Okay so um we were in the middle of a piece with the AL on the uh first conversation that has with Cen and this is before the drama between Cen and he this is just after the sacrifice and uh we talked about how God turned to heav and his sacrifice and he
Did not turn to cayenne and his sacrifice and then it says that Cen got angry and his face fell and then God told him listen if you get better great but if not sin crouches at your door and uh he will always desire you and you
Must rule over him and we talked about Das has been discussing these verses and um we’re just at the uh we have a a few more points to do in this idea of that sin is crouching at the door okay so I’m on page 58 in my addition on the right hand
Column the believe the second the last paragraph right yeah okay hell God says to if you do not improve no I’m sorry if you improve Say it’ll be good for you why do you not purify yourself and repent return to God say it that’ll be good that God says if you purify
Yourself and you repent I will uplift you and carry you that denotes being able to overcome challenges and to reach Heights that one normally can’t by themselves okay but if you do not improve make an effort to improve you don’t take a step forward to purify but if you hold on to your
Current path he behold to the port hole that they open for you what does that mean like so um there are two that are contrasted one says somebody who comes to purify they help him meaning somebody all somebody has to do is to make the minimal effort to purify oneself and to
Come close to God with the pure resolve and God will do the hard work the heavy lifted he he helps you he AIDS you it’s not just you’re not left to your own uh limitations whereas also say somebody who comes to imp purify imp purify himself somebody who seeks out uh
Darkness and is looking to stray from sh they open the door meaning they will not help you but they’re not going to get in the way they allow you to Choose Your Own Adventure but if you’re coming to come close to God they help you so over here the is noting that
The verse says there’s an opening referring to if you try to purify yourself say God will actually carry you but if not if you do not improve yourself to that opening that sh will allow you meaning There’s No Limit don’t expect sham to stop you from from um
Choosing a path that ultimately there is no limit to how far you can go they’ll open up for you just like the rabbi say somebody who comes to um to make himself impure they open for him God tells Ken don’t give up don’t think it’s entirely impossible to continue to have another
Fall to stumble again meaning you think that this is just a it’s a path it’s a whole path that if you do not do the minimal to improve it’s inevitable that you will uh go down a path where there’s no limit to how far you can go
Don’t think that just because I’m not going to help you in purify yourself there’s a limit to how far you can go rather the door will be open for you because God says if I’m not the one causing you to sin he behold that sin that you already did
Just that first initial step to the dark side it crouches to um to to make you sin meaning it’s already your uh your you are you are already its prey because one sin causes another sin to follow and do not wait till you’re standing again at another sin before you purify
Yourself because already he is already Desiring you he’s already coming to you inviting himself into your space you didn’t do a sin a second and a third time you only did one sin already and he’s already like that beggar that poer he’s begging you to do as well
As you must rule over him from here on end opposed to the fact you still have a chance to rule over him and if you do not he will become the owner of the house the poer will come and displace you and then he will rule you so God saying listen you
Don’t have a choice right now it’s urgent you need to take a step forward to purify yourself or you’re lost oh Yar which is indeed by the way what happens uh alternatively another point it’s possible right now that I’m having this conversation with you Cen and you’re going to be lazy you’re going
To procrastinate from repentance because you’ll be discouraged because you’ll think that I won’t accept it or rather you think that I’m always going to play F favorites with your brother meaning whatever whatever um uh whatever narrative you’re experiencing right now you’re going to allow this is
Going to be a reason why you won’t do what you need to do and repent um sh and you’re going to think that I’m always going to prefer your brother why because your brother never sinned whereas you sinned and you had to repent and you’re always going to feel like
You’re playing second fiddle and you’re always going to be resentful or even for a second reason when you say you can blame um your sin on your and you will think that you cannot ever beat him and you’re going to let go of The reigns you’re just meaning God doesn’t
Want him to become despondent for whatever reason and feel that it’s useless and even improving you’re going to say whether you sin or you don’t sin God always hates you Al meaning even he right he he never sins so he’s always preferable and so if even if Cen doesn’t sin again he’s going
To think that that God will always prefer heaven and if he and what’s the point so he he’s not in a state he he needs to be empowered now to step close to God so God’s trying to tell him okay therefore I’m trying to tell you it’s not that way it’s not like
That regarding your first sin if you improve now and you indeed repent it’s going to be better than it was before because I will place you higher than your brother tell us that the place right the verse says shalom shalom peace peace to those that are far
And those that are near and say based on that in the place where those who repent those who have sinned and then have come back stand um sadik who who meaning somebody who never sinned cannot even stand in that special relationship that abacha has with God so
God says listen everything is not lost in fact it could even be better than it was before and he even though you would think that he’s preferable because he’s a sadik he never sinned but in the place where repentant people stand even cannot stand however alternatively if you do
Not improve right now you have to know in this very moment sin is crouching to attack at the door before the evil inclination gets a person to double and triple a sin he is like a a beggar and he standing at the door all the time asking for
Money and you will be you know he’s going to try to compel you you right his desire is to overcome you that you should give him a hand therefore God is saying to I’m giving you advice you in your current state now meaning this is all before you do Chua
Right I’m sorry there now you still haven’t mean just because now you’re living in a constant struggle with the A and he’s become a character in your life and you think now that you’re lost that’s not indicative of anything except that you have to be vigilant okay and and don’t think
Meaning you think you didn’t even do all you did was w a Vera and now you can’t get rid of him right but that doesn’t mean that’s an inevitable that you have to do the AA the second time and the third time you have to stand your ground um
And even though now you didn’t even yet double and triple he can rule over you right so do not allow him to to rule over you okay so these are various aspects of a pep talk where God has to address all kinds of various concerns where somebody in kind’s position will
Actually be repelled from improving and coming forward and he has to and this is all out of love okay the classic explanation of what the E is going to try to do this is uh this is the existential uh Human Condition okay so now um there’s another uh short piece here
Okay so we’re going to read in thees so we don’t know how Ken took these words of God but then it says that Ken addressed he his brother and it was that they were in the field anden stood over he’s brother and he killed him so we can ask several questions on
This verse it never says what he told him it says Ken spoke to he’s brother Kama and they were in the field why is that relevant and then it says that K stood over he once again it says his brother it says his brother twice in
The verse we know who he is why is it saying that when he killed him you know this this is this is uh this is heavy this is hard um but it doesn’t say what’s this mysterious thing that the p is reporting that he spoke to
Him but doesn’t say what he said why is it significant to talk about that they were in the field and then it says that he stood up that he overpowered him and it keeps on calling him his brother which is a strange thing to say when he’s not treating him with any fraternal
Love okay so this is going to be a long discussion but there’s a short piece first before we address all the things okay here we go it is it is worthwhile to know it never says in the verse on the one hand it reports that there was a
Discussion but it doesn’t say what why bother telling me they had to talk if it doesn’t say what they said why do I have to know that he struck him and killed him in the field therefore there is a saying from our sages so they’re bothered by why does
The verse seem to say that they were in the field so it so there is one that say that they must have been fighting about the The Inheritance right the what this where this field or where some sort of property would go they were fighting over property and some
Say that is a reference to the like the verse says regarding it says in later at the end of par elzar brings sah Rifka back to meet her new husband Y and it says that was out talking in the field say he was praying there but but over there it’s a
Reference to somehow the mikdash they understood that therefore they put it back on the S here that somehow K and were talking their conversation was about the mikash and there’s another third that says they were fighting about a woman like the verse in says referring to a particular case um
Where uh somebody finds a woman in the field and over there meaning somehow this is linked to the discussion that they had regarding who would take uh a particular woman and another and another question when then the verse says once it tells us that there is a verse I mean there is
Conversation but it doesn’t tell us what it is and then it mentions that they were in the field so maybe the field was what they were talking about and we talked about what those options are but then it says and he got up stood over it doesn’t have to say he stood
Over him and then he killed them it could have just said he killed him he killed his brother what’s this extra he stood up over him are motivated by this question to say they said well it must have been that actually he started with Cen and he was
Over Cen and then Cen had to turn him over and stand up over him and then he killed them so they they read into this the implication is that Ken was on the losing um he was on the receiving end in a physical struggle first and then he
Had to assert himself it’s suggesting that started initiated phys that or that that he had overpowered him that that he thre him down and then he had to get up and then he that’s that’s how they read it in the Holy Z it says we’ve already mentioned Howen
Somehow his root was in the sight of impurity and he was a manifestation of the sight of purity of Hol here’s the point we also know from the book of the Z that the fields and the deserts are natural uh domains or habitats for um the prevailing Spirit of impurity
Meaning uh the power of impurity is its natural domain in the physical world are places like fields and deserts Bish not like the case of where you have humans dwelling any any sort of yishu of human Humanity where there’s a settling people there there is less
Of there’s less of a hold and a ruler a rulership a power to the spirit of of impurity and God said to Ken that the and the the the dark side itself will always be Desiring of him the power of the evil inclination it was working really hard to use Ken as
A host and cause him to sin because K was already susceptible because one sin drags another what was his sin his sin was when he had this U bad um reaction and getting angry and fall and his face Falling by not being accepted meaning he turning that whole
Incident to a step away from God has been the context for for the past couple pieces so basically K is in a bad State and God says you better get meaning the whole what led usually right if you ask a kid in school what’s the story of K
They’ll say k was a terrible person because he killed but that’s that’s not at all as an adult in a mature reading we see her that something critical had to happen to before that to make this happen because God already has a whole conversation with him about don’t be a
Bad boyh so so we said that there was something terrible that happened in terms of his emotional response and what he allowed himself to think because of how God did not turn to his and God tried to correct him but we’re saying that that’s a sin yeah somehow that was
Enough given it was the equivalent of a sin giving enough hold to the dark side over him that now he’s being hounded and being pushed okay so he so and we we even know this is the second time we note that he’s actually from the power
Of impurity which is kind of unfair Fair it seems like he’s perfectly situated and poised to be overtaken by some sort of evil force well this is what’s bothering me about this is that you know uh we’re supposed to come into this world in a
Neutral place and um and we you know we we we have the power to over come our which is what God sets to him right and yet it seems like he has inherent um disadvantage in being born with the Kiper and yet it was still not a
Disadvantage it just shows that if he does surrender he’s capable of maybe a lot worse but here God meaning it’s very fascinating that with Biblical um paradigms that it’s almost like you with asov there I think that you can have the same discussion how can they be cautionary tales that well on
The face of the narrative it feels like they’re doomed for they have a destiny but in a way ofy is that you who we’d like to imagine have a fair chance you don’t have those handicaps all their Journeys are still relevant to you somehow they’re still cautionary tales
To us whatever the is explaining how God is talking to K he’s talking to us so it’s very useful and yet how can so on the one hand I wouldn’t be so bothered for the sake mean you can ask for the sake of Cen the character it may seem a
Fair you can ask the writer you know but but in terms of its relevance and how we have to understand it you know the relevance is that even if you are born with a handicap Hashem Engineers it that you can overcome that right right so I think the
Handicap is important here as part of the story because it’s the trigger of other things going on meaning there is first of all it’s remember the first time that we spoke about it it’s a stand in for God’s spiritual um refinement of a Fallen World right it stood for the
Fact that there’s a filtering going on even in in Adam’s bloodline and yet even that individual himself Cen is not um he’s not pushed relegated to a destiny of of evil as we see right here so I would kind of isolate those elements in terms of the narrative in
Terms of the Primal what they stand for meaning kind is still relevant to us inter as a sinner and the process of and fighting the this is a caution iail to everybody whether you have that handicap or not and the and the point of that
Handicap will it’s going to come up in a second we’ll see where we take that but the reason why we mentioned it before also I would like to say is a separate element which is also supposed to be encouraging like I pointed out the last time that the piece even the piece that
Said that Cen was kind of expelling just the all the all the Z in the end the AL makes a point of saying that even he is totally rectified in the relationship between Moshe and yro is a huge sadic and I made a point before actually uh that that it’s like we
Say that God never lets any Soul uh he doesn’t give up till they’re totally whatever can be rectified is rectified so that element of the story should not disturb us right that’s that’s one point okay right um okay so the relevance of the field here has to do with some sort
Of conversation that P does not report and yet and he doesn’t explore it he doesn’t explain what any of those things are but it seems to be some sort of jealousy m right and somehow right so so now we have a situation where the zor is telling us that a field is particularly
Primed to be an antenna or uh to um to exacerbate right it it it it amplifies the hold of the dark side it’s a natural domain for the dark side and you have this character here who is already from the Dark Side God’s expecting a lot from it right right it’s
It’s a tragedy waiting to happen Okay and then oh the other thought I have before I go any further is this is kind of this is a bigger idea uh let’s see if I could do it in a second but if you think of an random evolutionary process
Where all all possibilities have to come to one actual conclusion meaning go if God starts off Creation with all the potential and in the end we have to get to something very very specific so there’s a constant there there are the further back you go in earlier stages you’ll have let’s
Say if if reality is a story of of us getting to a more and more particular reality because the sustainability and viability of a particular reality is the only thing that can be true and and and and be viable in God’s world I’m trying to I’m sorry just bear with me for a
Second till I find the words okay um it seems to me what I have the this picture in my head now of of an idea where you have a funneling of all possibilities till we get to where reality is supposed to be and what only the what is is
Ultimately just what’s viable like we say the difference between and is something that will truly exist has a level of Eternity that it’s real and she whatever reality is it has is only temporal fing it doesn’t have reality to it right it doesn’t last so it for
Reality to get to where it needs to it kind of it plays through all possibilities till there it’s God’s reality and it’s meant it’s designed to achieve toen hasl and goodness but it goes through so many things first meaning all possibilities that eventually get lost so meaning
Maybe it’s very very possible that you could have even at this early formative stage of of creation of reality of of the human story of God’s world um you can have a situation where what is it like to have a Kay me as an like a
Okay there’s a I’m going to end with this there’s a there is maybe we’ll pick this up another time there is a famous Kaz that says that he creates worlds and destroys them are you familiar with that you ever hear that before yes that there’s some sort
Of process before God God got to our reality it had to go through so many unsustainable nonviable realities and somehow that that’s cooked into this that’s part of the process of getting to this so that meaning there’s all everything that doesn’t work happens before you get to what works and the
Reason why it works is because everything else doesn’t work um and without going too further I feel like uh I don’t want to drag you around with my I feel like What’s Happening Here with cayenne and he is part of that also somehow in a deeper way is that part of
That filtering process and refinement process and and and the questions that I would have about the fairness and and the conditions of cen’s reality kind of for some reason I’m going to that place and seeing it as just a natural kind of organic process I I I’m going to leave
It at that for the time being because these are bigger things to discuss maybe when there’s more time okay so now Cayenne who’s from the dark side is hanging out in the field which is uh a dark place okay and it says like this you know the word in in in Bible talk
You have generally you have two types of verbs or categories of speech you have Amir and you have deor Amir is seen as a soft kind of language whereas debor is a hard language when we say debor as a hard language we mean instruction or stating an imperative harsh an
Imposition of reality it doesn’t have to be violent but debor means like God is saying how it is am is more like say when it says to use am means to you’re you’re bringing someone close with words okay so Amir is a soft version of communication where it’s not meant to
Make somebody defensive but actually brings them on board okay so he’s noting here that the says whatever Cen was saying to he they were said in a language of camaraderie of connection as we know is the nature of the the the word always refers to a language of
Closeness so he told him everything that God had saids everything got it said sorry right the verse says when it says it’s a language of of closeness as is the nature of the what we refer to when we call it he told him he reported him everything that God had
Said and all this was in order to be friends to be a brother a fraternity and loving Brotherhood and that’s why the verse says indeed he told his brother that moment he was ruling over his and he made it he made a step forward however afterwards the second they were in the
Field all of a sudden that’s where the power of the dark side resides as then as a result of that Cen who himself comes from the Dark Side stood up meaning there was some sort of energy level of Cen that that asserted itself come he got
Up and he and he he heightened himself over the Holiness that his that in that place in the field his uh inclination was awakened Satan that is the that’s the evil inclination from that side and that’s when he killed him over he killed he over his
Jealousy and it was all on the jealousy not of whatever K is saying the field might mean but on the fact that God turned to his to he not his so now we’re getting into problematic territory now you could ask start asking meaning you could have asked the question before now
That it’s seems that here he’s even he made is saying he made an effort and it was only because of circumstances unwittingly they were in a field and now he’s taken over as the host of the Satan I mean what a terrible story well this this taken over is is is mirrored
Atel it’s mirrored with snake it seems like that’s my problem it just happened it just happened so unfair you know you see this whole story until now I could say this is a story of a evil malignant spiritual force that jumped into a living creature from that got to jump into human
Destroyed all of humanity it’s really the story and it seems we’re not Christians but it seemed all God wanted was a beautiful world yeah and thear is doing everything to destroy it and at any point he could pull the plug right really he could say there’s a
Limit to how much the can do I don’t like what but so far it’s like what there’s an infestation that keeps on getting worse and and it’s and in a way Ken the way we are telling the story here it seems that in a way cenne is unwit
It’s he’s not a bad guy he’s got everything against him being a bad guy so let’s see where this goes right fascinating okay so um we pause there yeah that that’s the end of this piece but we’re going to pick we’re going to the next piece talks about it a little
Bit more in the conversation okay see what he says
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