How To Overcome Your Addictions | Called Out Live with Paige Patton | Ep. 6

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We have a special guest it literally goes up they always are bringing something that we can learn from something that we can grow from and today’s topic if you guys have seen the um title or maybe the thumbnail today we are talking about being called out of

Addiction and so I have an amazing wonderful guest that I actually met through my sister here joining us and I’m about to bring her up to the stage y’all give me some clap hand emoies for paig hey hey hey y’all we here we here no we is in here welcome Paige

Thank you introducing the beautiful page patent guys yes um I could you want me to go ahead and look yes why don’t you tell everybody who you are who is Paige patent what do you do all the whole night all the things yes hey y’all my

Name is Paige Patton um on socials I go by the pig Patton period um on YouTube Instagram all the things um I am originally from Greensboro North Carolina so if you hear that I’m from North I currently live in Tulsa Oklahoma I’m super excited to be here as

Porsha mentioned I um got connected with her through her sister and or through your sister like which was so wild how God is in the details um but I actually work for a church out here in Tulsa God called me from North Carolina to Tulsa so that’s been a transition um and I

Also have a Ministry called deliver her which is a Deliverance Ministry to help women walk out Deliverance in community um and I like to call myself a little testimony girly because I share my testimony so often to help other people get free but also to make sure I Stay

Free um and so yeah that’s a little bit about me that’s amazing I can’t wait to hear about deliver her I’mma ask you all about that too okay all about that and also um before we get into your um call out of addiction testimony uh we met

Because my sister actually sent her one of these books yes thank you thank y y’all see the book called out fraternities and sororities okay how to get out of something you should have never been in listen so Paige was actually a member of the same sority that I renounced and

Denounced and I believe that’s why my sister decided to you know send her a book and everything and so I am so happy about that so since we met for that reason can you give us your brief testimony on how you got into the organization what was the experience

Like during it and then how did God call you out yes crazy um so back in 2014 I um spring of 2014 I joined Delta Sigma Theta um s already Incorporated and honestly other people’s experienc that’s crazy I joined spring 14 too that’s crazy when I

My amen um so yes I joined spring 14 and I had a little bit of like apprehension but I’m I was in the world I was living my best life or so I thought in college super bound um I would say definitely like when I was joining there were a lot

Of things that I know was not glorifying God but my thought process was not on is God getting the glory it was um on myself it was just the hype I knew a lot of people and I didn’t necessarily think I was doing it for popularity but just

The social aspect like I thought this was going to be the organization that was going to get me the job and the connections and all the things and so once I was in it I was fully in it and I felt like I was having a great time

Again didn’t know that I was bound so Holy Spirit I was active I was a part of a graduate chapter all the things and then when I moved to Tulsa in 2021 I wanted to get reactive in Delta was talking to the people in Tulsa everything got the little money together

And all of a sudden they went ghost like they they didn’t hit me back I wanted to pay my dudes to be active again and never heard anything again so you wasn’t active you was active underground and you did grad chapter active did gr so I was very active I would have goodness

Super Delta like nail it out just amen and um so when I moved to tossa I’m like okay that’s weird I wanted to be active again and yet I didn’t little did I know that God was going to take me through a year of extreme obedience coming against all

Types of idolatry and called me out and so my freedom Daye is December 22nd 2022 and I give God all the glory like I’ve been so profound 22 22 12 22 22 my goodness like the way that I’ve helped 30 people now leave these organizations like my

Ministry helps pay for people like you know that when you send the stuff off like the way God has just used that such a Redemption story has been beautiful my goodness so you oh my gosh you have a whole number of the people that you have brought I don’t even know

Maybe I got to check my emails because I was helping PE I and I still to this day okay so many people have emailed me with um trying to figure out the instructions on how to formally renounce Delta like how to get in touch with headquarters

Everything they do I have a whole email template what like tons of women have hit me up okay yeah like not not and not just like people who I don’t even know people I do know too yeah and that’s and that’s crazy I I’ve been saying Harry uping me

Yes and one of my ment okay and as we are in black history month period shout out to Harriet tutman she is one of my favorite historical black figures and I man I was watching Harriet the other day and I I was crying because I just love

Like I just love her so much I just love freedom I love being able to bring people into the freedom that God has given me okay it’s powerful wait okay so you didn’t tell me your Revelations on why God called you out though yeah so he

It a lot of stuff was happening that year for obedience and God was just like you got too much you’re you’re lukewarm like you think that you can be sold out for me and and beginning to do this in Ministry but baby girl you still drinking you still smoking you still

Like you’re turning to counterfeit things that is not the actual Source like you’re going You’re depending on other things and so it was crazy I um didn’t think that he was going to call me out like I don’t know why it was just on the back burner like I didn’t I don’t

Know when you in it you in it and it takes that moment of like Revelation and God was just showing me that like he got no glory from what I did in Delta that organization got the glory I got the glory from the probate and the posting

And doing this and doing that and he was just like you KN down at an alter and you gave over your life like a lifetime commitment to an organiz that didn’t give you life to organ you a job to organization that did nothing but take away from what I am

Doing in you um and it was just like little by little I heard it I ended up really I also got a prophetic word and it was like there’s something God is calling you out of and you don’t want to do it people are not going to agree but

God is saying that he’s patient with you and when you’re ready he’s ready seven days later I had submitted my letter like I was like extreme obedience it’s it’s time to go OMG to God be the glory did you pray did you pray and fast to break all them covenants and rounce

You oh oh definitely and was CRA is my she um she was in AKA at the time and literally it was like girl I need to call you to tell you something girl I need to call you to and God had gave us the Revelation at the same time my

Goodness and so were able to renounce do all the things like pray fast break those covenants and curses and get up out of there um legally but also like spiritually and so me the glory because it take both like just sending in your letter and renouncing to them is not

Enough like you need to actually and I and I said it in the book too no shame plug period period Peri I said it like it you can leave and you can renounce and all of that without praying and fasting but spiritually those covenants have to be broken and when Jesus said

This kind come out not by prayer prayer and fasting like only by prayer and fasting like that’s one of the disc kinds yes that’s one of the disc kinds because when I I’m trying to told you okay I was seeing dreams that they was coming for me like the spirit realm was

On wake up like wake up and not only get up out of here like formally you need to make sure I mean but I I renounce spiritually before I even thought about it formally like I found out formally like a month later trying to figure out

How I get up out of here but yeah man my goodness wow okay so you said that you some people wouldn’t agree can you talk a little bit about what it has been like after sharing your testimony and publicly now going from renouncing to denouncing my God yes um it was honestly

A humbling experience and holy spirit really had to sit me down and get me together because I had actually had a previous La sister that left in 2016 and so I had two um previous La sisters that left the organization before I did and I had my mouth on them

They don’t know this like what they be saying like that’s that’s your conviction if you made an idol that’s on you we do community service baby my mouth was going and it was the humility of I had to reach out to them and be like hey I want to thank you for your

Obedience to God in that moment in that season I put my mouth on y’all and I just was not spiritually mature and now that I have the Revelation I thank God that I that one y’all are even responding back to me because the way I put my mouth on

Y’all man but it was just humility um I was on a line of 28 I probably still talk to about three of them um after all of what occurred they didn’t want me to leave I was like the glue to that line they just didn’t they just didn’t understand

Um yeah even people like even people who weren’t Greek it was just like you not even G you not even really in this like why why mad and it’s just like my freedom is upsetting your demons and at at some point I am not going to continue

To fear man my good no if you no no no no I have the only fear I have is the fear of the Lord and so it was some very difficult conversations I talked to my previous long sisters like individually before I spoke about it publicly because

I knew God was calling me to share my story I knew I had a Deliverance Ministry in me before I kind of knew language I just knew that God was calling me to share my story and so I wanted to at least let them know beforehand um but it was some difficult

Conversations it was some they was talking about me in the group chat it was some they unfollowed me on socials and it was just like if God be for me then who who could be against me um but yeah it was a very interesting time I definitely had to stay prayed up and

You get through it and now there’s people who had their mouth on me in 2022 and they’re coming to me asking how do they get free my goodness God is good God is good that’s so beautiful first of all I commend you for going back and apologizing so many people talk

So bad about people who denounce I said this in like a few other episodes like y’all sitting here doing all of this talking but it’s because your your heart and your ears and your eyes are closed don’t you think that if you were spiritually minded and not so carnal

That you would be able to understand what is being said like this is this is not a this is not a a fleshly conversation we we did what we did with our flesh and a lot of us we I ain’t gonna hold you me and a couple of my uh

Former LS we fast and pray to be de F and pray fasted and pray I’m talking about push our plates and was like hey we not eating for a certain amount of days get we gonna get these letters okay like trash like we thought we were doing what we

Were supposed to be doing we thought and and we was all blindfolded because at that time we were all living lukewarm lives like especially me like I was fornicating I was partying I was in college I’m like it is what it is like I’m turning up but I knew I knew that I

Knew how to fast and pray I knew how to go and talk to the Lord and I and granted man it it was doing all wrong like I I feel like I didn’t even feel like I learned how to fast for real for real until I graduate

But I thought I was doing something like yeah let’s fast and pray I don’t even know if I was the one who suggested it no I wasn’t but I I agreed to it because we thought we was doing something I prayed and everything worked out the money came through all of

That but if you are living a lukew life yeah if you are living a life where you are still participating in things that God does not have for you then your flesh is a lot stronger and a lot bigger than your spirit and what does the Bible

Say the Bible tells us that our flesh and our spirit always at war with each other and the one who wins the war is the one who is always being fed so if you’re always feeding your flesh you’re not going to hear when the spirit is

Speaking come on so if you always being carnal and fleshly when the spirit start speaking it ain’t gonna be that clear to you and even when you think it’s gonna be clear just a little bit if you still not open and your flesh still run you

It’s gonna be hard yeah it’s GNA be a hard battle and it’s going to be a hard fight that’s real what you got to do is actually seek the Lord like don’t ever take somebody word for that’s what I be saying all the time because people be

Out here trying to come for you and it’s just like you ain’t got to come for me come for the Lord he said this he said you know me it’s above me now take it up with him it’s above me now that one that one right there it’s above me now Tak it

Up with the Lord like literally like I implore you like first of all put some clap hand emojis in the chat for Paige apologizing to people who she talk bad about for announcing okay myom because it’s quite a few people that owe me some apologies some apologies

Okay and to God be the glory I forgive you I don’t you don’t even got to apologize I I forgive you when I read the comments okay I forgave you when I saw what you said all right real and crazy thing is when I publicly denounced when I did my um video on

YouTube I was getting a whole lot of subscribers from former L like I knew there I guess guess I knew their emails so I knew like what it was saying I was just like wow y’all subscribing now this whole time I’ve been on YouTube Hey man like a few people

Subscribe and I’m like my goodness so like people is watching and people are listening and and hopefully the seats that we are planning are doing the right thing okay har up us har History Month all right about those seeds we really are planting seeds January of this year

Um somebody that I know here in Tulsa reached out and was like hey I need to leave Delta can you help with the stuff I had my first conversation with her when I first left which was 2022 we’re in 2024 and her response was like I just

Couldn’t hear it then but like thank you for planting the seeds you never pushed this on me you never forc baby I was praying for you in my prayer closet trust trust and believe TR believe that but do it yeah this update trust and believe that but it really is the seeds

That are planted the Bible talks about how um if the person is not of the spirit they can’t understand the things of the spirit and so you plant the seeds and holy spirit that’s what that’s what he does he Waters it he Waters he brings that thing and you just you plant the

Seed that’s so beautiful and I love that so much because the seeds was planted for me too like man okay my testimony is in here get the book y’all the seed seeds was planted okay and they got some water they got some water and to God be the

Glory we are free and my my prayer man just like you I’m praying for people too I got some people I’m praying for that are p P that I want to be free in the name of Jesus that are out here preaching the gospel and and they and they living

Right and doing it all right and I’m just like I just need the Lord to show you that it’s still some some glass ceilings you gonna be hitting if you don’t get if you don’t you know what I’m saying clear out all ways in the Realms of the spirit because sometimes we be

Out here thinking that we doing the end all be all for the Lord and we all sold out and we surrendered and we just out here living our best lives yeah but there is always something in the Realms of the spirit that we have to keep check

On at all time like we got to be we got to be repenting every single day for every single thing if it if it come to your mind and you got a little conviction on it just repent you know what I’m saying you gotta be repent and

We got to be checking our Spirits like going to God and say Lord the the way that David said Lord search my heart and know me see if there is any offensive way in me oh Lord and Lead Me into the way of everlasting that was David’s

Prayer and that has to be our constant prayer because sometimes things are not going right in our lives and it’s just like well what’s happening in the Realms of the spirit it could be a generational curse it could be some stuff that you still you know what I’m saying ain’t

Ain’t shook off come on it could be something that you a part of that you gave your oath and and and came into Covenant with that you don’t know covenants and altars speak they do they speak and they wreck havoc if you ain’t following the guidelines okay if you

Think you about to be out here with the Lord they gonna come for you because they came for me okay as they did and that’s how I that’s how I knew to get free because as soon as I started praying and fasting for real in 2020

When the world was shut down that’s when I just started having crazy dreams like the spirit woman was like oh no she ain’t going nowhere they was attacking me left and right up in my dreams I was scared to go to sleep trying to renew those covenants trying to make sure that

Like and I’m just praying and fast and like shooting bullets everywhere like no target but when I found out that it was Delta okay now I got to Target I’mma shoot this one gotta cut that my God my God but to God be the glory um thank you

For sharing that thank you for sharing your testimony I am so glad that we are connected now this is amazing and I’m so glad to find out so many more things about you I remember um when you reached out to me about um just about the book I

End up looking over your page I said deliver her Ministries what we getting delivered from then I see seven months of sobriety I said oh my God sober let’s talk about it let’s talk about it so let’s talk about it in real life in real life what does the word Addiction me to

You yeah so it brings up a lot of different things but I think about addiction is anything you feel like you can’t live without when things that are God we can’t live without them but I mean things whether for me it was food sweets

For me at um one time it was alcohol it was weed it was pornography it was Delta there were so many different things that like I was in idol worship but it was like the the thing that kept drawing me back and pulling me back um and I felt like I

Needed it even if it was harming me I felt like I needed it so I was uh watching this one Ted Talk and this lady she basically said she said addiction is anything we do or used compulsively to make ourselves feel better but it has a negative consequence

And when I thought about that I thought about my addiction to social media know Lord is delivering me as we speak I ain’t gonna hold you come on but like I was so addicted to Instagram because it was making me feel better so whenever I would be like whenever I would have

Emotions that I didn’t want to face within myself so I would be like frustrated or anxious or you know down about something or somebody irritated me I would instantly go to Instagram yeah and just get the scrolling and then next thing you know you look up and you don’t

Wasted so much time and you have nothing to show for your life and those have consequences okay and do it will leave you poor and stagnant okay it broke okay talk about it and so um I realized that those emotions that I was running from my God

I was trying to F them with getting into other people’s lives trying to see like okay what they what they laughing about over here what they crying about over here what they sad about over here what they joyful about over here you know what I’m saying so it’s like once you in

Other people’s lives it kind of distracts you and take you away from your own so now you have all these other people’s emotions and then that’s just a pile up of emotions emotions emotions that you are no longer dealing with and that you are no longer submitting to the

Lord and that leaves us in a detrimental state in the Realms of the spirit and so I wanted to ask you how does e how does addiction conflict with our faith my God yeah I feel like I’ve been talking a lot about addiction and faith lately and I

Feel like at times you think that they’re mutually exclusive so like if you’re in addiction where your faith at like if you are going to alcohol instead of going to God you have no faith and at least in my experience is in order for to get out of addiction I literally

Needed Faith like I had to shift my focus and my faith from faith in that bottle to faith in the Lord and so for me it was just like I was giving all my worship All My Worship to the bottle all My Worship to the Blunt All My Worship

My time my energy think about it even if it was social media for me it was food as well I was given all the things I should have been given to God I was giving it to false senses of comfort false peace false Joy all the things um

And so I just had to shift it put that worship and faith into the only thing that could sustain me until the only thing that could really like help me sleep at night the blunt was not helping me sleep at night I thought it was but

Then my mind was racing and now I’m thinking about like all the things I got to do or the money I need or the people that left and it’s just like you didn’t work yourself up um and so yeah I think for me and getting out of my addiction I needed

Faith there is there’s ATT tension but for me I feel like they don’t have to be mutually exclusive like I use my faith in God to help me get free from addiction that’s deep can we unpack that I’m I can we unpack it okay so let’s

Talk about the weed first so you was addicted to weed I was let’s talk about the weed how often did you smoke it I was smoking an ounce a week so if you ain’t never smoked weed I would let’s let’s what that is yeah I was smoking maybe like four to

Five four to five blunts a day like I would smoke it during the week the weekend I would go to brunch I would smoke before brunch I would smoke after brunch I was also like doing edibles but I it was something that I literally needed every day

As soon as I got off work while I was chilling before I went to bed um every single day so a lot of people when they are addicted to something it’s because they give them a dopamine release for whatever it is or what a dopamine release of pleasure yeah for whatever it

Is can you say that weed gave you that I would say so I would say like if I let’s say I had a stressful day at work as soon as I’m off work I not only roll rolled a blunt but then I’m drinking a margarita or like it was just

Compounding like I was 360 PBS I was in a terrible same-sex relationship I just like there were so many things that I was trying to escape and it’s like if I didn’t have to be on for work or on for my parents I was literally numbing out

And the ways in which I was doing that was through weed and so I guess I thought I was getting dopamine hit but it was really like I just didn’t want to think about any of my actual responsibilities or the actual stuff that I was going through my

Goodness okay I have some very lot there baby that was a lot I have some very crazy questions because it’s like wait a minute women be with dudes and they be stressing them out and you me to tell me now you get with a woman and she

Stressing you out too like how do we get here okay but let’s say that question because my brain the way my brain just be going my goodness the way my brain be going my goodness but um help us Lord but um okay so okay an ounce a week four five a day

Okay when you were doing that and then you know when you had your stressful days at work and things of that nature can you can you say that there was some kind of pain that you were trying to like um ease or was it piece that you

Were looking for like what is what was it that you were searching for that you believe the weed was doing for you I think I was definitely looking for peace I was definitely looking for peace like I just wanted the cares of work to go away I wanted to not think about

Financial stuff I was in graduate school at some point still smoking through graduate school like everything just felt tense and stressful and so as soon as I could it was like I needed a blunt to feel peace like I wanted my mind to turn off and that’s what like it gave me some

Time like I would have friends because at the time all my friends um my girlfriend at the time like all of us we were smoking and so it was a communal thing and it would be like I don’t got to think about work I don’t got to but I

Would get to a certain point in my highness where like now my mind racing and so I thought I was getting peace and now I’m feeling anxious and so it was just like such a terrible cycle and I can tell all this now because I’m not in it I’m

Almost two years sober it’ll be two years this month praise God um but when I was father congratulations thank you um but when I was in it I I didn’t even realize I was in a cycle I really thought I was I really thought it was giving me

Peace so when I used to smoke weed I used to always tell people that God was talking to me there’s a spirit talking to you I used to girl it was so crazy the thing is I’ve always had a heart for God yeah so it’s like my love for God but

Taking substances and abusing it and doing the most with it it was like I’m still going to do what I want to do and just stamp his name on it yeah like I used to be praying for people when I was high like I used to be girl first of all

In college I had the quote unquote Delta house and what it was was we it was a group of L sisters who all got a college Department together and we would party drink and smoke throughout the whole weekend and then from Monday to Thursday we was hosting prayer and it was

Something that I started Monday through Thursday we was hosting prayer and I’m talking about freshman sophomore like Juniors like people will come and receive pray like come hold our hands their prayer requests and we I would literally pray for them like we would literally have prayer and Thursday night through Sunday was turn

Up and it was just like there was always it was always a lukewarmness and when I would smoke I would literally be thinking that like my brain would be going so much I’d be like this gotta be holy spirit like my goodness that’s bad like one time I Tried reading the Bible

While being high when I tell you that’s something you can’t come back from like I mean obviously I have come back from it like it was like you can’t mix light with Darkness like I forgot everything that I read as soon as I was reading the

Word the and forgetting that I just read the word the like reading reading the word he is and forgetting that I just saw he is I’m like what did I just read like it was not even being retained in my brain and I realized like those

Feelings of of of pain and sorrow and childhood trauma and all these things that I was covering up I was trying to find peace in that thing and the Revelation that God gave me concerning this is when you try to use a substance for what you explained as worship what

Does worship do worship when we worship God that is worship brings us into the presence of the Lord right so when you are worshiping these substances and using these substances you are trying to sub itute the substance with the presence of God and so in in the presence of God it the

Bible literally says where the spirit of the Lord is there is freedom so if his spirit is there then there is freedom from all the things that you could be bound with even if you don’t even know is deep down in your heart just yet he

Will begin to bring some things to your remembrance of things that have hurt you and wounded you that you need to be healed from and in that moment in his presence that is where you get that healing that is where you be able to cry out like Lord I didn’t know that this

Happened to me or or Lord I didn’t know that I was thinking this way or Lord I didn’t know that my character was all nasty like this like Father fix me like that’s when you begin to cry out to the Lord to fix you like it all happens in

His presence that’s where the freedom and liberty is and so it’s like if I am going to a substance instead of his presence I’m not being free from the things I’m piling on more things I’m trying to substitute something that can’t even be substituted come on that’s a whole word period

It is like and I’m glad the Lord has delivered us okay so let’s talk about the alcohol yeah Mama so the sobriety um post that you posted did it say seven months or was that old it was 700 days I’m at oh 700 days 700 days I know I saw the word

Seven I mean yeah it was 700 days and honestly it’s crazy because when I was in in college my L sister at the time had like a come to Jesus talk with me like she took me to Panera we had a whole conversation and she’s like Paige like

Your drinking is out of control and I was like girl what you talking about like they used to call me popping pagee in college I was like I’m the turn up Queen like what do you mean and I took it literally with a spirit of offense how they taking I’m sorry you

Said what I said how they be taking that denouncing Delta stuff okay baby when when Freedom comes up against those demons like the de the demons don’t want to be free so I remember looking at her like you just mad like you lame and I loved her but I just

Didn’t have the mind frame of like no sis she’s really talking to you trying to like love she loves you so she’s letting you know you out here drinking and still getting behind the wheel of a car you here drinking to the point where every

Time I drink I would black out and it was nothing but the hand of God that I never got sexually assaulted it was nothing but the hand of God I never went to jail nothing but the hand of God like that he literally kept

Me he kept me for such a long time years and years and years of drinking like daily daily um and so yeah it was just I did not realize that even with her telling me that that was was in 2015 even with her telling me that I did not

Realize that I had a true issue with alcohol until 2020 and it was the pandemic and we were see a shot take a shot and doing all these little Instagram things and like I’m drinking bottles of wine at a time and I’m literally like drunk throughout the

Pandemic but I had also just given my life back to Christ so it was just like I came to God um I got got L linked up with Transformation Church and they always talk about like you can belong here before you behave like you can literally give I love that so much yeah

You can give God your heart he’ll worry about those habits later but he needs your heart and so for me I had gave back I had gave God my heart and I was sold out and I was trying to like glean and got a new Bible and like all this stuff

But my habits didn’t catch up um until a few years later okay so can I ask you uh about your personal business yeah okay so do you have a history of trauma that you believe led to your addictions definitely yeah I um one God revealed there had been sexual abuse

That in my mind I had just wrote off as like kids being kids um yeah and so molest kids too and that’s the thing we were the same age because I was molested too I was molested by a girl in the neighborhood and we were the same age so

I I didn’t necessarily like it did not register until I had moved to Tulsa was fully kicking it with God and he showed me like like this is a route that you need to let me deal with I like that led me to same seex attraction that let I

Had such a deep secret that I found comfort in food that led me to being almost 400 pound my good that led me to literally turn into a bottle because I I that led me to smoking that led me to popping pills like it was the root

Because I I had stuffed it down so much that I didn’t even know that that’s where that roote was coming from but I definitely think trauma led me to a LIF style of addiction it I was addicted to so many different things trying to pray and Hope hope that one of them would

Give me what I felt like I was looking for so can you say the addictions as as okay so because I in another uh addiction study girl I was just looking up some stuff somebody said that the dopamine release that they get from the pleasure of the things that they use takes

Interest from everything else like their health and fitness their relationships school activities and to where you know some people end up stealing to satisfy the addiction some people end up harming their family members or hurting their family members and painting them in some kind of way in order to satisfy the

Addiction can you say that you went through that I thank God I think that the hand of God was on me I never had to steal I never had to like do wild things my my family didn’t even really know that I was in addiction my

Because stuff was so social like it was like oh Paige going out with friends Paige like Paige is a social butterfly because of my personality I was able to like it almost felt like a hidden addiction or more so like an acceptable addiction because my alcohol and drug

Use never got in the way of my jobs I never lost a job like I never like it wasn’t like that but I know for me I was bound because I had to go out every Thursday Friday Frid Saturday brunch on Sunday like I know I had to keep alcohol

In my refrigerator so I know that there was an addiction but I feel like for me it was it was the hand of God that I didn’t I didn’t have to go to like crazy means to be able to um to satisfy that addiction my goodness okay so you went

Through being addicted to alcohol we pornography samex attraction all of these things how did God call you out of it I get free the million dollar question right yeah like what was the step by step through his spirit so whenever um I gave my life back to

Christ at the end of 2019 was started like for real for real we gonna do this in 2020 and so God was calling me to fast and whenever I would fast I didn’t know how to fast cuz I hadn’t really done it before but whenever I would fast

God would say you need to give up porn you need to give up weed you need to he met me where I was and so the things that I was turning to that were unlike him he’s like I need you to give it up

So I would give it up for 21 days I would give it up for 40 days and so you wasn’t fasting food oh yeah yeah yeah I was fasting food I was doing a Daniels fast okay and I was also doing like baby I couldn’t hit a water F I was I was

Baby stepping so I would do a Daniels fast but then also like give additional things that would go to time with God fill that time with the Bible so I was giving this stuff up for 21 days 40 days at one point and as soon as the fast was

Over I was back like regular life and um yeah I remember I got baptized in 2021 and to celebrate my baptism went to my friend’s apartment and we drank champagne and we celebrated and we po Bott for the baptism my goodness baby I was in the world and I remember that day

Holy spirit so we talked about I truly do believe I felt I heard Holy Spirit in that moment and he said I need you to fast I fasted for 40 days Daniel fasted for 40 days he told me to move to tssa so I get to Tulsa and I’m out here

Serving at the church like you know doing all this ministry stuff weed is legal in Oklahoma so now I’m like I’mma get me a little cart all this stuff fast forward February 27th 2022 I had met this girl she had moved to Tulsa I’m taking her out to like show

Her around town that night I had seven margaritas and seven Blunts and I don’t know how I made it home but I made it home the number of completion this is it it is finished sorry girl when I got home I promise you I have never heard the the Holy Spirit

The way in which I heard him that day he said you will never do this again if you do this again I will never send another one of my daughters to you and that was the last day I ever touched a bottle the last day I ever

Touched weed the last day I ever touched that was 723 days ago and I felt such a break like I felt such a release I woke up that next morning and I’m like okay God I’mma give this to you but I can’t do it in my strength I can’t do it in my

Might it has to be by your spirit like I need you to help me and of course there have been times over these almost two years like um even recently like when stuff gets stressful I’m like a margarita could help and I have so much accountability I have so many people

Rooting for me so many people that check in on me that it’s like baby you not going back you not going back but I I he had been baby stepping me through it and I heard that last time after seven margaritas and seven Blunts and I said it’s it’s finished it’s

Finished my goodness he’s so good I I thank God for keeping you the the blackouts the drunk the drunk driving the my goodness so fasting and prayer is what took you through the baby steps of being able to be free from addiction yeah so if there is somebody out there

Right now that is struggling with addiction of any sort whether it be hard drugs pornography um video games social media addicted to their phone addicted to other people like yes who if if there is somebody out there facing any addiction right now what would what can you say to

Them yeah my goodness there’s so many things I feel like I would say but I would say get like truly try Jesus like truly give it to him I I completely believe in AA I completely believe in going to therapy and doing all the things but Deliverance comes with a

Decision you have to truly decide that like enough is enough like you people could want it for you but you have to want it for yourself and I would say don’t even if youve tried in the past and it didn’t work trust and believe that if you give it to God like it’ll

Work that time it’ll work that time um yeah and there is a life that you can be free when I was so Bound in it I never thought that I could see there was no light at the end of the tunnel I lit thought I would be drinking and smoking

With kids I thought I would be drinking and smoking in my marriage I thought I’ll would be drinking and I never thought I never could see a life without it um and my encouragement would be there is a life without it you can get out of addiction um give it to God and

Also like there are practical steps I use a app called I am sober and literally it’s on um my phone and there’s like different things you can put on there there’s like a community aspect on there we celebrate when people Porsha you still here yeah girl I

Was removing myself so they can see you um but there’s a part in the app where you literally can be in community like we celebrate one another there are people on there I feel like I got friends in the app that’ll be like I’m struggling y’all I need help

Um I need like a word of encouragement prayer all of the things and so I would say there is community for you um God is for you all you have to do is make the decision give it to him and he will give you the power and the desire to do what pleases

Him okay I know this is probably like because because I don’t know if you ever went this far but for the people who are like maybe homeless and strung out on drugs and things of that nature is there light at the end of the tunnel for them too definitely

Definitely there’s there’s always a like at the end of the time and I know it is I just needed to ask the question no no no no yes because if everything that you have been through everything that you go through in addiction if it has not taken

You out there has to be a reason for it why you still here yeah there because everything I went through it probably would have and should have taken somebody out it should have but I know that nothing was wasted with God I went through that I’m able to share my

Testimony to be able to help other people get free and so there are people that I know there are people that work on the staff that I work that went to jail that were on hard drugs that lost family members that stand up and share their testimony that literally they work

At a church now and that’s not going to be everybody’s story but it’s like you you can look like you have hit rock bottom and that’s the perfect place to invite Jesus in he knows how to bring dead things back to life yeah and so if

It looks like everybody has left you if it looks like you don’t understand like you don’t have a home you don’t have friends you don’t have Community get allow God into that place he will give you freedom and he will restore he’s too good of a God to not restore he’s too

Good it might not look like what it looked like beforehand but God always he always restores he always restores he always restores that is so good thank you for sharing the encouragement yeah so for anybody out there who maybe you not struggling with addiction but maybe you

Got family members who are you know maybe strung out or even if they may be hiding an addiction that you don’t know or things of that nature like be praying for them be praying that their soul salvation comes to pass like be praying that God reveals himself to them because

It can and will happen it can and will happen and nobody is too far gone for the Lord to save like literally if he woke you up and you still got breath in your body you still got purpose here on this Earth so obviously he wants you to

Get it together you know what I’m saying another chance another chance he’s such a merciful and graceful God he is okay so how did you end up finding Community again yeah so as far as through the app or in general in General like when you okay so you renounced and announced Delta I

Did you used to be same sex attracted yes I was used to be addicted to all of these things and now that you are out I’m pretty sure when you were in all of these things you had community of people who also partook now that you are out how did you find Community

Yeah yes um all of that is true the community that I used to have it looks completely different now um because we were we were friends and we were connected honestly through shared trauma but we all smoked together we were all gay we were all drinking like

All the things and so when I when God called me out it felt lonely it felt like okay God I’m really out here I know you called me from this organization but I had 28 it was 28 of us and now I’m out here what feel was

Like a island and so for me it was that was time I Linked In With God but in the Bible God literally says it’s not good for a man to be alone it’s not not just marriage but like alone period in isolation because that’s the enemy’s

Playground and so for me it was getting linked up to a church um small groups at my church I felt comfortable we have a culture at our church of being humble open and transparent and so we’re hot we share our testimony and it was like the more I shared my

Testimony in a safe environment at church the more people were like even though I’ve never experienced that I’mma come alongside you I’mma check in on weekends because I know the weekends is triggering for you I know your birthday is triggering for you because you used to be lit like just having those real

Conversations um and then I ended up getting in community of people who were also struggling with addiction but for me I needed to get firm in my faith and my in my freedom before I could try to help other people get free amen because it’s like don’t be 10 days off of

Alcohol and now you trying to help somebody don’t be bleeding on people your W your wounds is fresh the wounds are fresh even with the LGBT community like I’m free enough now that like I can help walk out walk with other people as they’re going through Deliverance but when first started I I

Would find myself back where I was so I needed to be around strong people who could love on me I found them at church I found them um in that sober app because there’s a community aspect on there I found it in Godly Community as people were you know seeking after God

Even if they didn’t have addiction we all had to be free from something like God literally Jesus said he came to set the captives free come on point we were in captivity to something like a bad mindset even if it was just worldly point of view like we

Are where his where the spirit of the Lord is there is freedom so they were able to come in and celebrate and help um but I I won’t even cap I did go through a season where it was me and God and I’m like God if you love your girl

Can I get one or two friends like can I get somebody that can help support and he was faithful faithful to bring that okay this is probably going to be real quick or I don’t know if it’s going to be real quick but we didn’t touch on

This one so I’m trying to I’m trying to hit all the bases all of things that you have overcome so I was once addicted to a pornography before too and I never really like said it out loud I only wrote it in like my first book when I

Talked about that how can you help somebody get free from that from uh a mental and spiritual standpoint yeah I think the biggest thing that the enemy likes to do is keep us in silence my God pornography is an addiction that is so hidden and so silent and I mean it’s

It’s coming out a little bit more like for men but for women you hardly hear women talk about it you if you hear humans talk about it at all most times it’s going to be a man and so for me it was just like if I shine the light on

This Darkness it got to flee so I when I say I was in it bad like I had the mindset of oh I’m not out here having sex with people anymore I’m getting it on my own and I thought it was like a lesser sin same

And okay the way stuff get twisted up there like I ain’t hurt nobody and yet the Bible literally talks about like when you defile your body like holy spirit us he this is our Temple and so I think for me the more that I speak about

Like I was bound up in that that GES other people the freedom to say I was bound in that too or even I’m bound like how do you get free and for me I still to this day have accountability like lust be trying to pop up as I’m waiting for God to bring

My husband as I wait for like all the things I would be a liar if I tell you that lust doesn’t try the enemy is mad when you get free and so I have guard rails up I have accountability like I know I can’t watch certain shows cuz

Then by the time I or listen to certain music because then by the time I get in the bed and I’m scrolling on Instagram now I feel like let me let me go a little and so the way is for me is I speak about it out loud and I also put

In accountability I text my friends they don’t always have to check in on me I’m like girl I need you to pray like I’m feeling I’m feeling some stuff and they’re there to like pray with me they’re there to be real they’re there to be like you’ve come too far to go

Back and encourage me but I think the way you stay free the Bible talks about it Revelation 1211 you overcome him of This World by the blood of the Lamb Jesus did that and the word of Our Testimony so you just you have to speak

On it even if you’re in the middle of it yeah eny wants you to remain silent that’s so good thank you for sharing that I feel led to share how I got free from that too yeah so I struggled it with it from a very early age like I think

I I forget how it how it happened but I think it was like some boys down the block showed me some magazine picture I’m like what is happening because you know we used to play outside all the time and then you know once you start getting like touched from like adults

And other kids and stuff like that you start like okay well this feeling that they made me feel I need to feel that again like and so it’s started for me at a very young age I think I started I don’t remember but I know I it was

Definitely in my teens for sure yeah but all the way up until so I have been uh single and absent since 2015 hey that’s like eight years now oh my gosh oh my gosh it’ll be nine years in December my Lord come on he kept girl people be like

People be like oh my gosh you been you’ve been abing it for eight years girl I only probably been pure for six of them okay because Purity and P actually being pure and abstaining from sex is like it’s two totally different things like you can abstain from sex and decide that you

Want to please yourself and so I was addicted to pornography because I’m like Lord I gotta I I need a I need a dopamine release like because I just felt like what is life without it you know what I’m saying I have dealt with lust all my life I you know since five

Years old I believe is the first time that somebody ever touched me and so it’s like how do I go from all of these years of being bound to now there is freedom and so them fast and praying that I was doing in 2020 the same time

That the Lord delivered me from Delta the same time he delivered me from that too amen and so but two years prior to that two years prior to that I was being open like with a a couple of friends and I let them know like hey y’all I you

Know got a pornography struggle and you know I got some you know toys at the house you know what I’m saying and one of the girls in that group that night said oh yeah I don’t struggle with that and it made me shut up you know

What I’m saying because it was just like when somebody like automatically make you feel a little bit small about something you dealing with come on I never talked about it again wow I never talked about it again so when so when I shut up about it because I stopped

Talking about it because I was girl I even was on a every Tuesday prayer call shout out to my friend who be her Tuesday prayer Tuesday morning prayer call and I’m like I think the Lord is telling me to throw this toy out and I

Don’t know if I should do it and she like girl and my thing is we gonna leave that there amen but because it was like these people if whenever I would say something about it these people would either agree or be like oh it’s cool God give you Grace you

Know what I’m saying like no help me get out this thing like I need to get out I don’t want Grace I need Deliverance I I need deliverance and so what happened is when I begin to fast and pray yeah the Lord started changing my desires my God and I went so long

Without it that one one time you know like when the Bible says that the the Flesh and the spirit I’m keep going back to this that they always at war with each other yeah so at one point I was feeding my flesh a little bit more than

I was feeding my spirit come on and I don’t know if I watched the show or something that night that had you know what I’m saying a little soft poring scene because you know these it don’t it don’t be regular SM kiss and boo boo

Like it be really softn and I think it like kind of like like projected that in my mind to even try it and when I and when I did it like when I watched it I felt so like like my insides were crumbling it felt so like

Heart-wrenching I I felt bad for the girl I started crying for her like she sitting here being treated like a dog nobody cares about her like and not saying that nobody cares about her these are the thoughts that was running through my mind like because I know what

God has shown me about this thing I know how he had delivered me so it’s like how how could I be okay watching somebody get treated like this and she’s just only doing it for money and this is no love like this person don’t love her he

Don’t deserve to be in her body like that he’s doing to her is made of stuff like it’s not even realistic you know what I’m saying that’s real and so I felt so like bad about it that it it’s hard to to even try to go back yeah like

Time every time in my mind just a little ounce of let me even just think about it like I think about that moment like the last time that I watched it it made me crumble like it didn’t it didn’t feel good to like and crazy thing crazy thing

Um I don’t know how true this is but I want to say it anyway say somebody said that the porn the the the porn the pornography comes companies are also some of the same people who support and fund sex trafficking I can believe it I

Can believe it too but I don’t know how true that is but the very thought of that my god when I used to and when I was in college I took a women’s studies class in this women studies class this woman she put she made us watch a documentary about sex trafficking Ander

And Sierra Leon and these girls were being sex trafficked from age five and up yeah like put in rooms and men would come and take their time Jesus Jesus Jesus it like crushed me for dear life like I never I don’t think I even want to go

Back to class I’m like why would you show us this like I was so hurt so to even think about young girls traffic and then the thing that I’m watching and finding pleasure and entertainment is is what’s feeding that like no you coming into you got to come out of agreement

With all of that you got to break all of those covenants the Covenant with lust perversion pedophilia mestation like rape all kind now because this is the stuff that you have came into agreement with while you watching this thing my God so I hope that free somebody in the

Name in literally in the name of Jesus in Jesus name because where the spirit of the Lord is there is freedom freedom and it’s like when you look at it from the point of view of like this is your brother and sister in Christ yeah like even the the things of like

Incest like just the things that they try to make so appealing in with pornography there was a sermon I watched Holy Spirit what was it called the compromise of porn it’s on YouTube it’s literally a sermon called the I think I’ve seen that before Pastor Michael Todd okay it was in relationship

Goals but it was literally about how like it must have been the second round yeah it was the second one it was almost like um like the door to no return like with pornography you start on like it could be sophomore like and then you go

And when people end up in the the crazy categories and like all the beastiality like all the wild stuff they didn’t start there it was like your brain is getting so desensitized to it that it’s like oh oh my goodness oh I’ll go a little more oh I’ll go a little more and

It’s like I could truly believe that if they’re doing pornography they’re also doing sex trafficking cuz the demons that are associated with that like the the the darkness that’s in it and it’s like I remember watching that sermon and just getting so like so much freedom I

Also read a book called deliverance from demonic covenants and curses I read that too by Reverend James Solomon Solomon and even like Kevin you there’s Tiffany mg Kevin that’s you know that’s my that’s my that’s my uh Fe I saw I saw um he was on here before yes coming back

Too one of these days and I remember when I was watching um prophetes Tiffany she talked about like a lot of times the people who have um addictions to pornography were molested as a child and so that which is true because that’s what happened to me it happened to me

Most times it has or they were or I was introduced to HBO late night at five six years old and it peaked my curiosity M and so it’s just like you have to come out of agreement you have to renounce you have to plead the blood of Jesus you

Have to repent all the things and be mindful when I sto watching it I would start having dreams and then I would wake up and it would just be like the demons are you shouldn’t be having sex in your dreams like that’s you should not you should

Not when you wake up run out this for another day but you should not go ahead go ahead go ahead go ahead yeah no keep going keep going going cuz we about to tap into that real quick just for a little second go ahead yes like these demonic forces are literally trying to

Put you back into a covenant and if you wake up and just like oh okay you didn’t renewed that you need to pray like the dream world is so spiritual and so the fact that some of us just out here like oh it was just a dream or oh I was just

Thinking about my ex or maybe he was just on my mind no no no no no that is a demon wanting you to renew a covenant that you to come out of agreement with my goodness so I was looking for the scripture I wanted to find it and I

Found it girl so this scripture it talks about how okay it talks about how when you have like lust addictions and seeing how it’s never satisfied this is what you were saying so the people who are watching soft porn you can watch Regular porn if you can watch Regular porn then

You can watch B it and if you can watch beity like all kind of St you can watch watch you can watch pedophilia like just keeps growing like how deep you get into it and that’s just with all addictions it’s not even only with you know being addicted to pornography it’s been

Addicted to um to to to weed it’s been addicted to alcohol it’s been addicted to gambling it’s been addicted to video games it’s been addicted to social media you g like if you are constantly feeding that that addiction you’re going to keep going down rabbit holes of it because

Pleasure knows no pleasure it does come on Pleasure does not know any pleasure once you believe that you have reached a certain amount of pleasure you’re excited about that so you want to feel it again and sometimes you be you get desensitized to it like even on

Instagram and I know I’m probably going on a few tangents but even on Instagram when you are the when you are addicted to social media and scrolling the desensitization of emotions is detrimental because you are literally looking at people people hurting and not mourning with them the Bible says mourn

With those who mourn grieve with those who grieve so you can see somebody who just lost their mother and then scroll and see somebody that Kiki and laughed about something and now you watching something funny now you kiking and laughing and then you can see something

Else that was pretty sad and it’s just like somebody the whole house done burned up everybody done made it out but but the kids like and it’s just like all of this stuff is going on then you see somebody getting married everybody being congratulated somebody birthday and it’s

Just like these amounts of emotions that you are experiencing in this short amount of time are unreal literally you’re you’re desensitized to these emotions because you’re ping them all up on each other so now your brain don’t know which emotion to latch on to to process my God and it’s detrimental to

You literally okay but let me see so he says um he says this is James one and shout out to Uncle James cause let me tell you something come on be Hest right right but this is this is James 1:5 it says then when when desire had okay I’m G

Start from 14 so James 1 14-5 it says but each one but each one is tempted when he is drawn away by his own desires and enticed come on then when Des desire has conceived it gives birth to sin and sin when it is full grown brings forth

Death so what is happen here there’s a pattern he said that the Temptation happens first just the thought of it right and then he says with that Temptation happened from a desire that was already there come on it was already in and it’s enticed and then he said

That desire is now conceived if you begin to feed into it and while you’re feeding into it it begins to give birth it done created a whole sea now it’s giving birth to sin and then it says sin when it is full grown so what does that

Mean that means that that sin that was first a seed that was given birth that it was given birth to is now being watered and fed and now it’s growing because it says when it is full grown it brings forth death because the wages of

Sin are death let me see if I can get this in another translation for y’all so y’all can understand what’s happening right now okay something real something real uh break down let’s do NLT because you know NLT tell you like it is too so it says Temptation comes from our own

Desires which entice us and drag us away these desires give birth to sinful actions and When sin is allowed to grow my goodness When sin is allowed to grow it gives birth to death help us Lord help us Lord physical death things Spirit mental death because it be the

Mental state the reason why we got our minds and stuff and stuff come on yo I’m trying to tell you what the spirit of the Lord is there is Liberty come on there’s liberty oh my gosh so Pastor Sarah J Roberts actually preached that scripture on Sunday and I

I was in tears he actually preached a um sermon called Mirror Mirror to mirror or something like that mirror in the model mirror in the model on Sunday and it was like I was following everything that she was saying but it was like when she brought

Up that scripture mama I believe it’s um 2 Corinthians uh 3 let me see where it’s at uh it’s 2 Corinthians 3:17 for the Lord is the spirit and where the spirit of the Lord is there is freedom y’all when she when she read the scripture out

Loud I didn’t even see it on the screen yet I came back to my computer to see it on the screen and I just started crying because it’s like we take so many things and try to substitute his presence with those things whether it be the substance whether it be the the

Pornography whether it be the the entertainment whatever it is that we’re entertaining ourselves with or feeling this quick dopamine and pleasure with our hearts and our souls and our hearts are are crying out for the presence of God my God you don’t take your pain and try to cure it with with with

Drugs now granted that does happen that does happen when somebody done been through some surgery or something or some medical situations now if the if if the doctor done prescribed you some medicine for your pain and something like that you know do what you got to do don’t get

Addicted to the to the morphine don’t get addicted to the to the Opie and whatever they be having okay don’t addict none of that stuff because I promise you we have a great physician who will heal you from your pain come on he says by his stripes we are heal okay

It he he can go ahead and take that all away for you you ain’t even gotta be hurting no more all right if you really trust him if you really pray into it and ask the Lord where did this thing come from where did this Affliction and this

Sickness come from he will show you the root of it you will be able to uproot it from the root whether it a generational curse whether be something you’re tied into whether it be something that just happened because the enemy just wanted to show up and attack you he give you spiritual warfare

Strategies yes he does okay so back to you baby that was good to me girl back to you so we done talked about the the drugs we talked about the alcohol we talked about the pornography now this same sex attraction situation how did you get out of that

Wow amen oh actually actually let’s start from the begin what was your experience in it and how did you get out yeah how did I get in um as I mentioned when I was younger I um was touched inappropriately by a young girl fast forward that led to like I

Call it the Demonic game of house when we used to play houses playing houses of the devil it’s honestly demonic you can’t I I will not accept a play house at my house so funny thing about it is I was playing house at my own house and as a kid and

Was doing some stuff that was completely inappropriate with a girl another girl in the neighborhood um and I remember like I got disciplined for it and that just caused like I realized in that moment this is bad this is not what you should do like my family is not pleased

And that in turn turned into God is not pleased and so I was young probably about seven eight years old and that led me down a road of I was going to church but every time I would go to church I’m saying the sinner’s prayer because my

Relationship with God was let me show you all these good things that I can do so that you could take this Thorn from my side like I don’t know why I’m having these feelings I don’t know why I’m attracted to women like girls at the time like I don’t know why

Me and so my relationship with God never really got strong as a kid because I was holding in a secret I wanted my family to forget that that ever happened I ended up moving to North Carolina and I’m like nobody remembers um and so in middle school I was experienced same sex

Attraction and this was back when the girls it was like oh they weird they gay like people it was just a whole situation so I never kids are mean kids are mean and I was also one of the one of the kids that was like oh she gay and it’s like whole time

Baby you heyen help us Lord are me not all kids yes like people yes kids are wild um and then High School I got to high school and um still had the attraction people around me were dating girls and boys like all the things

Um and I just felt like it was going to be a secret that I lived with forever I never ever imagined that um I would ever act on it like I just did not have the courage to and I was also attracted to men so I had a boyfriend in high school

Like I was good I just had um same sex attraction as well fast forward I get to college I ended up Crossing Delta and one drunken night I ended up telling some of my friends and my long sisters like I like girls like all this stuff and in that moment they embraced

Me and so it was like it almost felt healing that like when I was young I got disciplined but now that I’m in college expressing this like people like people are like it’s okay love is love we support you we love you and so going back to that scripture like it was a

Desire that was already in me that the seeds was getting watered and so finally my senior year of college um one of my co-workers actually we started studying she tried me I knew she was gay and I ended up um getting into my first samesex relationship and so I told

People around me and they were like we love you like my parents didn’t know but I felt some sort of acceptance fast for get out of college we and up in um breaking up I end up getting into another relationship with somebody who identified as transgender so I thought I was talking

It’s your eyes for me I thought I need to know how that works like I mean I don’t need to know details but what happened like how does that okay so they was transgender woman so they were they were born a woman but live life as a man

So they were a oh so it wasn’t the other one yeah so when I when I had approached the individual like I’m thinking I’m talking to a stud like I think I’m talking to like a a woman that is just dressed masculine at this time and as we

Ended up talking dating I realized they live life as a transgender person so we that lasted for a little while um we ended that relationship anywh who I ain’t got to give you my whole relational history but I um always had that feeling of like I know this is

Not what God has for me like I’m doing it and it’s fun and I’m fully in these relationships like I don’t want them to end but I I just knew in the back of my mind and in my heart that this was not pleasing to God so when I um gave my

Life back to Christ me and my ex were broken up my ex-girlfriend we were broken up and it was just like little by little he was showing me that my whole life the en was coming for my identity he Wasing he was giving me counterfeit love and samex attraction he was giving

Me counterfeit love in a sority he was giving me counterfeit peace like I was getting all of these fake things counterfeit things from the enemy and I needed to experience God’s true love for me and so that’s when it wasn’t until I moved to tssa that I’m like marriage is

My portion like God has a husband for me I never thought that and so he pulled me out it was kind of like I went through self-d Deliverance in so many areas my goodness it was just literally like night and day um and yeah that’s kind of how he how he

Pulled me out he showed me that that wasn’t what he had for me he had something that was good and pure for me um and what I was in was just kind of it was edifying my flesh but not my spirit and the false sense of acceptance

Because sometimes s when we don’t feel accepted or we have battled with rejection and all the traumas of Abandonment and neglect and things of that nature if somebody accept us in a certain realm we’re going to cling to that yeah and so I can understand how

You got there thank you for sharing that with us thank you for sharing that with us God bless you Paige you’re actually really dope like I like you OMG okay audience it’s yall turn this is now our Q&A portion for the audience so if anybody has anything that

They would like to ask my guest or both of us pertaining to the topic of anything that we mentioned on this live anything that you want to know um go ahead and ask because you already know what’s coming up next our good old Bible trivia baby I saw

That because if we don’t got no questions we gonna jump right into Bible trivia so let me see if the audience I ain’t seen the comments oh so many comments have happened I am so sorry guys we have just been in such a great we have been in such a great

Conversation does anybody have any questions for Paige anybody have any questions for Paige anybody have any what were they saying in the comments you can’t see the comments uhuh I can’t see any comments OMG oh comments yeah you can okay I see him now I was on private chat hey

Y’all I was in Miss Mildred’s oh okay I don’t see no uh questions or maybe they still typing strong maybe they is still typing do we got questions will said accountability is key it is is show is oh yeah ke mentioned my therapist taught me that our brains can block out

Early trauma is a survival mechanism yes definitely my mom okay it’s given Bible period of time huh now holy ghost these are so easy I made these so easy because I don’t know if you seen my past ones people just be out here acting like they don’t know the Bible but the thing

Is you know like are You Smarter Than A Fifth Grader the question be easy but okay let’s see these questions are easy I promise you you’re easy you got this you got this question okay if if anyone you don’t have you can always pass it to the audience and the audience

Can win something okay okay all right so okay cool Oh I thought somebody got a question yeah hold on somebody said I want to stop being consumed with political news how to stop being concerned I mean I guess it’s okay to be in the note

But I think is do you trust God with your life because I don’t watch nobody’s moves and it’s not a good thing and it’s not a bad thing like I don’t be knowing what’s going on okay out in the world outside of what they they tell us on

Probably like shade room or something you know what I’m saying like do I you even follow them my goodness but um so I would say like for for my of what I could give um in moderation like maybe watch overall what what what was this week ha or I’m sorry

Because I’m about to ask a question real getto what has happened this week I’m what’s going on in the world this month you know what I’m saying maybe do it like weekly or monthly or something like that because I don’t do it at all

So imagine if I don’t do it at all and I still be knowing stuff that’s going around somebody gonna tell you something somebody gonna tell you something to keep your eyes and ears open and really and really tune in to the Lord and trust him with your whole

Life the reason I don’t watch news is because sometimes the news we put in fear all kind of crazy stuff be happening and I’m like I trust God too much to watch this and let it feed me the anxiety that they feel I God for all

Of the crazy stuff that they got going on you know what I’m saying so I watch I listen and I watch stuff that is important things that are like breaking news like that the whole world needs to know I’m probably most likely going to see it on social media you know um yeah

And I don’t be on social media all the time no more the Lord has delivered me and I’m staying free but yeah in moderation with everything weekly monthly but every single day you don’t need that in your in your brain every single day every single day trust God

Every single day wake up and trust God and he got you I promise that’s good I would say the same first hey Tina girl um yeah I stopped watching the news for real in 2020 and it was because it was theic and it was just like I was waking up every

Day like what’s happening with Co where what’s like it was just I was going to that more than I was going to the one that created the universe and for me it was just like fear and anxiety and then I’m like oh well the CNN are they saying

Something different in Fox News and are they pushing a genda like it just became too much that it was just like I can get news or some breaking news in other ways and so it was just like for me it was I got to protect my peace yeah and I also

Stopped listening to um not just political stuff but like celebrity gossip I had shade room I had to like I follow them too I don’t even know why I mentioned them help us but the thing is the our Our Generation our culture like they use it but I had to

Like get away from it and it’s just because it was I’m spending more time on that but what what purpose has God put in me what what book could I be reading right now like what I’m not saying be ignorant but it makes sense to to limit

You will know what you need to know and what happens in culture is not what happens in the Kingdom so the gas prices really might be rising or the the world could really be in a recession but the way my kingdom finances are set up I

Ain’t on that timetable it will not come n me it will in real life I’m joking I mean I’m not joking it’s real life me real life and so yeah thank you for sharing that yeah thank you for sharing that do we have any more questions

Before I it’s giving y’all want to see me answer this Bible trivia like yes yes it is time okay amen I’ll be in my word so let’s see okay look you can you can always pass it to the to the people if you if you ain’t got it now miss Tina get ready

Wait okay so I promise you they easy okay the first one where did Moses deliver the Israelites from Egypt see how easy that was see how easy that was cause baby let them people go let my people go okay yes Miss Tina you TR God I’m so proud of

Her okay the next one who was the prophet that got swallowed up by the big fish Jonah look at how quickly me what you got a Jonah story story what’s happening no he just had me and Jonah for a very long time because Jonah was a deliverer he delivered Nineveh and

Yet he let his pride and he let he got mad at God and so I felt like as I was going through different seasons where God was sending me places where I felt like I wanted him to send me other places I wanted to go back to North

Carolina like I wanted to go do all these other things um um but God knew where Jonah needed to go and so he had me parked in Jonah for a very long time um that even in our Disobedience God still provides he provided a way of Escape for Jonah even though he was

Disobedient and didn’t want to go and deliver those people so he man my goodness before I before I continue uh Shante said that it is some questions in the Instagram chat but I can’t see on Instagram oh let’s see I gotta actually go to that tab hold

On do I see some questions oh my God it’s so much happening on the Instagram chat let me see uh Hey Hey Hey Brother Stefan Cheney P Pastor Stefan Cheney you this is on streamyard we’re streaming on three different um um platform platforms on streamyard Instagram YouTube and

Facebook so if God wants to be if God wants to be pleased and he has to have faith he’s GNA put you in a situation to test your faith okay that wasn’t a question okay yeah so it’s a lot happening on Instagram so many people have joined um so I can’t really see

Shante if you if you know what somebody ask me just text it to me because that’s who text me Shante said it was some questions on here okay now uh back to you girl because we ain’t done oh but I’m let me see pride come before the fall let me

Bring okay ca you got two out of you got two out of five in a bonus okay in a bonus you got two out of five in a bonus okay so who parted the Jordan River the Jordan Moos no the Jordan River Joshua J he was Moses’s predecessor he was a

Deliverer too Joshua was a deliverer too he marched him over into the promised land mes parted the Red Sea but J Jordan hey man sorry y’all Sorry God I knew that you had it though you had it cause I’m like Jordan didn’t sound like the Red Sea it’s okay you still got you

Still got more time okay I might have to come up out my jacket we we on number four you got one more left and a bonus okay are y’all praying for me say go okay what’s the name of the parable where Jesus talked about a guy who wanted to go back home

After living it up in a party scene the prot he wanted to go back home after living it up in a party scene yes you got it you said it yes the prodical son that’s the name of the parable yes I was a prodal out here baby okay

Okay you got you got um three out of four three out of four go number five okay who was Jesus’s famous cousin that practically laid out a red carpet phone John the Baptist the Baptist yes the whole name John the baper yeah John the Baptist oh you got that four out of five

Okay so I’m G give you the bonus question come on Paige we can do this come on hly so the bonus question is what’s this book chapter and verse so all right I’mma head out I promise you you know this I promise you you know this John

3:16 that’s what I got for you baby okay I promise you know this one okay so name that book chapter and verse the word of God says and my God shall supply all your need according to his riches and Glory by Christ Jesus what’s the book chapter and

Verse you know this I don’t yes you do and my God shall supply all your needs according to his riches and Glory by Christ Jesus somebody help her in the chat y’all know this look around my office somebody help her in a chat come on y’all know this I don’t know the

Bonus the bonus was harder than any of the others yeah because when I be doing the name that book chapter in verse people be like Romans okay shout out to Shamar what is it Philippians 4:19 somebody said Romans 8:28 that’s my friend G Romans 8:28 is all things work

Together for the good of them who love the Lord and those who are the C according to his purpose amen that’s what I write that’s what I wrote my first book on no shame plug all things work together all things work that was the first one 828 all

Things work together and then y’all know about this one because that’s what brought us here today call out y’all get it por carter.com all right come on we got some people in the we got some people in the chat shout out to sue Rich Philippians 4:19 shout out to Miss Tina again

Philippians 4:19 yeah y’all knew what was up you knew this though you did I had it written in my heart I had it in your heart well thank you for coming on here and sharing your heart with us thank you so I appreciate you so much this has been absolutely amazing

You are a joy you’re a light you’re an inspiration um can you please tell us um how we can stay connected to you where we can find you tell us about deliver her Ministries tell us about uh your social media platforms where we can find you all that anything you got coming out

Promos anything girl yes thank you so much um and I just want to honor you for this platform your book is fire thank you so much for sending it and signing it just all the things um just so excited to see all that God has done in

Your life and what he’s going to continue to do because baby I’ve had a time tonight and so it’s just been great the Saints have been set free um but as far as me you can find me um on YouTube on in Instagram at the page patent I’m

Also on Tik Tok a little bit the page patent um you can follow my website the page pen.com um and my Ministry handle is deliver her Ministry um I have merch available um I have a book that I am writing devot authors in this mug God coming but I’m working on a goded

Journal right now as well as getting this book and devotional together so that coming very soon um but yeah deliver her prayer calls will be back just link tap in with me on socials um and I post all of this stuff on on there that is absolutely amazing for the

People who missed the first half of um the interview can you please share um in depth what deliver her is yes so deliver her is a Ministry that God um has gifted me that partners with me on it’s a Deliverance Ministry that helps women walk out their Deliverance in community

Um Deliverance is not a one-time thing a lot of times people get delivered once and the Bible says that when the spirits go out they come back seven times stronger um and so what I found where God has delivered me from homosexuality he’s delivered me from addiction alcohol

Weed all of the things he’s delivered me from pornography I found out that I am able to Main main my Deliverance in community and so that is the True Heart behind deliver her um I provide resources and books for women last year I took 21 women to woman evolve we’ll be

Going back to woman evolve this year we’ll be going to various conferences um and just a way to help stay free out here in these streets um and living for God and so yeah you can find all that on my social media platforms um and yeah that’s deliver her

That is absolutely amazing thank you so much for joining us thank you so much for being here thank you for sharing with us I appreciate you so much this has been absolutely amazing um Before I Let You Go the Holy Spirit places on my mind earlier and it just brought back to

My memories but I wanted to actually pray for people who are dealing with addictions yes I want to actually pray because this is like even though we were able to like you know breathe through this topic and share our stories and things of that nature like this is something that people are really

Struggling with So for anybody who has made it to the end of this live and if you didn’t come back to the end okay okay because we are about to lift you guys up in prayer um Heavenly Father Lord we thank you Father God for this night we thank

You for being a good god a merciful god a wonderful God we thank you for being the alpha the Omega the beginning and the end Lord we thank you Father that you see us that you hear us father and that you God are a prayer answering God

So before we even bring to you our prayers today Lord we ask that you search our hearts and know us Lord and see if there is any offensive way in us oh Lord we ask that you uproot it cleanse us and lead us into the way of

Everlasting oh God we ask that you create in us clean hearts and renth in us right Spirits so for everything father God that has made us unclean anything that we have thought said and done that was not like you we repent In This Moment oh God we repent and we ask

For your forgiveness for you said that if we confess our sins you are faithful and just to forgive us and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness Lord so cleanse us father God help us father God to walk in the way that you would have us to walk help us to walk in your

Righteousness not the righteousness that we think we can do because our righteousness as a filthy racks but the righteousness that we walked into father when Christ died and rose again for our sins oh Lord you said that our righteousness comes from you so help us to walk in that righteousness in the

Name of Jesus Lord and Lord right now we lift up every single person who may be dealing with addiction Lord your word says where the spirit of the Lord is there is freedom there is Liberty oh God we ask you that your spirit consumes them Lord that they find their way in

Your presence oh God that you meet them oh Lord that you have an encounter with them Lord that changes their lives forever that when they encounter you father God that you would take the taste out out of their mouth whatever they may be addicted to Lord whether whether it

Be uh uh drugs or sex or alcohol or pornography or video games or gambling or social media or even Lord I seen somebody addicted to something as crazy as drinking gas Lord if they are addicted to things that are outlandish father God deliver them oh God that you

Would take the taste out of their mouth oh God that you will remove it from their desires from the desires of their flesh in the name of Jesus for Lord you said in your word that whom the sun sets free is free indeed so Lord free them

Father let them know that freedom is possible for them oh God for every single person who may have family members that may be addicted or strung out on drugs or somewhere homeless or leaving their kids or doing things that are crazy like selling their kids and prostituting their children to to get a

Come up on drugs father God I ask oh Lord that you deliver them that you heal every single broken heart that you every single wound that has been placed by the spirit of addiction oh God I ask father that you help people’s hearts be turned to you oh Lord that they will worship

You and you alone with all of their heart mind soul and strength they will not need to turn to a substance father not to turn to anything to feel their voice that you would do it because you are God and God alone and there is

Nothing and no one like you and God you are the the almighty who nothing is impossible for so if they are still breathing and still have breath in their body Lord you can turn their situation around do it for them even now oh God for anybody who grew up motherless or

Fatherless because of addiction oh Lord I ask father God that you heal them oh lord your word says Heal Me Lord and I will be healed save me and I will be saved heal them Father God help them to know Lord that that addiction that their mother and father may have gone through

Was not their portion and was not from you oh God let them know father God that we have an enemy out here who is trying to steal kill and destroy us oh God and that it was him but you have come that you have G that you would give us life

And life more AB abundantly oh God your word also says be sober because the the the devil is like a roaring lion seeking whom he may devour oh Lord help us to be sober minded in everything that we do sober in our thoughts sober in our actions oh

Lord sober in our everyday life oh Lord so that we could be able to walk father God not being attacked by that lion father God that was actually be famed at the cross Lord thank you the name of Jesus Oh Lord we pray for the people

Father God God who may not who who may not have even met their parents before because of this thing oh god oh Lord I ask that you hear their wounds your word says you are near to the Brokenhearted and you save those who are crushed in

Spirit my God so father God where there is fatherlessness or motherless oh Lord you step in and be their father and their mother for your word says in in Psalms 27 And1 I believe it says when my father and mother forsake me the Lord will take care with me oh Lord let that

Be their portion that you are a father to the fatherless that any wounds that the spirit of addiction has has destroyed in families oh Lord that you would restore those wounds that you would heal those wounds oh Lord and restore them in areas where they feel

Like they have lost God for you are a perfect restorer in the name of Jesus for you are a God who can do absolutely anything and we trust you with that anything oh God lord we place these we place everybody under the sound of my my voice including myself in your hands

Father have your way in us God Have Your Way in our lives do what Only You Can Do Lord if if if the son that makes us free is free indeed father may we never go backwards to the things that Happ in the name of Jesus may we may we

Never even crave the things that you have delivered us from oh God and for the people who will be delivered later on Father God fill them up for if the enemy goes around trying to find the quote unquote house that he think he belonged to and bringing seven more of

His evil friends oh Lord F that house up with your spirit so much to the point where they have no entry way no entry point fill us up with your Holy Spirit in such a way that there is no entry to the devil and we are also

Overflowing to the people we may need to touch help us father God to shine our lights like you have called us to do and help us father God to be bold in sharing our testimonies for we know that we overcome by the blood of the lamb and the word of Our

Testimony oh God we thank you that you have heard this prayer we thank you Father God that your word says there is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus thank you so anyone who may be feeling low or condemned from something that they are

Currently bound to or addicted to oh God help them to come to you Lord Shameless free condemn not Jesus Jesus because there is no condemnation to them oh God and Lord help them to receive you with an Open Heart Lord the name of Jesus love you and we thank you for

Being the God who hears and The God Who answers prayers it is in Jesus mighty name that we pray amen Amen to God be the glory for the things that he has done okay that was stand in agreement with the prayer that was just pray put some amens in the chat I usually do not pray on call out loud but I just feel led for that because addiction is such a heavy

Topic and people deal with stuff for this thing yeah like people cause why you play so much be in the chat to God be the glory we got some amens in the chat amen yes wow and and for anybody who be having um traumatic experiences with addiction

Like if somebody you know did something wrong to you or stole from you or tried to sell you with something like that you know what I’m saying like forgive them that’s good pray this prayer for them forgive them and pray this prayer for them because the Lord can deliver them

Yeah and he will and he will nobody is too far gone all right well y’all that’s all we got for tonight y’all know every where y’all can find me oh y’all hold on before y’all go let me let y’all know we got a double whammy this week because I

Don’t know if y’all know I I snuck out and didn’t say nothing but we missed last week so this week we have two shows I will be back here again same time on Thursday with another very special guest I will be announcing him tomorrow I’ll be announcing him tomorrow but we have

Another very special guest coming on on Thursday night at 8:00 p.m. Eastern Standard Time right here same Place same time okay so make sure y’all are here and then don’t forget we are also here every single Tuesday at 8:00 pm until the Lord says otherwise okay um To God

Be The Glory thank You’ all so much for being here thank youall so much for watching I appreciate all of you who have joined and yall have an amazing night we out bye y’all

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