were in a line together at

Night um they were teaching us to link up so we had to link up to one another I was the number three and so we were taught to be one to be one right which is interesting to me which is interesting to me that we

Were doing that because I I look at how we were told to be one and we might have known each other but we didn’t know each other like that to be one like that but we had to act as one it’s it’s basically they had to break us down in order for

Us to lean on one another that was the whole purpose we’re doing this to break you down to break you down to get you to your lowest so yes we saw anger in our sister’s eyes yes we um got in the cut and got wood got got paddled

Right why why why why are we doing that to ourselves all of that we were manipulated right um I remember the pain I felt walking because of on the blisters on my butt right because of the night and you just remember like you can’t hardly sit

Down in your seat when you getting ready for class I remember how exhausted and tired I was I remember specifically in my statistics class where I fell straight to sleep I fell straight to sleep okay woke up time to go so but thankfully I had to tell somebody that I

Was online so I told one of my friends she was my business school buddy I was like hey girl I got to tell you what I’m doing because I cannot fail these classes so thankfully for her she got me through but imagine like it didn’t matter you could have failed your class

Like you supposed to have a certain GPA but if I didn’t have that support I would have failed my classes I’m going to school I’m trying to graduate you know yet I’m going through this sorority life this process excuse me for this it was um we were yelled at right um I

Remember them them taking us out to places where we didn’t even know where we were getting out in the car and linking up and then they’re having sisters Ram into us to try to stay stay together Stay Together link up link up link up you know try to find your sister

They tried to tear us apart and we had to come together again in the exact same order all the things there was trauma there was there was trauma y’all there was trauma you might not think it’s trauma you might think it’s it’s oh it’s fine it’s okay all that was done to us

But it’s trauma it’s trauma and we sometime think that we sometimes think that soul ties is only in a relationship with a man or a woman but you could have soul ties and one of the reasons why I feel it was so hard for me to break the

Relationship that I had with an organization with an organization how am I tied to an organization I’m married y’all I’m married and I’m up here this is this is what it meant to become one I’m one with my husband but yet they’re trying to make us one in a

Line I only got one me and him right but yet I’m tied to these other women now mind you the women that I were with were Believers right now we might not been on the same path of believing but we are believers but yet I’m tied to them regardless so whether

Or not I like them or not whether or not if I could not have liked them like I liked all my sisters right my former line sisters I love them right but there’s cases where you know you’re trying to be a part of organization trying to be one trying to be sister

Love and you’re tied to an organization where you don’t even like some of your sisters you don’t like some you wouldn’t be caught friends with them outside of the organization yet you’re trying to become one with them they’re trying to make you become one with an all in the

Name of an organization that’s tied to false gods and deities and they had us learning and reciting information I went through I just went through my book and I’m looking at all the stuff we had to learn and recite we had to learn and recite all this information of previous uh

Chapter members because they said oh you might be confronted on homecoming and they might come back and try to charge you up and try to challenge you and say who am I and all these things that that was anxiety for me so I’m like I don’t

Want to be caught out here not knowing the name so I’m up here learning names even after I cross trying to go through back through books and learn names just in case I see somebody I don’t want to be caught out there and them thinking in

That I’m not a real uh chapter member and all these things like fear anxiety depression right and I’m learning all these information let me tell you the time that I was doing all of this took me away from learning and studying the word of God I don’t remember going to my

Bible as much as I did going to this information that I had to learn on different sories and fraternities and learning uh all the chapter information learning the hymn learning the poem Invictus which isn’t a poem that we should learn learn for a Christian organization the man was atheist and we

Up here learning his poem talking about all the things all the treachery that it it that he had to go through and trying to make it resonate with us going online so it like a process like oh we’re learning this because everybody else learned it it’s time for you to learn it

Right now mind you I also our line was a little rebellious so there are times where we did not do what we were supposed to do because we kind of fought against the system but neither here nor there it was things that we should not have putting oursel into

Predicaments we shouldn’t have put oursel into there was a time when one of my L sisters was actually kidnapped by our um big sisters and we found that out she end up telling us you know that she got kidnapped now I don’t remember what was done harmless probably but the fact

That she got kidnapped why what what right we were brainwashed right it was a it was a brainwashing that happened to us and there was one part of me one part of the process that I was try I was trying to figure out whether or not I should share but I’m

Exposing this is exposure so I’mma share and um we had to eat a whole onion and pass it down the line so Ace eat Deuce eat eat tray eat down the line until it’s all gone a whole raw onion do you know how long it

Took me to get the taste of onion out my mouth like crazy right but that’s what we had to do to prove who we were I remember being in line uh being online I remember them because you know Zetas were constitutionally bound are constitutionally bound to five Beta Sigma fraternity those are the

Brothers of the organization and I remember the brothers coming to watch Us online vulnerable right but they come to watch Us online and those that knew me confronted me of course I couldn’t look at them I couldn’t talk back to them because you’re not supposed to you had

To look at the light and um but I remember that moment it it was a it was exposing of who we were and um I remember we were uh coming up on hell week again hell week we put oursel on through something called hell week that ain’t God that ain’t of God

Nothing we were doing was a part of what God would want us to do it was nothing part of Christian principles that we were portraying um but I remember where we um crossed the Burning Sands and they try to make that biblical that’s not biblical that is not the Israel desert

Crossing coming going from Egypt into the promised land they try to make it like that they try to make it biblical it’s not it’s not um can I tell you that um after doing some research I it was revealed to me that set there’s a there’s a deity called set

So as we call the underground process is usually called set and it’s a it’s a d attached to that which of course we know if anything is not for God it’s a part of the other guy it’s the other guy it’s Satan right and so this deity was a part of chaos rage

And violence right chaos rage and violence so what were we doing down there chaos rage and violence we were giving we were you know how I’m I’mma talk more about it I’m sure as it comes up but we were offering up our bodies as sacrifices in the name of an

Organization in the name of a God we were called to be living sacrifices for Christ yet we were giving up our body we were beaten some of you are beaten abused some of you are probably near death some of you know people who have died in organizations literal sacrifice for some of these

Organizations for sisterhood for service for scholarship what all of this for the name of Zeta which the foundation is attached to a Greek or Roman goddess of your sorority fraternity like look it up look it up right so we finally finish we’re done we probate all the things listen what was

Life like after Crossing what was life like after Crossing so life like for me I felt great I I felt great and I kind of felt like our line or in the line before we kind of broke the stereotype of Zeta like and we talked about it often because

Y’ Zeta didn’t get a good rap sheet Now The Zeta in in the south zeta’s in the South didn’t get a good rap sheet as far as the stere I’m not even gonna go into the stereotypes because I didn’t like how they portrayed um that I never

Really got into that but when we crossed and when the line before us crossed it was like oh y’all different y’all don’t look like the Zas we normally see you know and so that puffed me up a little bit I felt a little different I was

Pride I felt like okay I look good I feel good all the things I felt respected there was a new identity I was invited I was finally meeting guys meeting men like being talked to like all these things and I had men that were in my face because they were my brothers

So I was like this is the best of both worlds like I’m part of an organization and I got men that I could be with and talk to this is great so um but yeah yeah it’s a sense of Pride it’s a sense of conf confidence that came about me did my character

Change no I was still the same me I just know I was less of God I was less of him yeah I was still the same me but when we went certain places and went to certain parties and I still didn’t feel a part of it and like I told some people

Before when I crossed I felt some sort of way I couldn’t quite put a finger on it but I felt some sort of way I felt like I wasn’t supposed to do this but it was like it was like a blindfold was put over my eyes where it

Was like you already in it so you got to go through it you have to go through the Finish Line I couldn’t stop and so I was already in it and it was just going going going going and when you’re online when you’re doing the process you just

Want to get out you’re tired you’re exhausted you just want to give me the lettuce just just just give me the lettuce you know kind of thing and so I made it but I didn’t feel feel it right I didn’t I didn’t feel it and so um I do

Remember going to um blue and white weekend blue and white weekend and um this was out in Florida and when I tell you this is not a place I would ever be I don’t I didn’t really frequent clubs after freshman year I was kind of burnt down on clubs because freshman year they

Had shuttle buses come up and pick you up to certain uh clubs around the city and I remember going like every weekend with my friends it was kind of like I was burnt out so by junior year which is when I crossed I was kind of done with

That but I’m like I’m a part of a sorority now I have brothers this is blue and white weekend it’s one of the biggest weekends in blue and white like we got to go like it’s had had to go and to me the experience of being there was kind of

Like it’s kind of like orish if that makes any sense like everybody’s around everybody it’s a lot of sexual it’s a lot of perversion like it kind of reminded me like of Sodom and Gomorrah which I don’t know I was never there I was reading the Bible

But it kind of reminds me of that type of atmosphere where if I was there and God came back I knew I wasn’t going to heaven kind of thing like like it was the epitome it was sweaty men and women sleeping in the same room you know what was going down

Like men were at your foot stol you could do any it was that part and I was like I’m not supposed to be here I’m not supposed to be here I remember now we learned um how to um give a grip goodness I forgot the name how to grip right that’s what you

Learn when you’re you finish the process or whatnot and it’s been some time since I learned it but in order to get in to prove that you are blue and white Zeta Sigma you had to give to grip up the lady or whoever at the front it had to

Be a yeah it had to be a for of Sword there duh and so I remember me struggling because I’m like I don’t this I remember this and so um so yeah but um it was one of those things right I remember getting into a relationship with the

Sigma um it was the first boyfriend I ever had and um I thought he was my forever I really did and um yeah I even after I finished school um I kept Zeta handy like I remember moving to Chicago and I remember being a part of a crew of different Greeks and

Meeting my um my former Sor her and I being like the duo and all the things I remember actually being in a relationship with a guy so the thing is about another thing about the organization that kind of pulls you in is that you get Brothers

Right so a lot of people tend to say like oh not only do I get sisters but I get Brothers a part of this organization and when I moved to Chicago I remember reaching out to some sigas letting them know I was going to be there and um I

Remember they helped me so much I think I want to say they either they had me come by or they came by and they gave me a microwave a toaster like I moved into my apartment I had nothing right I had nothing I didn’t even have a bed you

Know the job moved me there and I’m starting fresh my corporate career or whatnot and and um they came by and they helped move stuff for me like it was really what Brotherhood you know what a brother was all about and they checked in on me like you know I felt really

Safe around them and um that’s the one of the things that pulls you in I’m supposed to be in this they’re my brothers right and then I remember meeting somebody and dating him because he was a sigma like I don’t remember how we met but I remember that I was him for

A while he was a sigma like it it just showed me how much is accessible to you and that’s what pulls you in to an organization you get access right to things that you wouldn’t normally get access to so the turning point in my

Life so I U moved from um Chicago to ATL I finally I live with one of my best friends and um and I remember things weren’t going well for me it was hard for me to find a job um I I maybe went to one or two chapter meetings but I

Didn’t even go to Zeta chapters I think I still wore my stuff to war manilia this was still in Atlanta because I felt like hey I got to this is this is where I pledged and this is you know Greek Nation so I might as well but I wasn’t

Really active and um I remember there was a point in my life where um I I tell this story often I mean this one reason why I became a purpose uh and relationship coach was this moment right here it was my turning point where um I remember I was sitting

I think it was after I fasted I was fasting for the first time ever and it was after my fast and I remember sitting in my living room and I remember my name being called mind you my roommate was gone nobody was in the apartment but I remember somebody calling my name and

They said lcia and I said said hold up who is calling my name right and I remember that moment and at that moment I said God I’m listening Lord I’m listening and I remember me just crying and pouring out to God and saying Lord forgive me Lord I’m sorry Lord just give

Me another chance and I don’t even know honestly what that another chance was I just know that I was at a breaking point I couldn’t find a break in my career you know I was um barely making rent I was at a place to where my best friend

Who’s she’s no longer my best friend anymore however that time we were coming to some odds um her and I and um it was a little weird for me it was some conflict there I was dating this guy it was a situationship and it wasn’t going anywhere and it was all these things

That I I I allowed in right and um I remember just sitting there and I had my journal and God was like write this stuff down so I wrote everything down that God was telling me I think that was the part of where this is just now this

Is me just Revelation right now of how God speaks to me even now that was a that was a starting point of how God God speaks to me I write it down and a lot of things that basically everything that I WR write on paper that God gives me it

Comes to fruition so I wrote that down and um it was your moving and so at the time my parents were living I’m in Kansas City I was in Atlanta and um I was told to move and so um it’s a long story of how my parents came went from

California to Kansas City that would be another day of another show but um this is basically what happened and uh I remember going back home and I believe that was the point that God was saying now of course I didn’t know it then but now I know it and it was revealed to

Me um last year that that was a point I needed to isolate myself I need to step away because if I would have stayed in Atlanta I would have been active in the sorority I would have still been in it um I would have been in a sinful

Lifestyle I would have been in fornication um I would have I don’t really know how how far I would have gone but I do know that I I wouldn’t have been the woman you see today I wouldn’t have been a woman that you see today and I can tell you too

That a part of me was breaking away from Zeta because never did I use my organization to try to find career opportunities like they say this is this is the organization you know you join you network Bob you know all the things but never did I do that

Because I’m like God you got me you got me and that’s how we should see it and so um yeah I remember I went back for homecoming because I still had a desire to move back to Atlanta from that I was like I’m I’m coming back I’m just

Leaving for a little bit I remember I came back from homecoming and I was on the plane ride back home and God was like this is it you’re not moving back and I was like but that’s my desire like what and um little did I know that God

Had plans for me more plans for me um in Kansas City but I um remember that I the desire to live in Atlanta to live in Atlanta left I no longer wanted to be there it was like you you’re not there that’s not you that’s not for you

And I believe that was God’s grace that was God’s protection that was God’s mercy because I think if I would have chose different I would have been disobedient so yeah so that was now I’m in Kansas City so how so I’mma give you a little bit of how the seed was planted

To even think about denouncing and so I had a met a really good friend from church she she’s my sister now and um I remember her when I met her she was active in Delta so when I met her and so I remember sometime after she came to

Me and she was she told everybody that she denounced Delta so me I was like denounced what is that first off and second um what do you mean you’re not in the organization no more this is a forever thing how you get out and so I

Think she told me a little bit of how she got out it was a God thing it was a Jesus decision and and I kind of and and she told me I think she kind of asked me if I would have ever thought of it or

Anything and I in my mind I was like no that’s not what I need to do um although I was never active kind of like that I kind of felt like I was tearing myself apart away from it but it never was a thing for me and so I remember I tried

Joining a grad chapter and um in one of the ladies or the sers that I spoke to she would say or she said um you shouldn’t join this chapter you should join this chapter and I’m like why she said this chapter is has a lot of drama

In it and you don’t want to go there just too much drama and I was like but it’s Sisterhood you know like and to hear that just made me displeased I was like I don’t want to be a part of that first of all the chapter back on my

College campus was there was a lot of tension a lot of stress it was a lot of dissension it was a lot of conten it was a lot of things within in there where it was not healthy it wasn’t a sister love right it wasn’t and I could tell you

Just backing up a little bit that after I crossed the way you treated me online I don’t like you now you know like no now I love you like of course right now me thinking of the ladies I love them to no end but then what you did to me how I

Felt you you did this to me online and I’m seeing you on campus during the day and then I see and then after we cross we supposed to be all lovey-dovey like we a cool kind of deal and so that was one part and then another part was of it was so

Much discourse it was stuff that just just trans ired it was it was like I I could tell you it was unhealthy I didn’t want to be in that atmosphere that’s not what I call sisterly love and I could tell you a lot of other these chapters and sororities are just like that

They’re just like yeah you got the fun you got the sister stuff you you build connections you you have love that’s amongst but yeah there’s a lot of drama involved it’s women come on it’s women a lots of us okay we get together everybody ain’t Believers everybody got

Different Minds agendas you gonna fight you gonna have drama of course I know that but I don’t want to put myself in that predicament I don’t want somebody to tell me don’t join a chapter because of drama like that’s not what and I could have pushed

Past it but that I needed something to help me see you don’t need to be in this that’s not what you need to be a part of right and some of you are part of or the organizations like that you were probably a part of a chapter right now

Where people don’t like you there’s people who like each other people who fight all the time Discord all this stuff yet y’all in it for the name of Z because y’all won because the organization you have a choice it’s not forever right and so yeah so I didn’t want that so I

Remember volunteering at a local chapter and I was really like um it was a event and I can’t remember what event it was it might have been for finer Womanhood week or whatever but I told myself this is it I’m not um going to be

A part of it so that’s when I said you know what God I don’t know what you’re doing with me I don’t know but I’mma put my stuff I’m not going to wear nailia no more I’m not going to say that I’m a Zeta like people who know me who knew me

Before I denounced they didn’t know I was a part of an organization they didn’t know I was Greek unless they asked me and the crazy part about it and this is what one thing I did not like is this is how you know how HBCU culture is because every

Time I said I went to HBCU I went to Clark University oh what’ you pledge why do I have to why do I have I had why why was is that a thing where you have to have pledged somewhere like it’s ingrained in us like we have to ask

That question and you don’t you don’t and so of course me not wanting to be represented associated with the organization I’m telling people where I went especially course black people who knew C they would ask me and I have to be like yeah I’m a Zeta they like are you

In it no I don’t I don’t I don’t mess with that anymore so for years I was not associating myself with Zeta and I could tell you it was not just because of my dislike for the organization I was also ashamed I believe there’s a point in

Time where God revealed to me a lot of what I went through remember I told y’all how the darkness that I felt in the organization the anxiety that never went away every December going on into the new year um there was this dark Eerie feeling that I would get it’s kind of

The same feeling I get that um I get around Halloween Halloween never I I feel this like I have to do extra prayer because I feel like there’s some forces right that are trying to that are out to get the people of God and um it’s a dark

Season same SE same feeling I get when I thought about that and um I I’m ashamed that I went through a process I’m ashamed that I got hazed I’m ashamed that I let myself go through something like that I’m ashamed that I was a part of organization where um it led me down

The wrong path path right as a Christian as a follower of Jesus a follower of Christ like just thinking about it if Jesus was there would you have done that that’s what I came to grips with there was a burden there for years that

I had on my had on my uh myself and so I suppressed those feelings for years I suppressed those feelings because I didn’t want nobody to know who wants anybody to know that you went through all of that right and again we weren’t supposed to tell nobody remember it’s a

Secret you’re supposed to keep it to yourself so I had to be fine with that but I was like and and but hearing people denounce I was like but I don’t feel like that’s me I don’t feel like God is calling me to denounce right but yet I wasn’t still

Ass sociate so I was mixing myself up I was causing confusion and you know what God isn’t not the author of confusion I I was confusing myself why because I I felt like I was tied to something I felt like I had to be a part of it right and so

Let’s uh going forward to 2023 is um I know fast forward right this was back in 2008 right so remind you I crossed in 2003 and so this 2008 and so um that I that I get here and then now we’re in 2023 where um you know everything is finally revealed to me

It’s finally time you know God’s doing something every year I start off with uh fast and it’s something that that we bring up and we say in the when we’re fasting or when we’re prayer to God that we don’t realize we’re saying and we don’t realize what happens after we say it

God take out what not what’s not supposed to be here show me me what ain’t supposed to be in my life right now remove it stuff chaos happens and we don’t know why why because you said the pay prayer you said the prayer so I believe I said that prayer

And things started to shake up for me in denouncing and so um so yeah and it’s crazy because last year was a year where everything kept showing to me like people kept asking me about the sorority I was in and I’m like y’all ain’t never asked this before I’m going to brunches

And people were talking about sorority life and college and all this stuff and my I’ve never talked about this with y’all but now this wants to come up right when I’m kind of feeling something right and I remember I was in a group and um we were a group of ladies where

We um were doing teachings to Millennials right and uh there was a part where they said hey there we should do a segment where we’re talking about sororities and fraternities and I said whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa um I’m not going to be able to do that yet cuz I

Ain’t left mine yet I don’t know what I’m doing yet I don’t know what God’s doing with me yet and they was like okay yeah yeah yeah yeah and so that part was I think another working thing in me because I knew soon a decision would

Have to come up and this was about 2022 that that’s question and this was brought up and so I knew eventually something was going to have to happen God’s pushing me towards something and so um so yeah so in July July 2023 a good friend sister she’s going to be

Watching this I know she is um she calls me up and she’s like um hey I had a dream I said okay all right you know or she said I had to tell you I gotta tell you something but I had a dream and it

Was a dream of her friend that was in a sorority and um basically I want to say the dream was about her uh telling her to get out of the sorority and so she ends up you know calling her friend after the dream and telling her friend

That she needs to leave her sorority of course the friend not g not GNA listen like that offended of course like most people do when they feel attacked when the demons start rising up when they don’t want to hear um she didn’t want to do it so she

Says you know I started thinking of all the people I know that are in sorties fraternities I want to call them up so she thought of me she called me up and my heart was not hardened my heart was already softened so she came at a great

Time right mind you when you start doing the process and you start thinking about it and start praying and asking God to remove some things God God’s going to start softening some areas in your heart in your mind to where now you’re receptive to it you don’t know it that

That’s the moment but this was the moment where I was receptive I wasn’t offensive she told me she said hey um I believe this is also about you and I know you’re a part of a sorority and um it’s time for you to get out it’s

Time for you to denounce and not a lot of people I listen to okay not a lot of people I listen to not a lot not not she’s not Greek so that’s one thing I could say that maybe if I was um somebody who didn’t want to

Listen I could have shut her out but it was my girl it was my sis and she’s telling me from the heart she just had a dream she has vivid dreams God speaks to her through dreams I’m going to listen so I’m like okay I know what I have to

Do I have to denounce I get off the phone with her and I say Okay God um show me show me what show me what I’m supposed to be doing let me know what I’m supposed to be doing because I don’t know the next steps I have no idea where

To take it from here like all I can do is repent and ask you to forgive me for what I’ve done but that was just the start that was just a start and at that moment I was a little numb right um I was nervous I was like at a point to where

Like a revelation got sent to me and I and I started fast forwarding like I’m going to have to leave the sisters I knew um going to have to leave an organization people people are going to know that I’m out of an organization like this is a big deal

And it’s sad that it’s that big of a deal and mind you I still haven’t learned all that I need to learn about the other reasons I need to get out that was just the crisp of it and so at the moment I felt like I was a little numb you know and

Um that call was an answered prayer from what I had fasted fasted for in the beginning of the year so now I’m in search for denouncement videos I’m looking up because I I came across some denouncement videos before I think I maybe watched one but I was like Ah

That’s not for me good for you but not for me and I don’t think I ever came across uh anybody who denounced Zeta it was always for other fraternities orties I listened I watched and I’m reading the comments not for me you know kind of deal and so

Um so yeah wasn’t for me and so um but this time my heart’s different my posture is different I prayed about this got spoke to me about denouncing now I’m listening I’m hearing right and I’m eating up all what people got to say on here I’m like mm girl yes taking notes

You know kind of deal and I’m I’m doing it right so I Repent I finally say you know what God I’m turn the other direction but then I remembered my lying sister is having a wedding in in August what am I gonna do cause you know

When you go to the weddings you know what happens right you know what happens mind you let me back up a little bit my heart was already pulled away from Zeta I was already Tor myself away like nothing so at my wedding you know how you supposed to do the Zeta him and

All this stuff I didn’t do it I didn’t think I needed to do it it wasn’t a part of me and I’m so glad I didn’t do it mind you I would have been bringing in a hym a A A A Hymn or a worship

Rather of a deity of another God into my own marriage ceremony if I would have done that and many people do they don’t know you don’t know you’re you don’t know the the story you don’t you don’t know what you’re doing of course but I would have done

That and I’m so so glad that I didn’t but yeah so anyway fast forward I go to my um um a second I go to um no okay I have to think of like of what I’m gonna do like I already made a decision to throw

Zeta away but now I got to go to my L sister’s wedding like what am I gonna do what am I gonna say should I tell them should I not like I know we got to practice the stroll I know we going to

Do to him I know we got to put the sign up I mean she’s my former lying sister like this is a big deal now mind you if I would have probably told them they would have understood I’m sure they would have understood but I didn’t why because

There’s still a tie there I didn’t s anything officially this is why we say once you denounce fully denounce publicly letting it be known to everybody putting in your letter telling to Nationals because at any point in time because you didn’t publicly say anything you can turn right back around

Put the letters back on go to the wedding do the calls do the signals do everything that you are doing going back into full-blown worship for that organization because you didn’t fully turn around right you didn’t let nobody know nothing once you let the world know you know you’re held accountable for it

Nobody knew but people close to me but my husband right and so I go and of course cuz I ain’t tell nobody nothing I go and do all the things and let me tell you how I felt when I did it I love my sister of course like beautiful wedding beautiful ceremony beautiful

Reception me myself and I felt like I had gave up felt like I had put myself back up sacrifice all over again all the memories of being online all the things all the dark fing all that stuff came back again right I had went through a process where I finally

Got through it and now I re-entered back into darkness by just going back in and saying the hymns and doing the prayer and doing all the things again right and so doing the strolls so I was like okay after this this is going to be it so

Luckily one of my friends um a good friend sister she gonna be listening to this too she knows who she is she did she does a uh October fasting group and I was like bet I know what I need to be a part of I need to figure some things

Out I need God to speak to me about some things I’m making a huge decision I’m coming out of this organization and there a lot of other things popping off in my life it’s time to go ahead and do it so I go part of the fast this is when

I dive deep into research I go to deep I watch videos not just about soror fraternities but really just about the foundation like going back to the basics of God and the values and um then I I researched more about Greeks and everything is just going so fast but I’m

Learning so much I’m in awe I’m in what did I get myself into I’m crying out I’m thinking about all the things and I grieve it’s a grieving process because I’m like what did I do what did I do right and so but I kind of send myself through like a

Spiritual cleanse where everything’s taken out of me not only did I do that and I felt peace but I started releasing myself from things I watch on a normal basis shows television things I put on the T on TV just to just put on things I scroll on social media like everything

Started to be cleansed not just me cleansing myself from the the sorority and so I feel like that was a moment to where I realized there was a lot of other things in my life that had to be let go and because I made a decision to fully fully surrender and put the

Sorority down and repent was when everything opened up for me all over again right and so I remember um so I did that and um it was the end of the fast and so I’m like all right and so I’m like okay I got to get out of this organization so

What what what am I going to do what am I going to do and so I remember sitting at the table and because I heard everybody talking about how they sent letters in but I’m like nobody telling how they got out of Zeta like I can’t even find a letter of how to

Send anywhere this is how I know it was God because I told my husband he was sending across from me I said I can’t find a letter A a template to go off of like I can’t find find it and so while I’m talking and like well I give up can’t

Find it he’s like here look he had me his phone and he’s like I found it I said where’ you get this from I was looking everywhere for it he was like I didn’t search for it now he’s a researcher once I can’t find nothing I’m

Done I’m like well give up so but he finds it and it happened to be the website from out from among them which is a website uh support group it has all the scriptures all the things you need if you are considering denouncing or have questions about sorority and

Christians denouncing all the things it’s on there and it has templates I was like it’s all here so that’s when I start doing it and I’m like okay um you know I finally got to tell my line so 20 years I’ve been in this organization right 20 years and of

Course a lot of lines go through the anniversary so um I’m still talking me and one of the LI sisters she knows who she is me and her talk often my former L sister like we talk we talk not just sority stuff like me her

And I are like you know we we cool right we’re still sisters and she was like Hey I’m about to put something out there about and I tell her I tell her she’s one of the two that I’ve told um that I’m leaving the organization and um that’s a whole

Another conversation for a whole another day but um she knows and she said hey I’m about to put the word out about a 20-year reunion want to go on a trip you interested I said I don’t know but I said I tell you what I

Will um she was like well I think it’ll be good for you to tell everybody then so when I put the word out about our reunion you come back and kind of say hey I’m denounced from the organization that way it’s all in one thread you

Ain’t got to worry about nothing I was like cool so anyway so that’s what I do and uh only got a few responses back but that’s okay you know I I realize that I need to be obedient right so I decided to do that and I got an email back from

Another Lon sister who said yo I’ve been thinking about denouncing too I’ve actually been thinking about the process and I’m I’m going to anounce as well so her and I are on this journey of denouncing together now and um ironically she was the number four on my

Line I’m the number three so um it just goes to show you listen once you do it other people are going to follow other people are going to follow and so um I do a public announcement on my social media page and I didn’t go as hard as

I not as I wanted to I just didn’t go as hard I just want to let people no listen I’m out don’t tag me and nothing don’t put me in no pictures don’t no more Soro this no more inviting me new group chat not that I was in one because I was out

For so long but just in case y’all was thinking about it don’t even right and so um I did that and I remember my aunt my aunt comes in my inbox she said hey um on Facebook she said hey I saw that you denounced and um I said yes and she

Said that’s I’ve been praying for you ever since you told me you’re part of the organization I’ve been praying that you come out praise the Lord what you’ve been praying for me this whole entire time what what does that tell you what does that tell you what are we doing people keep

Praying for people to come out keep praying for people for salvation keep praying keep fasting keep interceding because God will do the work seeds are being planted right everywhere so the next part is going to be um some Revelations that I received I again didn’t realize that this video was

Going to be this long but y’all I’m a talker so here we go so uh all right so in 2023 when I was going through through the process of really trying to dive deep into why I need to come out of the organization um you know I started to go back to my

Thinking of like why like and even when I tell people what is that and what God what are you doing with me in this like what you have to realize that everybody has a different Revelation not everybody has the same one there are many people

Who you who you see that are coming out of Greek organization um secret societies that’s what they are they have different stories and testimonies and God reveals in different ways so like I told you before I didn’t know anything about the false gods attached to sorores and

Fraternities I knew about well let me tell you I knew that there were Greek gods attached to them I didn’t know that it was real I was like that’s dumb I’m not worshiping that but in essence you are in essence you are and we don’t realize that everything that we do that

We did was a spiritual thing again we’re not battling Flesh and Blood the Bible says we we are in a spiritual warfare it’s a spiritual realm type of thing right um and we don’t think that because we see with our own two eyes that we’re just a part

Of an organization we it’s just a group of people getting together saying a bunch of Oaths doing all this we don’t see why it’s not good to do we don’t we don’t make the relation to that our minds don’t go to God’s our minds don’t

Go to GRE guys it goes specifically to a piece of paper we reading around a group of people what’s that got to do with me still a believer in Jesus that’s what we think happens but it’s all spiritual it’s all foundational right and so in Colossians 2:8 right it says don’t let

Anyone capture you with empty philosophies and high sounding nonsense that come from Human thinking and from spiritual powers of this world rather than from Christ none of what we did was from Christ it’s still powerful there’s still spirits attached right but none of it was from Christ and if it’s not from

Christ it’s from the other guy and you know it’s you know it is y’all come on you know it is one thing that boggled my mind over the years before I denounced was um it not being a trying to figure out what the secret society thing was all about because I

Was like I don’t understand secret societies I thought of were the things you saw on TV of those people doing rituals and this is gonna sign ironic but I’m just saying people doing rituals in dark basement they had the little coverings over their head you know I’m thinking of

The Klux Clan I’m thinking of you know anything where it was not what we did yet it’s a secret society you have a grip that is associated with your fraternity sorority just nod come on now with me you have you have a chant that’s associated with your fraternity sorority

You have calls you have hand signs you have acronyms that are associated with that you have jackets you have a underground process right you get hazed what about secrets Society is that not what you see what did I not see that’s all we just don’t like the name

But yet that’s what it is right um and so just I’mma cover uncover some of the pieces that I’ve seen some of the pieces of the Oaths and the rituals right and so um first of all the word ritual that that should already catch you off guard right there when you

Look and see rituals come on you look and you see hymns now A Hymn when you research the definition of a hymn the hymn is in a religious SE sector like it’s a form of worship right so a hym is associated to Zeta right um

And I had the opportunity and I did not want to do this I was like Lord protect me as I go re research but I had the opportunity to research a little bit about um some of the organizations excuse me some of the paganism and witches and what wiccans do

And I read up on some things and this is what shocked me a little bit about it now mind you some of y’all know and y’all still doing doing it but some of y’all like me did not know and so we mimicked everything over time the same thing witches wickens pagans do

Sororities and fraternities do there’s candles it’s dark you bow down there’s bowing there’s oath swearing there’s chanting there’s poetry which would be same thing as we done we do with prayer you wear different clothing right you changed your name right you’re made you’re broken down made into something new right it’s

All spiritual it might not be of God but it’s spiritual right then we even take it further some of us get branded we get tattoos we wear the letters we attend shows we have rituals at weddings and funerals do you know they do that witches warlocks pagans they continue rituals at weddings

And at funerals they do it too it’s all done all of these are done to a deity and to a god right and you know there I looked something up talking about is um that witches there’s witching hours when were we having set okay um and it blows my mind because there’s

Satanist and witches that are attached and deceive they purposely have a call to go out and deceive people of God and so um I was reading an article about a witch who said that they purposefully pray they they p r a p p r y they pray

On Christians to deceive them this is why we got to stay prayed up and this got me to thinking and I imagine about what happened the day that these Greek letter organizations came into contact with all these rituals and said we have to have this with our organizations because of our culture

Because of Black Culture we need something else we didn’t need anything else we we didn’t we didn’t need these organizations yet we grabbed them we grasped onto them and um we needed the rights we need the power we need to be built up so this was our way in right so we

Masked the rituals we masked all those things that were demonic and we put service scholarship debutant balls community service we put all those things on top but the undertones were demonic and reminded me of Matthew 4 in Matthew 4 um where Jesus was tempted he

Was in the um Wilderness for 40 days and 40 nights and he was fasting also and Satan comes and visits him and tempts him right and so there’s three attempts that are made you know and there’s a there’s a physical Temptation that was made there was emotional temptation but one that

Struck that stuck out to me the most was the control Temptation was taking over the throne and what was said it says again the devil took him a very high mountain and showed him all the kingdoms of the world and their Splendor all this I will give you he

Said if you Bow Down and Worship me and Jesus said to him oh away from me Satan for it is written Worship the Lord your God and serve him only I feel like what happens to a lot of us Christians is we pass the first two

Tests right we feel like we passed the first two test where the physical temptation all right the emotional temptation but something about us has to feel the control Temptation like when we feel like there is unknown we have to grasp on to something when we don’t

Think we have control over our lives we need something and for many of us joining an organization we needed that to show us something to be a part of something to feel like we can control something right and it’s interesting how this is the Last Temptation that Satan does

Because it to me it feels like and this is just where my mind goes because I’m very visual person I feel like Satan goes to Jesus does this of course and doesn’t work right but then he goes to somebody else right imperfect people like you and I and he does the same

Thing and we like okay boom no Satan no Satan wait a minute what have the whole Kingdom the world and Splendor I will give to you you all I gota do is bow down to you H let me think about that I feel like that is the test that we fail and

That’s the test that all of us failed when we joined sororia and fraternities we don’t know we all bow down to something whether or not you did an underground process or an above ground process you did an oath you did an initiation proc process where you bowed down to another God in

The name of that organization now I’m not going to go into DET details cuz I already made this long video I wasn’t supposed to be this long so I’mma attach some of the videos that um can go a little bit deeper into that but you bow down and Jesus said

Away from me Satan for it is W written Worship the Lord your God and serve him only we are not worshiping only him when we go into these organizations we’re not serving only him we’re serving him and but he says only me but we doing everything this is what

Hurt my heart this is what hurt me so much we were chanting we were bowing we were doing hymns we were doing things at our weddings things at funerals we’re putting hand signals up we’re in church y’all in church with our letters on with our CR

On in the presence of God we’re not saying we’re serving him only we’re serving him and that thing because you never got out of that situation whether or not you’re active or inactive you’re in it if you don’t denounce and repent and turn away God is still great

Gracious right God is still gracious so one of the things I want to share with you um and then I’mma be on my way I won’t be be before you long after I gave him a sermon was an a ritual book all right there’s so many again I’m

I’mma I’m Not Gon to talk long about this but what stood out to me the most is um what we said in the ritual book now this is found on Google do your Googles this found on Google but we said in our rituals Zeta has been written

Upon your hearts and Minds you are now ready to re receive the light of Zeta I’m sorry that was that was in another scripture hold on hold on let me let me pull that one sounds a little familiar hold on let me let me go to the word it says Jeremiah

3133 it says I will put my law in their minds and write it on their hearts I will be their God and they will be my people somebody snatched something out of the Bible and put Zeta on it Zeta has been written Upon Our Hearts and Minds you are now ready to receive

The light of Zeta why am I receiving the light of Zeta I don’t want anything of that right but yet we said that we stood there right right what is this so-called light do your research Zeta all these organizations were found it with Mason undertones Freemasonry the light that is being

Talked about in all these organizations aren’t the light what you think the light is attach attached to Satan that’s all I’m G to say it’s so much deeper than that I ain’t even gonna get to it it’s attached to Satan so all these lights all of us looking up into the sky

All these lights it ain’t the light of Jesus Jesus said he is the light right so the hymn I ain’t even G to go to it right now you already you could read that the whole hymn that we sing sounds like a praise and praise song sounds like worship we’re worshiping right yet

We are called To Be A Witness upon the people just imagine you’re Crossing young people and your family people that look up to you you’re mentor to other people they’re looking up to you right and we’re telling them to pledge these organizations telling them to be a

Part of these organizations but we can’t even tell them what they gonna be a part of not once did anybody tell me what I was going to say in these Oaths and rituals they didn’t tell me that I had an option to whether I could be hazed or

Not they didn’t say that once you be Haz this is what you’re G to do of course they not going to tell you because everything is secretive we’re not supposed to say nothing right and I want to say there’s a couple things I want to say that I I feel like

I got to get off my chest today is please please please stop coming at people who are inactive and have not been active in a while there a lot of y’all y’all ain’t members but y’all da d d da you never know what these people have G through who have went through

Anything yet you coming at them some of us like myself were struggling we’re burdened we didn’t know what the next steps were there’s in our minds we to leave we want to stay we want to go we don’t know but we know God is doing something in us right but y’all are

Coming after people who aren’t active in these organizations want us to pay more money and we’re dealing with something we don’t know what we want to do some of us some of us knew we just went acted but some of us are really trying to figure this out and if you’re in that

Case get out get out if you are still struggling ain’t no Struggle No More Struggle No More Struggle No More do your research seek the Lord right seek the Lord and another thing I want to say is that after Zeta I dealt with this heaviness of anxiety and depression like

I said from my hazing experience from the the trauma the traumatic experience there are people that I remember who crossed over from other fraternities and you didn’t see them no more they left the school you can’t tell me some of it yeah might have been some financial reasons

Some other things but you can’t tell me that it wasn’t associated with what happened on them online with them online right and a part of me felt less than or felt weak for saying that that was an issue that my trauma was a part of PS

PTSD was a part of PTSD I didn’t want to voice that because I felt like why do people need to know but listen sis bro you went through something online you went through something that was Heavy it’s traumatic it’s supposed to be known some of y’all are dealing with stuff now healthwise

Because of what you went through spiritually y’all dealing with something you getting demonic attacks at night you f you can’t find a way out you have a big block over your purpose you trying to figure figure out what area in my life why am I not feeling fulfilled I

Feel empty some of y’all because y’all attached to something so dark and you didn’t even know what it is you were deceived it was a god attached that wanted something else from you it got what it wanted it got you you sacrificed that thing you were a Living Sacrifice

Not to God but to whatever that was that you laid down at that altar of your organization and now you’re dealing with it and you don’t know how to get out of it because you have not been delivered out of whatever that thing was you made a covenant relationship with another

Deity with another God before God in the presence of God and you can’t figure out why you can’t be healed wh why this thing has not come out of you for some of you why you’re still s single ooh for some of you why you still got that health issue

Why your family you have like a long line of family who Masons and Greeks and things like that why is this generational Curse still there and some of you like well I’m good I’m fine your children but your children this thing passes did y’all research what what what demons do y’all

Research what spiritual attacks do what generational curses are you’ll know how they work and how they infiltrate your family right there was a price that was on you you didn’t just say words just be saying words there was a cost attached to that you had to give up something in

Order to be who you are today in that name of whatever organization you’re part of and now you have to do whatever that guy does y’all don’t think that in Israel back in the times when they had to uh they they worshiped Gods other nations were were worshiping gods and things

And you don’t know that there were some things that were done to them that they had to sacrifice and that when they sacrificed was done for them good or bad right so listen final words listen I love y’all I do love y’all I really thank y’all for listening and you if

You’re like here you know what sis I I hear you I need to know what are the next steps for me like I need to know how how can I either get out of this what do I need to do to make sure I’m make I’m looking over my notes to make

Sure I didn’t miss nothing which I did miss a lot I felt like I’m I’m very long but um what what do I need to do to get out of this you need to repent sis bro repent right now renounce denounce publicly get out of it and denouncing publicly doesn’t mean you

Have to go on social media blasted to everybody it means that if you have your line your family the people that know you tell them let them know this is what you’re not a part of anymore remove yourself from the organization from the chapters right take yourself off membership from

Everything seek the Lord if you’re still in confusion on whether or not you should do it I’m going tell you this seek the Lord seek Him and when I say Seek I don’t mean just okay God what am I am I supposed to be a part of it or

Not okay I didn’t hear you all right I’m going about my day no actually seek not like a toddler when you tell when you ask a todler to go find something my daughter and my son they don’t know how to find nothing they will on Surface they’ll look around I’m like

Did you find it nope but y’all didn’t look y’all didn’t go underneath nothing didn’t pick up nothing didn’t move nothing around but yet you trying to be trying to find it a lot of us don’t want to find it because we have not sought the right way that’s staying in God’s

Presence that’s really waiting and hearing God and asking God um going through your word looking at some of these announcing videos like a lot of what helped me is listening and watching some of the announcing announce announcement videos to help me remembrance I forgot a whole lot I’m sure that was

Purposeful but I forgot a whole lot fast pray take some time you have to remove something in order to get answers for something too so remove yourself from that and uh I’m going to post different pages that you should follow so that you can make sure that you are in a support

Group you need help you got questions or whatever it is um but yeah I love y’all so much thank y’all so much for listening um again this is just my testimony my story but I want everybody out every if you a Christian and you are in a Greek letter

Organization black or white Asian Hispanic whatever you are part of band and you did Oaths and rituals and you have Greek gods attached to your organization you need to get out that’s my final words I love y’all and um y’all be blessed um yeah continue to follow my page subscribe love y’all Bye

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