God Confronted Me About My Sorority Lifestyle 😳 (Testimony)

No one in my family has been a member  of a greek-lettered organization before   so i knew like this was something i wanted  to wear on my back with pride little did i   know the fruits of this lifestyle started to  manifest quickly my drinking increased a lot  

My smoking increased a lot fornication increased a  lot and i guess being on a college campus too that   environment is just it’s heavy in that lifestyle  so every time we would be like oh where’s the   next function where’s the next party we’re going  to this bar we’re going we’re going to hang with  

These guys and it’s like for this to be christian  based we’re doing a lot of non-christian things   my mom and dad took us to church um again i’m  nigerian so religion is a big thing in our um  

Culture but none of us were actually saved so  there wasn’t really the guiding light of christ   in our household and how to behave in things i  wasn’t super rebellious i wasn’t um like a big   troublemaker but yeah i just kind of lived like  a lukewarm life so then things got crazy when i  

Got to college college i started making different  kinds of friends they started introducing me to   smoking partying and liquor and all that stuff  and like fornication and things like that even   with all that going on i still would try to live  righteous and go to church and just be good but i  

Still didn’t care truly about jesus and in my  college experience i went to two universities   i started off for two years at one school and i  ended up two years at another school in baltimore   city and once i transferred to that school that’s  when things really got intense and that’s where  

The sorority life came in and just as  a educational piece fraternities and   sororities are usually like college campus  organizations where people join them for   various reasons organizations they have  missions and visions and activities   and things of that nature coming into this  college campus i didn’t really have friends  

Because i transferred my sophomore i  transferred my junior year so i started off   junior year at this university everyone’s  already in their friend groups they have their   clicks their clubs and everything and i was just  a loner i picked up a job so i would go to class  

Go to work and then come home and then i think one  day i was sitting in my apartment like i’m about   to finish college in a year i need to do something  impactful i need to become i need to be a part of  

Something impactful i can’t keep doing this the  rest of my college life so honestly it may have   just been like the pride in me that was looking to  do something that i knew would bring me attention  

I knew would put my name out there i knew would  get my face out there the first thought that   crossed my mind was um sga which is the student  government association and at the school i went to  

If you were on sga that was it was not like a big  deal like you were part of homecoming planning   committee you were part of the groups that planned  the campus parties and stuff like that so i joined  

Sga but i felt like it still wasn’t enough and  i was like i need another thing to really boost   my collegiate career so i had a friend who i went  to middle school with and she told me about this  

Sorority that um was having i think she called it  like an interest meeting she was like yeah they’re   having an interest meeting and i’m gonna do it and  i think you should like join too and i was like  

Sure like i guess this is what i was looking for  so i went with her and um we went to the meetings   we went through some of like the pre-preliminary  processing with like getting people’s numbers and   staying in contact with certain like big sisters  and that’s kind of how the process started with  

Joining and entering into the sorority but  even outside of that i was still living   just doing what i wanted to do i had more freedom  so and my mom gave me a car so i would drive  

To virginia i’d drive to dc i would just drive to  all these places for what to like party and to you   know just live a little reckless but it really got  intense once the sorority lies started to kick in  

Now before you move on to uh talking a  little bit more about that sorority life   were you hearing god at all in this time as  you’re starting to explore more into the world   or was it just like your heart was completely  closed off no i wasn’t hearing god at all my heart  

Was very closed off um i was a very carnal i was a  very worldly girl i was very into like trends and   things so i’ve always had this um this compass  inside of me like this moral compass that would  

Say that’s good that’s bad like don’t do this you  should probably do that or stay away from this   but not necessarily the voice of the lord  where it was like discerning good and evil so   a lot of what i did was just my own version  of righteousness not necessarily the voice of  

God yeah so talk to us about uh uh lead us into  that sorority life and and and what you begin to   experience in that life yeah so um upon entering  and this was in fall 2016 the fall yeah it was  

It started the process started over the summer  but once school started i started to hit the   ground running with that process it was really  a lot of it was very secretive it was a lot of   hush hush and you’re not allowed to say this  people aren’t allowed to see you past this time  

You have to be at this location you have to wear  these clothes you have to do this with all of your   there were pledges at the time but now they  were like oh you’re sisters it was a really  

Dark process but i knew that the lord wasn’t  in it because my drive to complete the process   regardless of what was done to me and what i  experienced my drive was notoriety my drive was   not necessarily fame but you know that inner  elitism i guess is the word to be known and  

To have the paraphernalia which is like the  clothing that has the letters and the colors on it   so um the process itself was it was just  dark and i knew god wasn’t in it because  

A lot of it was very ritualistic a lot of what  i found myself doing and what they had us do   was symbolic of occultic practices and idol  worship and just to shed light on just one example  

There was this one night where um my sister my  former sisters and i we were in this room and   we were kind of in a circle and in this circle we  had candles and there was like golden bowls like  

Doggy bowls by the way like in front  of all of our faces and we were saying   we’re repeating a lot of like chants and um  it was just a lot of chanting and repeating   this and saying that again and one of my old  line sisters at the time she jokingly said  

Oh my god this feels like a seance and in my head  i was like yeah this feels like we’re summoning   like summoning some spirits or whatever but  being again veiled ignorant not saved none of us   really cared because we just wanted to complete  the process to be in the organization so badly so  

You know we shook that off but that was a common  thing that would happen you know we would do   certain rituals and practices and kneeling and i’m  like looking back i’m like wow how did i not see  

This but at the time i was just driven by pride  and all the earthly gain that came from it so   after i finished the process and became a member  of the organization there’s something called a  

Probate which is the campus ceremony of the people  coming out and what they mean by coming out is   because during the process you kind of go into  hiding like people don’t see you on campus for   a while you go straight to class you come home  you’re just encouraged to be hidden and then  

During the probate which is like the revealing  that’s where you come out and during a probate   it’s like there’s flyers that go out people get  really excited and then what happens is the big   sisters of the organization are now revealing who  the new members or the little sisters or the neos  

Are and the neo is a neophyte which is someone who  is newly like a baby member of the organization   and um during a probate basically they’re  revealing who the newest members are that   just joined this fall or this spring whatever the  semester was after my probate that’s when i was  

Officially a member i wore i had the jacket i had  the line number i had like 13 or so line sisters   and at the time it was very celebratory it was  um like oh wow congratulations and people were so  

Happy for me and i felt it like i was like yeah i  just accomplished something i did something great   no one in my family has been a member of a greek  letter organization before so i knew like this was  

Something i wanted to wear on my back with pride  little did i know the fruits of this lifestyle   started to manifest quickly my drinking increased  a lot my smoking increased a lot fornication   increased a lot and i guess being on a college  campus too that environment is just it’s heavy in  

That lifestyle so every time we would be like oh  where’s the next function where’s the next party   we’re going to this bar we’re going we’re going to  hang with these guys and it’s like for this to be  

Christian based we’re doing a lot of non-christian  things and when i say christian based i mean the   organization that i joined is considered a  d9 organization d9 stands for divine nine   meaning that in in another historical piece so the  nation’s history with sororities and fraternities  

It dates back a long way but a lot of them  were exclusive of um african americans so   then along the 1900s there were nine different  sororities that sororities and fraternities   that kind of came together for this purpose of  including african americans and they became the  

Divine nine so the organization i joined was  considered a d9 organization so the lifestyle   that came with this organization it it just wasn’t  of god and i thought it was ironic because a lot   of the d9 organizations they would they would  call themselves christian based a lot of them  

Would say oh all of our organizations are founded  on christian principles and that’s what i used to   soothe myself with when saying yes this is of god  this is okay because the practice books and the   rituals and things they would always talk about  god and they would mention something about an  

Eternal spirit but me being ignorant i’m like  okay yeah sure so jesus has to be in this so   but to kind of fast forward the fruits of the  organization and the lifestyle that came from it   there’s no way that eternal  spirit was the holy spirit so  

That’s kind of the life that i lived after  joining yeah now you went through a process   uh where one the lord began to draw you in god  began to draw you in and begin to reveal to you  

What was happening in these organizations yeah  but there was also a fighting that you had to do   in yourself because you were so involved with  this life and you believed that this was okay   can you just take us to that process of god  encountering you and really just beginning to  

Lead you into into the light essentially yeah so  my encounter actually happened once i graduated   college and moved back home it was an encounter  where god showed started to show me things but   it was also the ultimate encounter that also led  to my salvation so it’s kind of a backtrack i  

Graduated college in spring of 2017 and  then the first time i felt a conviction   was around december of that same year i remember  it was a saturday night and i was at one of my  

Old pro fights house and there was a sleepover  oh and sorry a pro fight is like one of the big   sisters that bring you into the organization i  was at her house with some of my line sisters at  

The time and we were having a sleepover and it was  very ratchet like we were drinking again smoking   eating just being ridiculous so then that  sunday i come to church and it’s the same   childhood church i’ve grown up in same pastor  i’ve had never was convicted with anything before  

But this time he says in the midst of his  preaching he was talking about how there’s people   who don’t know god he was like and you know some  of you guys in here you think you know god and  

I don’t know why but that made my heart i was  like oh my god i think i’m one of those people   who don’t know god and if i did know god instantly  i started thinking about what i did last night at  

The sleepover so i made the decision in my mind  like okay god i’m gonna be intentional to know you   and i did it to the best of my ability still  not having the holy spirit to help me i was like  

Okay i think getting to know god is like  going to church on time so i started going to   church on time i was like okay it made me feel  better but i’m like i don’t know if that’s it  

So between the month of december 20 2017 to about  april 2018 i was doing a lot of earthly works of   trying to be good and trying to make sure i knew  god um i started watching more youtube sermons  

I started trying to read my bible a bit yeah i  started listening to more gospel music i just   tried to do good i tried to be righteous on my  own strength so that kind of what now let up i  

Guess god saw me being serious and then he was  ready for what i call the big bang encounter   and this big bang encounter was in may and in  may i remember um it was the lord so i have a  

Friend she’s a friend now um at my the first  school i went to she was my ra at the time which   is a i think a resident assistant because i lived  in the college dorm and she was basically the one  

Who made sure you know we kept the bathrooms clean  we took out the trash and things so when i left my   former university i hadn’t talked to her since so  then i see her on instagram this one random day  

In may and she’s posting a flyer about how she’s  gonna do an instagram live on how god took her   out of a sorority and how god set her free from  bondage and all of this stuff now i remember her  

Probate as well i remember when she crossed into  the organization and i was like happy for her i   was excited i knew it and i just loved it so then  when i saw this flyer i was so confused i’m like  

God delivered you you were in bondage i’m like  but i’m in a sorority does i mean i’m in bondage   but i knew something i knew god was moving  because the flyer made me very uncomfortable   it made me i didn’t know what i was feeling  at the time was called it was a conviction  

But my heart just kept like i felt nervous i was  like whoa and i would just scroll past the flyer   and like you know everything would go back to  normal but she shared this post on instagram  

For over a week and the fly was very um it was  very interesting to me because on the flyer   it had a picture of a man’s arms like this as if  it was chained and there was ropes around his arms  

And in the flyer like the ropes were releasing  his arm and that image too was it kept jumping out   to me and i’m like there’s no way i’m in bondage  though like this flyer is really bothering me so  

Every day i mean it was literally monday  to saturday i kept seeing the flyer and it   it started making me angry because i’m like leave  me alone but still i was like you know whatever   i’m not gonna watch that instagram live because  maybe she just had a really bad experience so on  

Saturday she now drops the date and time she’s  like i’m gonna go live on sunday at 7 00 pm   and i’m gonna share my story so i was like okay  she’s gonna go live at seven i’m gonna go to sleep  

And take a nap at seven so i’m not tempted to  watch this so i did that and i wake up around like   i woke up around like 9 00 10 p.m and i remember  just being relieved because i don’t think  

Instagram had the save your live feature at that  time so i knew it was going to be deleted and gone   but then i wake up and apparently they made the  update while i was sleeping and like oh you can  

Now save your instagram live i was like no way i  get on instagram and her life is the first thing   that i see and i’m like feeling just that pressure  again but even greater and i think it was the  

First time i heard the voice of god but something  i kept calling it the voice because i didn’t know   it was god at the time kept telling me to watch  her video and i was like no i don’t want to watch  

This video and then i felt something again tell  me to watch it and i’m like who am i talking to   i didn’t know who i was talking to i was just like  no i don’t want to watch it please i don’t want to  

Watch it so then eventually after wrestling i’m  like okay fine i’ll watch it and i go click the   video to watch it but like it kept freezing so i  told the voice i said hey i tried to watch it and  

It’s freezing so i’m gonna go back to sleep now  i did the obedient thing and then i went back to   sleep and then around like three a.m around three  a.m i felt a hand like squeeze my heart and i  

Jumped out of my bed and i thought i lied to you  now i thought i was either having a heart attack   or i thought i was dying or something i just  remember like laying in my bed going like this  

Trying to check for a pulse and i’m like my  heart was at this point beating out of my chest   and the only thing i kept hearing as i was awake  was go watch her video go watch her video and at  

This point i’m talking back i’m physically talking  back i’m like no no i’m not gonna watch the video   no you’re not gonna make me do it so i’m tossing  and turning and i forced myself to go back to  

Sleep thinking that i could sleep this thing away  part of me still thinking i’m crazy part of me not   sure if this is god or some thing up there in  the atmosphere but whatever it was i told it no  

And i eventually forced myself back to sleep and  then this was all on a sunday night breaking into   monday morning so then that monday morning i wake  up and i thought everything was gonna be peaceful  

I wake up and what felt like a hand at first on  my chest turned into an entire presence sitting   on my bed and at this point it’s like i couldn’t  see anything with my physical eyes but i’m like  

Someone is sitting here on this bed and  the only thing this person kept saying was   so are you gonna watch her video are you gonna go  watch her i’m like what is in this video that’s so  

That you whatever whoever you are you want me to  watch this video so bad and i i just remember um   my heart just kept feeling heavy and was pounding  so hard and i’m like okay if watching this video  

Will make you like leave me alone and let my  body go back to normal i will watch this video   so i watch the video and lo and behold she’s  just telling everything about her testimony  

About how she joined a sorority and how it was in  ignorance she realized it was not of the lord how   god had opened her eyes to the truth and a lot of  the spiritual things behind like the oaths and the  

Covenants and the history i remember in the end of  the video she says if any of you watching this are   in the sorority or fraternity and you you say you  love god but you are just ignorant she says the  

Lord is going to forgive you if you just repent  and walk away and right when she’s about to go   into the prayer i remember i cut off the video and  i cut off the video and i just i sat in my room in  

Silence for a long time and then the voice spoke  again and it was like so what are you gonna do   i was like what am i gonna do you just put all  this information in my face i’m in a sorority  

Right now you’re just you basically just  told me this thing i’m doing is not from you   what am i supposed to do i knew in my head i had  to leave but it was just a lot going on this is  

My first real encounter with god and god and it  wasn’t those like sweet testimonies or people like   you know jesus like swept in and took me off  my feet it was like jesus confronted me about  

This membership thing that i’m in and i thought i  knew jesus all along but i didn’t so um the whole   day i was like my hand was like this my whole  body was trembling because i’m like i just never  

Felt god this close this real before so um  immediately i texted two of my close um former   line sisters at the time and i said to them i said  hey guys what do you think what would you say if i  

Told you that um i was renouncing the organization  and educational piece to renounce the org means to   declare that you are no longer a member and  to not have anything to do with them anymore  

So i remember when i texted them in the group  chat i said to the lord i said all right god   this is when i started to think like i think this  is probably god now so um i said god depending  

On their response if they’re if they’re fine  with it i’ll take it as a sign from you that   this is you and that i will leave but if they’re  like what no way this is not god like what are you  

Doing i said that i’m just gonna brush this off as  best as i can i’m gonna stay and surprisingly the   first one who responded she was like valerie  i know you’ve been on this journey with god  

I know you’ve been trying to walk with the lord i  completely understand if you want to leave um like   i just hope that we can stay good friends i was  like wow okay cool the other one she responded she  

Didn’t want me to leave like me and her we were  good friends too but um she too was understanding   so i took that as a sign from god like all  right lord i guess this is what we should do  

The rest of that monday mind you this is all still  happening on one day this is now monday morning um   the rest of that day i was just racking my brain  on like still trying to fathom and understand and  

Comprehend what’s happening i’m like am i really  leaving this organization i spent a lot of money   i spent a lot of time i spent a lot of sacrifices  to be in this thing and one night of an encounter  

I was just ready to walk away but i’m like i  need to god you have to make this make sense   to me so i spent the day just seeking counsel i  wasn’t really well versed in scriptures i didn’t  

Really have spiritual leaders like that in my  life to reach out to for help but this just needs   to make sense to me lord so i reached out to um  one of my pro fights who was also in it and she  

Was also nigerian and she was also a christian  so i was like this is perfect because i knew if   anyone could help me make sense of this she would  understand but she was also in the organization so  

Ironically i went to church to meet with her  she was on the choir at her church and when   i told her this thing i was like yeah girl this  is the encounter i had this is what the lord is  

Showing me i think god is telling me i need to  leave because i have not had peace since that   encounter i had and i need i came to you to give  me counsel am i crazy am i out of my mind or like  

What do you have to say to me and as she begins  to speak and give justification all of a sudden   it was like i couldn’t hear her anymore and we  were sitting side by side i remember i looked and  

I’m like god why can’t i hear her and then like  the lord now starts speaking to my ear on this   side and he says don’t listen to her because  she’s been deceived too and i was just like  

Lord i i think i was just so i was so i don’t  even know the words i just remember being so   shocked because i’m like god you followed me here  you know i came here to get some counsel from  

This woman that helped me in the journey and you  followed me here you told me not to listen to her   so at that moment i knew all i had was god i was  like the lord is not allowing me to have peace  

From anyone’s counsel that’s telling me to stay  people were like valerie are you sure you’re not   overthinking are you sure like this are you sure  that i’m like i only have peace in what this voice  

Well now god is telling me to do so um and before  you move on from there uh this voice that you were   hearing was it an audible voice was it something  that was just in your in inside of you that you  

Couldn’t explain how were you hearing this voice  so it was it was more so inside that i couldn’t   explain it was so sharp internally though that it  could have been audible but if it was audible i   definitely probably would like jumped out and  like gone crazy but it was just such a sharp  

Voice on the inside that i knew it  couldn’t be me because i wanted to stay   but like the reasoning and justification and  the voice of the other was telling me just no   you cannot stay i’m calling you out i’m calling  you out and i’m like but why so i remember um  

After i left meeting with um the girl at church  i came home and i ran into my sister my younger   sister and i was telling her i said girl you won’t  believe what just happened to me today and this  

Is your actual sister yeah it is my actual my  blood sister so i’m telling her oh my god you   can’t you won’t believe what just happened so i’m  telling her what happened and she too she wasn’t  

Saved at the time but i learned that you have to  be cautious of the counsel that you get because   not all counsel that makes sense is from god and  my sister said something to me she was like maybe  

What you’re doing is just adopting the convictions  of someone else this probably isn’t even you   valerie you’re fine being in the organization you  were fine before you watched the video this is   just someone else’s conviction and for two seconds  i felt peace i was like you’re so right i was like  

Oh my god i’m so happy i love my sister like thank  you so much but then it came back it was like no   i was like wait why did why didn’t why  where’s the piece where’d the piece go  

And i knew god was saying that’s not it and that’s  not true so i remember um i went to my kitchen and   i’m just like pacing back and forth i’m like  you know what i’m not living like this anymore  

I’m gonna put an end to this today i was  like you know what fine i was like i’ll leave   i’ll leave that’s okay i’ll go but then i started  thinking in my mind i’m like what will i lose if  

I leave like okay god i spent all this money this  and that i’m basically trying to like outweigh the   the pros and the cons you know okay i’ll lose  friends i’ll lose this i’ll lose that okay but  

What do i have to gain and i’m just going back and  forth with myself in the kitchen trying to think   and then the holy spirit interrupts my thought  and says what do you have to lose and i started  

I stopped and i started thinking i’m like what do  i have to lose and it was like in that moment when   god asked me that question everything i thought  that was valuable in the organization and that  

Came with that lifestyle became nothing to me i  was like wow i have nothing to lose so all all of   a sudden this joy came on me because i thought out  what i was about to do was such a heavy and hard  

And difficult thing but when god asked me what do  i have to lose everything that seemed important   or that seemed to hold weight just be it was just  vapor you know just became nothing so it made it  

So much more easier for me to renounce so i went  back to instagram and i went back to the live that   the girl did and i went to go watch the prayer of  renunciation she said at the end and i remember i  

Went to the my mom’s basement to say i don’t know  why i went there actually but i just felt led to   go to my mom’s basement and i said the prayer and  odd enough when i finished the prayer i broke down  

Crying and i was like why am i crying so much but  then it started to cry as if like someone had died   like you ever grieved over a loved one or  something it’s like i’m crying and i’m crying  

And then what kept coming to my mind was like lord  i’m so sorry i remember i kept apologizing i kept   saying god i’m sorry i’m sorry and i didn’t really  know um what i was apologizing for at the time i  

Just knew like something in me knew what i was a  part of was not pleasing to god and i just kept   saying lord i’m sorry i’m sorry so after maybe i  was down there for like an hour saying i’m sorry  

Uncontrollably i got back on my feet and i felt  so light i felt so i felt free honestly i just   i don’t know what took place in the  moment of that prayer and that crying and  

Just the apologizing but i got up and i felt  free and then after that the rest of may   it might you again this all was in  one day this all happened on a monday   after um i finished crying i got it from my mom’s  basement and i just started planning how i was  

Gonna tell the rest of my former line sisters and  just whoever else was involved that yeah i’m not   in this anymore the lord is calling me out this is  not where he wants me to be he’s not pleased with  

Me in this so i’m just gonna leave that’s when the  lord started to open my eyes and dreams started   to happen and like at the time i was telling  people um when they would ask me they’re like  

Valerie why are you leaving why are you leaving  i’m like i’m leaving because god is telling me to   i really don’t have the scriptural language  and the spiritual knowledge to explain all   of this even with what the girl shared with me um  through her video i didn’t have like the capacity  

To understand the language and she thinks she was  using i just knew the conviction i knew the lord   was telling me leave but it was after you know i  surrendered and you know did what the lord wanted  

Me to do that’s when um i guess he saw fit to  start teaching me and showing me like this is   what i was saving you from and this is what you  were part of so after i had renounced and told  

My former line sisters and all parties involved  that i was leaving that’s when the the growth   and the revelation started to just pour in like  a flood so that’s kind of how that process went  

Yeah talk to us a little bit about that of your  life after jesus right how did jesus come into   your life begin to impact your life it was rough  at first because i was also facing now backlash  

From leaving people who were saying like oh  we’re sisters for life and we’ll be down forever   and blah blah blah because i made a decision to  forsake the old and go follow christ there was   like some people were calling my phone or like  texting my phone like cussing me out and stuff  

And i’m like all i had was jesus now i’m looking  at him like jesus you you were the one that told   me to do this and now i’m you know experiencing  all this backlash i need you now more than ever to  

Be your friend that sticks closer than a brother  because i didn’t have anyone most of the friends   that i had came through or the connections or  whatever i had came through my association with   the organization so in that moment jesus more so  introduced himself to me as first my deliverer but  

Then also my friend because i didn’t have anyone  else to be my friend at that time i didn’t have   anyone else to really explain this to and talk  this through with so um that’s definitely how  

Jesus kind of started off with me and then when  it now came into like the space of revelation   and just opening my eyes to things i started to  dream a lot more and a lot of my dreams were um  

Basically guys showing me the spiritual aspect of  what i was doing and what was going on so i would   have dreams of myself pledging and things um there  would be moments not in the dream but in real life  

When we were going through our pledge process  where we had to do this like armed gesture with   our arms like kind of locked up like this and i  remember i had god had gave me a dream after um  

I had left where in this dream i see some girl  who looks like me but her skin had looked like   she’d been set on fire all of her look like  she had just been like burned in flames but  

In the dream she’s going and holding her arms  like this and then on the other side there’s um   three women who look like prophytes who again  are the big sisters in the organization they   too their skin were like set up on fire and they  were burned and in this dream they were yelling  

At the one whose arms were like this and it was  representative of um kind of what would happen   during our pledge process because in reality we  would you know have our arms like this and then  

Some there will be nights where our pro fights or  big sisters or whatever would be yelling at us and   it would be chaos and craziness and confusion  all like in the dark so one thing god showed  

Me through that dream was like this stuff that you  were doing it had spiritual implications it wasn’t   just um you know what for fun thing that you see  on tv this thing is real life in the spirit realm  

So that was definitely one of the revelations that  god showed me that it kind of calmed me down and   made me not feel so crazy because i would think  about um just the different people who also claim  

Christ that are in these organizations and how  they justify it and say it’s okay and i’m like   well lord then what is it about me so then when  god started to show me dreams and start leading me  

In scripture i said okay it just was a test of how  much do i believe in the word of the lord versus   other people’s opinions and the opinions of man  so once that started to come in i felt more i felt  

More closer to god honestly because it’s like he’s  sharing with me his heart he’s sharing with me his   mind and his opinion and when he would share these  things it made sense as to why i cried so hard  

When i said the repentance prayer because when  the lord started showing me um scriptures in like   ezekiel and jeremiah about how israel dabbled in  idolatry and how they went to serve other gods and   one thing god highlighted to me was his response  you know he would tell israel you know i before  

Like i formed you in your mother’s womb before  i knew you i did all these things for you i took   care of you i saw you laying about in blood and i  said live and just all these things where god did  

For people who didn’t really care for him and went  to go serve other gods but he’s like all i wanted   was to be your only god so when i think about  um just life in this sorority that’s why i cried  

Because i finally understood like god was saying  to me like valerie i wanted to be your only god i   didn’t want you to go find gods in organizations  and sororities and fraternities i am your all  

In all so it was in those moments through the  revelation of what god would show me after that   i just felt more closer to him i felt more like  in his heart so yeah that’s kind of how that went  

Yeah valerie as now you begin to walk with  jesus how did that affect your relationship   with your parents i know you said that uh  um you guys were go to church but it wasn’t   you kind of just knew of jesus but you didn’t  really know him so as they begin to see  

Uh you know their daughter essentially walk in  this different way and and now you’re obviously   receiving all this revelation that may they may or  may not know how did that affect your relationship   with your parents and what did they think about  everything that was happening it helped with my  

Relationship with my mom because having the heart  of christ helped me to see her as just another   human being who had you know her own issues and  things growing up sometimes i used to have this   like animosity towards her and towards my dad  just because of you know parenting things but  

After you know coming to christ it made  me more patient with her i was more   understanding i tried my best to be loving  regardless of her flaws and shortcomings   and in that god was actually really great and he  started to mend our relationship more so my mom  

Than with my dad my dad wasn’t really with us for  most of the time growing up but really with my mom   it’s like she would see the way i would behave she  would ask me where are you going and every time  

She asked me i was either going to like church  or a bible study or a worship concert and she   i guess she didn’t really understand why all of  a sudden i was doing this but she wasn’t against  

It she and i really think this was the lord  because um she allowed me to she rarely ever   questioned me when it came to these things even  when i would come home late from revival nights  

And stuff she would ask me every now and then like  you’re not going to the club or you’re not going   to a party i’m like no man i’m not going to any  of that so even with coming home late she never  

I honestly think it was just the lord  just breathing on our relationship because   it made it so much easier from as compared  to before christ like we used to fight a lot   we used to yell at each other and i was really  dishonorable towards her even though i said  

Earlier i wasn’t a rebellious child which i wasn’t  for the most part but i didn’t honor my mom as i   should have and the way i do now so um coming  across really helped my relationship with her  

My dad on the other hand because he wasn’t as  present growing up he didn’t really get to see   a lot of me in the flesh walking again with the  lord but more so virtually or digitally like   he we’re friends on facebook we’ll talk on  facebook or um we’ll talk on whatsapp and things  

And i’ll send him scriptures to encourage him but  i know he noticed a change because before when   i would call him i would just always yell at him  for his shortcomings and you did this and you were  

Never there and blah blah just all this stuff and  now it’s like now having the heart of god for him   it’s like you know i’m praying for you i  understand you tried i understand you know   this and that but even right now with  him i’m believing for his salvation but  

What god has taught me about spiritual things  i can see the hindrances and the ungodly things   that’s been kind of navigating his life and how  he was just a victim of circumstance not really   someone that had a free will but more so you  know the enemy doing what the enemy does so  

Yeah valerie who is jesus to you jesus is truly  my savior like the true definition of save your   saving me from myself saving me from the curse  of the law saving me from not just hell but just  

He saves me he saved me and he continues to  save me like i wish i could put more words   to how i feel it but jesus is truly my savior  when you see a lot of things around you that  

Should have swallowed you up and should have  taken your life it’s like whoa jesus you are my   savior even dating back to um my naming  ceremony situation jesus you were my   savior like i wasn’t i didn’t have to be named  in the living room on some you know apartment but  

You saved me and you gave me just he’s just  my savior so yeah for anybody that’s watching   your testimony valerie who are currently in  that battle that you were at some point of   they were in a sorority and now some things are  starting to shift if they feel there’s conviction  

What can you say to um to those people watching if  there’s one thing i could say i would encourage i   would encourage them to follow the voice of truth  um the there’s many voices that try that tried to  

Counsel me this way tried to counsel me that way  even me of myself but it was the voice of truth   the holy spirit that led me in the direction that  i should that i was supposed to go and he gave  

Me peace about it so not to worry about you know  what you’re going to lose or what are people going   to say or you know what family line you come from  like oh your mom was one your dad was one and all  

These people but just following the holy spirit  who guides us into all truth and also gives us   peace for our obedience so that’s what i’ll leave  them with now valerie for people who know people   who are in a sorority and maybe those friends  don’t know about the darkness behind this life  

To those friends who are worried for their friends  and who are watching your testimony right now   what can you what is the word of encouragement or  word of advice that you can give to those friends  

I would tell them to pray prayer works prayer  works prayer works um little did i know it was   actually someone praying for me that led to that  whole encounter i didn’t know until after but   i would encourage them to pray for god to open  their eyes pray just become the intercessor on  

Their behalf and um the lord will answer the  lord will honor those prayers and you’ll start   to see a shift in your friend’s heart about  you know their membership in that organization   yeah any last words last thing i just want to  mention is the things of this earth are very  

Temporary nothing all the glory that’s on this  earth that is promised to us and the beauty of   things it’s very vain and it’s very temporary  the only things that matter are the things of   the kingdom of heaven which are eternal so that’s  where all of our efforts should be put towards you

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